my old life

Chapter 506 Plan ahead
After returning to the hotel and arranging everyone, I went out alone, took a taxi and went directly to pick up Shiliu.

On the way, I kept thinking about what to do in the future, how to consolidate my position as a gangster, and how to become an irreplaceable existence for others.

The fat man has a softer mind and more scheming than me, the fox has more social experience and experience than me, Su Yurong is calmer and more skilled than me, and I know that my presence in this team is getting lower and lower.

After thinking hard for a long time, I couldn't think of a way to consolidate my status. I am still too young and lack the experience and social experience brought by time.

I know that I can't maintain the current relationship by relying on favors and feelings. This old group may fall apart at any time, just like what Su Yurong said to me...will leave at any time.

Everyone will have their own pursuits and lives, and there is no need for everyone to gather around me and follow me through the muddy waters. Facing a difficult problem like the AOB Group is far less simple than they go to the gambling table to play two hands.

But now I can't do without the people around me. I can't set people up by myself. What should I do?
Unknowingly, I came to the destination, but now I can't relax my mood. It's like a heavy rock is pressing on my heart, and I can't breathe because of the depression.

I think of the stones around Shiliu. I am like a screw that brings everyone together. It is because of me that they stand on the same front. But how can this relationship be maintained?
Although there is no rift in the relationship now, my second uncle often said that we should plan ahead in life, and it is always easier to find a problem and solve it in advance than when we face it.

While meditating repeatedly, he suddenly found a figure in front of him, white sneakers, light-colored jeans, and a white down jacket set off an elegant temperament.

"Sanming, you are different today." Sixteen looked at me calmly, and I smiled and said, "Sorry, I forgot to bring my skateboard tonight, next time..."

"No, you have something on your mind, can you tell me?" She could tell at a glance that I had something on my mind, but I couldn't tell her.

"It's... nothing, I'll take you home."

I walked side by side with her on the road, the same ice and snow at the same night, but with a completely different state of mind, even if I faced the same person, I couldn't relax.

Because I don't know how to gather my old group, my second uncle told me to be a northern eagle and gather everyone around me.

But I can't find a way to cohere, I don't even know how to win people's hearts, fat fox and Su Yurong, we are too familiar with each other!
I don't have the slutty character of my second uncle, let alone his exaggerating power. I am very aware of the gap between myself and him. This gap makes me feel a strong sense of frustration.

Walking step by step on the empty street, my heart was more flustered than ever before, and the inner hesitation and struggle had already made me almost collapse, and I couldn't find the next way out...

"Sanming, look at the stars tonight are very bright."

"Ah."

"Don't you have anything to say to me? This is not what Mr. Xiong Sanming should be..."

"I... I'll take you home."

"Are you in trouble?"

Facing her question, I don't know how to answer. At this moment, all I can do is take out a cigarette and light it, and use smoking to cover up the panic in my heart.

I have a very bad premonition in my heart, this screw of mine is about to break...

My second uncle once said that it is a big deal for a man to start all over again, but how can I start all over again?How can I fulfill my long-cherished wish and promise with my own strength?How to make yourself strong enough to face the world independently?

I don't know why this night was extraordinarily cold, I tightened my windbreaker and smoked a cigarette, the smoke I exhaled passed across my face with a trace of heat, I could feel the temperature in my chest.

But this temperature is slowly getting colder, slowly being melted by the cold wind, this feeling makes me almost go crazy, but I can't grasp the lost temperature.

"I've never seen you so preoccupied before..."

Suddenly she took my hand, and my heart trembled at the moment of holding hands, she didn't say anything, just accompanied me in her way.

The moon and stars are scarce, and I can feel the temperature of her palm on this silent night, warming my heart bit by bit.

A distance is about to be covered in a blink of an eye, and my palms are full of warmth. At this moment, I feel sorry for her and feel that I am useless.

A dignified man is melancholy in front of a girl. She originally wanted to be protected. She was originally full of expectation and firmness in her heart, but now what I bring to her is cold-hearted and helpless.

"Sanming, give up, there are some things you can't change." She looked up at the night sky and spoke calmly, but my heart was not calm.

"No, you misunderstood." Why didn't I understand what she meant, but I couldn't talk to her about my doubts, because some things were destined to be borne by myself.

"I can understand your mind. Although you didn't tell me, I know you are in trouble."

"It's not too much trouble, it's just that I can't find my place in life, and I'll be fine in the past... Men are always hypocritical and melancholy."

I deliberately bluffed, but she is too smart!I don't know if I can hide it.

"It's not that simple. I understand your character. Sometimes you can fool others, but you can never fool yourself." She looked at me calmly, her eyes seemed to be able to see through my heart.

"I'm really fine, I'm just a little nervous tonight." I tried my best to hide myself. At this moment, I regretted that I shouldn't come to her with a depressed mood.

She has become more mature after experiencing the accident of AOB, her eyes seem to be able to see through the world, and I can't hide myself in front of her.

"Sanming, you are different from others...you are really different from others." After she finished speaking, she stretched out her arms and hugged me. This hug made my heart skip a beat!
Such a close contact made me feel inexplicably warm, and all the thoughts in my heart disappeared instantly. Just a hug can melt my heart and let me see myself clearly.

what's wrong with me?I'm so weak that I want a girl to comfort me?I actually need girls to worry about me?

"Hehe... You were fooled! Actually, I did it on purpose..." I hugged her even harder, and the reversal of my sentence caught her off guard.

No matter what, I didn't let go, just hugged her tightly like this, but I could see the disappointment in her eyes that was too late to hide, her eyes deeply stimulated me!

I understand a word, if you didn't make enough determination and preparation, why did you break into her heart so easily?Why let her see hope again?

"Let go quickly, or I'm going to get angry!" She said coquettishly, and I slowly let go.

Although I feel like a bastard taking advantage, I feel much calmer in my heart, because girls can always make men stronger and fearless.

"I don't know why, every time I see you, it makes me stronger." I said with a smile, and she smiled softly.

The second uncle said before that women are the driving force for men to move forward, and men are persistent, as long as they are for the love and hope in their hearts, they will go forward bravely.

"Okay, let's take you here, I should go back..." In fact, I felt a little embarrassed in my heart.

"Don't worry, can you tell me what's on your mind? I think I can help you."

"No, it's cold outside, you should go back early and rest."

"It's okay, Mr. Xiong Sanming can come to my house for a glass of water today!"

"This one……"

I was at a loss for a while, holding hands and hugging before going to drink a glass of water, could I be lucky tonight?But I don't have that thought at all...

"Let's go, just drink a glass of water, why are you blushing?"

"Haha, why am I blushing?"

Sixteen's words made my face burn. It was true that I was thinking too much just now, but I would think too much about this kind of thing on anyone!

Lonely men and widows go to drink a glass of water in the dead of night, God knows what will happen!Before I knew it, a small flame started to burn in my heart, and I couldn't even suppress it!

"Then why don't you leave? Are you worried about something?" She looked at me meaningfully, with a hint of slyness in her eyes.

"No, no, I just don't think it's appropriate to be so late... After all, you're a girl..."

As I was talking, my heart was already agitated. I went upstairs to drink a glass of water in the middle of the night, and any fool knew what it meant...

(End of this chapter)