my old life

Chapter 523 Unspeakable Promise

Smoking a cigarette and quietly watching the chaos downstairs in the hospital, I was only worried about my second uncle's situation tonight.

Although I know that he can defuse danger calmly, although I know that he is omnipotent, I am still full of worries.

"You boy, you won't be able to get along in Shencheng in the future..." Black Snake said coldly, with a cigarette in her hand, her expression was indifferent.

The cold breath on her body came from the bottom of her heart, as if she never laughed, as if all her tenderness was reserved for the second uncle alone.

"I don't care, I'm just worried about my second uncle."

"It's useless to worry. He's not as ruthless as you imagined. He has done far more for you than you know."

Black Snake obviously meant something, and I also knew that my second uncle must have done a lot of things secretly for me. Although I don't know now, I will understand one day.

I didn't continue to ask, I can understand the second uncle's feelings for me, he is the real hero, compared to me, I am just a bear.

I have never hated myself and my youth so much as I do now!I want to get enough experience and social experience. I want to grow up as soon as possible and take up my responsibilities as soon as possible.

But time always goes on like this without rush or slow, never stops and is always so ruthless. Some people hate that time goes by too fast, and some people regret that time goes by too slowly.

Different states of mind have different pursuits, and different states of mind determine different ways of looking at things. I can understand this truth but I am still confused.

All the past flashed before my eyes, I don't remember how I got to the present, and I don't know what I will face next... But I just want to become stronger!
I hate my incompetence, it's a hatred from the bottom of my heart!Hate yourself for not being able to change everything, hate yourself for not being able to fulfill your promises and destiny.

On this cold and ruthless night, my thoughts flew far away. I don't miss the current youth. I just want to grow up and become mature as soon as possible. Everyone is tense!

Because I know that only such an environment can make me grow faster, and only adversity can forge and hone a person!

Growth is not just a manifestation of how much money you make, but the sublimation of your heart and the maturity of your mind. Real maturity is not so simple in terms of how you handle things and control your own abilities. You must always consider the overall situation.

I want to be a person like Second Uncle, he is not the most powerful nor the most ruthless existence, but he is the person who can take the overall situation into consideration!

Even though growing up will experience a lot of pain and helplessness, I desperately want to be a man like him!
If God can hear my appeal, please let me become stronger as soon as possible. I am willing to give everything for it, but I don't want to hurt my second uncle...

In the early morning, Black Snake and I returned to the hotel. The fat man and the fox in the hotel room were waiting, and when they saw me, they immediately surrounded me.

But I waved my hand without any intention of talking, now I just want to rest alone, and I don't want anyone to see my fragility.

I think they should know what happened tonight, but I'm not happy at all now, I look like a hero on the surface, but only I know in my heart that I'm just a bear.

If there is no second uncle to help me out, then I am nothing. If I want to help Shiliu with my own strength, it is tantamount to nonsense.

This sense of psychological loss deeply hurt my heart. The reality of society is so helpless. No one can solve all the troubles in one step, and all the pains have to be chewed over and over again.

The second uncle said that chewing pain is the only way for a man to mature, even if the taste is hard, I don't want others to see it.

"Forget it, it looks like he's tired, let's go first." The fat man beckoned the fox to leave together, and gave me a separate space.

He took out a cigarette and lit it, looking at the night of Shencheng outside the window, never felt that the night here is so beautiful.

This is my hometown, where I have all my friends and joys, as well as my youth.

But tonight my second uncle made it clear that he would take me out to avoid the limelight. I thought leaving would be a very easy thing, but I didn't expect it to be so reluctant.

Leaving by oneself and being forced to leave are not a feeling at all, nor are they a concept at all!I'm like a loser, I haven't fulfilled my destiny and commitment, so I'm not reconciled to leaving like this.

All the unwillingness turned into the pain in my heart, tormenting my heart again and again, thinking of Su Yurong's Taekwondo gym, thinking of Shiliu's loneliness and helplessness, my heart is extremely complicated.

I can't let go of everything here, and I can't let go of my former friends, and I can't let go of my snow-covered hometown...

The end of the year is getting closer and closer, but I have to leave, even though the time is not long, I miss a lot of things that should be done.

Haven't had time to express the love in my heart, haven't had time to avenge the fox, and there are too many unfinished things, are you going to leave like this?

The deserted snowflakes kept falling, and I didn't know how much I smoked when I stood in front of the window. The warm room couldn't change the coldness in my heart.

At this moment, I understood that the promises made in life cannot be fulfilled one by one. Everyone must have tasted this kind of self-blame and guilt. Once I think about it, it will only make people sad.

Suddenly the phone rang, and I immediately took it out to see that it was from Shiliu... I answered the phone calmly.

"Sanming, are you asleep?"

"not yet."

"Thank you for tonight's matter, and I also thank you on behalf of the Chen family."

"It's okay, what I can do is limited, I just don't want to see you sad."

There was silence on the phone for a while.

I also spoke the truth. I can’t tell whether it’s worth it or not, and there’s no success or failure. Everything doesn’t matter now...

"I thank you anyway, but your method is really effective, Brother Hui told me everything."

"Oh? Where is he now?" I immediately became alarmed because I hadn't kept my promise.

"I have already paid all the money. The Chen family should pay the money, and the Chen family owes you once."

"This..." I didn't know how to answer, sixteen to one Chen's family, it sounded a bit awkward for some reason.

"The Chen family still has something to do with it. Everyone will be fine tonight. Don't worry, someone has already taken care of it."

"Thank you." I thanked from the bottom of my heart and breathed a sigh of relief.

The phone fell silent again, neither of them knew what to say, but they could hear each other's breathing through the phone.

"I said before, you don't need to say thank you to me, have you forgotten?" Sixteen's words brought back my memories.

At that time, I was still a poor and foolish boy, and it was Shiliu who helped me time and time again, and it was also at that time that I buried a trace of affection in my heart.

"It's okay, are you still asleep?"

I don't know how to say to leave, I don't know what she will think of me, she doesn't know the news that I'm leaving, and she doesn't know how to face me in the future.

Both can understand each other's mind, but the original simple sentence can't be said.

"No." She said relaxedly, and then there was silence between the two of them.

At this moment, everything that should be said to each other is blocked, I can't say it, she won't take the initiative to say it, the waiting time is like giving me a chance, giving me a chance to confess.

But I can't say it anyway, because I can't tell her what I'm leaving, I can't fulfill my promises and guarantees, and I can't be by her side.

The feeling at this moment is like facing Seventeen before, the difference is that last time it was helpless, this time it was forced, it made people feel so heavy.

"Ahem, it's cold and Sanming, you have to pay attention to your body. If I have time tomorrow, can I treat you to dinner?" She broke the silence. I know she gave me time and room to think, but I really don't know how to face it she.

I also know that my silence has hurt her, and I hope my hesitation will not misunderstand her, although I also know that the hope is very slim...

"No, I may have important things to do tomorrow, or I may leave Shencheng for a while..."

"It's okay." She obviously didn't understand what I said.

"Maybe it won't be too long, maybe I will come back soon, but I don't know..." I still can't say what I don't want, and I can't make a promise for the future.

Even if I can have sixteen with just one confession now, I really can't do it...

(End of this chapter)