my old life

Chapter 763

I don't know if the gesture just now is dumb or similar to the special gesture between me and my second uncle, but I can't understand this gesture, which is dangerous for me!

I clearly know that this guy A Xiao is a master of the rivers and lakes, he was beaten so badly without making a sound, including hiding in the garbage dump with such a strong psychological quality, this matter is getting more and more difficult to handle now...

I have only the soldier dumb and A Xiao next to me, no matter how you look at it, it is evenly matched. My second uncle used to say that there is no doubt about employing people, but this time I have no choice...but I have confidence in myself!

My capital is my technique and thousands of skills, every friend I have made, the principles of life that my second uncle taught me, and all the hardships I have experienced!I can't believe that these things are all worthless!
No matter how strong a person is, he will always have his weaknesses. It is impossible to cover everything. At this moment, I feel like a blind man touches the elephant. All I have come into contact with are the fields that dumb people are good at, and I have fallen into the cage of myself unconsciously...

I took out a cigarette and lit it, and I decided to start changing everything!The second uncle said that in life and doing things, instead of passively being led by the nose to think of countermeasures, it is better to completely release yourself to reverse the situation!

Simply pack up and go to Sioux City. Night is the best protective color, but I can't wait for night to fall.

Da Bing and A Xiao were in charge of driving. It was nearly a thousand kilometers from Shannan to Sioux City. It was estimated that it would be exactly midnight when we arrived in Sioux City, so it was convenient to find a hotel to hide.

Walking out of the small hotel, the ground was covered with firecracker debris, and the shops on both sides of the street were already open for business. Although it was only a few days ago, it made me feel like a lifetime away...

The car got on the high speed and ran all the way, and the mute and I leaned on the back seat of the car and closed our eyes to rest, but when I closed my eyes, I could see several different Xiong Sanming, and I could feel that they were forcing me to make a choice...

etc!This feeling is very weird, really like being possessed by an evil spirit!I don't know if it's by chance or by necessity, but I feel like I've been hooked...

When I think of hooks, my heart skips a beat!Woke up instantly!Even if the mute doesn't know the relationship between me and my second uncle, he can easily guess the kindness that my second uncle has for me, and he can even guess how he raised me since I was a child!
If a sentence of life perception and advice becomes a hook in silence, it is undoubtedly terrifying!I am what I am now, all personalities can coexist in the body, it is impossible for a person to have only one personality!

In a cold and heartless society, if you want to survive, you must be cold and heartless!When facing friends and loved ones, simplicity and kindness are essential!When doing things in the gambling game, greed and obsession are my best helpers!

No one can use a single quality to face this society. If there is one, it is integrity, but I don’t have any good feelings for the word integrity. I know that integrity is just a means for people to flaunt themselves... Could it be that I have been hooked?
After I calmed down, I felt something was wrong. Ever since I met the mute, he was a mysterious existence. What he wrote to me was very mysterious, and almost everyone can apply it to his own world!
Although he has given me a lot of help like Second Uncle, there is an essential difference between him and Second Uncle, that is, Second Uncle will never trick me into harming me, let alone have plots for my interests!
On the contrary, for the first time, he made it clear that he wanted to use me for revenge, which dispelled my vigilance against him. If you think about it carefully, isn't this just the opposite?
I touched the mute's arm and took out a cigarette and handed it over. He took the cigarette but didn't light it. I took the initiative to move the lighter over.

"Smoking a cigarette to refresh yourself." I couldn't help but say that I lit the cigarette for him, but he could understand what I wanted to do.

I took a puff of the cigarette and flicked it quickly, silently but he could understand it. The question was very simple. I asked him what he had experienced before and how he faced the problem of being burdened by family affection!

I think he must have experienced an unusual life to get this insight into life!Experienced life must have his own solution!This method may solve the doubts in my heart!

The mute was silent, and the cigarette in his hand was burning quietly. I knew he didn't want to answer this question, but I had to ask again!Even if what I get is a lie, I will admit it!

Instead of trying to deal with it passively, it is really better to let go and give it a go. How can you easily admit defeat without trying?How do you know he must be better than me if you haven't tried it?

I gave him a code again, or repeat my question last time, I want to know how he will choose, after all, everyone has different experiences and can see different worlds!
In fact, what I want to know most is what is the meaning of the sentence he said to me that family affection is stronger than tigers. This sentence is like a hook, buried in my heart and constantly haunting.

After a moment of silence, the mute flicked his cigarette quickly to respond to a code. I interpreted it word by word, but when I connected them together, I broke out in a cold sweat instantly!
"Tiger poison is not as poisonous as the human heart. It is not enough to kill all family members."

The mute gave me such a sentence, I no longer need to ask him about his past, and I don’t need to ask him how to deal with family problems, because everything is contained in these two sentences!

This is his perception and experience of life, and it is also the choice he made in the end. Who in a normal person would have such extreme thoughts?But I was infected by his extreme thoughts, and unknowingly went to the extreme of self-selection!
What he has experienced must be a heart that is more vicious than a tiger, and the realization he has gained is that it is not enough to kill all family ties. He no longer believes in this world, and no one is worthy of his love... But I am different from him!
I have my own loved ones, I have my own goals and dreams, as the saying goes, the poison of a tiger does not eat its child, but I have experienced people who are more vicious than a tiger, but it is far from the realm where killing all family affection is not enough!
Maybe one day in the future I will experience the betrayal of my friends, maybe I will be burdened by my family and give up my life, but there are always people around me who are worthy of my protection and love, people should not be too selfish to live for themselves!

In a narrow sense, I am a strong shield, able to shield the people I love and cherish from the wind and snow, and prop up an absolutely safe harbor, and that is enough!

From the side, I also understand the dumb, one sentence can prove his current state of mind, and let me understand his inner thoughts. He and I are always not the same kind of people!

At this moment, my heart was more peaceful than ever, and the sky outside the car window became clearer than ever. Under the sun, I seemed to have experienced a rebirth, overcoming all the ups and downs and tribulations in my heart, and I will never be confused by these problems again!

I firmly believe in a truth, a man must be principled and responsible, and I will treat people who are good to me. This is a simple truth that cannot be simpler!

If you block all your emotions because you are afraid of being hurt, you will only close yourself in a dark and small space, and you will reject many, many people invisibly, and you will also hurt those who are worthy of love around you!

The second uncle once said the golden mean, and also said that gains and losses and good and bad are interdependent. In my opinion, there is no bad luck as a foreshadowing, so how to make good luck soar?
Applied to the dumb problem now, he gave me too much darkness and lows, but I am who I am, and I firmly believe that I am right!
After thinking about everything, I feel good, even the cigarettes become easier to drink, looking sideways at the warm sunshine outside the window, letting myself wander in the golden ocean, all the good things in the past flashed before my eyes.

I don't know how Shiliu is doing now, I really want to call her, but I know that I still have a lot of unfinished business, and I must not be bound by my emotions!

If she is in a difficult situation now, it will imperceptibly make me feel concerned. My second uncle said that once people have concerns in their hearts, they will become hesitant. It is the biggest taboo when doing things!

At this moment, I can only recall all the good times in my heart, recall the vague feelings, and seep into my heart bit by bit, like a clear spring washing my heart.

Time slapped in the face, watching the bright sky become dark, and the setting sun set to paint the clouds on the horizon, I knew that night was about to cover this land.

The heroism of the sunset reminded me a lot, especially the lonely and difficult time on the gambling boat. Everything made me stronger!

The night filled the sky, the last ray of light disappeared, and the lights lit up this dark world, like every dark night, I can breathe freely in the dark night.

I think I am a person in the dark, the night gave me a pair of black eyes, but I use them to find the light...

(End of this chapter)