Qing Palace Dream Like Smoke·Moyu

Chapter 219

Who will be willing?But, not reconciled... so what?Do you know that the news you kindly conveyed is like a bloody and sharp knife, tearing open the painful entanglement and sadness like a tumor and abscess that I can't face.

Originally... I just wanted to survive in such an ignorant and ignorant way, with no thoughts or thoughts, no matter if I was a corpse, or a walking corpse, just like this... living, but I can't. , Never forget.

Maybe... Sure enough... It would be a happier thing to die. You don't have to endure suffering, and you don't have to involve others, Fulca, Shisan... and Hua Cheng... don't have to worry about it every day...

Why... why am I still alive?What are you yearning for?
The pain that had been suppressed for a long time broke through the confinement and instantly occupied her whole heart and body. The peace she had had during this period of time was suddenly broken. Her body trembled, her hands touched her face, and tears poured out. Sobbing: "What should I do?"

Her shoulders were pinched so painfully, she raised her head, and Fourteen turned her body to face him.

There seemed to be two flames burning in his eyes, and he gritted his teeth and said, "What are you thinking? What should we do? Live!!"

"To live, to suffer?" Mo Yu looked at him with tears in his eyes.

Fourteen sneered and said, "Do you think you are suffering alone? You know what I have been like since I was a child. Isn't a useless and meaningless person like me living a good life? It's just a little flesh and blood. Isn’t it more unbearable than heartache? Haven’t you already figured it out? Since you are not afraid of death, why are you afraid of living?”

"You don't understand." Mo Yu shook his head lightly, it wasn't physical pain, but the entanglement and sadness in his heart, he just felt that he was hurting everyone by being alive.

"I don't understand?" Fourteen looked at her coldly, "You think you're free after you die... You don't want to be sad, you just want to run away, and let us blame ourselves? Why... always like this?" He There was pain in his eyes.

Mo Yu's heart trembled, she looked at him in a daze, didn't she?Haven't thought about it myself?What will happen to them... But, "It's just time..." After a long time, no matter how deep the wound is, it will heal, and no matter how painful it is, it will be forgotten.

"Hmph, you've always been like this, wishful thinking that what you do is good for everyone, that's just your wishful thinking. Do you think it's so easy to forget? If so... I know you... I still Can't stop thinking, can you be more hopeless than me?...Hmph, don't say anything." He suddenly turned his head to the side in agitation.

Did he know all along?But I insisted on it again and again, and still treated myself as I did when I was young... Sure enough, I am really selfish. I just want to escape because I am afraid of pain?Am I really thinking wrong?
"Your life is your own. It has nothing to do with fourth brother, me, or anyone else. Only by living can there be hope, right?" Turning around again, his voice has never been so gentle before, "You live well , I... we can rest assured, have you never thought about it?" He jokingly smiled, "I'm still waiting to take you back to my house. You see, you didn't implicate me, you are alive, I just have some hope."

There were still tears in Mo Yu's eyes, but she was amused by his words.

"So I think he...they are the same..." Fourteen's dark eyes looked at her deeply, but there was a hint of bitterness in his smile, "It's all over...don't think so, after all these years... How can you break up easily?" How could you break up with me so easily?

It seemed as if I heard that sentence again... "Wait for me... don't even think about running away."

(End of this chapter)