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Chapter 12 I Still Like You

I became Li Yaofan's niece inexplicably in the hotel, and A Ke and Xibei, two simple children, believed in this, which really broke me.

But what was even more exaggerated was Li Yaofan, this guy was so good that he acted like a good boy, instead of helping me out, he even watched me embarrassingly with great interest.

"Is there any mistake? It turns out that you are younger than me. Why do you want to grab a man from me? I want to tell Brother Ghost Saber, you are the little girl!" After Xibei finished speaking, she snorted disdainfully. left.

A Ke hurriedly followed, and before leaving, she still looked back at me and shook her head helplessly.

As soon as they left, the manager on duty obviously couldn't stay any longer, and said with an apologetic smile, "I'm sorry, Mr. Li, I didn't expect your niece to be so old. I'm sorry to disturb you. I'll go first."

Looking at the back of the security guard leaving quickly, it was the first time that I realized so profoundly what it means to be "dumb eating Coptis chinensis—you can't tell if you are suffering".
"Aren't you going to leave too, niece?" Li Yaofan's slightly smiling voice pulled me back from the brink of collapse to the cruel reality.

I turned around and threatened with a murderous look: "If you dare to say these three words again, I will die with you."

"Okay." He shrugged, "I'll just leave it alone, niece."

"You!" I really wanted to strangle him to death, but because of murder and breaking the law, I resisted it alive, gritted my teeth, and choked out a few words, "Forget you, let's wait and see!" Finished, turned and left.

"Just leave like this, are you willing?" He asked without losing the opportunity.

My heart skipped a beat, and my steps stopped.

What he said is right, I spent so much time chasing here, just to get rid of the unwillingness in my heart, now the opportunity is in front of me, it would be a pity if I just give up like this.

Just when I was hesitating, he added another sentence: "The door is open, it's up to you whether you come in or not."

I finally couldn't stand the temptation, turned around and followed in.

Maybe it's because he just put me on the table, which put Mr. Li in a good mood. Anyway, he looks very different today. Not only is he not as cold as before, but he also asked me what I want to drink.

This made me immediately feel a sense of crisis of "the weasel gives the chicken New Year's greetings", and I refused decisively: "No, I can just pour some water myself." After speaking, I reached for the cup on the coffee table.

Almost at the same time, he also stretched out his hand.

The moment my hands touched, I reflexively wanted to retract, but he held it firmly.

He was very strong, and his eyes rested on my face unscrupulously, which made me panic for a while, and I hurriedly pulled my hand out of his hand with all my strength, and sat down on the sofa behind me.

"Are you crazy? What's wrong with you at night!" I scolded him while rubbing my hands, because I was so excited, I couldn't help coughing twice.

The sofa beside him suddenly sank, he sat down beside me, and handed a glass of poured water in front of me.

The surroundings suddenly became very quiet, and I felt a little stiff. I stared at the water glass for a long time, hesitating whether to pick it up or not.Answer it, it always feels like showing weakness; if you don't answer it, you are afraid that the atmosphere will be too stiff and it will be difficult to speak.

In order to fulfill the purpose of coming here, I finally chose to compromise, reached out to take the water glass, took off the mask, and took a sip.

The warm water, like nectar, slipped through my throat, instantly making me feel a lot more comfortable. At the same time, the nervous mood just now was relieved a little.

I took another sip of water and felt that the time was ripe, so I raised my head and pretended to be calm and asked, "I heard Xibei keep calling you brother just now, when did you get a younger sister?"

"Are you jealous?" He answered me inexplicably.

I didn't swallow a mouthful of water and choked.

"Are you...cough cough...are you kidding...cough cough cough...who is jealous...cough cough...cough cough..." The more I said it, the more I felt uncomfortable, almost coughing out my lungs.

Suddenly, Li Yaofan stretched out his hand and gently patted my back.

I froze suddenly, and looked up at him blankly.

His eyes suddenly became extremely gentle at that moment, his sword-browed star pupils shone brightly under the light of the crystal lamp, the soft shadow of the lamp dilutes the usual aggressive aura, his smile is as sweet as a pool of clear spring, which makes people drown inside.

I was stunned as if under a fixed spell, watching him stretch out his hand and gently wipe the water stains on the corners of my mouth with his fingers. I couldn't help recalling many forgotten things because of such deja vu tenderness. past.

But this kind of warmth can only exist between us for a moment. When he wiped the water stains for me and pretended to kiss me, I finally came back to my senses and pushed him away.

"Your way, it's okay to deal with little sisters, but it's useless to me." I said.

He backed away, leaned back against the sofa and sneered, the tenderness just now disappeared instantly on his face: "Then how can I deal with you?" He asked.

"Don't you think it's tiring? We're not kids anymore, so there's no need to keep procrastinating like this. Is it really that difficult to speak clearly? If you don't want to say it, I'll say it!" I looked directly at him, "That day in the hospital, I lied to you by pretending to sleep, but in fact I heard everything you said. I want to know what is meant by 'shouldn't have involved me'. What can't you tell me?"

I finished speaking in one breath, waiting for Li Yaofan's answer.

He was silent for a long time, but finally said lightly: "There are some things that you don't need to know."

"Since I'm involved, why can't I know?" I was angry, "It's okay if you want me to act with you, at least give me a reason? I don't want to be led by the nose by you. I really don't want to be led by your love games." Enough has been played!"

"You think I'm playing games with you?" He straightened up, his expression suddenly serious.

"Isn't it? You say you want to bet with me for a while, and then you say you want me to act with you, trying to bring back my memories of you, and when I ask, you say I don't need to know. It's just the two of us here, right Let me be honest, are you going to die?"

"You want me to be honest?" He suddenly approached me.

I felt a little nervous, but I still bit the bullet and said, "Yes, I just want to hear the truth."

"The truth is, I can't forget you, and I still like you. Are you satisfied with that?"

Time seemed to be frozen at that moment, I looked at him, and he looked at me, the light was flowing between us, the wall clock in the corner was ticking, and the half-drunk water was slightly swaying in the glass.

I held my breath, feeling as if my heartbeat had stopped, my mind went blank, and his words echoed repeatedly in my ears:
"I can't forget you, I still like you."

"I can't forget you, I still like you."

"I can't forget you, I still like you."

"What are you kidding?" I stood up angrily, trying to calm myself down, but my whole body couldn't help shaking slightly.

"Is it you who is not honest?" He also stood up with me, "You obviously heard what I said in the hospital, but you pretended not to hear; you were actually jealous, but you refused to admit it; you said you wanted to hear To be honest, I didn’t want to believe it after hearing it. What you said, it’s just the two of us now, what are you afraid of, why don’t you tell me.”

"..." I was taken aback by what he said.

What am I afraid of?
I always thought it was impossible for us to be together. After experiencing such deep hatred, even if I can let it go, can he let it go?Even if he can let it go now, can he let it go in the future?Even if we let go, can we withstand the inner torture?

Love deeply, so hurt deeply; hurt deeply, so I am afraid to love again, this is probably the most unfaceable fear buried deep in my heart.

Those loves and pains, I would rather choose to escape than experience them again.

"You misunderstood." I explained calmly, "In the hospital, I just didn't want to talk to you, so I chose to remain silent. I came here to help A Ke recover Xibei. As for you saying you like me, I'm sorry, I'm no longer I like you."

Li Yaofan's face suddenly changed: "Say it again."

"Say it a thousand times, and it will be the same ten thousand times. If it weren't for meeting again, I would have forgotten you a long time ago. I don't know where your confidence comes from. I think I still have feelings for you. If I did it What made you misunderstand, I am here to say sorry to you, but if you want me to love someone I no longer love, sorry, I can’t do it.” I looked at him directly, with the most indifferent expression I could Eyes, meet his eyes.

I think this moment is probably the pinnacle of my acting skills in my life.

Li Yaofan's eyes flickered with sadness, and then he smiled wryly: "It seems that I misunderstood."

"It's still too late to explain clearly." I comforted him.

"But it has nothing to do with me." He said suddenly.

I was taken aback: "What did you say?"

"It's my business that I like you, and it has nothing to do with whether you like me or not. Besides, there is still an unfinished agreement between us, isn't it?" He looked at me with a sly smile on his lips, "The bet is not over yet, until the last moment, I will not easily admit defeat."

"You are unreasonable!" I protested.

But he reached out and touched my head: "Sleep here today, niece."

"You madman!" I yelled at him angrily, "I won't listen to you, I'm leaving."

"If you leave now, you won't have to go back to the set tomorrow." He said lightly, then turned and walked into the room.

Leaving me alone in the living room, it's not okay to go, or not to go.

I couldn't make it in the end, and spent the night staring at the ceiling of the hotel.

Of course, I didn't sleep in Li Yaofan's bed that night, and I didn't have anything to do with him, but it just happened that such a peaceful life made people think wildly and couldn't sleep all night.

"I can't forget you, I still like you."

This sentence appeared in my mind repeatedly, the whole night.

Even though I couldn't believe it, I still had to admit that the moment he said this, I was shaken from the bottom of my heart for a moment.

He is such a cool man, even during the years when he was in love with me, he didn't often talk about love, but in the situation like last night, he personally said "like" to me , which is enough to shock me.

At that moment, I even thought about just agreeing to him and forgetting about it, but reason stopped my impulse.

I remembered the dance not long ago, when faced with my direct questioning, he refused to admit that Luo Wei was similar to me, but left me and turned away.But last night, he easily admitted his love for me, why?
Women are the most perverted animals in the world. When a man doesn't say love, they will try everything; but when the man admits love, they will have many doubts.

I am such a woman, knowing that I am abnormal, but I can't help but do it like this.

After thinking like this for a whole night, I finally realized the problem soberly. If I continue to procrastinate like this, it will be of no benefit to anyone. I must strike while the iron is hot and cut off my thoughts about him.

Thinking of this, I resolutely decided to get up and explain it to Li Yaofan, but when I walked out the door, I was frightened to death by LK standing at the door like a statue.

"Why are you here, where is Li Yaofan?" I, still in shock, asked ferociously.

"Mr. Li left beforehand, tell me to take you back." LK replied coldly, his expression looked a little repulsive.

I immediately thought that I spent the night alone with Li Yaofan here, and hurriedly explained: "Don't get me wrong, nothing happened to us last night."

Seeing that he didn't respond, I added: "Really, have you ever seen a neatly dressed, white and clean woman like me?"

LK finally couldn't help but said: "Miss Shen, you don't need to explain to me."

I was stunned, and said weakly: "Don't you like Li Yaofan? I thought you were jealous just now..."

"Who I like is my business. It has nothing to do with what he did. Miss Shen doesn't need to worry too much." He looked at me and said, his attitude was much softer than at the beginning, but such a familiar answer still made me feel uncomfortable. stunned.

What did I say?

Birds of a feather flock together, and the special assistant of Qinshou is indeed the same person as Qinshou, and even the words they say are so similar. In comparison, Li Yaofan and I are really close, we have nothing in common.

"You can just confess your love to him, so as not to keep him pestering me." I couldn't help saying to LK in the car taking me back to the set.

"Don't you think you're a bit of an eighth-wife?" LK said unbearably.

"It seems a bit..." I muttered, and then reacted, and protested loudly, "What kind of motherfucker? You are only a motherless motherfucker! I only said that when I regarded you as a friend. If it was someone else, I wouldn't bother to say it!"

"Friend?" LK finally turned to look at me with a strange expression.

"Yeah, I think you're a pretty good person. Although... your orientation is a bit different from ordinary people, but you're honest enough, you don't hide anything, and you speak straight. I like your personality!" After I finished speaking, Smiling and approaching him, "Why don't we make friends, about Li Yaofan, if you want to know anything, just ask me, I will definitely know everything without talking about it."

LK suddenly smiled: "There is no such thing as a free lunch, do you want to make a deal with me?"

He saw through his mind, so I didn't hide it anymore, patted him on the shoulder and said: "It's so ugly to talk about a deal. This is called rational use of resources, mutual help, and exchange of needs. If you don't answer, I will take it as the default." gone."

Seeing that he was still silent, I threw my arms around his shoulder and said, "I have to ask, what is the relationship between your boss and Xibei?"

"You really want to know?" LK raised an eyebrow.

Isn't this nonsense, if I don't want to know, I can get close to you?While despising him in my heart, I nodded and said, "I think, I really want to know!" After finishing speaking, I stared at him eagerly.

"I'll tell you when the money is paid off."

This bastard dared to play tricks on me!If it wasn't because he was driving, I really want to slap this guy on the windshield, and I can't even slap it off.

Since LK was very tight-lipped, until he sent me to the destination, I still didn't find out any news, so I got out of the car and went back to the crew indignantly.

I didn't expect to see Shanshan, Xiaozhou and Sister Le with sad faces as soon as they arrived on the set.

"What's the matter with you?" I hurried forward and asked.

Seeing me appear, Sister Le greeted me first, "My aunt, you are finally back! You ran all night yesterday, but you made us miserable! Where did you go?"

"I..." I thought for a while, but in the end I still didn't tell what happened with Li Yaofan last night, but wrote lightly, "I met an old classmate by chance last night, and I haven't come back after chatting for a long time."

"How are you, met old classmates, Shanshan and Xiaozhou were almost scolded by the director until they had brain hemorrhage!"

What?I was taken aback, and turned to look at Xiao Zhou, only to see her frowning, looking like she was about to cry: "The director found out about our sneaking out last night, and he scolded Shanshan and me a lot." Dun, and said that if I commit the crime again, I will be fired."

"You're not bad!" Shanshan interjected with a sad face, "The director said, if I continue to ignore the discipline of the crew and go out privately, all the scenes in front of me will be deleted, and I will directly shoot the scene where I was shot! It's the tenth play of the show, and the first nine all died within a few minutes after appearing on the stage. This time, I don't want to die so quickly! Woooooo..."

Looking at Shanshan's miserable scene, I once again turned my attention to Sister Le.

"Don't worry, I'm yours, I didn't get scolded. But he told me to go see him as soon as you come back, I guess you..." Sister Le looked at me meaningfully and spit out four words. Words, "more bad luck than good luck."

A few drops of cold sweat suddenly appeared on my forehead.

Sister Le was right, I was scolded as expected.

From the time I have known Director Wang to the present, I have never seen him so fierce. It was like taking gunpowder. This morning the whole crew got up at [-] o'clock to prepare, in order to ensure that they could shoot scenes in the early morning, but you didn't come back until now! Everyone's efforts all morning were wasted, are you worthy of them? Have you thought about them? ?"

I was stunned by the scolding, and I didn't consider that my momentary reckless behavior caused such a big trouble to the crew, and I fell into deep self-blame.

"I'm sorry, Director Wang, I promise that this will not happen again in the future."

"Qianxing, maybe you think I'm too strict with you, but you are the protagonist of this drama, have you ever thought about what the protagonist means in a drama?"

"What?" I looked at Director Wang suspiciously.

"Soul, you are the soul of this film!" Director Wang suddenly jumped up, "Maybe you think you are a newcomer and you don't think you can take on such a heavy responsibility, but in my eyes you are just a blank sheet of paper. For those actors who have been formed, you have potential that they don't have. Everyone in the crew, including me, hopes to tap your potential and train you to become an excellent actor, but what you did today makes you I'm very disappointed! Have you ever thought about what filming means to you? Have you thought about how to go this way? Have you thought about your future and life?"

Director Wang's rant made me fall into deep contemplation. I suddenly realized that my guilt just now was just superficial. What I need at this moment is not to apologize to everyone, but to reflect.

The filming of this film was an accident for me. I never thought that I would become an actor or a protagonist. I naively thought that after filming this film, everything would be back on track, but in fact Obviously not.

Sister Le said that there are already many performing arts companies, advertisers and directors who have taken a fancy to me. Most of them just follow suit, but some are very serious and want to talk to me over and over again.

Should I keep going, or give up halfway?
The answer to this multiple-choice question couldn't be clearer to me who is heavily in debt.

If you want not to become someone else's pawn, you can only force yourself to become stronger. Even if there are many thorns ahead, you can only grit your teeth and move forward in blood.

There is no one else who can walk this journey for me except myself.

Wang Dao's words awakened the dreamer, and I finally determined my goal.

To move forward, to live hard, to get rid of Li Yaofan's influence on me, and to devote myself wholeheartedly to the work at hand is the best way to accomplish all of this.

My efforts were not in vain. As time went by, the shooting of the film became smoother. If everything goes according to plan, the filming of the film will be finished in half a month.

This also means that the bet between me and Li Yaofan is about to expire.

Although he kept saying that he would never lose to me, the fact is that during this period of time, he has not shown any kindness, and even has very little contact with me.

I guess it was probably because what I said in the hotel that night was too heartless and hurt Mr. Li's self-esteem.After all, a tall man like him has been used to being embraced by women since he was a child. It is not easy for him to lower his body and confess his love to others, but it is understandable that he would be upset when he was rejected outright.

Although I don't regret my heartlessness that night, sometimes when I'm in a daze, I can't help but imagine that if I failed to resist his attack that night, what would happen to us at this moment?

Frankly speaking, I really can't imagine that ten years later, the scene where he and I go to the amusement park hand in hand, can almost make a romance movie a thriller.

"What are you thinking about so preoccupied?" Sister Le's words brought me back to reality.

"What do you want to eat tomorrow morning?" I said casually.

"I just want to eat breakfast after dinner, look at your prospects!" Sister Le gave me a blank look, then winked and said, "Let's go, let's go and watch gossip!"

"What gossip?" I asked curiously.

"Someone is here to visit."

What she said made me feel a little confused: "It's normal to visit the class, what's so interesting?"

"You'll know as soon as you come with me!" Sister Le said, pulling me up and leaving.

I followed Sister Le to the other side of the studio sneakily. Sister Le pointed her finger. I looked in the direction of her finger and found a man and a woman standing under a tree not far away.

One is Shanshan, and the other looks familiar.

I almost yelled out: "That man is not from that day's friendship..."

"Hush!" Sister Le made a silent gesture to me, and lowered her voice, "Hush, don't disturb others."

I stuck out my tongue judiciously and hid behind the set with Sister Le to peek.

The person who is with Shanshan at the moment is Zhenxiu who first introduced himself during our friendship that night. It is said that the two of them met through WeChat, and they have maintained a close relationship since they met, although Shanshan refused to admit it. The relationship between the two, but judging by the momentum of development, it will be a matter of time before they get together.

For the two of them, Sister Le was very envious, and while peeking, she muttered: "It turns out that WeChat still has this function, and I will also shake one someday."

I gave him a blank look: "Come on, how do you know if it's a human or a dog?"

Unexpectedly, Sister Le clenched her fist and said, "If a dog can shake WeChat, I will admit it too!"

"Pfft!" I couldn't help laughing out loud, the sound startled the young couple under the tree, they turned their heads and looked at us with red faces.

I was a little embarrassed, so I quickly greeted them: "Go ahead, we didn't see anything!" After speaking, I pulled Sister Le and walked back.

Unexpectedly, when I turned around, I almost freaked out.

Ghost knife stood behind us at some point, leaning against the background wall, looking at us with interest.

"This isn't the one from that day..." Sister Le quickly reacted, and bumped my arm, "Why did he come here? Didn't he fall in love with you?"

"Look at your size!" I glared at Sister Le, "He is a debt collector!"

"Ah?!" Sister Le was obviously frightened, and stammered, "You said he, he, he... how about we call the police?"

"No need!" I waved my hand resolutely, "There are so many people here, he doesn't dare to mess around, you go first, I'll meet him." After I finished speaking, I left Sister Le and walked towards Ghost Sword .

I don't know where I got the courage to face Ghost Knife by myself, maybe it's because of getting along with him a few times, I don't think he's as scary as the rumors say, at least not as cold-blooded as Boss Mo said Ruthless and brutal.

Thinking that after I left Li Yaofan, I would face him again, I decided to take this opportunity to find out about him first.

Ghost Knife did not respond to my approach. Instead, he leaned against the background wall and skillfully lit a cigarette for himself.

The smoke lingered around his fingertips, and I couldn't help frowning: "Smoking all day long, you won't be afraid of lung cancer!"

"Don't worry, I won't die." He snorted softly, looking nonchalant.

"You're fine now, when something really happens, it's too late to cry!" I really hate other people smoking, to the point where I can't bear it when I see it from a distance.

"You really have a lot to do." He finally put down his cigarette and looked up at me.

His hair should have been uncut for some time, with a light stubble on his face, his white vest was dyed golden yellow by the setting sun, his unruly eyes and wild tattoos gave this man an evil look all over his body beauty.

The above are almost a fatal attraction for girls who are in the rebellious period. At that moment, I felt that I could understand Xibei's madness.

I collected myself and retorted: "You are not the same, you even follow other young people when they meet."

"That kid is going to confess his love." When he said this, his eyes stayed under the tree, with a kind of brotherly love in his eyes.

I hurriedly looked back, and found that Zhenxiu seemed to be talking to Shanshan, both of their faces were flushed with embarrassment, especially Shanshan, who lowered her head and blushed like a ripe apple.After a while, she nodded suddenly, and then Zhenxiu hugged her excitedly.

It's really a confession. While I was happy in my heart, I couldn't help but sigh: "I didn't expect you to be in this business, and you are also responsible for emboldening people!"

"You'd better not say that in front of your friends, that kid doesn't know what I'm doing."

"What?" I turned around in surprise, and saw Ghost Knife pick up the cigarette again, and my expression suddenly became a little heavy.I tentatively probed: "Last time I heard from Zhenxiu that you provided the venue and funds for their band. You are not learning from Lei Feng, are you..."

I was stared at halfway through the conversation, so I quickly changed the subject and asked, "Why are you so nice to Zhenxiu?"

"I take her as my brother," he said.

"What about Xibei?" I asked quickly.

He glanced at me and said bluntly, "You don't need to beat around the bush when you want to ask."

Was seen through again!I felt a little frustrated, but I was not willing to let it go, so I simply said: "I know you don't have feelings for the little girl, but she has been pestering you for so long, you should know something about her, right? What is her relationship with Li Yaofan? I heard her name is Brother Li Yaofan..."

"Maybe it's treating her as a younger sister, or maybe..."

"Maybe what?" I couldn't wait to ask, because I knew that a businessman like Li Yaofan would never treat a girl who had nothing to do with him as his younger sister, and Xibei's background had also been found out by gossip magazines. It is absolutely impossible for a child to have a stake in Li Yao.

Thinking of this, I seemed to have discovered something, and couldn't help thinking to myself: "If you don't treat her as a younger sister, then you are a real brother and sister, but Li Yaofan is obviously the only child in the family, so it is impossible... Xibei is the private child of the Li family. Have a daughter?"

I was taken aback by this crazy guess, and looked up at Ghost Knife suspiciously, but this guy's face looked a little weird, and he said quietly: "You ask me, who should I ask?"

"You should help me analyze it. Xibei likes you so much, she must tell you everything. Has she mentioned her life experience to you?"

"I don't know!" Ghost Knife suddenly changed his face, threw the cigarette on the ground, stomped it out, and got up to leave.

"Hey, don't go! I asked about Xibei, but I didn't ask if you were an illegitimate child. Why are you so fierce?"

He stopped suddenly and looked back at me with a murderous look in his eyes, as if he had been trampled on a sore spot.

When I was frightened, I seemed to have an epiphany. This guy's sudden change of face was not because of Xi Bei, but because of the illegitimate child I mentioned just now.Is he an illegitimate child?I didn't dare to ask him directly, I was afraid that he would really be as inhuman as the rumors said, so I kept my mouth shut and stared at him warily.

Fortunately, he didn't make a move in the end, but withdrew his fierce eyes, turned around, and left the set without looking back, regardless of Zhenxiu.

(End of this chapter)