The daily life of the prime minister of the Qing Dynasty, thick black

Chapter 234 Mother
For so many years, Gu Huaishu has never felt that autumn is bad.

But seeing that all the leaves outside have fallen, she now understands that there is a reason for the sorrow of spring and autumn, and it is nothing more than the four words "touching the scene to create love".

She and Zhang Tingyu have been husband and wife for many years, some jokes are harmless, and some things are asked, even if they don't want to say it, they will not lie.At least they all knew it wasn't cheating, they just didn't want to say it.As long as one day is willing to speak, things will be peaceful.

Gu San Zhang Er, both of them are very smart.

Each of them leaves room for the other, just like Gu Huaixiu doesn't ask Zhang Tingyu what kind of sensual scene he is going out, those are unavoidable.And she believed in Zhang Tingyu, just like Zhang Tingyu believed in her.Zhang Tingyu never asked about Gu Huaixiu's whereabouts, she was the fourth master's servant, she wanted to help fourth master with affairs, and there were some trade-offs in the backyard.

When she was willing to speak, he listened; when he was willing to speak, she listened.

Leaving space for each other is the secret to being able to go through ups and downs for so many years.

If you are close, you will hurt people, if you are far, you will be indifferent.

Gu Huaishu always thought that the two of them would cherish each other and grow old together.

But suddenly, she discovered such a lie.

No matter how beautiful it is, no matter how good the intention is, Gu Huaishu still feels desolate in his heart.

She's not a weakling, that's her son.

She once saw Shen Che falling ill in front of her, seeing him taking those strange medicines, seeing him struggling and wandering in front of the Hall of Yama, moaning and groaning in pain in the guest room of Kui Xia Yuan...

But what was she doing at that time?She just took pity on her son with the attitude of a stranger.

That is her child!
It was she who struggled ten thousand times, floated ashore, and begged the old fisherwoman by the river to keep it.

Why do they...

Leaving aside Shen Chao's intentions, the distinction between benevolent and benevolent has become a reality.She chooses to respect her child, and she doesn't want to put everyone in a dilemma. After all, she just gave birth to him, but didn't raise him, and she didn't accompany him through so many years of dangerous and rough roads. Why would she want her child to be called herself? A "mother"?
All kinds of emotions flowed up, including resentment and gratitude towards Shen Chao, and distress and heartache towards Shen Xue...

But for Zhang Tingyu, she is too complicated to speak now.

It was just that sentence, she still remembered how Zhang Tingyu told her back then.

Shen Qu said that it was rare for Mr. Zhang to be confused.

Of course he is rarely confused, just pretending to be confused with her.

Gu Huaixiu thought about it, but slowly wiped away her tears. She didn't want to cry, she never wanted to.

She sat like this for a long time.

She once told Zhang Tingyu that if he took a concubine and betrayed his heart, they would divorce and travel around the world with their dowry.She doesn't care about her own reputation, if she is not afraid of what the world fears, then there is nothing to fear in the world.But now she has children, even if she is not counted as Shen He, she still has Zhang Ruoai, Zhang Ruolin, and Zhang Buxiang. There are too many things that can restrain her here.

For a moment, she really wanted to leave and let Zhang Tingyu go alone, but she felt reluctant.

They have come so many years, from nothing, from obscurity, to now famous, each holding their own energy in their hands.

They are not ordinary people, step by step, how hard it was at the beginning, how heartbroken it is now.

In all fairness, that was a small thing.

However, it was such a small matter that caused the cracks that had never existed before to appear.

Gu Huaishu lowered her head, all the maids in the room had gone out, and she was the only one here.

The wind blew the red maple leaves onto her window lattice, but she didn't even want to look at them.

Going forward, holding the two doors with both hands, Gu Huaishu saw him coming, but still slowly closed the door.

She heard the creaking of the door, very slightly, like something in her heart.

She lowered her head and looked at her fingers resting on the edge of the wooden door. They were pale and slender, with blue-purple winding blood vessels on the back of her hand.

But she is still old.

There was no strength in the whole person, Gu Huaishu turned his back, leaned against the side of the door, and slid slowly to sit down.

Zhang Tingyu probably knew about it too. He knew exactly what she asked last night.

She even knew that Zhang Tingyu must have guessed what she was going to do today, but he didn't stop her.

Because once Gu Huaishu found out, it would be irreversible.

Some things cannot be covered up, and if he uses lies to cover up, what's the use?
It's nothing more than tearing this crack even bigger.

Colder than ever, colder than ever.

She shrank into a ball, looking at the deserted inner room, just thinking, let her be quiet.

Now, Gu Huaishu doesn't want to talk to anyone, she doesn't want to see anyone, she just wants to think about it by herself.

A palm was already on the door, but it was finally slowly retracted.

Standing outside, Zhang Tingyu moved his Adam's apple up and down, curled his fingers into a weird arc, finally shook, and slowly retracted.

He just looked at this door like this, suddenly feeling a little at a loss.

So far, it is meaningless to pursue right and wrong.

Zhang Tingyu probably knew a thing or two about what Shen Qi was thinking. Although he wanted to kill this person, he couldn't kill him now, not to mention what would Shen Qi do?This child is too smart, with the same attitude of playing with the world as Shen Yang, why not?If he lived too seriously in this world, it would be too hard.Shen Chong's way of living might be more suitable for him.

Zhang Tingyu is very clear about the Zhang family's affairs.

One by one, how can there be Shen Yang chic?

Although, behind Shen Chiu...

He concealed the matter of Shen Chen, one because the matter was a foregone conclusion, and the other because Shen Che at that time did not know when he would leave.

Zhang Tingyu also admitted that he was cruel, but he didn't want to see Gu Huaishu worry about it.

If he was given another chance to choose, maybe he still wouldn't tell Gu Huaishu, or even be more straightforward, less benevolent, and let the child disappear.

disappear……

Thinking about it, he suddenly chuckled.

A tiger's poison does not eat its offspring, to what extent has Zhang Tingyu been poisoned?
It was already a bad game of chess, and I felt that no matter how I went, there would be no way out.

Zhang Tingyu stood outside the door for a long time, but there was no movement inside the door.

A door, two people, it is clearly the same world, but since when is it already far away?

Looking up, the autumn colors in the capital are already thick, and the only bright color in the depression is the red maple leaves.

He didn't look in the mirror, but he knew that his hair was much frosty and white, only when he turned and walked along the corridor, his back never bent.

After 20 years of wind and rain all the way, it was going to be destroyed?
Autumn in Zhang's mansion, in the capital city, suddenly became very cold.

On the other hand, Shen Qu had already returned to the Wanqing Guild Hall. Shen Chao sat upright with his feet up, holding a purple sand pot, drinking tea at the spout, and knocking the spout with his teeth from time to time, looking bored. appearance.But as soon as Shen Che saw him, he could already see the worry in his father's eyes that couldn't be hidden.

Seeing him coming back, Shen Qi saw that he hadn't spoken for a long time.

"Father?"

"I do not……"

Halfway through the speech, Shen Qi couldn't continue.

He held the purple clay pot in both hands, rubbing the rough marks on the pot's surface with his fingertips, as if he was thinking about something.

He doesn't dare to speak now, because once he speaks, the business that made him lose money will really come to fruition.He only hopes that this time will be later, and later...

Shen Qu didn't want to say anything, he just said casually: "Shouldn't father be happy with the current situation?"

Happy?

Yes, at least he, Shen Yang, should be happy.

Zhang Tingyu knew that this was his son, otherwise he would not have accepted Shen Xu as a student.Even after Shen Chao set up a trick to deceive Gu San, making her think that Shen Qu was Zhang Wangxian's son, Zhang Tingyu came back and asked Zhang Wangxian.Zhang Wangxian hated him to the bone, even if he had promised him to keep the secret, it was impossible not to let Zhang Tingyu say something.

But the cruel Zhang Tingyu just handed over his son to him.

Perhaps he would rather not have this son than let his Gu San suffer a little harm.

What is a son?
Sometimes Shen Chao wondered what a son really was.If he gets Gu San, he will feel a thousand times more pain than Zhang Tingyu, it's just his own flesh and blood... If you give up, you will give up.

But the more he thought about it, the more Shen Chao felt that Gu San was pitiful.

Two men, one secretly adopted her son because of various so-called "last resorts", and the other was ruthless, concealing the child's life experience without knowing the child's safety.

From the beginning to the end, Zhang Tingyu probably knew about it, but it was only when his elder brother fell ill in Kuixia Garden that Shen Che saw it clearly.

Zhang Tingyu was sure that he would not tell Gu Huaishu, because the reason he raised such a son was similar to Zhang Tingyu's.Because he knew that Zhang Tingyu could pretend that he never had this son, or at least suppressed it and didn't show it.In fact, the doctor kept saying that the elder brother would not live long, but he dared not say it because of Shen Qi's tendency to go crazy from time to time.If Zhang Tingyu had asked someone in private, who wouldn't have said that taking his brother would still kill him?
But God's will is unpredictable, how far can man's actions go?
Shen Qi didn't know either.

At least for now, Brother Qu'er looks no different from ordinary people. Although he still eats ginseng as a meal and cracks thousands of cash to play with walnuts every year, isn't he paying his life back with money?

This is Zhang Tingyu's unwanted son, why did Shen Qi push Shen Qu out?

He sneered unknowingly, but he still felt sorry for Gu Huaishu after all.

For Shen Chao, this was a wrong step; for Zhang Tingyu, this was the expected ending.

When Shen Chao set up a trap to deceive Gu Huaishu, he and his brother were already grown up...

In all fairness, Zhang Tingyu was right.

Because at that time, Shen Che had already called him "father" over and over again, and his life and death were still uncertain.

However, maybe Gu Huaishu is the only one who feels chilling?

"The current situation... I should be happy..."

Shen Chong laughed, closed his eyes, and bent his lips.

"If today appeared earlier, I would be happier... It's a pity, it's too late."

His future is uncertain, how can he be happy?

Glancing at the porcelain money on his elder brother's wrist, Shen Qi was suddenly in a daze.

"After I die, take the copper coin from your hand and give it to Mr. Zhang. Just go and recognize your ancestors..."

Shen Qu shook his wrist and didn't speak for a long time.

The room was quiet, and when Shen Qi felt that the teapot in his hand had become cold, Shen Qu said, "Why did father think that I would go back, and why did he think that Mr. Zhang and his wife would admit me to go back?" The sons you have raised well, go back and scare them? Father, you are not a good person at all. If you want to be cruel, vicious, evil or wrong, it is better to be wrong to the end. "

Shen Qu is not a fool.

For so many years, Shen Qi never talked about his life experience, but Li Wei and Zhong Heng are still working with him now, Shen Qu is half stupid, and knows everything he wants to know.

Not to mention the matter of Aunt Xian...

This is the biggest flaw, but no one has mentioned it.

Those who didn't mention it had their own reasons for not mentioning it, and it was precisely because of the so-called "family scandal" that Zhang Er's wife never asked.

The biggest blind spot has made the current situation.

If you want to make a mistake, you will make a mistake to the end.

Shen Chao looked back at Shen Qu, and suddenly said: "I really don't know whether you are like me or Zhang Tingyu..."

"Father is not a good man, and Mr. Zhang is not a good man either. My mother is innocent."

He said this sentence unconsciously, but he was stunned after he finished speaking.

Because of Shen Chao's eyes, it became sharp at that moment, revealing an aggressiveness that could not be concealed.

But after a while, it became a kind of sadness again.

Shen Qi slowly put the teapot back on the table, clasped his hands and fingers together: "If I die one day, and the fourth master kills me, it will be because all the birds are exhausted; if Zhang Tingyu kills me, it is because I have something to fight with him." But I am not good, he is not much better, and he is not qualified; the dog emperor killed my family unjustly, and he is not qualified... I just thought, if there is a day, she kills me, then she will kill me. It's reasonable."

From the beginning to the end, only Gu Huaishu was qualified.

"But father, you said..."

"Yes. To kill me is to dirty her hands."

If that day comes, it will definitely be Shen Qi who executes the sentence on her behalf.

Shen Chao raised his head and smiled, looking at Shen Qu: "I think back then, I took people up and down the Cao River. It was freezing cold in the twelfth lunar month, and there were broken ice on the riverside... There was nothing in the reeds, and there was nothing in the surrounding area. Empty, at that time I was thinking...why is the winter in Jiangnan so cold. When I found her, all the people from the Cao Gang were outside, I didn't dare to go in, I just waited outside...As soon as you were born, you Has been hooked away by Hades..."

Shen Qi doesn't like to talk about the past, but now his mind is full of the past.

An old fisherwoman by the river, and a lonely pregnant woman, in the cold winter, the only tonic may be fish.

Her legs were inconvenient, she couldn't move, the cold entered her body, and she was very weak.

The old fisherwoman said that after she was rescued ashore, she gradually found out that she was pregnant. She was so weak that she was still holding on. She didn't like to cry and laughed at everything, saying that it was not good for the child.The old fisherwoman regrets that she is pregnant. Even though she is old and weak, she still wants to go fishing outside, set up a small net to see her luck, or go to another fisherman to ask for two fish, and then return to Jiangting. Make fish soup for her.

No one knew how long she could last, but when the people from the Cao Gang found her, and when the news reached Shen Chao, the doctor had already diagnosed her and couldn't touch her.

People are at the end of their strength, how can they care about a child?
A premature birth was expected, as was a stillbirth.

Shen Qi couldn't remember if he heard her cry. At that time, the wind by the river was too strong, he really felt his ears were buzzing, and he didn't know anything.

He was the one who watched Shen Che put into the small coffin and buried. At that time, Gu Huaishu was watching through a door, and then she turned her head and closed her eyes.

But who would have thought that after a while, as soon as night fell, there would be crying outside...

Shen Chao remembered very clearly that there was only one cry, and then it stopped immediately.

Everyone didn't care, but he got up, someone dug the grave, and found that the child was still angry.

But the doctor said that it is impossible to save her life, and the emotional ups and downs of a postpartum pregnant woman should not be too much.

Who would have thought...

Once raised, it is so many years.

One mistake, so many years.

Shen Chao raised his hand to hold his forehead, and said slowly: "I'm just afraid that if something happens to me, you will be involved, if Prince Yong lays hands on me, you will go to Zhang's residence, if Zhang's residence lays hands on me, you will go to Fourth Master; If the two sides are conspiring to kill me, you can just go to your mother... Zhong Heng will reimburse your mother every month, and it is a good way to report through the account book. Luo Xuanwen is dead, Zhang Tingyu must have known. Although your mother is the fourth master's slave, she is different from the fourth master... She will always find a way to save you. If not, take the porcelain money and go to Caobang... "

It turned out that he had already arranged everything properly and was just waiting for the butcher knife to fall on his neck.

Zhang Tingyu unjustly killed the Third Prince Zhu and Dai Mingshi unjustly, how could such means not make Shen Qi respectful?
Laughing inexplicably, he looked at Shen Qu and said, "Remember?"

Shen Che's lips moved, as if he wanted to say something, but he endured it again and said, "She's a weak girl..."

"Shen Qu, don't underestimate the women in this world, especially your mother. They, or her, can become terrible."

Shen Qi raised his left hand and looked at the mark left by his palm.

"Even more terrifying is a mother."

(End of this chapter)