Ex-husband, why don't you go to heaven?

Chapter 143 He Was Her Most Painful Miss

Being plunged into darkness for a short period of time, Wen Yan held her breath and waited patiently. After another long time, her vision finally regained clarity. When she opened her eyes, the thick ink in the man's eyes was almost overflowing.

"I fell asleep, sorry."

Wen Yan opened her mouth to explain, swallowing the blood in her mouth, not wanting Yin Xi to see her abnormality.

"You've been sleeping more and more lately."

Yin Xi said in a low voice, the last time he took Wen Yan out shopping, this woman fell asleep in the fitting room!
When she said this, Yin Xi didn't think much about other things. Her warm face lowered her eyes, suppressing the coolness in her eyes. Yes, she was sleeping longer and longer.

On the contrary, the waking time is getting shorter and shorter, and the efficacy of the medicines promised is not as good as before.

What this means, Wen Yan knows very well, but she can't do anything about it.

Yin Xi got out of the car, walked around the front of the car and opened the door, bent down to unbuckle her seat belt, and then picked her up.

Wen Yan didn't refuse, and hugged his neck obediently.

Her hand was very cold, and she just put it on the back of Yin Xi's neck, but she was also found to be abnormal.

Yin Xi took off her coat to wrap her around her and then carried her out of the car.

It was already March, the sun was shining on her body, and the bright colors looked very comfortable. Wen Yan closed her eyes lazily, and a man's gentle voice sounded: "Next time it's cold, just tell me."

She is not cold, given her current physical condition, even after soaking in hot water, her hands and feet are cold.

But she didn't say it, she just responded obediently: "Okay."

After entering the elevator, Yin Xi still didn't put her down, but instead hugged her up and down: "It's gentle again." He used an affirmative tone.

Her food intake has been getting smaller and smaller recently, light for sure, but not so light that she can feel it when he hugs her.

"It's just your psychology."

She answered casually, and the man looked down at her with deep eyes, just when she thought he had seen everything, the man looked away, and asked helplessly, "Is it because my cooking is too unpalatable?"

If it wasn't for the sharp pain on the tip of her tongue, Wen Yan would have thought that she was hallucinating, and this man who wanted to be courteous would actually talk to her in such a tone!

The eyes of the woman in his arms were a little confused, her red lips were slightly parted, she was as innocent as a little white rabbit, but her cheeks were so thin that her cheekbones were a little protruding.

His throat rolled up and down, but he finally couldn't hold back, and lowered his head to press down on the alluring redness.

The gentle and delicate kiss took all his restraint and patience to not eat the person.

This is the woman who caused him to search Yuncheng upside down and failed to find him, and also the woman who caused him not to sleep well for three years and not to be interested in other women.

He has been looking for her for three years, and he has also missed her for three years.

From the first moment he saw her again, he wanted to press her under him one way or another, so that this woman would know what would happen if he angered him, and he would never dare to run away again.

But looking at her thin and thin body, and thinking of her despair like a trapped animal three years ago, he suddenly felt as if a knife was piercing his heart.

She didn't live well without him, and all her bad things came from him.

It was he who transformed her from a girl into a woman, and it was he who indirectly caused her to lose a child and a mother.

Three years ago she said: Yin Xi, between us, there is no reunion, only death.

When speaking, her voice was calm and soft, but it was determined not to look back.

He thought, this time, he really hurt her deeply, otherwise she would not have said such heartless words with such a gentle temper.

Her thoughts stopped abruptly here, Wen Yan turned her head to avoid his gentle kiss, she didn't feel particularly disgusted, but her expression was light: "I'm tired."

All the charm was cut off by these simple three words, the body was still clamoring for her, but the reason had already returned, and the elevator opened.

Back in the house, Yin Xi put Wen Yan on the sofa. Instead of going to the kitchen to cook as usual, she took out her mobile phone to order takeaway. The names of the dishes he reported were all her favorites in the past .

Halfway through the phone call, the man suddenly looked down at her: "Is there anything else you want to eat?"

He didn't know that her sense of taste had ceased to exist a year ago, and her body would not allow her to eat these foods.

But looking at the man's serious eyes, she still answered, "I want a cabbage soup."

The takeaway was delivered quickly, and it was put on the table, still steaming hot, and the presentation was indeed much better than what this man usually does.

I took a bite with chopsticks, the food was chewed in my mouth, but my tongue still couldn't taste anything.

It tastes like chewing wax, which is probably how it feels.

Sighing in my heart, I continued to eat. The man didn't eat with the bowl, and kept looking at her. He would help her pick up any dishes that she picked up two extra chopsticks.

Yin Xi ordered a total of six dishes and one soup. Wen Yan tasted all the dishes, and she was already full after another mouthful of soup, but she still managed to eat two mouthfuls of rice. After only two mouthfuls, her stomach began to feel a little bloated .

The man put a bowl of soup in front of her, and the bright yellow cabbage leaves floated on it, the color was pretty, but Wen Yan frowned: "I can't eat it anymore."

The man didn't obey her as before, and released a bit of pressure of displeasure: "Eat more."

This coercion was not malicious or obvious, but it still touched a certain nerve in her brain in an instant, and before she could react rationally, her hand had already swept away the food on the table.

The sound of the chopsticks falling to the ground was like a key, unlocking the violence that had been controlled by drugs.

"I said I can't eat it, what else do you want!? Do you have to force me to eat it? I can't eat it! If I take another bite, my stomach will burst! And these things have no taste at all! Why should I eat!..."

Wen Yan heard herself screaming, loud enough to pierce the eardrums, she was so emotional that nausea welled up in her chest, she turned her head and ran into the toilet, throwing up in the dark.

Before she could digest the little food she just ate, she poured it out again. At the end of her vomiting, Wen Yan felt that all her gastric juices had been spit out, and there was still no taste in her mouth.

Sitting limply on the ground, the man wiped her face and hands with a hot towel, put the hot water on her, put her in the bathtub, helped her take a shower and put her on the bed.

As soon as she touched the bed, she wanted to curl up into a ball, and only this position could make her feel better.

However, Yin Xi did not let her succeed, and brought her back and pressed her firmly under him: "What did you mean just now?"

There was nothing to hide at this time, she replied calmly: "I don't have a sense of taste anymore."

The man's hand around her tightened suddenly, making her breathless, but her stomach felt better.

"how long it has been?"

"One year."

Yin Xi has never experienced how desperate it is to not be able to taste the food, but he has experienced how long a year is.

In the three years since he couldn't find this woman, every day was a torment for him.

After Wen Yan came back, she behaved very normal, so normal that he almost forgot that she was once a patient with severe depression.

She has no sense of taste now, and can't eat any taste, so no matter whether his food is salty or light, she can eat it without changing expression.

She eats very little, not as much as a kitten.

What happened during the three years she disappeared?
These questions swarmed in, and Yin Xi felt a deep sense of powerlessness, and the gentle reaction just now made him dare not ask questions lightly to provoke her.

It took some time to calm down, and Yin Xi's hand became weaker: "I'll take you to the hospital."

"No, it's an old problem. If you eat too much, you'll feel sick. I'll just take some stomach medicine."

"What medicine, I'll buy it for you."

"No, it's in the drawer under the bedside table."

Yin Xi squatted down and opened the drawer. There was only one medicine bottle in it. It was white, without any trademark or description. After unscrewing the lid, there was only half a bottle of medicine left in it. The appearance of grains.

"Where did you buy the medicine?"

"The doctor prescribed it. It is a course of treatment. It will be fine after eating."

Yin Xi didn't believe everything Wen Yan said, but turned around and went out to pour a glass of boiling water in.

"How many pills do you eat at a time?"

"Two grains."

Yin Xi poured two pills for her according to his words, and after she took it, she lay down to sleep and then went to the bathroom to take a bath. The bath time was not long, and she came out soon.

Yin Xi entered the room while wiping her hair with a dry towel, and wanted to say a few words to Wen Yan, but she fell asleep.

After falling asleep, Wen Yan's expression was very peaceful. She was lying on her side, with only half of her face exposed, and it was partially covered by her messy hair.

As if he had his own consciousness, he brushed away the slightly messy hair, and the woman's upturned nose and beautiful pink lips were fully displayed in front of her eyes.

During this period of time, she slept in front of him unsuspectingly, and like an addiction, he liked to stare at her sleeping face all night, reluctant to close his eyes, and also reluctant to see her disappear before his eyes.

After rubbing her fingertips on the soft skin for a while, Yin Xi's eyes fell on the medicine bottle on the bedside table, she got up gently and went to the study, and dialed the promised number.

The phone was connected after a while, and the man rang with a sleepy voice: "Hello, I'm Xu Nuo, what's the matter?"

"What medicine did you prescribe for her?"

"..."

There was no sound on the other end of the phone, so he should have recognized who he was.

"You told me last time that she has recovered and is in good health. How can she have no sense of taste, can't eat, and is getting thinner and thinner?"

Yin Xi's voice was very cold, he was questioning, and he was also angry at the same time, he knew that he was the culprit, so he didn't even have the courage to ask her face to face.

"It's not because she can't eat because she doesn't have a sense of taste."

Xu Nuo replied, Yin Xi was stunned, his anger suddenly turned into a sharp knife piercing his chest, and at the same time there was a coldness that could freeze blood.

Why is that?
These six words lingered on his lips for a long time, but he couldn't ask them out after all.

Holding the phone very hard, Yin Xi felt his heart skip a beat. He was afraid, afraid of the truth that could be discovered by poking open the window paper.

Both ends of the phone fell into a deathly silence. After an unknown amount of time, Yin Xi finally spoke, with a hoarse voice as if swallowing a prickly pear.

"What's up with her?"

"Those drugs are for the suppression of a disease called BENRIO."

"What is the symptom of this disease?"

"The senses gradually degenerate until death."

Xu Nuo's voice was as gentle as ever, but it sounded like the most ruthless judge to Yin Xi's ears.

What does it mean that the senses gradually degenerate until death?
"There are currently only three such cases in the world. The first two patients have died in the institute. The patients will gradually lose their sense of smell, taste, touch, and finally vision and hearing. I met her three years ago, two and a half years ago, She lost her sense of smell, two years ago, she lost her sense of touch, a year ago, she lost her sense of taste, and now..."

Yin Xi hung up the phone abruptly, as if a trapped beast was roaring in his chest, roaring to tear his heart apart, tearing his body to shreds together.

He didn't dare to think about how degraded Wen Yan's senses are now, and he couldn't imagine what the world would be like if he couldn't smell or feel!

He had never heard of such a messy disease as BENRIO, and he didn't know how those two patients spent their last days. He would not let Wen Yan go on that path.

He has been looking for this woman for three years, and he will not let her leave so easily.

This woman can only escape from him once, and in the future, without his permission, she can't leave him a step!
Rushing back to the bedroom, seeing the woman's peaceful sleeping face, the heartache was even worse than before.

It wasn't until she sat on the side of the bed and held Wen Yan's hand that Yin Xi felt a little at ease, but the hand she held in her palm was cold. If it wasn't for the woman's chest still rising and falling regularly, Yin Xi would have thought that the person on the bed would just be like this Can't sleep.

In the past three years, he thought more than once that maybe after leaving him, this woman would regain her former beauty, laugh happily, make trouble wantonly, and breathe freely.

Maybe she has hatred and resentment towards him, but at least she will live a happier life without him.

But now, reality slapped him hard.

She is not doing well, very badly.

The hands unconsciously tightened and exerted force until they were pinched by the woman's thin hand bones, Yin Xi reacted and raised his head nervously, but the woman on the bed didn't respond at all, still sleeping soundly.

She won't wake up because she... doesn't feel it.

This realization made Yin Xi feel suffocated, panic surged in his heart, he desperately needed to do something to reassure himself, this woman would not leave him, and would walk around under his nose in a healthy manner.

With a thin kiss on her pink lips, Yin Xi heard her frantic heartbeat, as if it was about to shatter his eardrums.

The girl who looked like a kitten, the girl who would cry when being bullied under him, the girl who would hug his waist and act coquettishly...

Scenes from the past flashed through my mind, my head seemed to explode, but the person on the bed was still unconscious and fell asleep.

"You woman, how can you really do what you say?"

After the words fell, the lips felt a little moist, and when she raised her eyes, Wen Yan was still asleep.

It's him……

Yin Xi raised her hand and wiped her face, her fingertips were shining with water.

A man who is nearly 30 years old, he can't remember how old he was when he cried last time, but now he is crying because of a woman.

If someone had told him before that that he did this, he might have beat that person up, but now, he just wanted to find someone to beat himself up hard.

What did he do before?How did he push Wen Yan to this point?
What was he doing when she loved him with all her heart?
Oh, at that time he was in the midst of the spring breeze, and he felt that a young man would be wasted if he was not flirtatious, lingering among the flowers, hugging left and right, and even disliked her for being too obedient.

In the education he received in the past, money is omnipotent, everything can be solved with money, and anyone without money should submit to him, especially women.

To him, Wen Yan was a wild and unruly cat. She attracted his attention and drew his emotions. He fell in love with her unknowingly, but what he wanted in his heart was to tame her.

So he deliberately teased other women in front of her, wanting her to learn to be an obedient girl, he likes her youthfulness on the bed, and wants to completely control her in his hands, just like an obedient pet .

So, he cut off all her sharp claws and ground all her edges and corners.

It wasn't until the end that he realized that this was not what he wanted. He tortured the girl he loved until she was beyond recognition.

He saw her despair, saw her tenacity, and when his heart throbbed violently, he suddenly realized that money is not everything.

When Wen Yan woke up the next day, Yin Xi was sitting by the bed, looking at her with perfect eyes.

The man's eyes were bloodshot, and the eye sockets were black from staying up all night.

He didn't sleep all night?
Wen Yan was a little surprised, and didn't ask him if he was going to work or not. She waited for the sleepiness to subside before sitting up. She lifted the quilt and prepared to get up. The man directly carried her into the bathroom.

Only when she saw the man showing signs of brushing her teeth for her, Wen Yan said, "I can do it myself."

However, when he reached out to pick up the toothbrush, his eyes suddenly fell into darkness. This kind of situation happened more and more frequently recently, Wen Yan didn't panic, and stood there waiting for his vision to recover.

"what happened?"

Yin Xi asked in a low voice, and stuffed the toothbrush into Wen Yan's hand.

Wen Yan didn't speak, and stood quietly, but the hand holding the toothbrush became more and more forceful, Yin Xi's hand covered hers, and after a long time, Wen Yan suddenly smiled and said, "I seem...to lose sight."

Yin Xi froze, Xu Nuo's words on the phone last night kept echoing in her ears: finally, it was vision and hearing.

Now, her vision is gone.

Yin Xi grabbed Wen Yan and pressed her into his arms, hugging her tightly, wishing to embed her into his own flesh and blood.

Wen Yan's reaction was very flat. From the man's movements, she could guess that he must have used a lot of strength to hug her, but she couldn't feel it anymore.

Nothing, can't feel it.

"You know, right? I got BENRIO. So far, there are only three cases of this disease in the world. In order to treat it, I have been staying in that secret research institute for three years. I have to take a lot of medicine every day, and I have to Accepting the inspections of various machines, I am like a test subject, any method that may be useful will be tried on me, but in the end, they still tell me that there is nothing they can do."

Why is it powerless?

She obviously cooperated like this, she obviously wanted to live well, why did she let her leave this world in such a sad way?

Tears fell from the corners of her eyes uncontrollably, and Wen Yan heard herself wailing loudly.

She still has a lot of scenery that she hasn't had time to see, many things she hasn't had time to do, and so many regrets, why did fate choose her?
Wen Yan cried and knelt on the ground, Yin Xi hugged her and knelt with her.

Hot tears wet his clothes, like a pot of hot oil poured on his heart, making a sizzling sound.

"I'll take you to the most authoritative doctor. There must be a way. You belong to me. Without my permission, no one can take you away from me."

"I'm not going to the hospital!" Wen Yan replied firmly, touching Yin Xi's shoulder and biting hard through his clothes: "Yin Xi, I was studied as a monster in the research institute for three years, I'm fed up with that It's time, if you still have a little kindness to me and let me spend the rest of the time quietly, you owe me this."

This is what he owed her, so at the last moment, she came to ask him for it.

Therefore, even if she leaves in the end, he doesn't have to regret it, because she has already got everything she wants.

This is also the last time she let go of him.

"it is good."

The word came out of his throat, scratching his throat like a barb, and dripping with blood.

Ten days later, on the stage of a university auditorium in Yuncheng, Wen Yan was wearing a snow-white tube top wedding dress and stood under the lights. Fluorescent card, calling her name.

Wen Yan stood quietly on it, and didn't raise the microphone until the music sounded. The first song was the one she didn't have time to release.

At the end of the prelude, Wen Yan's ethereal and clean voice sounded, her red lips parted slightly, and the lyrics came out clearly from her mouth.

I wanted to fly in the sky
I also wanted to go to the bottom of the sea
the sky is very blue
the sun is warm
I like the sun in the winter afternoon
I also like the golden color of fallen leaves in autumn
I tiptoed forward step by step
Why didn't I see hope
i'm still a child

child who didn't grow up
please give me a light
let me go on the voyage
……

When she sang, she had a childlike innocent and satisfied smile on her face. However, after the interlude ended and the second piece of music played, Wen Yan didn't continue to sing in time.

She stood on the stage, standing quietly, still with a peaceful smile on her face, like a cute doll.

It wasn't until Yin Xi rushed up from the stage to hug her that the smile on her face turned blank.

original……

She can't hear.

She couldn't smell the familiar scent of the man, couldn't feel his strong heartbeat, couldn't see his face, couldn't hear his cries, everything about him, she had completely lost.

When she met Yin Xi, who was 24 years old, he trampled on her dreams and ruined her love.

24-year-old Wen Yan reunited with 30-year-old Yin Xi. He treated her like a treasure and tried his best to make up for all her love.

Wen Yan doesn't know if Yin Xi is talking to herself, she only has one thing to say to him.

Yin Xi, if I met you now, how wonderful it would be!
That way, none of the damage will happen, we'll have a lovely baby, maybe more than one, and we'll be fine till the end of time...

You are the miss I realized painfully after I was covered in bruises.

Between us, there is no reunion, only farewell.

Mr. Yin, long time no see.

Mr. Yin, see you again...

(End of this chapter)