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Chapter 117 I Don't Want To Leave Any Regrets

In Huayang Palace, the Empress Dowager Huayang looked at the strand of long hair that she held in her hand with a heavy expression. Among the long black hair, several white hairs were particularly glaring.

Even the city government of the Empress Dowager Huayang couldn't control the true thoughts in her heart at this time, she was being shrouded in an unprecedented fear.

She is aging.This is what every woman dreads.

Empress Dowager Huayang, who suddenly realized this problem, grabbed another lock of hair. Sure enough, there were still several strands of white hair in this lock of long hair.

"Ling'er, help me take a look, do I have a lot of gray hair?" The Empress Dowager Huayang trembled.

"Ling'er?" Finding that Mi Ling behind her was not moving, the Empress Dowager Huayang couldn't help calling out again.

"Ah?" Mi Ling, who was holding the bamboo slip in her hand, suddenly woke up, and even dropped the bamboo slip in her hand to the ground.

"What are you thinking?" The Empress Dowager Huayang turned around and asked the girl who was frantically picking up the fallen bamboo slips.

"It's nothing." Mi Ling, who picked up the bamboo slips, tried her best to calm down.

"Help me see how many white hairs I have on my head." The Empress Dowager Huayang didn't ask any more questions, but brought the topic back to herself.

Mi Ling, who put the bamboo slips on the dressing table, picked up the comb on one side and combed her long hair according to the Empress Dowager Huayang's wishes, while observing the number of white hairs in it.

After a long time, when the pressure in the Empress Dowager Huayang's heart was getting heavier, I heard Mi Ling say: "Although there are some, it is far from many."

"It can't be called a lot?" The Queen Mother Huayang was not relieved by this answer, but kept pondering.

"If it's not a lot, then it's not a lot." The Empress Dowager Huayang who recognized the reality suddenly became very calm.

Previously, she still had a little fantasy, but now she has to accept this cruel reality, she is still old after all, this is an irresistible force in life, even she, in the face of the years, can only bow her head and accept her fate.

This is the most equitable power in the world.

"People have their own attitudes at every age. Auntie, you don't need to be so sad." Mi Ling comforted.

"You, don't comfort others if you don't know how to comfort others. You like this make me worry about your future situation." The Empress Dowager Huayang couldn't laugh or cry when she faced the honest and overbearing grandniece, and she really forgot for a while. Sorrow over the passing of one's youth.

"I didn't." Mi Ling argued.

But then she thought of another sentence from the Empress Dowager Huayang, but she didn't know how to answer it.

her future?What will her future be?

She also didn't know that she came to Qin State with her elder brother Chang Pingjun three years ago and knew why she came to Qin State.

Facing her father's plan, she didn't feel anything, not to mention hating it, but she didn't like it either.

She is like a bystander watching other people's arrangements for her. This is the fate of most women in this era, and a royal princess like her is no exception, even worse than an ordinary woman.

She didn't resist such an arrangement, because even if there was no King Qin, there would be others, but as she got older, she had other desires.

Although she still won't be depressed because of the possible bad future, but now she has extravagant hopes, and this extravagant hope that shouldn't have made this girl who has always been quiet have become more and more entangled recently.

"You seem to be upset these days." The Empress Dowager Huayang looked at the girl in front of her, as if she wanted to see something different from her eyebrows.

But the girl remained silent, as if she could hide herself better in this way.

"Let me think about it, when did you change." The Empress Dowager Huayang thought while walking with extremely small steps.

Amid the girl's uneasiness, the Empress Dowager Huayang finally grasped something.

"If I remember correctly, your change started when you celebrated the birthday of Chengyu's child, and was there anything special about that day?"

Although the Empress Dowager Huayang was asking, from her expression, it could already be seen that she was already sure about the answer that she could not speak.

"And if there is anything special to say that day, that is, during the time when you sent the king away, what did the king tell you at that time?" The words of the Empress Dowager Huayang interrupted the girl's best luck.

"Your Majesty said, what will I do in this palace." Seeing that she could no longer hide it, the girl simply told the truth. As for lying, she still couldn't do it to the Empress Dowager Huayang.

"Why are you here?" The Empress Dowager Huayang paused.

How can I deal with myself? This sentence is not talking about myself, my grandniece, but also talking about myself.

How should she deal with herself in this royal palace?The Empress Dowager Huayang looked at the young girl with heartache in her eyes.

She didn't want the girl in front of her to follow in her footsteps, not to mention that she was different from herself.

She was married to Mr. Anping who was over forty years old. Since then, she has lost the illusion and hope that a young girl should have.

In the ensuing years, she fulfilled a role as a political creature very well. As for women, she has almost forgotten that she is a woman.

This kind of life made her lose a lot while gaining power.

For Mi Ling, the grand-niece who has been raised by her since she was a child, the Empress Dowager Huayang hopes that her future will not be like her own, and she deserves a better future.

If she had some hesitation about this idea before, then after the girl told the Queen Mother Huayang exactly what Ying Zheng said to her at that time, these hesitation completely disappeared.

"Your Majesty has really figured out other people's thoughts." The Empress Dowager Huayang sighed.

Don't say it's my grandniece, even if I could hear these words from Mr. Anping back then, then she would definitely look different now.

At that time, a kind of gentleness that could soften any woman was worth every woman's flock to.

"Are you struggling with this problem these days?" Queen Mother Huayang asked.

Mi Ling nodded slightly.

"You just need to remember one thing. In the future, you will be the wife of the king. As for other things, you don't need to think about it." The Empress Dowager Huayang said solemnly.

"But I..." The girl showed a rare hesitation, does her identity allow her to do this?
"Your Majesty can think about you like this, but those people in Chu State didn't care about your situation at all when you were about to get married. Do you think you need to consider your other identity?" The Queen Mother Huayang squinted The bamboo slips on the side said disdainfully.

The opponents I think can think about myself, but the relatives I think don't care about it. This makes the Queen Mother Huayang who has been worrying about Chu for half her life, only disappointed.

I am old, and I have to live for myself.

Mrs. Huayang, who discovered her own aging, suddenly envied that daughter-in-law Zhao Ji whom she had always looked down upon. A woman who can live like that is worthy of coming to this world.

Maybe my regret can be compensated by Linger.Empress Dowager Huayang thought to herself.

　Thank you for your monthly ticket support, today is a bit fierce, and I want to reward you with book coins, I seem to see my golden thighs.

　　
　
(End of this chapter)