Le Xiaomi youth sadomasochism collection

Chapter 107 Liang Sheng, can we not be sad (107)
Unworthy · Complaints (2)
Or, perhaps in some subconscious mind, Cheng Tianen is to me a kind of..."relative"? !Alas, this relative is really enough to love and kill each other.

Or, on a deeper level, in his harmless state, in my heart, he is the man of my best friend, classmate Jinling?
That's right, my best friend's man passed out, so I have to watch him wake up no matter what.

In fact, I just glanced back at Cheng Tianyou who was unconscious on the ICU bed at the moment he passed out.I think, at this moment, if he was here, he would definitely be by Tianen's side.Whether Tianen is a devil with teeth and claws, or an angel who fell into the world.

This reason is probably enough.

Owing too much, always eager to repay.

Cheng Tianen saw me and didn't speak.

After being furious, he calmed down instead.

He was lying on the bed, under the bright light, his face was full of tranquility and perfection.I think he interpreted well what is called "life is as gorgeous as summer flowers, and death is as quiet and beautiful as autumn leaves".

Later, every time I think back to this moment, I regret that I didn't take a photo of him and send it to WeChat Moments, and then I added these two sentences of interpretation, and then I gave myself a like.

Eunuch Wang said, Second Young Master, the doctor asked you to rest more.After finishing speaking, he glanced at me, which meant that it was better to leave, so as not to disturb my Tianen's sleep.

I felt that I was bored, and I cared about Tianyou wholeheartedly. When I wanted to leave, Cheng Tianen called to me. He coughed lightly, and said to Wang Siping, buy her a plane ticket and let her leave.

I froze for a moment, then turned around abruptly, and I said, I am a patient...

He raised his head, calm as if seeing through at a glance, and said, you are just worried about him.

After a moment of silence, he sighed and said, Chamber is here, what else can you worry about?If my grandfather loses anyone, it is impossible for him to lose his elder brother.

I didn't say anything, it was something I didn't want to be told.

I looked at Tian En, bowed my head and said, he is not awake, how can I leave with peace of mind?

Cheng Tianen looked at me, his tone was flat, his words were still poignant, and he said, do you want to bear the debt of conscience because you love him or because you love yourself?In fact, it's just for your own peace of mind, right?

I bowed my head and said, whatever you want.

Cheng Tianen's voice was very weak, as if he had experienced a serious illness.

He said, my brother would like to take you very seriously, but our old man will never tolerate you.

He said sarcastically, back then, he was only a cool student, and his old man had a lot of dissatisfaction with you.Today, you "bang" a bolt from the blue in front of his old man, and you have an affair with his darling, his eldest grandson, and the eldest son of the Cheng family whom he put all his heart and soul into!You don't know how much his old man misses you being struck to death by lightning!
Speaking of this, Tianen sneered jokingly, "His left hand seduces the grandson of the family, and his right hand seduces the grandson of the family, whoever it is, will hack you."Do you really think of yourself as "leading the yellow on the left, Qingcang on the right, brocade hat and sable fur, and thousands of riders rolling Hiraoka"?

I am silent.

He flaunts that he is a poet, I have to flaunt that I am dumb.

Cheng Tianen looked at me, then at Wang Siping, and signaled him to go out.

After Wang Siping left, Cheng Tianen looked at me and said, You...didn't you just ask me how much I hate him?
Having said that, he smiled wryly.

A man who is usually so proud has such clear pain engraved on his face.This pain along each of his expression lines, each vein, carved into his exquisite jade-like face.

He said, then I'll tell you.

He took a deep breath, and said slowly, these years... these years... I always thought that I hated him and wished that he died!But just the day before yesterday, when the doctor told me...he may never wake up in this life...I would rather die than him!I wish I could replace him!Ginger!
Having said that, he shook his head and said softly, he is my brother.

The voice of a child is very sticky.

He said, Jiang Sheng, he is my brother.

From childhood to adulthood, I grew up behind him. I liked the things he liked, watched the cartoons he watched, ate the candies he loved, and played the games he played... He gave my father and brother Such a pet... This kind of pet, a pet that can't be melted away.Jiang Sheng, you will not be unclear, because you also have an elder brother who doted on you and loved you like a treasure since childhood...

But it is precisely because of these loves that I... later... hated him so much... I thought that anyone in this world could hurt me, but I never thought that my beloved brother, The brother who loves me the most...will make me lose my legs...make me lose the chance to stand in this world...I can't even touch the basketball I love...

Having said that, his tears fell quietly, as if they were blood oozing from his bones.

He didn't look at me, he looked out the window.Such a stubborn and monstrous person, at this moment, actually confides his heart and soul to a woman who is like an enemy with a complicated and delicate relationship with him.

These shady complex emotions of love and hatred have fermented in his heart so violently and unstoppably for a long time.

No one can save him.

He smiled and said, when I lost my legs and was pushed out of the operating room, the effect of the anesthesia had not worn off, and I saw him crying badly... That was the first time I saw him On weekdays, he who I regard as a hero cried so embarrassingly.Jiang Sheng, from childhood to adulthood, he is the most amazing person in my heart... I comforted him, I smiled and said, brother, the operation doesn't hurt...it really doesn't hurt, don't cry...Jiang Sheng, that year , I was only a teenager... I had my legs amputated, but I comforted him, don't cry... I still tried to smile at him and make him laugh...

Because he is my dearest big brother...

Because I know, he didn't push down the ladder on purpose.Because I know, he doesn't know I'm on it...

Over the years, I have convinced myself over and over again.

However, I can't help but hate him.

Jiang Sheng, I hate myself who "hates him" to death, I hate how I can "hate him", how can I "hate him".

But, Jiang Sheng... I lost my legs... Every long night I woke up in the dark, it was so cold in the empty quilt...

But what's even colder is that when you see that in a family as big as the Cheng family, everyone respectfully calls the second young master the eldest and the second young master short in front of you, but behind your back, they curse in a vicious and vicious way. When you're crippled, crippled... your heart can't help being out of balance.

You watched the great hero in your mind become more and more respected by others, becoming the hope and sole heir of the Cheng family in their hearts, but you would never be able to become a hero like him.You can only be the Second Young Master... No!You are not the second young master, you are a "second"!Poor thing!wreck...

Those people support you not because they respect you and rely on you, but because they want to take care of you and guard you... This feeling... This feeling...Jiang Sheng...

He could hardly speak.

In an instant, he smiled again and said, I could have everything he had, prestige, support, wealth, power... But, I can't have anything... From my grandfather to my subordinates... …

Hehe, for my own good?

No!They are doing it for their own good!
If... If the person lying in the intensive care unit is me, if their young master orders not to tell the old man the news of my injury, then none of them dare to report it, and I died of illness because of them Right now, they don't dare to tell the truth in front of grandpa... And my grandpa...will definitely not punish the perfect family heir in his eyes for losing me...

It's just the loss of a useless second young master, a cripple, and a rotten waste...

I stood opposite him in a daze, but I didn't know how to comfort him.

I have always had only disgust and hatred for him. Over the years, there have been constant conflicts and framings between me and him, but one day, he exposed his wounds and his heart to me without any cover. The heart is actually complicated.

It's like standing at a crossroads, at a loss for direction.

This is Cheng Tianen, who I have never seen before, a soft young man full of struggles in his heart, no longer just the devilish boy full of hatred and revenge in his heart.

The calmer his voice was, the more frightened I felt, not because I was afraid that he would do something crazy to hurt me, but because I was afraid that he would hurt himself.

He looked up at me, stopped talking, and said, Jiang Sheng, if I tell you that I have been keeping news from the Cheng family... It is also to protect you for the eldest brother, do you believe it?I really don't know what to do.

protect me?I stared blankly at him.

Cheng Tianen smiled, shook his head and said, I know you don't believe it, don't say you don't believe it, even I can't believe it myself, hahaha——

He looked ahead for a long time, and sighed, "Although I hate you for making his life and death uncertain, I also know that you are his favorite.His life is given to you, no matter how much I hate you, no matter how much I hate you, I have to keep you for him.

He paused and said, so, I have never dared to tell grandpa the news here in Sanya. I was just afraid that grandpa would know about your scourge-like existence if he sent someone over if he knew something happened to his elder brother.Brother is in a coma, who can protect you?
He sighed, my grandfather is not me... The word "merciful" does not exist in his dictionary.In his eyes, you are the catastrophe that will destroy the perfect successor of his Cheng family... So, Jiang Sheng, listen to me, take the first flight out of Sanya.No matter where you go, don't have any contact with the Cheng family.

He said, if my brother wakes up...it doesn't matter if he looks for you or gives up on you, that's for later.But, I want to tell you, the ends of the earth, be careful of that... old fox of the Cheng family...

I looked at him, a little confused.

He smiled wryly and said, Chamberlain.

10 What I can't get out of is that that night, the man I was willing to give my heart to witnessed all this.

That night, a subtle change took place in the relationship between Tianen and me.

It seems to have a deeper understanding of a certain person, but also seems to be more incomprehensible to a certain person.

In this world, it is probably difficult to have complete love or complete hate.Emotions are always complicated, and it is difficult to fully describe it with one word.

For so many years, rather than saying that he "hates" Cheng Tianyou, it is more appropriate to say that he "resents" him.

Tian En is a little wolf cub, even at this moment, he retracts his sharp claws and stays docile in front of you, but he still can't get rid of the wolf nature in his bones.

Of course, I'm not a "Holy Mother", and I can't forgive him for the harm he gave me in the past because of his confession of inner pain and profoundness.

It is the safest mode of getting along between me and him.

It was getting dawn.

When Eunuch Wang presented me with a plane ticket as if by imperial decree, I told Tian En that I could not leave.

At that time, I felt that twelve divine beasts were bouncing back and forth in Cheng Tianen's eyes—can't go?Didn't we agree? !
He looked at me for a long time and said, Jiang Sheng, I have something to tell you.

I looked at him and said lightly, you said.

He paused every word, and said in a warning, you can't enter Cheng's house!Either my brother or my younger brother.No matter they regard you as life or treasure.

I lowered my head and said, he is now in doubt because of my life and death, so I just leave... I can't do it.I'm also bothered to tell Qian Bo that I won't have anything to do with their young master, but I want to see him wake up and make sure he's okay... Otherwise, I won't be able to live with peace of mind in this life.

Speaking of this, I sighed, smiled, and said, don't worry, when he wakes up, I will definitely not have any contact with him again.I know, I... don't deserve it.

As early as the night Xiaoyushan met Lu Wenjun, I was already unworthy.

My eyes drifted out of the window, the dark night, every night when he was gentle and relative.

All the good things he has done to me.I used to think that in this life, I couldn't give him a complete heart, but I could always give him my complete body.

But in the end, nothing is complete.

This is a knot in my heart that can never be untied, a catastrophe that I can never get out of.

I do not want this.

However, I will never get out of Xiaoyu Mountain that night.That person that night, like a nightmare, chased and entangled me, and I can't escape in this life.

What I can't get out of is that that night, the man I was willing to try to give my heart to witnessed all this.

I belong to him, he belongs to me.

Henceforth, no matter how I unravel myself, it's not my fault—

But this is the way this world is, when others do evil and make mistakes, it is always us who are the most innocent who are punished!
At this moment, when I said the word "unworthy", although my heart ached, I felt relieved.

To tell the truth requires courage; to face one's own heart also requires courage.

Cheng Tianen didn't speak, just stared at me for a long time before he lay back on the pillow, leaned against the head of the bed, sighed helplessly, and said, okay, okay.

He said, if you are killed by my grandfather...

Having said that, he paused, and then said, I will simply be a good person to the end, collect your body with my own hands, burn you, and give your ashes to my brother.Oh, this can be regarded as fulfilling you. If you can't marry my brother in life, you can stay with him even after death.Hearing his words, my head was full of black lines.How difficult it is to drive a disheartened person crazy.

I asked him, do you have to make your grandpa so scary?

Cheng Tianen frowned slightly, raised his eyebrows slightly, and said, um, what else?
Then, he took out a box of candies from nowhere, ate one at random, and threw one at me.

Then, I took it, looked at it, and ate it after him.

When Assistant Qian jumped in, I was chewing candy carefully, and Cheng Tianen lay down and watched me eating candy, extremely lazy, with a posture of "I am weak and sick".

Assistant Qian really "jumped" in, he saw that I was still alive under Cheng Tianen's claws, he was inconceivable, slightly embarrassed, he explained to Cheng Tianen, I...I thought...

Cheng Tianen lay down lazily, with an arrogant little expression on his face, like a wolf cub after drinking and eating, licking the wolf's paw, and said, do you think I ate her?
Assistant Qian smiled awkwardly, but said, ha ha, how can it be!
Cheng Tianen threw the candy box directly in his face, and the second young master's arrogant nature exploded, he said, shut up!Don't say "huh" to me!
Suddenly, I felt a little dizzy, and my whole body shook slightly.

Seeing me like this, Cheng Tianen turned his body slightly, leaning his head with his arms, with an expression of accomplishment.

He waved his little wolf's paw at Assistant Qian and said, pack her up and send her away!Your father, Uncle Qian is coming, and our old man sent him here.I'm afraid, I can't keep my brother's treasure!
Assistant Qian hurriedly supported me, turned to look at Tian En, and asked anxiously, Second Young Master, what is she, is this?
Cheng Tianen stretched his little wolf's waist, and said with a scheming look, there is medicine in the sugar pill, which is enough for her to sleep, so hurry up and send it to me!

Assistant Qian was in a hurry, and he spoke in a questioning tone, how could you use the bad trick of picking up other women on your brother's woman?

Cheng Tianen showed no taboo, sneered, bad move?How can you say it's a bad move? !Master is so vicious, if she really used a bad trick, she might not be able to identify whose woman it is now.Qian Xiaolian, please be content!

He called Assistant Qian "Little Lian" to ridicule him for caring too much.

I almost spit out a mouthful of old blood.

Ah, Cheng Tianen, I was about to "renew my mind" and have a new understanding of you, but you took advantage of my inattention to trick me with sugar pills. You should have known it earlier, how could you be credulous, how could you be a wolf cub? !
Cheng Tianen gave me a wink, and that expression was--Small, don't be stubborn with me!Cinderella is a little awkward, you think I am Cheng Tianyou.I am a wolf!This angered me, I used your ashes to stir the sea mud to make a mask, and put it on the pig's face.

As for what happened next, I don't know.

But I know, I wasted Cheng Tianlang... Oh no, Cheng Tianen's painstaking efforts - just when Assistant Qian dragged me or hugged me, trying to pack me up and hide me, the man called "Chamber" "The mysterious figure quietly arrived in front of Cheng Tianen's ward.

On the phone, he said with a smile that he would arrive at noon tomorrow, but he was airborne at dawn, making people unprepared.

Assistant Qian looked up, hehe, a father fell from the sky, and instantly felt his eyes go dark, "baji" put me on the ground.

I was not yet completely unconscious, so I let out a muffled "ouch" in pain.

He felt something was wrong, so he quickly helped me, then tremblingly, he called out to the plain-clothed old man over sixty years old, Dad——

I was dazed, and I responded, hey——

Assistant Qian's face turned green immediately, he felt awkward and let go of his little hand, and I was thrown to the ground again with a bang.

This time, I didn't say "Ouch", but Cheng Tianen's face became serious, and with the support of Eunuch Wang, he stood up, smiled, and blocked me behind him, as if he was determined to protect me.

In the bottom of everyone's heart, there is something they want to protect - people who care about themselves.

At this time, a nurse hurried in from the outside and asked, Cheng Tianyou's family?Who is Jiang Sheng?patient……

I want to say I am.

But Cheng Tianen's big sugar pill for picking up girls is so vicious, I have been so confused that only a trace of consciousness is left, and this faint consciousness is not enough for me to recognize the thing that will turn me into sea mud or a big teacup. Chamber, is fleeting.

The medicinal power is so strange, it makes people want to laugh, and it feels like a smiling spring.

(End of this chapter)