the most beautiful time

Chapter 40
I saw a freshman boy on campus, standing on the side of the road, soliciting "Happy Birthday" wishes written by 1 people, and sending them to the girl he had a crush on.

Some people will stop, pick up a pen, write down their blessings, and give the shy boy a smile of encouragement; most of them understand the fear and anxiety of a boy's secret love in the sweet love time, and are willing to share the experience they are going through. Give him a share of the happiness.Some people looked at a landscape, casually inspected the boy and the banner in front of him, asked if he was interested in giving it to his girlfriend or the girl he was pursuing, and continued to call and leave if he was not interested.There were also people who didn't even have time to stop, riding their bicycles past like lightning, only the wind blowing from the bicycles blew up a corner of the bright red banner on the ground and dragged in some indifferent sand and dust.

But the boy still stood there with a smile, facing those sweeping eyes of discussion, pointing and scrutiny with the abundant and fragile courage in his youth.The girl he had a crush on may have also glimpsed him from a corner, but she didn't know about it, or she never paid attention to this young boy, and she didn't know that the signature with different handwriting was about to Give it to yourself.Even, she once laughed at his various inappropriate behaviors, as well as his sudden clumsy speech when they met, at a moment that she had long forgotten.

In fact, what I want to know more is what happens after the boy completes this romantic act.Will he have the courage to give it to the girl he has a crush on?Could it be that this sincerity, in the eyes of the girl, is just a kind of ridiculousness and stupidity?If a girl is moved by a boy, and the two of them come together hand in hand, spend four years of romance on campus without being stained with any worldly dust, and then step into the daily trivial life of daily necessities, then, the boy's romance that costs nothing, Can it still give girls surprises and shocks?Would she accuse him of being unrealistic?Throw away the wildflowers he picked from the roadside, and complain that he doesn't want to be single-minded about earning money, but engages in these useless occupations?One day, when she recalled the romance of him signing happy birthday with tens of thousands of people on campus, would she dismiss it from the bottom of her heart?

This is of course a long time in the future.For the boy standing on the campus, his heart is as pure as a clear spring in the mountains. To him, such worldly troubles are just a ray of light in the sky, not only not a threat, but because of the distance, it appears clear and bright.

But this kind of life, which has become increasingly turbid in the time, is by our side, passing by every day.Those romances that touched us deeply in the green years were washed away by the turbid river, and the dry and skinny riverbed appeared.You may find it incredible, how can you collect all the candy wrappers he sent and store them in an iron box?You would still laugh at how unkempt he was at that time, turning yourself into an artistic youth, standing downstairs and singing to you every day, just so that you could hear him and stick your head out to see him.And talking about him putting a piece of sweet potato in his arms and sending it to you downstairs in the dormitory against the cold wind all the way, you will feel indifferent and say, who made him have no money at that time and couldn't take a taxi to find yourself.

That innocent boy is just a silly shadow in your mundane memories, standing there stubbornly, but he doesn't know that the rose in his hand will wither and wither quickly for you who love vanity.Romance is worthless, and the greatest charm of a man is to support a family pragmatically, buy a house and a car, and live and work in peace and contentment.

And at this time, in his eyes, you are no longer the pure and charming girl who was worthy of him standing all day and night just to watch you pass by.When you blatantly accused him of not being motivated, not knowing how to communicate with leaders, and not being good at expressing himself, the newspaper he picked up not only blocked your face of eagerness for quick success, but also because you once shared a bowl of noodles. , but the love and nostalgia that cherish each other.

Many times, the romance of those youths is just like this, being indifferently driven away by our fluffy life and obsession with luxury and material desires.We think that romance is a candlelight dinner in a high-end hotel, but we don’t know that it has always been hidden in the mundane world, and it is ourselves who dismissed it dismissively.

There are two Chihuahuas in the family, the boy is Keke and the girl is Niuniu.

I met them separately in an obscure corner of the street.Among them, Ke Ke is being held in a narrow cage by a man who desperately needs money.But it didn't protest the confinement by barking vigorously like other dogs.He was even somewhat indifferent to the fact that he was about to be sold by his master as a commodity.He just lay quietly in the slightly dirty cage, looking sadly at the leaves rolled up by the car on the side of the road.It was already late autumn, and not many people stayed for him and his master.The man's leather shoes were covered with a light layer of dust, and the last touch of the sunset in the cold autumn fell on it, showing the loneliness and helplessness of life.

At this moment, the dog named Ke Ke turned his head, stuck out his small pink tongue, and went down to the ground, licking the lonely layer of dust on the owner's worn leather shoes.My hurried feet stopped for such gentle licking, and bought it without bargaining.

When I hugged Ke Ke and walked through the old street full of stalls, Ke Ke suddenly yelled and scared me.Then I heard another scream of excitement, as if responding to Coco's cry in the autumn wind.Looking around, I saw another delicate Chihuahua standing in the cage, shyly looking at Coco in my arms.And the middle-aged woman who sold me stopped me enthusiastically, and said, girl, find a companion for your Chihuahua. I saw that the two of them were destined, and they were so far apart, so affectionate, and said Not sure, they were husband and wife in their last life.

Finally, I couldn't bear such a romantic explanation from the woman, and took the beautiful Niuniu home with me.When I hugged the ground from left to right and walked on the road, I almost wanted to sing loudly under the curious gaze of passers-by.However, my two dogs, regardless of the face of the new owner, gnawed back and forth in "broad daylight" and made all kinds of uncivilized intimate behaviors.

Since then, Ke Ke and Niu Niu, the young couple, have become legal citizens of my family.They frolicked and played on the sofa in the living room, fighting for the remote control like me and Chen, not to change the channel, but just to enjoy the time when there is no one else in love.Sometimes one of them will sleep sleepily on the sofa, while the other must be loyally guarding the side.Seeing someone passing by, it immediately stood up vigilantly, as if afraid that we would disturb the sound sleep of its beloved wife (husband).

Most of the time, the role of guardian is played by Coco.The beautiful Niuniu is like a willful and vain little girl. From time to time, she will play some small temper or play some tricks to make Keke anxious, angry, troubled, sad, and lost for her.Whenever guests come to the house, whether they are male, female, old or young, Niu Niu will pounce on them coquettishly, snuggle into their arms, and deliberately pretend to be a young girl who is full of spring, and call out a few times shyly, and use such indulgent calls to arouse Keke. Chasing and protesting visitors.

I can see that the love between the two dogs is not completely equal to that of me and Chen.Coco is always the one panting and chasing after him; he leaves the best sausage for Niuniu, escorts her when going out, calls her home when it rains, uses his own temperature when it’s cold, If someone reprimands Niu Niu, he will be the first to go up to comfort her, and at the same time, he will not forget to give an angry roar to the person who bullied her.

Their love for each other like this often makes me and Chen, who quarrel endlessly about big and small things, feel ashamed.We argued over who mopped the floor, got angry over who forgot to turn off the water heater, blamed who went home to cook first, argued over who should pay more, and argued over whose parents came to live first. Preoccupied.

When we were arguing, Keke and Niuniu would timidly squat in the corner, watching us cautiously.But Ke Ke would even drag Niuniu to the balcony vigorously in order to avoid that Niuniu would be frightened by the sound of my throwing things.There was a box for sundries, and he let Niuniu hide in it, while he poked his head out from time to time to see if our war had subsided.Ke Ke doesn’t know, in our eyes, he is just a puppy who is too weak to protect Niu Niu, but he still works hard, pretending to be a hero, protecting Niu Niu he loves , not willing to let her suffer a little grievance.

This kind of love finally happened one day when I took Niu Niu out alone.I was the one holding it, and when I was shopping, because I liked a piece of clothing, she, who was spoiled by Cocoa, left me and ran to the street in the spare time of trying it on.She thought that Ke Ke would guard her every step of the way as before, but she forgot that beside her were careless human beings.And she just left her master and became a stray dog ​​who could never find her way back.

But Ke Ke, who was waiting for Niu Niu's return, was neither crazy nor running away.He just waited by the door every day, waiting for Niuniu to come back.It has always believed that she will come back, believed that she did not leave because of capriciousness, believed that she could hear his cry, believed that she could dream of his tears.

Yes, Coco has since become a sad poet, with tears in his eyes.No one can understand such affection, my friends, come and tease him as usual, saying, where is your girl?Whenever at this time, his eyes would be filled with tears in an instant, and then he would ignore anyone's teasing and squat under the sofa, no matter how many times we called, he would not come out of the darkness.

I thought of my ruthlessness, quarreled with Chen, and he never returned home. I was never worried, and I was even grateful that I could monopolize the computer at home alone.I didn't think about whether he had eaten, whether he had a place to live, whether he was drinking again to relieve his worries.

It was Ke Ke's infatuated waiting every day that made me understand that in many cases, human love may not be more noble or deeper than the love between two dogs.

And a pure love is a heart, in the dark, the helplessness and sadness hidden alone.

Have you ever missed the person you lost in sleepless nights?

In your heart, she was once an angel, a princess, a kitten, and a puppy.She is so charming and pure, all the good things in the world are in her bright and clean smile, once she blooms, all the troubles in life are insignificant, at that moment you only have her, and you only want her.

When was it, you gradually compromised with life, no longer willing to be that strong man who can resist everything for her.You are willing to be mediocre in life, and everything about her suddenly loses its strength.Just like the earth loses its gravity, you also become light and empty, and even walk upside down, feeling insignificant.You who have lost your fighting spirit, start to quarrel with her frequently, because of those trivial and vulgar things, you are tired of her desire and obsession with an expensive dress, you don't like her mentioning the boudoir in front of you Your close friend is married to a rich and nice man, and you hate the disappointment on her face when you have nothing in your pocket, and you can’t forgive her for saying hello to an old classmate when she ran into her former classmate on the street and rolled up the window to say hello. You who are riding a bicycle are suddenly indifferent.

You never thought about facing these overlapping conflicts and annoyances in the past, you just brushed past them, frowned, and shook them off in disgust like a piece of mud on a trouser leg in a rainy day.But you forgot that you were so careless and perfunctory that you threw away the fragile button that once cried on your heart.

If she was abandoned in a warm flower bush, or on a lake with silvery lights, or on a stage with brilliant lights and shadows, then you would not feel so sad or contemptuous, but she fell into a pile of wild weeds, He was picked up by another layman who was worthless except for a little money.

Every time someone asks the reason, you dismiss it. Because of her, you also feel that it hurts your face-how could you fall in love with such a bad and vulgar person?He would leave you and run away with that man just for a one-carat ring!Whether the ring is real or not is uncertain!Perhaps there is even more outrageous, just a Haagen-Dazs sold herself at a low price, she is no longer a little girl, how could she be attracted by the temptation advertisement of Haagen-Dazs?

A middle-aged man once complained at a party that he thought he loved a woman very much, but one day she was fascinated by a dress. He thought 1000 yuan was too expensive, so he didn’t buy it for her, but it was only half a dress. A month later, she couldn't wait to put on that dress and run off with a man.She really can't wait, is she afraid that the skirt will be as old as herself after summer?

But who would think about her who left and never returned?According to your description and outsiders watching her, she is a materialistic woman who can never turn the case over. She loves money far more than she insists on you; it's just those little jealousy and vanity that gnaw her heart. In people's ridicule and white eyes, how to ferment, rot, and breed countless bacteria, but you are always indifferent.You have never listened to her joy and sorrow for a piece of jewelry; you don't know how she can't even walk comfortably wearing that last year's shoes in front of her friends; She is always full of fear and anxiety about life; and when you just glanced at her lazily when she was crying, then lay down on the sofa and fell asleep drowsily, how could she be so unreasonable as to take off your blanket Beating and beating to prevent you from having a moment of peace?

All are trivial things that seem insignificant, but when they accumulate, she finally finds someone else for the sweetness of an ice cream.And you, when complaining about her worldly material desires, still don’t understand that what she wants, many times, is not because you are unable to give, but because you suddenly forgot how to love, forgot love The loss is related to an ice cream and a ring, but that is just a reason that looks powerful but is actually fragile.

And what really lost her was your own heart that died at some point.

(End of this chapter)