Flash marriage into love: ex-husband please go out

Chapter 385 I'm Not Reconciled to Losing to Him
This meal was boring, Cheng Xiaoxiao was thinking about Lu Jinyan, and there was no smile on her face, Yinqi could also see that as long as he appeared, she would never want to occupy any position in her heart.

It's just not reconciled, after working hard for so long, it seems that she is getting closer, but she still hasn't made it to the last step. With Lu Jinyan in this world, Xiaoxiao won't take a second look at herself.

Xiaoxiao used to say that he didn't understand love, but now he finally understands and understands, but why is he so sad?

"Xiaoxiao! Can we chat?"

As if knowing what he was going to say, Cheng Xiaoxiao put down her chopsticks and handed Lu Ming to Shen Qing.

The two directly found a seat in the upstairs coffee shop and sat down. The lighting was dim and the environment was elegant. It was originally a dating spot. In their hearts, they had their own concerns, without any joy.

Spinning the words on the tip of her tongue, Cheng Xiaoxiao looked at the man in front of her while holding a cup of coffee. He was completely different from when they first met.

The changes she saw from him made her both sad and moved. There are many things he has done for herself, each of which has a profound impact on her. If the person she met first was not Lu Jinyan, then Yin Qi What will happen to her?

"Xiaoxiao!" He took the initiative to speak, breaking the silence.

She looked calm, waiting for his next unspeakable words.

"Is it impossible for us?"

She put the cup down, with waves in her eyes, but she answered his words cruelly.

"I'm sorry, we... really have nothing to do."

"Why, Xiaoxiao, why can't you let him go? Lu Jinyan has avoided him for so many years, but you can easily forgive him, but I've been by your side for so many years, can't you see? You said I don't understand love, but now I'm all Here you go."

The words that have been suppressed for too long, the moment he said them, he found that it was not so difficult. His hoarse voice was rendered heartbreaking with sadness.

"I'm sorry, no matter whether he is good or not, I must admit that without Lu Jinyan, I would not be the me you met later. Some things are destined, even if he is not good, I still have no way to let go."

"Xiaoxiao, he can't see, are you really willing?"

Yin Qi didn't believe that a woman who lived a lifetime with a blind man would really be happy?

"No matter what he becomes, he is still Lu Jinyan and Lu Ming's father. This will not change. Thank you for taking care of me for so long, but gratitude cannot represent love. I don't love you. This is a fact, Yin Qi , a person's love is very bitter."

"Hehe!" He hooked his lips and smiled bitterly: "It turns out that everything you said is true."

She once said to him: If you haven't liked me yet, don't like me, if you like me, don't fall in love, a person's love is very bitter, yes, it's miserable, he feels it personally, but he can't get rid of it In a threesome, one of them is destined to be alone, and the world of love cannot tolerate a third party.

"Let go, I'm not worth your time, and I can't let him continue to live in an insecure world, he can't see, he only has me, you and the whole world."

"Then what if the invisible person is me?" Yin Qi had the last glimmer of hope.

She was silent, and there was a lot of sadness in her quiet eyes.

"Is that so, or can't it be?"

"No if, you have too many things, so if you don't get one of them, you will feel that the desire to conquer is very strong, but in fact it is not that good, and love is not that important. People will not die without love, but Lu Jinyan does not agree Same, he doesn't even have light, I promised him to be his eyes, so in this life, I can only be with him, and he only has me."

"You're right, but I'm still unwilling to lose to him."

He thought he didn't lose to Lu Jinyan in any way, the only mistake was that they met at the wrong time. Is that enough to sentence him to death?It was so unfair to him.

"But some people are irreplaceable. He is the one I can't replace in my heart. Yinqi, you're so smart, there's no way you don't know it all the time. You're deceiving yourself and others. It's time to end."

"Xiaoxiao, you are so cruel."

"I can only choose one, and that person is Lu Jinyan."

So I'm destined to hurt you, no matter whether you resent or not, you can't give more response, she can't leave a man who gave everything, and in the end only her, Cheng Xiaoxiao, is left in the whole world.

Yinqi took out a small red box from his pocket and put it on the table: "I've wanted to do this for a long time, but I always feel that the timing is wrong, and I'm afraid I won't have the chance in the future." He opened the box, and inside was a diamond Rings, look at the size, you know the value is not cheap.

"It will have a suitable owner."

"But I just want to give it to you."

Cheng Xiaoxiao pushed it away: "I'm sorry, I really can't accept it, it doesn't belong to me, maybe you will regret this decision now in the future, many people think that there will be no one in their life who can accept it before they meet the right person. Walk into my heart, but it's not, don't you think Lu Jinyan succeeded in replacing Zhou Qi'an?"

"Then why can't I replace him?"

"Because I'm not the right person."

"Xiaoxiao, I can't say enough about you. After three years of companionship, you can remain unmoved. I don't know what is so good about him. He is so good that he can make you desperate, willing to be lonely, and refuse to give me a little love."

She felt the coffee in her mouth was bitter, bitterer than ever before.

"Let's stop here. You will have a better choice of your own. No matter what, we will meet again in the future. I hope to see you happy."

"Xiaoxiao!" He pushed the box over: "Take it as an ordinary gift, accept it."

She shook her head: "If it's just an ordinary gift, I won't refuse it. What it means to me and to you is not so simple. For the sake of the three of us, take it back."

"Are we still friends in the future?"

"You are always welcome."

Cheng Xiaoxiao left, and Yin Qi kept looking at her back until she disappeared completely. The ring was still lying alone on the table. He picked it up and put it on his fingertips. His heart hurt so badly that he dared not breathe.

The Buddha said that there are seven sufferings in life, birth, old age, sickness, death, resentment and hatred, separation of love, nothing to ask for!
When Shen Qing sent Cheng Xiaoxiao downstairs, Lu Ming was already asleep, Shen Qing hugged him, Cheng Xiaoxiao carried the box, which contained part of the food, she really couldn't bear to watch that old man starve.

After putting Lu Ming on the bed, Shen Qing left. Cheng Xiaoxiao turned on the small light in the living room, took the key and went to the opposite side.

Fortunately, she knew that Guan had taken the key, otherwise she really didn't know if he would open the door for her. Even though she was mentally prepared, when she actually stepped into his house, her heart was still pulled hard.

It hurt to the bone like an electric shock. The whole living room was lifeless and pitch-black. She could barely see the outline of the room clearly through the open window.

There was a black figure on the sofa, sitting there quietly, like a sculpture, her tears rolled down her cheeks in an instant, did he spend the long darkness like this every day in the past few years?

For him, there is no difference between night and day, only the only dog ​​is here to accompany him, so how did he survive?

She loves and hates, and she feels sorry for him, how many things do she have to think about to survive the day, day after day, he is not crazy, and he can still appear in front of her intact.

The originally prepared speech was choked in his throat, and countless voices were rippling at this moment.

She walked over lightly, hugged him in front of him, and kissed his lips.

Lu Jinyan was shocked, and felt the familiar breath, hugged her with both hands, it was a subconscious reaction, he was even in a trance, he didn't know if he was dreaming or she came to find him.

"Xiaoxiao! Are you back?"

He vigorously responded to her kiss, turned his back on the guest, and controlled her entire body in his arms.

"Don't go, don't leave me!"

His hoarse voice was tinged with lust, deepening the kiss even more.

Until both of them were breathless and hugged each other tightly, each could hear each other's clear heartbeat, neither of them spoke, quietly enjoying the rare peace, reluctant to break it.

It took a long time for her to leave his arms, because she didn't turn on the light, so she couldn't see the expression on his face at the moment, but it didn't matter, and it didn't affect what she wanted to say to him next.

"Are you hungry?"

Lu Jinyan's stomach growled cooperatively.

"Mr. Lu, do you dare to play your temper next time?"

Lu Jinyan shook his head: "My wife is the biggest, you can do whatever you want."

She stood up from Lu Jinyan's arms, opened the box she brought, and moved it to him: "Then be obedient and eat. I have something to discuss with you after eating."

He suddenly felt as if it was his last meal before the guillotine.

"Xiaoxiao, are you planning to punish me?"

"You eat first, and I'll tell you when you're done."

Lu Jinyan had no choice but to pick up the box silently and eat quietly. Cheng Xiaoxiao turned on the headlight and poured him another glass of water. During the whole process, he organized words in his heart.

She had to reach a consensus with Lu Jinyan, a consensus that he could never break the contract.

He procrastinated and took more than 20 minutes to finish eating. Cheng Xiaoxiao had a lot of patience, so she waited quietly without urging him. When she wiped the corners of his lips with a tissue, Lu Jinyan knew that the sentence she was waiting for was finally coming.

When he decided not to go to dinner, he had already expected that according to her temperament, she would definitely have three chapters with him when she came back.

However, he waited for a long time, and it didn't happen as he thought, but a very gentle kiss, which could be felt even with her eyes closed because of her cautiousness.

"Xiao Xiao!"

"Did you feel it?" Cheng Xiaoxiao grabbed his hand and bit his lips again. This time, he used his strength and he let out a pained cry, but he didn't struggle: "Mr. Lu, if I bite you, you will feel pain." , but you give up on yourself and shut yourself up in this dark world alone, do you think I just hurt?"

She put his hand on her chest: "Look, I have a heartbeat, but it's because of you. I can ignore you for a while, but you can't keep avoiding me. You said you allowed me to be self-willed, but now you don't Keeping the promise, do you still want to escape?"

Her voice trembled, and hot tears dripped on the back of his hand: "I have waited for you for three years, not to see you continue to alienate me, no matter how many people outside say they like it in front of me, but here." She clutched her chest : "I can only hold you alone. I allow you to run rampant in my world, but you drive me away from your world. You are cruel to yourself, to me, to our children, and even more cruel."

(End of this chapter)