The Concubine's Survival Manual

Chapter 118

She smiled all the way, although she knew that this smile was probably a bit fake, or it could not be used to cover up, but this smile was the only bit of pride she had left.

As soon as Qinianzi entered the room, she heard the laughter of Lixia and other girls.

These days, the atmosphere in the mansion has been oppressive, and the maids dared not act loudly, that is, after a hundred days, they dared to relax a little and laugh a little.

Relatives or Yu Bei, others have also sang, this is also a normal thing.

But Qin Niangzi became irritable from the bottom of her heart, she went into the room without greeting anyone, took the door behind her, and hung up the small copper lock that was usually set and not used.

With the crisp sound of the brakes closing, her tears fell in response.

Ever since Qin Niangzi returned to Suzhou, she had never shed tears for herself so weakly.

She's never faced true desperation either.

In the past, the second wife conspired against the ninth brother, poisoning first and then slandering her. The siblings seemed to be stable, but in fact, when the stormy sea was in the storm, Seventh Lady never cried.

She believes that she can always wait for the opportunity to get rid of this confidant, and she knows that as long as she is alive, there are infinite possibilities.

Even when Xu Fengjia wanted to marry her desperately, and she ruthlessly refused, Qin Niangzi had never shed such turbulent tears. Although she was sad, this sadness was just a condolence, not that there was no way out. Desire to give up after having nowhere to go.

But now, she is desperate.

According to the orders of the parents and the words of the matchmaker, the Eldest Master and the Eldest Wife reached an agreement on her marriage for the first time. Those false promises in the past, "If the Seventh nods, the Mother will not agree." The wife left it behind.

Yes, when the two biological daughters are not involved, perhaps the eldest wife still has the leisure to play her role as a loving mother to the concubine daughters.After getting along for many years, or she has some affection for herself, when she said that the marriage is up to Qin Niangzi, Qi Niangzi believes that she is somewhat sincere.

But this bit of sincerity, after being overwhelmed by Wu Niangzi's death, how much is left?Compared with Second Lady and Fifth Lady, all concubines are pawns under the hands of the eldest wife. They can be placed wherever they want, and there is no room for a word of no!
She couldn't find any chance of life anymore, and in this situation, she couldn't see any way out!
The birth mother passed away before the child was full moon, Xu Fengjia is still so young, the government needs a mistress, it is okay for him not to renew after the anniversary, what about five years later, ten years later?
After all, the child is still young, so how could he not have any thoughts in his heart.

The eldest wife didn't let herself go, and she couldn't find a second candidate.She will definitely not let go!

The old man was thinking about it, but he didn't want to turn against the Xu family. This promise made by the Xu family can not only guarantee the inheritance rights of the grandson, but also ease the relationship between the two families. Ge Lao is in this position!

Unless you use force to break the coincidence, please ask Feng Jin to start and destroy the marriage contract of the two families from the outside...

Qin Niangzi bit her lower lip again and shook her head violently.

Cousin Zixiu has not been in Beijing all this time, and her whereabouts are a mystery. Of course she has a way to send a letter to contact Feng Jin, but does she have the face to make Feng Jin leave her official duties and return to Beijing in a hurry just to settle her own marriage?

Besides, although Feng Jin is favored, but she wants to single out two families and offend civil servants and generals at the same time - she can't say that!
As for assistants like eunuchs, she didn't even consider it.The Xu family and the Yang family may not dare to offend the eunuch Lian, but they are definitely not small ants that the eunuch can manipulate at will...

The sentence just now was just blurted out when he was in a hurry, in order to dispel the arrogance of the elder, and let the smile on his face fade slightly.

After all, I still think too shallow!
That day in the Pingguo Duke's mansion was the first miscalculation of Seventh Lady in the past few years. She was shocked by Fifth Lady's death, but she didn't think about it at the first time, and the successor was probably her.

She knew that she was somewhat guilty. Although it was Wu Niangzi's own choice to marry into Xu's family, she also contributed to it after all. I didn't kill Boren, and Boren died because of me... There is no reason for this bit of guilt, but it is most inevitable.

It was this time that she put aside her scheming and self-defense, and pushed herself to this point.

If she hadn't come forward to point out that there was something wrong with Wu Niangzi's death, with the sadness of the eldest wife, she might not have realized that something was wrong.This matter is not sure, so it is vague. Even if the eldest wife is willing to marry herself into the Xu family, the elder will not.After all, the Xu family has such a pair of twins, and had such a first wife, Yang, which can already ensure a closer relationship between the two families.

But she ruined her own way by herself. She didn't expect that she was shocked by Wu Niangzi's death. At that moment, she thought that she could not live up to her dying trust.When Wu Niangzi's death was put in broad daylight and the investigation began, everything was over.

For the sake of political interests, what can't the great master do?The eldest wife only thought about Fifth Lady, how could she take care of her, no one thought of giving her a little free will, when the elder said those words, Seventh Lady knew that she was finished.

She couldn't find any vitality, the situation was completely dead, and she couldn't make a living.

Ever since she rejected Xu Fengjia, she never thought about marrying him.

Lian Wu Niangzi couldn't control the situation, and ended up being bullied in the first year. How could she, a pseudo-concubine daughter, have any chance of winning in the face of the Xu family's wolf-like relatives?In the next ten years or so, how much planning will she have to use to manage the situation and gain a foothold in the Xu family?
Not to mention Xu Fengjia's aloof nature, after being severely rejected by him, her love turned into hatred, maybe she hated her to the bone, marrying such a husband, living in such a place that is countless times more dangerous than the Yang family , can this day be a little more interesting?

Since crossing, even in the most desolate and desperate times, she has never let go of her fighting spirit. In order to survive, she has lost too much, some of which she voluntarily gave up, and some of which she had to give up. She lost her Childhood—twice, lost her innocence, lost her enthusiasm, her kindness, she became an indifferent and cautious person, who had to think twice about every step, even she didn't like her enough, but she never let go Through her own fighting spirit, her own hope, she firmly believed—she forced herself to believe that one day she could walk out of Baifangyuan, out of the Yang family, into a simpler backyard, and marry a husband who had a good impression of her, Start a life that is less involuntary.

The Quan family, the Gui family... She is not picky, and she doesn't care whether Quan Zhongbai and Gui Hanchun have other women in their hearts.All she wants is a period of time where she can be a little independent. It doesn't matter who the hero is.

At that time, the things she was forced to give up, the joys of life, the joy of watching the autumn moon and the spring breeze, the joy of leaning on the railing to listen to the autumn rain, she can get it back bit by bit, and she can live again without Survival again.

Without this belief, how could she be supported by the Yang family?

After so many years, she has hidden all her emotions in her heart, whether she hates or hates, loves or loves, all in order not to block the way of the eldest wife, and to survive under her lust!
No one knows better than herself that her so-called decency is just a fake and sweet bubble given to her by the eldest wife. Whether it is the mystery of the death of the biological mother, the inside story of the downfall of the second wife, or the entanglements before Xu Fengjia proposed marriage.As long as these secrets are revealed, it is enough to make her lose everything she has in an instant.In the inner house, the mistress is the sky. Even if the eldest wife is stupid, she is not something an unmarried concubine can contend with.

So she has been cautious for many years, she almost cut off all desires, and only wants to survive.All she wanted was to successfully walk out of the Yang family, out of this beautiful coffin, and she was no longer picky about where she went.

Even this last little extravagance, the Yang family will take it away.

Life had driven her to the point of no return, not letting go of the last sliver of hope she could retain.

Qiniangzi raised her head abruptly, carefully wiped away the tears on her face, took the sweet white porcelain sinker she used frequently, hesitated for a moment, and threw it to the ground.

There was a crisp cracking sound, and the sinker cup shattered into several pieces. She squatted down and carefully found the largest and sharpest piece, compared it between her wrists, and tried to scratch the table. A small slit has been made on the delicate towel.

She has no room to resist the Elder Master's intimidation. All the methods of resistance are to drag the few people she still cares about in this world into this embarrassing situation.Let them face the unbearable reality against a family of officials with deep roots.

If she lived without dignity, she could at least choose to die with dignity.

No matter how capable the Elder Master is, can he resurrect the dead and marry him into Xu's family?

Qin Niangzi bit her lip suddenly, her eyes turned cold, and she slowly placed the tile on the vein.

The will to die has been decided, as long as she is stroked once, she will be freed if she is hit again.

She put down the tile again.

Nine brothers...

In this world, the only thing she can't let go of is Brother Nine.

Before her death, Jiu Yiniang couldn't let go of Brother Jiu the most. For many years, the two sisters and younger brothers depended on each other for life. Although she is going to die now, she still has to explain to Brother Jiu.At least a complete cause of death must be fulfilled, so that Brother Jiu can't face his parents, think wildly, and be ruined by hatred to ruin his life.

Just let those things go with you!
She pressed her eye circles carefully, took a picture at the dressing table, saw that her eyes were only slightly red, and there was nothing serious about it, so she opened the door with confidence, and bumped into Li Xia head-on.

"I just wanted to ask the girl what happened, and locked myself in the room..." Li Xia didn't know anything, and still laughed at Yan Yan to himself.

Seventh Lady smiled slightly, and said softly, "I'm thinking about something—come on, grind a pool of ink for me and bring it in, then close the door...I want to write a letter to my cousin Zixiu."

(End of this chapter)