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Chapter 145: So Much Love, What Can I Say (6)

Nan Si, who was standing at the door of the kitchen, suddenly tensed up, with surprise and panic in his eyes, and the vegetables in his hand fell to the ground, without knowing it.

Bai Yan's face turned pale, gradually dying like ashes.A knife was stabbed in the chest on the left side, and his eyes were fixed on the pair of slender fingers holding Nan Si's arm tightly. The two of them stood there like a match made in heaven.

The woman standing next to Nan Si was none other than Nan Si's fiancée a few years ago, her ex-girlfriend Rong Rong who was caught having sex with another man by Nan Si with his own eyes.

Rongrong's beautiful eyes lingered between the two of them, feeling that the atmosphere was a bit weird.

The old lady Qin didn't know what happened, "What's wrong with you two children? One dropped the vegetables, the other dropped the fruit..." As she said that, she bent down to pick it up.

Hearing the voice, Bai Yan recovered from the dead silence, quickly squatted down, lowered his head to avoid such a dazzling scene, his panicked voice was trembling, "Auntie, don't pick it up if you have a bad waist, I'll pick it up, Just pick it up."

"You are a caring and caring child. I'm the only one who always thinks about my old bones." Mrs. Qin laughed.

Bai Yan couldn't hear anything at all.There was a "buzz" in my ears, and the image of Rong Rong holding Nan Si's arm flickered over and over again in my mind, and the hand that put the apple in the bag was trembling uncontrollably.

Nan Si stood there, his body stiff, his eyes fixed on Bai Yan with his head down, neither moving nor showing any intention of helping him, his expression was deep and unpredictable.

On the other hand, Rong Rong let go of Nan Si's hand and said with a smile, "I'll help you!" She bent down to pick up the troubled apples scattered everywhere, picked them up and handed them to Bai Yan.

Bai Yan just raised his head slightly to see that pair of delicate hands took the apple and put it in the bag, he didn't even have the courage to look at her, his voice suddenly became a little hoarse, "Thank you."

"You're welcome!" Rongrong smiled sweetly and gently, and turned to look at Nan Si who was still in a daze, and asked him to pick up the vegetables that fell on the ground, "Still in a daze! Your good brothers are here, why don't you hurry up and do it?" meal."

As he spoke, he pushed Nansi into the kitchen.

The old lady Qin smiled and took Bai Yan's hand and walked towards the sofa, "Come on, sit down... let the young couple prepare something for us tonight!"

Bai Yan kept his head down, his eyes were swollen red, his heart was pierced like a knife, but he still desperately squeezed the corners of his lips to show a far-fetched smile, and nodded in agreement.

Old Master Qin came out of the study with a simple and honest smile, "Ziyan, you are here... come and play two games of chess with me."

Qin Nansi's father didn't have any hobbies, he just liked playing Chinese chess, but Nansi didn't like it and never wanted to play with him since he was a child.It just so happened that Bai Yan knew a lot, and every time he came over, the old man would pull him to play chess, reluctant to let go.

"Okay." Bai Yan looked up, smiled as if nothing had happened, and went to the study to play chess with the old man.

"I'll go to the kitchen to see if there's anything I can do to help the young couple." Mrs. Qin stood up and walked towards the kitchen.

Bai Yan paused, looked back to the kitchen, saw Nan Si standing by the sink washing vegetables through the glass on the door, and Rong Rong was making trouble with him.
Unable to see it any longer, he turned his eyes back, and followed the old man into the study room, which was actually a simple computer room. Nan Si usually went to the Internet to pass the time when he came back for dinner.

Playing chess with the old man this time, Bai Yan doesn't need to rack his brains to think of a way to lose to him, but also to lose without a trace, the first game is messed up, and the old man kills every single piece of armor.My mind was in chaos, I kept thinking about the people in the kitchen, and I couldn't concentrate at all.

After playing the third set, Bai Yan lost again. The old man had no intention of playing again, "Zi Yan! Is there any difficulty at work? You are not in the mood today..."

When Bai Yan came back to his senses, his complexion was not very good, and he forced a smile, "No, maybe it's because I'm too tired from work, and I haven't had a good rest recently."

The old man sighed, "Young people's work is very important, but their health is also very important! Although Rong Rong did something wrong to Xiao Si before, no young man can do wrong! Now that she can be with Xiao Si, Live a good life, the old lady and I have settled our minds and are just waiting to hold our grandson!"

Bai Yan lowered his head, and when he heard the words "hug grandson", tears welled up in an instant.It's not that he was stimulated by the old man's words, but at this moment he fully realized that there was a river that could never be crossed between him and Nan Si.

"Ziyan, we have always regarded you as half a son. You should also consider the major events in your life. Your father is not around, but it doesn't mean that they don't care about you, and they are not in a hurry..."

The old man was rambling on, but Bai Yan didn't hear clearly, he just lowered his head and answered.

Nan Si's parents are honest people, maybe they will never know what the word "homosexual" means in their whole life, let alone accept their son with a man.

From their point of view, two men being together is deviant, incompatible with morals and ethics, sick and disgusting...

Only he himself knows. This is just a desperate love.

After a while, Nan Si's mother came to ask them to eat, and when they were seated, they didn't know what was going on. There was Rong Rong between Bai Yan and Nan Si, as if to remind them that the Chu River and the Han border were very different.

The atmosphere at the dinner table was inexplicably solemn and depressing, Nan Si and Bai Yan rarely spoke, only when the elders spoke, they would speak, and they did not have the joy of eating together before.

Rong Rong seemed to have really changed, she cared for Nan Si with his favorite dishes, and took care of the two elders, obviously becoming the mistress of the family.

Bai Yan saw that they all had happy and satisfied smiles on their faces, except himself and Nan Si.

Rong Rong enthusiastically prepared dishes for Bai Yan, and greeted him, "Bai Yan, try this and this, and see which one is better between me and Asi!"

Bai Yan nodded with a smile and said yes, but he ate like chewing wax.Living with Nan Si for two years, he has never been willing to let Nan Si cook once, let alone know that he can cook too.

Or maybe the person he is willing to cook for is not himself!

He couldn't eat any more, he put down his chopsticks, picked up his phone and looked at it pretending to be busy, and stood up, "Uncle and aunt, I'm sorry, I have to leave suddenly. I'll see you next time! I'm really sorry..." He said He bowed, turned his head and left before they could react.

In this space, he seemed to be the extra one. He was afraid that if he stayed here again, he would suffocate and collapse.

"Hey... Ziyan... let's go after dinner... Ziyan..." The old lady called him but couldn't keep Bai Yan who was anxiously fleeing from the whirlpool.

Rong Rong bumped Nan Si who was in a daze with her arm, "You don't want to send Bai Yan yet."

Nan Si was still hesitating, his complex eyes glanced over Rong Rong's urging eyes, and he didn't move.Rong Rong dragged him up, "Hurry up! I will take good care of my uncle and aunt, don't be stunned! It looks like something happened to him! Go and see if he needs help!"

Nan Si stood up and said in a deep voice, "Save the bowl for me to wash when I come back."

"Okay! I'll clean it up, don't worry about it! Go!" Rongrong pursed her lips and showed a thoughtful smile.

Nan Si no longer hesitated, and hurried out, chasing after Bai Yan's back.

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After having dinner together, Bo Lifei didn't go back to the room but went to the study with Long Pei.Gu Mingxi waited for two hours on the sofa downstairs to read a book and saw that A Li hadn't come out yet. She was a little suspicious and couldn't help going upstairs curiously to know what A Li and Long Pei were doing in the study.

- dong dong.

"Come in." A deep voice sounded, Gu Mingxi kept holding the cup, pushed the door open with one hand, and glanced around, Long Pei was sitting on the seat processing documents, while Bo Lifei was sitting next to him, the desk was open He takes half of it.

"A Li, it's time for you to rest." Gu Mingxi stepped forward and saw that he was practicing calligraphy on a white paper.

Bo Lifei was too focused on writing. At this moment, he reacted and looked at the clock hanging on the wall. It was less than nine o'clock, "I want to write for a while."

"But……"

"It's still early, let him learn for a while." Long Pei said lightly, his eyes fell on the milk glass in her hand.There was only one cup, which was obviously for A Li, Jian Mei frowned.

"Will he bother you with your work?" Gu Mingxi asked tactfully, she didn't expect that Long Pei would come to teach Ah Li after work, but there was really no need for it.

"No, he's very smart, he knows everything." Long Pei glanced sideways at Bo Lifei, his dark eyes filled with admiration. He had never met such a smart kid in his life. He was very smart and decisive. His style of acting is quite his style.

Bo Lifei cast a contemptuous glance at Long Pei, as if provoking him, "I can understand your documents!"

"A Li!" Gu Mingxi's face darkened, and he warned him not to talk nonsense in a solemn voice.Long Pei's documents are all confidential, even she can't read them.

Long Pei's expression was calm and natural, his thin lips curled slightly, "It's okay. Can you understand it? For example, this part..." He directly handed the document in his hand to him, and discussed with him.

Bo Lifei boldly expressed his point of view without politeness, Long Pei listened very seriously and didn't intend to play around at all.

Gu Mingxi was a little surprised, shouldn't he talk to Long Pei!A Li is the master's son, he raised A Li like this, and even showed A Li the confidential documents, isn't it too bold and risky!
After listening to his words, Long Pei nodded appreciatively, and pointed out where his theory was not good or not realistic, and where it was bold and worth trying.

When one big and one small talked about it, Gu Mingxi was completely left alone.

While talking, Long Pei glanced at the cup in Gu Mingxi's hand from the corner of his eye, stood up and walked in front of her and took a sip naturally.

"This is Ah Li's." Gu Mingxi looked indifferent, how could he drink Ah Li's.

"It's cold, and children will feel uncomfortable in their stomachs if they drink it. I'll let Rubing reheat a cup later." Long Pei finished speaking seriously, and returned the empty cup to Gu Mingxi after drinking it, and said thank you .

Gu Mingxi looked down at the empty cup in his hand, speechless.

Instead, he turned around and continued to discuss with Ali.

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Bai Yan walked to the car in a hurry, and before he could open the door with his fingers, a deep and familiar voice came from behind, "Bai Yan!"

His body froze, he stopped his movements and didn't look back at him, he just felt more and more pain in his heart, as if he was about to die.

Nan Si ran over, stood beside him and stared at Bai Yan's cool and lonely back, "Bai Yan..." He hesitated to speak, not knowing what to say, and what to say.

He had no idea that his father would suddenly call Bai Yan to ask him to have dinner, and he didn't even tell him.

There are some things he wants to tell Bai Yan, but he doesn't know how to say it.In fact, with Bai Yan's wisdom, even if he didn't say it, how could he not guess it.

The atmosphere was inexplicably sad and depressing, his eye sockets hurt like being pricked by needles, Bai Yan bit his lip tightly, and a bloodstain filled his mouth without knowing the bloody smell.

Because nothing hurts more than his heart right now.

Nan Si stood behind him without speaking for a long time, looking at him as if everything could be solved.

Bai Yan restrained his emotions, looked up at Wan Yue, did not look back at him, but managed to force out his heavy voice, "It's okay, you go back to accompany your uncle and aunt first."

The voice paused, my heart hurt more than being stabbed by a knife, and I spit out the two words that made my heart hurt, "Rongrong."

"Bai Yan...I..."

Bai Yan didn't give him a chance to finish his sentence, he opened the car door and quickly got in, and slammed the door hard, before he even had time to buckle his seat belt, he hurriedly started the car and left in a hurry.

Nan Si stood in the same place and watched blankly as the car carrying a whole car disappeared into the night without catching up.

Even if you catch up, what can you say.

Maybe it's better to see it with your own eyes, everything is clear, and you don't need him to tell Bai Yan personally, that would be cruel.

After standing for a while, Nan Si made a few swallowing movements, turned around with his heavy back and walked back a little bit in the opposite direction of Bai Yan's departure, as if their lives were staggered.

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Bai Yan gripped the steering wheel tightly with both hands, the accelerator on the soles of his feet was stepped on to the bottom, the car was speeding crazily on the road, and the surrounding images kept reversing.No direction, no purpose, just keep going along a road, keep going...

It's just that he couldn't see his way out any further.

Nan Si is actually still resistant to his gay status, Bai Yan sometimes thinks that if there is no him, Nan Si will definitely like girls other than Rongrong.Nan Si never said that he loves white words, even when they live together, even when they often have intense and lingering sex|love, he never said this sentence.

It was as if saying this sentence was an admission of his own identity.

It's rare for Bai Yan to say such three provocative words, because the three words "I love you" have long been transformed into gentleness and consideration into Nan Si's life.

At this point today, Bai Yan does not complain to anyone, because he has already realized something, and he has long held the idea of ​​"one more day is considered a profit". The happiness and happiness of the past few years have been stolen, and now it is time When I went back.

Before saying that I dare not expect extravagantly "forever", now it seems that it is just a posturing.

Recalling what Nan Si said at the beginning, "Left and right are just looking for someone to live with each other for a lifetime, and you have to find someone who looks good. Besides, you are not only good-looking..."

The words are still in my ears, but at this moment Bai Yan has fallen from the sky to the ground.

The car didn't know where it was, the wilderness, the forest, the pitch black, not even a beam of light, and I couldn't see my fingers.Bai Yan suddenly slammed on the brakes, beating the steering wheel with his crazy hands, like a wounded monster whimpering...

The dull howling in the dark night seemed to hit an airtight bottle, instead of drifting away, it accumulated more and more.

His emotions collapsed beyond control, but he didn't shed tears, because he was still a man, a very normal man, the only difference was that he fell in love with another man.

A love is more than ten years.

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In the President's Office, Long Pei repeated a sentence twice, but Bai Yan, who was standing by the side, never responded, his pale face could not conceal his tiredness.

Long Pei slammed the document on the table with a bang, his face was gloomy and menacing, Ying Jun's eyes were chilling and shot warningly at Bai Yan who was distracted.

Bai Yan came back to his senses and bowed, "I'm sorry, Your Excellency."

Nan Si, who had just knocked on the door and came in, couldn't help but look worried when he saw this scene, and walked up to Bai Yan and stood there without saying a word.

But overnight, the two of them were separated by a punch, but they seemed to be separated from each other.

Long Pei's sullen eyes fell from Bai Yan's body to Nan Si's body, and he was keenly aware of Nan Si's abnormal expression, as clever as he was, how could he not guess the twists and turns.

"Nan Si, you are not young, how is the marriage going?" He said coldly, as if marriage was just a routine matter.

Bai Yan's face couldn't help turning pale. He knew that Your Excellency did it on purpose, but he could only stand here and listen.

Nan Si's complexion changed slightly, and he replied in a hoarse voice, "I'm preparing."

Long Pei nodded, "You can do as much as you want during the holidays. You have worked hard all these years. Leave Huo Linmo's affairs to others for the time being. Leave it alone! Get out."

"Yes." Nan Si bowed, turned to leave, glanced carefully at Bai Yan from the corner of his eye, not daring to stay any longer, and left quickly.

Long Pei's sharp eyes were directed at Bai Yan, and his words were filled with blood, "Bai Yan, you already knew that Nan Si was a sophisticated person."

Nan Si would not allow himself to fight against the whole custom, if there were no outside eyes, no two elders, perhaps the two of them could live in such a quiet way.

But their identities and status are there, so they cannot do anything arbitrarily.

"I, know." Although Bai Yan tried his best to maintain his usual gentle image, his voice choked up uncontrollably.

(End of this chapter)