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Chapter 180 She Was Overthinking Everything

Bai Yiran never expected that Gong Jinxuan would ask her to leave here directly.

Bai Yiran had never seen such Gong Jinxuan before.In the past, he was the one who trapped her by his side, and he was not allowed to leave him even a single step, but why is he pushing her away from him now?

But at this moment, Bai Yiran's brain was short-circuited, and he couldn't understand the meaning and intention of Gong Jinxuan's doing these things.

She just felt that she was the one who was wronged, and that everything was Gong Jinxuan's fault, but now it seemed that everything was her fault, and all the consequences and pains were borne by her alone.

But with that rational look in his eyes, he still felt that something was wrong with the man in front of him. Gong Jinxuan would never do such a thing. This is not his style of doing things, and there must be some reason for it.

"Why? Why did you drive me away?"

"Do you think that I am so dark, can you really accept it? If you can't accept it, leave me immediately before I regret it. When I regret it, you can't escape even if you want to!"

Gong Jinxuan's harsh words pierced into Bai Yiran's heart.

Although Gong Jinxuan's words made her heart ache, but she was powerless to refute the man's words. She also asked herself, can she really accept such a dark him?
"I, I, you let me think about it, I just can't accept it for a while."

Bai Yiran seemed to feel that all her strength had been drained at this moment, as if something was about to leave her, she couldn't catch it at all, and wanted to reach out and touch it, but the moment she touched it, it was a blur. blank.

"Bai Yiran admit it, you simply cannot accept me like this."

"No, no, although I can't accept it, I love you. You can't deny my love for you."

Bai Yiran's heart was so painful that it was about to burst, like a butterfly breaking out of a cocoon, trying to break free, but the binding became tighter and tighter, and she couldn't escape even with all her strength.

Gong Jinxuan took a deep breath, and calmly questioned the tearful woman in front of her.

"Do you think I will believe you? Didn't you come back to me to achieve your purpose?"

"what?"

Gong Jinxuan finally pierced the window paper that the two of them knew well on this day.

Once it is pierced, everything will fall in front of the two of them, and those things that should be well known and not spoken out will be completely exposed to the air.

Bai Yiran is really afraid that those things that have never seen the light of day will deteriorate after passing through this air, and they will not be what they used to be.

"Bai Yiran, you should be very clear. If it wasn't for using me to help you accomplish your goal of revenge, how could you come back to me willingly?"

The hatred between the two has been deeply imprinted. The loss of that child is like an eternal pain in Bai Yiran's heart. It is impossible to wipe away that deep scar in a short time. no trace.So when Bai Yiran came back to him, what he brought was not love but hatred, and maybe more of it was to take advantage of him!
"me."

Even if Bai Yiran Xiaoju explained that he might open his mouth, he found that there was no words to explain all this clearly. He did come back to him in order to use him, but he still couldn't do it, and he still couldn't get rid of that. A love becomes a tool to be exploited.

And she remembered, too, that he had told her. "If I can be used by you, I am willing to be used by you."

So because of these words, Bai Yiran gave up everything, and wanted to truly return to his side with a complete heart.

She always thought so.Gong Jinxuan knew all this.That's why she gave up so simply.Because I feel owed and guilty towards him, I still can't get past the barrier in my heart and conscience.

But he didn't expect that today, Gong Jinxuan would reveal all that, as if the scarred wound had opened again, and red blood dripped from it.

"Jinxuan, listen to me explain to you, I'm telling you..."

Bai Yiran didn't finish his sentence, Gong Jinxuan directly snatched the words viciously.

"Do you think I'll trust you? Trust a woman who never loves me but only uses me?"

Gong Jinxuan's rhetorical question made Bai Yiran's heart ache, but he couldn't refute it, and couldn't explain it so clearly, let him know.She loves him.

"Gong Jinxuan, you once said that you want to help me avenge, and you will solve everything for me. Are these all lies?"

Those words that Gong Jinxuan once said to her are vivid in his mind, lingering in his ears for a long time.

When Bai Yiran used him to achieve his goal, Bai Yiran's heart was so tormented.

It's because of Gong Jinxuan's tolerance for her that it doesn't even matter if she uses him.

It was because he was in vain that he was willing to be used by her.

Bai Yiran's whole body melted at this moment.

He even let go of those chaotic thoughts before, just for Gong Jinxuan alone.

But now, after hearing everything Gong Jinxuan said, she realized that what he said was not true at all.

Maybe he didn't even know that Bai Yiran was using him at the time, but he just used sweet words to capture her heart and let her follow him wholeheartedly.

For some unknown reason now, he discovered her purpose back then, so he used these words to severely hurt her and drive her away from him.

"I don't remember what I ever said!"

As soon as Gong Jinxuan's words fell, Bai Yiran knew the answer, and knew that everything was because of her self-indulgence.

Bai Yiran was crying, but there was a smile on his face.

She still thought too much about all this, and she thought too beautifully.At that time, he couldn't believe how a man would tolerate a woman using him?
Now it seems that everything is just her misunderstanding, she misunderstood, what he said back then were just love words.But because of these love words, she put her whole heart on him.

"Okay, I know what you mean, I'll leave right away."

"But I don't want to see you now, can you go out?"

After finishing speaking, Bai Yiren directly turned her back to the man, she didn't want to see the indifferent eyes of the man again, she didn't want to be deeply confused by those pupils again.

"Well, it's best that way."

Gong Jinxuan didn't say much, but he looked very happy to see Bai Yiren give him such an answer.

All this seemed to come too suddenly.But if you think about it carefully, this may be the result of the accumulation of the two of them during this period of time.

It didn't explode until today.

Bai Yiran smiled wryly.With a wry smile.

Unexpectedly, everything turned out to be like this.

(End of this chapter)