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Chapter 236 You Killed Him Yourself
"Ah!" With a painful scream, Gong Jinxuan came back to his senses, looking at his empty hands, his face turned pale and trembled in panic, what the hell was he doing?

Gong Jinxuan quickly ran downstairs, seeing the wet blood on Bai Yiran's pants, he was instantly frightened.Quickly picked up Bai Yiran and went to the hospital.

"My stomach!"

Bai Yiran cried out in pain, as if there was a hot stream in her stomach, which was being melted into water, and it was flowing away quietly. Bai Yiran seemed to realize that she was about to lose something.

"Hold on, Yiran will be at the hospital soon!"

Gong Jinxuan saw that Bai Yiran's forehead was dripping with sweat, soaking her hair, and her wet hair was clinging to her pale skin.

His heart hurts even more. Although Gong Jinxuan is angry with her and wants to hurt her with bad words, but at the same time, his heart hurts with her, and he doesn't want her to be hurt. He would rather be the one who gets hurt. .

After arriving at the hospital, Bai Yiran was immediately pushed into the operating room.

Gong Jinxuan waited bitterly outside, seeing the red light still on in the operating room, thinking that Bai Yiran's life was hanging by a thread.

Only then did Gong Jinxuan realize how important Bai Yiran was to him, and now she had been deeply engraved into his bone marrow.

Without her, he would have to die.

And now he understands his feelings for Yin Zhirou.It turns out that maybe it was the obsession when I was young, because if I can't get it, it is the best.

That's not love, that's not love!

As for Yin Zhirou, because she didn't get a response, Gong Jinxuan was just angry, feeling that his self-esteem had been hit.But for Bai Yiran, it was a kind of heartache, a heart-piercing pain!
If Bai Yiran can get out of danger this time, he swears that he will treat her well, even if what happened between her and Huangfu Lord, he doesn't care.

As long as it's her, as long as she's always by his side.

But from the moment he hugged Bai Yiran in the pool of blood, he had a strong premonition that he really seemed to lose something this time...

The red light finally went out.

The doctor came out sweating profusely, with a sad expression on his face.Gong Jinxuan was even more flustered, he was really scared, he had never been so scared before.

"Of course it's just a slight concussion, it's nothing serious, it's just..." the doctor hesitated to speak, startled Gong Jinxuan's heart toppled with turbulent panic.

"It's just what?" Gong Jinxuan said calmly, with a heavier tone.

"It's just that the child is gone, and it has been more than a month."

After the words fell, he let out a sigh.The doctor left after a sad apology.

And Gong Jinxuan also staggered suddenly and almost fell down.

She is pregnant?

Now the child is gone again?

Gong Jinxuan was stunned and stood still.It was as if time had stopped flowing.There was no end to the quiet corridor, but one could clearly see the red blood in the man's eyes. Gong Jinxuan, who was originally radiant and talented, also lost all brilliance in a trance, and kept on unconsciously. Standing there, feeling deeply remorseful for the mistakes I made.

It was three days later that Bai Yiran woke up.

In response to the doctor's words, Bai Yiran didn't want to wake up, didn't want to face all this, but after waking up, Bai Yiran was surprisingly quiet.He kept staring at the ceiling in a daze, while stroking his flat belly with his hands, without any fluctuations in his expression.

Gong Jinxuan was really afraid, afraid that Bai Yiran would completely close himself off again just like he lost that child a year ago.

"I asked Aunt Mei to stew chicken soup for you, get up and drink some!"

As he spoke, he went to help Bai Yiran get up, but Bai Yiran ruthlessly avoided him.

Gong Jinxuan's heart skipped a beat.Like the softest part, torn apart.

"If you don't want to drink, then you tell me what you want to eat, and I will buy it for you."

No matter how Gong Jinxuan tried, Bai Yiran always had a cold expression, pretending that he didn't exist, and immersed himself in his own world.

It was a long time before Bai Yiran opened his chapped lips and asked, "The child is gone, isn't it?"

Gong Jinxuan's silence further confirmed Bai Yiran's thoughts. In fact, she never knew that she was pregnant.

But at the moment when he fell down the stairs, there was a tearing pain in his abdomen, and he slipped away uncontrollably.And the feeling was the same as the last two miscarriages, Bai Yiran knew what he was thinking about, what he was always about to lose.

"It doesn't matter, as long as you take good care of your body, there will still be children."

Gong Jinxuan originally wanted to comfort Bai Yiran, but it was his sincere words, and he sincerely wanted to have another child with her.

But such words, to Bai Yiran's ears, are endless irony, every word is like a sharp knife piercing deeply into her heart.

"It doesn't make much sense to say the same thing twice!"

Bai Yiran clearly remembered that he said the same thing when he had the first miscarriage a year ago.

Bai Yiran really thought she was funny, what kind of man was she, and how much did she love him, that she had three miscarriages because of him.

"Yiran." Gong Jinxuan was speechless, for Bai Yiran, he was always so powerless.

Bai Yiran smiled wryly, his face was ashen, and finally there was a slight wave of emotion.

"Child? How can you have a child if you take contraceptive pills every time?"

Bai Yiran's words undoubtedly made Gong Jinxuan's heart tighten, and he looked at the woman in amazement and shock.

How would she know?
A hint of bewilderment flashed in Gong Jinxuan's eyes, but he returned to normal after a while.

"Isn't it? You've replaced my vitamins with birth control pills every time I take them."

Bai Yiran had completely lost her edges and corners, and her tone was light and calm, mixed with sarcasm.

Gong Jinxuan remained silent, acquiescing to everything.

Gong Jinxuan didn't even explain, did he really have a clear conscience, without a trace of inner condemnation?But Bai Yiran still desperately wanted to hear his explanation, how she wished it wasn't what she thought, but now...

Gong Jinxuan's indifferent attitude completely chilled Bai Yiran's heart.

"But that's good too. The child you didn't plan to have is now killed by your own hands. Don't you feel very happy? Is it just what you want?"

Bai Yiran's tone was getting higher and higher, and his hysterical roar was accompanied by a sharp pain in his heart.

Gong Jinxuan could no longer remain calm.

"I'm sorry, it's still my fault. I know I shouldn't treat you like this, but this is how I can protect you."

Now is the critical period, he doesn't have extra time and energy to stay by Bai Yiran's side all the time, he doesn't want Bai Yiran and the child to become his weakness.But every time he saw Bai Yiran, he wanted to have a child so happily, and even took vitamins to help her conceive.His heart was conflicted, he didn't know how to tell Bai Yiran.

Telling Bai Yiran will only make her more worried, so the result of choosing not to tell her is to prevent her from getting pregnant.

Gong Jinxuan was simply thinking at the time that now is not the critical period to conceive a child, and it would be good to calm down after all this is over.But if he really had it, he would definitely not want it.

But I didn't expect that it would evolve into the current result.
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(End of this chapter)