The school grass wants to marry me

Chapter 909 It's okay, I watched a cartoon

Life is so fragile that there is no room for miracles. The boy's parents had not had time to enter the ward to see the last side of their son when they signed the family name. Ding Siyu was already in the ward watching the boy's electrocardiogram jumping. The slower the time, the boy had no heartbeat when the doctor arrived. Ding Siyu and the boy's father just watched helplessly as the doctor brought the patient-rescue equipment that could only be seen on TV and used it on the boy, but it was too late. Then, everything happened without any accident, the boy completely disappeared from this world on that sunny afternoon.

Ding Siyu once thought that the boy he would never see again in this life would really never see him again in this life. Ding Siyu once feared that the boy’s condition would be miraculously happened, and the panic that would haunt him all the time. There will be no more, but no matter who the person who left, no matter whether you love or hate or have no feelings, you finally find that your life circle, which is not too big, suddenly loses a person. Lonely, you can no longer hear this person's voice, you can no longer see his smile or tears, no matter what you want to say, do or don't do, the person who left will never be seen, death becomes Forever that you once said.

Ding Siyu immediately called his parents and said:
"Mom and Dad, can I not grow up?"

Mom asked eagerly on the phone:
"Son, what's wrong with you?"

Ding Siyu said:

"It's okay, I watched a cartoon and cried."

Mom comforted and said:

"You're so old, you still watch cartoons and cry, really."

At that moment, what Ding Siyu wanted to say was: "I really don't want to grow up, I am suddenly very afraid of losing, and I am afraid that everyone around me will disappear from my life one day, for example, one day you will grow old , the timeline of life will take you who I love the most out of my life, I know I can't stand that. Because today I face the departure of a person who is no longer important in my life, I can't control my heart panic. I'm, a little bit scared."

At that moment, Ding Siyu suddenly remembered a line from a cartoon that he once loved: "I didn't know until later. What I'm afraid of is not that one day you will stop loving me, but that one day you will leave me. "

Leaving is far scarier than we imagined.Perhaps we have always thought that only the departure of the person we love and the person we care about will hurt our hearts or cause panic, but one day you will find that even a passer-by who passes by, you will also because of You've seen him once and are terrified that he's gone.Is there a moment when you were startled like me because of the departure of the people around you or the people around you? I know maybe you have, if you have, you will understand the panic in my heart at this moment.

Ding Siyu in the corner silently wiped his tears and said to himself: "I thought that other people's life and death, I will not shed a tear for you."

Human sensibility is natural, human panic is natural, human fear is natural, human sadness is natural, Ding Siyu helped the boy's father to rest on the bench in the hospital, and silently gave the boy's father Handing over the tissue, Ding Siyu really didn't know how a middle-aged man over half a century should live in his life.

(End of this chapter)