Wang Junkai in whose landscape are you in?

Chapter 65#凯我#〖How many miles around (Yi perspective)〗

#Fangyuanjili#
【Yi Angle】

【Extra story】

I'm Lin Ziyi.This year is the No. 11 year that I have known Wang Junkai.

I don't know, these 11 years will take up a fraction of the length of my life, but it has taken up almost the entire width of my life.

Because there is someone I love with all my youth.

I always thought I was very sensible.In fact, the person who is the least sensible is me.

When we parted, Wang Junkai apologized to me and said that he had never been with me well.In fact, you don't know, the feeling of being together even if you are thousands of miles apart is the best companionship.

This kind of company is also the company I once had, but I will never have it again in the future.

Now I finally understand the hypocritical words I saw on the Internet - if the heart has no place to rest, it will be a wanderer wherever it goes.

Everything is fine for me now, I am busy studying professional courses every day, and I am preparing for my application for combined master and doctoral programs in one year.

When I have free time, I also listen to songs, read novels, practice the piano, and draw pictures.

I'm used to listening to Jay Chou's songs, his latest new song still sang everyone's youth without any surprise, but he is still not my favorite singer.

I still keep the series of comic books you bought for me back then, and occasionally draw comics, which has become my hobby.It's just a hobby, not a career.

Just like you and the time you brought me, I have never gone out in my heart, but unfortunately, there is no perfect ending.

I still miss you very much, and I will occasionally think of those common stalks that only the two of us understand.Maybe it's because of this, every star or person around me I fell in love with later on is like you.A few days ago, I saw a sentence in a book that life cannot be dragged along.

But now it seems that there is no one else who can take your place in my heart, so in this regard, I'm afraid I'll have to live with it in the future.

It's ridiculous to say that you borrowed my sun hat many years ago and just kept forgetting to return it.It's still in my house now.

When I saw that hat by chance, I still remembered the scene where you asked me for my mobile phone number later.

In fact, later on, I kept thinking, if we didn’t meet at that time, if we met the mature you now and the mature me, would we grow old together and never be separated, or would we not know each other and live in peace?

I remember the joy and disappointment in your eyes when you said you wanted to stand on a big stage and sing.

I participated in your dream-chasing process, but I failed to witness the ultimate glory by your side.

It's just that sometimes I miss the unfettered days when you don't have to stand in the spotlight every day.At that time, I won't worry about illegitimate children, and I can still go to your company to play.

But later, as we walked, the wider the road ahead of us, the more forks there would be, the more involuntary we would be, and we would deviate from the originally set track.

You once said that you are a star, so you must be able to sing, dance, play musical instruments, and act, but what you like most is still being a singer.

Thinking about it this way, I realized that I have heard so many songs that you sang to me yourself.It's just the feelings in those songs that I finally understood.

We are like what the lyrics of "Sunny Day" say, "Once upon a time, there was someone who loved you for a long time, but the rain gradually blows the distance away. Finally, I can love you for another day, but the story In the end, you seem to have said, goodbye."

We have become the most familiar strangers. If, I mean, if we meet again in ten years, can we still greet each other?

I began to get used to it. Every New Year's Eve, I no longer have your special zero-point blessings, and all I receive are group text messages.

In the days when no one stays up late with me to study, I still seem to be able to study for my dreams and for my life.

It's just the process of learning, without that kind of happiness.In fact, from elementary school to the current master's degree, all the knowledge I have learned over the years, the most solid foundation is the knowledge in junior high school. Every knowledge point at that time seems to have your shadow.

As a liberal arts student, if you ask me a mathematical, physical and chemical formula at that time, I can remember it.There are also some trivial knowledge points in various subjects.

For example, why are the melons and fruits in Xinjiang so sweet.

Going to No. [-] Middle School in high school and walking with you are the two most risky decisions I have ever made.

But maybe it's because I got older later, and my heart has experienced too much wind and rain, so I don't have the courage to be desperate at the beginning.

That question that I regretted after I asked it back then, you replied me by text message, and that message has been left in that mobile phone.

You say you are more familiar with me, of course you are on my side.I was happy with this answer for a while, and felt that there was nothing I should ask or not.

It's just that when I grow up, I understand that we are all inseparable from this world. I can't betray the whole world, and I don't want you to betray the whole world for me.

In fact, the most memorable relationship between us is the warmth and strength we give each other when we are confused, the worry when we can’t reach anyone, and of course, the unprincipled forgiveness after being angry and entangled when we have small emotions.

I didn't realize it until I was with you. You said in a strange tone that I was at the same table as you were jealous.

The most thorough thing I understand after separation is that you have infiltrated into every corner of my life, but in the end you are no longer by my side.

Later, I saw a passage in "Twilight", "My memory is a funnel, and maybe one day, I no longer remember the exact color of his eyes, the cold touch of his skin, or the quality of his voice. I can't Think of them again, but I must remember them."

Sometimes I even wonder, did all this really exist?Or is it just a dream I imagined?When I woke up, I didn't even have any memories left.It's just that every time I see your name lying quietly in the friend list, I want to believe that all this is true.

That's why I don't dare to remember, but I don't want to forget.

I still can't play the guitar very well.The only song that can be played proficiently is "Dandelion's Promise".You taught me half of it at the time, and then I learned it all.

But we also missed it like the end of the lyrics.Can't tell the difference between friendship and love, which is more.

In fact, thinking about it now, every summer is a very ordinary summer.

It's only because after meeting you that the sun shines differently, and those plants and trees have different meanings, which are imprinted in my heart.

I think if I can go back to that time now, I would still like to meet you.The memories you brought me and the things you taught me are irreplaceable.

I still miss you, and just miss you.

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[The fourth issue, to be continued]

【Author: NH Nanhe】

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　If the heart has no place to rest, where can it wander?

　　
　
(End of this chapter)