goodbye ex

Chapter 12

Xinteng wiped away the bitter tears from the corners of my eyes with a gentle kiss, and confessed affectionately, "Small Scared, I miss you so much..."

how many years……

I have been waiting for his words for several years.

But, don't you think it's too late for this sentence?

Seems to be, a little late.

I firmly stopped crying, pushed Xinteng's chest away and said, "Xinteng, you are drunk...have you forgotten? We broke up long ago."

"I regret……"

He didn't forget, he still remembers clearly.

Xinteng tightly wrapped his waist around his arms, and said with reddened eyes, "At the beginning, I shouldn't have broken up with you in a fit of anger. I shouldn't have let you go, I shouldn't have left you, I shouldn't have left you alone. Excuse me, I shouldn't have given you up to others, I really regret it..."

His confession is really touching!
but……

"Sorry, is it useful..."

I clenched my fists, and said in a hoarse voice with hidden resentment, "You have no idea how I survived these years! I have been forcing myself to forget you... I was just about to let you go and start a new life Life, why do you come back to me and torture me...why!"

"I was wrong."

His kiss, accompanied by his pleasant voice, fell again.

I should push him away...

Damn man, why can't I refuse him!

We are like this, what is it?

Resurrection?
I suddenly thought of Yang Huan, I just agreed to give him a chance to pursue me...

I bit down hard, so hard that Xinteng let go of me immediately in pain.

Pushing him away, I stood up abruptly and left his big bed.

Looking at the man lying on the bed reeking of alcohol, I collected my emotions, lowered my head and said in a cold voice, "Xin Teng, I'm not someone you can call and leave immediately. I'm not the one I used to be. I'm so scared to turn around you!"

That's right, I am no longer the one that Xinteng knew...

"Come back to me, let's start again, okay..."

Although he took advantage of the alcohol, he tried every means to keep me.

Xinteng's stretched upper arm was once my favorite, the warmth I was most attached to.

But now, no longer.

How easy is it to start over?

I laughed and asked indifferently, "How many girlfriends have you had in the past few years when we broke up? As far as I know, there are at least two or three. Why do you think so confidently that I will accept it? You who have had other women. You must have forgotten it... I once said that if we are no longer pure, then I will not love you again! Xinteng, we can't do it... A good horse will not eat It's a fool to turn around, let alone I'm a human!"

I am human, a complex and contradictory human being.

Obviously still unable to let him go, but unwilling to accept him again.

After I put down a few harsh words, I resolutely turned around and left.

After rushing out of Xinteng's house, I squatted on the side of the road and cried bitterly...

I cry like a fool, like a fool...

I am in pain, I am sad.

But I thought, I deserve it.

Who told me to still love him stupidly...

I love Xinteng, never changed.

It started when I was young, when I was young and ignorant, when I was still in love...

For so many years, I love him and it has never changed.

I think this is my true inner thought.

But people will always hug themselves, that damned and hateful self-esteem, unwilling to admit things.

Especially, the human beings who have been hurt...

They are often unwilling to give each other a chance to hurt themselves again.

I thought, that's the kind of human being I am.

I don't want to admit that I still love Xinteng.

(End of this chapter)