Masked Prince of Tennis

Chapter 22 Getting farther and farther away from that person (2)
Alas... what a big problem!
"Did the doctor say when you can speak?" While I was thinking, a voice interrupted me.

Looking up, I saw Senior Hughes looking at me with concern.That ferocious face is always written with various peaceful expressions, it really doesn't match it!It always feels as disharmonious as the head of the garden in "Crayon Shin-chan".

I shook my head, indicating that I didn't know either.

Senior Hughes sat beside me, as if he wanted to say something, but he hesitated.Looking at Senior Hughes like this, I wanted to ask him what he wanted to say, but when I opened my mouth, I found that I couldn't speak at all.

Then I pointed at Senior Hughes, pointed at my mouth, and drew a big question mark in the air.

"You see that I want to tell you something?" Senior Hughes said blankly.

Actually understood?It seems that I really have the talent to learn sign language!I silently praised myself in my heart.

"Actually, there is something that I don't know if I should tell you." He said awkwardly.

Senior Hughes has never been such a mother-in-law. What happened today?I am very curious about what Senior Hughes will say.However, will what he is going to say have something to do with the disappeared Han Chengnan?There was a burst of tension in my heart for no reason.

I looked at him with certainty. He should be able to see the firmness I want to hear from my expression, right?
"Nan, he came to me suddenly when you were hospitalized a while ago, and told me that he was going to leave for a while. Then, he asked me not to say anything to everyone. After that, he really disappeared I think, do you know where he went, or why he left?"

After listening to Senior Hughes' words, I was even more confused.Did Han Chengnan just disappear?My mind went blank in an instant.

Him, want to leave?Why do you want to leave?Where did you go?

"Could it be...you don't know?" Senior Hughes may have seen the confusion and surprise on my face.

Perhaps from the beginning to the end, I am the one who knows the least, right?It's like I don't know anything.

Where did Han Chengnan go?There must be some reason for leaving without saying goodbye like this, right?Why can't I figure it out even if I want to break my head?
I was already a little worried about him, but now it seems to have become even more confused.

Because I was too confused, I didn't know how to face Senior Hughes, so I could only get up and walk out of the tennis court.

Did he leave because he suddenly wanted to go out for a walk?Or, suddenly want to travel the world?Or, simply bored of school life?
I can imagine thousands of reasons why he left in my head.However, among these thousands of reasons, which one is the real reason?

My head seemed to be about to explode, but I still couldn't figure it out.

"Xiaoyou, why did you leave without saying goodbye? Didn't you tell me to wait for me in the rest area?" The mood was already in a mess, but Xia Yehan suddenly ran out.

Looking at the excited Xia Yehan, I was at a loss for a while.In desperation, she could only smirk at him.That smile is really silly.

"I feel bored, so come out for a walk?" He said with a look of understanding on my face.

Looking at Xia Yehan in front of him, he suddenly felt that maybe he knew where Han Chengnan was?This kind of thought is not sudden. In fact, I have had this kind of thought for a long time, but I just don't know how to say it.

I clearly remember the last words Han Chengnan said to me in the hospital that day.Did he tell me that Xia Yehan was in charge of him?So Xia Yehan's current behavior might have something to do with him!If Xia Yehan's change is related to him, does it mean Han Chengnan's departure, and Xia Yehan also knows about it?

If Xia Yehan knew something, shouldn't I ask him?As it is now, the feeling of being afraid of hurting Xia Yehan and Han Chengnan doesn't seem to be sustainable anymore.

Xia Yehan and I walked side by side in the campus, but our thoughts are quite different!Is it because the person standing next to me is Xia Yehan that I miss Han Chengnan so much?

(3)

The dormitory in the middle of the night was so quiet that I felt shuddering.

I lay in bed and couldn't sleep because there were too many things going on in my head.I turned sideways and looked at Han Chengnan's bed not far from my bed.

He shouldn't have slept on this bed for a long time, right?On this bed, even his temperature is gone.Thinking of this, tears welled up.

Han Chengnan, where are you?Do you know, whenever I am quiet, I seem to miss you very much.Tears ran down my cheeks and wet my pillow.In an instant, the pillow under the side face became a little cold.

Just as my tears were streaming down my face, suddenly...

"Crack..." I heard the sound of the door opening.

Is it Han Chengnan?
In an instant, I almost jumped out of bed reflexively.However, I dismissed the idea the next moment I was about to jump.

Since he was leaving, since he chose to come back so late, it must be because he didn't want me to know, right?Well, I'll just pretend I don't know.

I closed my eyes, although there were still some tears on my face, but because it was late at night, he shouldn't be able to see it, right?

The door opened slowly and closed slowly.Then, I heard a footstep.Step by step, getting closer to me.Never knew, even his footsteps are so familiar to me.I don't know why, but I'm so sure that the footsteps... belonged to Han Chengnan.

The footsteps stopped suddenly... The footsteps should have stopped very close to me.My nose seems to be able to smell his breath.I can't clearly describe the smell emanating from Han Chengnan's body, I can only say that it is a very warm breath, a breath that makes me feel safe after smelling it.

"Alas... like a child, he doesn't know how to cover himself well." Suddenly he uttered such a sentence to himself.In fact, his voice was not loud, but in such a quiet night, it was extraordinarily loud.His tone was full of warmth, which made me even more unable to understand why I had to leave.Why did you choose to disappear when you could come to see me at such a late hour?
"Today should be my last time to see you!" Just as I was still thinking about his leaving, he suddenly said such words with a sigh.He must have sat down beside my bed, because I could clearly feel a corner of my bed sinking suddenly.

the last time……

the last time……

What did he mean by that sigh?What is the last time?

"Although I really don't want to leave, this is the best way for you!" There was an unconcealable sense of loss and helplessness in his voice.

best for me...

What the hell is this guy talking about?I can't seem to understand what he's saying.Best for me, so what is it?

"This time, it should be the last farewell! You always say, I am a rude guy, this time, it should be considered polite, right?" Obviously, it was a joke, but why did it come out of his mouth? Does it look so sad?
Are you polite?
If I fell asleep today, if I didn't hear anything, wouldn't it be impossible for me to hear his polite farewell?The badass.

Suddenly, the depression in the corner of the bed popped up.

Is he... leaving?
So fast?
The next second, I grabbed his hand without thinking.

When I had a reaction, when I thought in my heart that I didn't want him to go, I pulled him back.On a night like this, when I couldn't see anything, I caught him.

"You..." He didn't seem to expect that I would wake up suddenly, his voice was full of surprise.

don't go...don't leave...

I wanted to speak, but I tried hard for a long time, but to no avail.

what to do?I should have said something.I can write it, but once I start, he will leave, right?

In desperation, I held the hand I was holding, and wrote "Don't go" in the palm of his hand.

I'm not sure whether Han Chengnan can understand what I'm writing. Guessing based on feeling alone should be a difficult question, right?

"Even if I stay, it's unnecessary! If I leave, it will be good for everyone." In the darkness, he said in a low voice.

extra?How could it be redundant?Now, I really want to open this guy's head to see if there is malnutrition inside.Why do you have such an idea?Doesn't he know how important he is?At least, how important is it to me?
"That guy Xia Yehan changed for you, so..." He only spoke halfway, and his voice started to become a little choked up.

Xia Yehan, Xia Yehan?It's Xia Yehan again!Why does it feel like Xia Yehan has become a barrier between me and him?Even if Xia Yehan changed, what does it have to do with him?They are obviously two irrelevant people, why should they be confused?I really don't understand...

"Maybe, today, I really shouldn't come." When I was confused, he waved my hand away and strode out.Rather than going out, it is better to say run.

Why do you hide from me?My heart was full of sourness.

What do you mean you shouldn't come?Could it be that you will never see me for the rest of your life?I obviously did nothing wrong, so why should you treat me like this?
Watching him run out, I chased him out without thinking.

Heavy rain, heavy rain again.Because he rushed into the rain, so I rushed into the rain without thinking.My physical strength is not as good as his, especially when I am recovering from a serious illness.The distance between me and him gradually widened, I should have called to stop him, I should have opened my mouth to keep him, but I couldn't say anything.

Why, knowing that I can't speak, why do you still run away like this without looking back?Even though I knew I couldn't catch up, I foolishly hoped that he could stop suddenly, that he could hear the voice of urging me to stay in the depths of my heart.

In the end, he didn't stop, but I did.It was already late at night, and it was still raining heavily, so I didn't see things clearly, but the heavy rain still came to confuse my vision.A small pothole in the ground made me stop.I fell and just lay flat on the ground.

Han Chengnan...why don't you stop?Don't you see me hurt?I imagined that Han Chengnan could walk over like that and gently lift me up when I fell.

But he didn't, his figure disappeared into the night, into the heavy rain.I started to get scared, afraid of what would happen if he just disappeared like this, what would happen if he just disappeared into my world like this!
I just lay there in the mud, overwhelmed by the mix of tears, rain and the smell of mud.

I didn't get up, not because I couldn't get up, but because I wanted Han Chengnan's support.Saying I'm an idiot while acting like nothing happened, won't you help me up?
However, even such a simple hope seems to have become so impossible now.

It's like a movie in my head, the joy of being with him, the happiness of being with him, quarreling with him, making him angry, being irritated by him... Actually, we don't seem to have experienced a lot.However, I understand that even if you don't have much experience, as long as there is a period that is most memorable.

So for me, what is the most memorable thing about him?

A picture suddenly appeared in my head...

Probably after he knew my identity, I wanted to leave, but he kept me.At that time, was it moved?It's not so much moved as happy, right?

At that time, I actually thought that if I stayed, it must be for him.Because of him, I am willing to stay.Because I hoped that he would keep me, he would really keep me, so I was really happy at that time.At that time, what did he say to keep me?It seems to be playing back in the ear.

"Although I don't know why, I still don't want you to leave in my heart."

"Whether it's a boy or a girl, you are you! So, stay!"

"Even if you are a girl, it doesn't matter, as long as, as long as I don't say it, it doesn't matter!"

Thinking about it now, what he said was not very pleasant!He didn't say anything particularly affectionate, but these few words became the most important memory between me and him.No, such a few simple words have almost become the most important memories in my life.Because these seemingly simple words were spoken when I was the saddest, that's why they are so touching.

How sad was I when I wanted to leave?However, what kind of mood did he leave now?I don't understand, I don't understand his departure, and I don't understand why I don't understand anything.

The rain kept falling, just like the day Xia Yehan left.

Even though it was the same scene, why do I feel that compared to the current me, I am more sad?The sense of powerlessness tinged with frustration is also stronger.

I stretched out my hand, trying to grab something, but found that I couldn't grab anything, and my heart was full of the sense of loss that I couldn't grasp.

"Spreading in the rain like this is not good for your health! Especially for someone like you who is just recovering from a serious illness!" Suddenly, the cold rain disappeared.

I turned my head and looked at the person squatting beside me.

No... Han Chengnan!
Why did Xia Yehan appear at this time?Was it Han Chengnan who told him I was here?

"Get up quickly!" His cold hand tried to pull me up.

The moment his hand touched mine, I suddenly wanted to shake off his hand.That freezing temperature is definitely not what I want!

Just when I was still thinking about shaking off his hand, my hand has already started to move unconsciously.My actions always seem to be one step ahead of my thoughts.

However, the moment I threw him away, I felt a momentary stiffness in his body.It was like freezing rapidly, Xia Yehan beside him seemed to freeze in an instant.The umbrella that was originally held in his hand also fell to the ground slowly, and then I was baptized by the rain again.

He who was half squatting suddenly knelt on his knees.

"In the end, I was given up." His voice was mixed with the rain, abrupt but not obvious, and his words were full of sadness.The desolate atmosphere at this moment is in harmony with the icy air.

Because of his words, I seemed to feel guilty again.

I slowly got up from the ground and knelt down on the ground.When the rainwater got into the eyes, it was very painful and astringent.

"Why, it's always me who is abandoned?" His voice trembled.

That trembling voice exposed his fragility.Is he crying?In such a heavy rain, although it was unclear whether it was tears or rain that hung on his face, his trembling voice had completely proved that his tears were real.

Because of his tears, I felt as if I was the worst villain in the whole world.Even if Han Chengnan leaves, I don't need to hurt Xia Yehan like this!Even if I'm sad, I can't hurt other people's hearts!Now that I have experienced how sad it is for the person I want to rely on to leave me, why should I let others experience it too?
Although I don't know where I am in Xia Yehan's heart, I also feel that in his heart, my position is like Han Chengnan's position in mine.That is indispensable, because if that place is empty, some things will become meaningless.

I got up and hugged Xia Yehan who was crying like a helpless child.

On a night like this, Xia Yehan and I just hugged each other and wept loudly.Because I can't speak, I can't comfort Xia Yehan with words, so I can only hug him like this.

I want to use my body temperature to warm him, and I want to use my hug to ease the hurt he has suffered because of me.

(End of this chapter)