Mrs. Lu is a sensation in the city every day

Chapter 272 272. Beautiful

In my heart, I didn’t care about all the things before, but at the beginning it was the matter that my aunt was not by my side. I really cared about it for a long time, because I really depended on this person, but now when my son is my son, I don’t care about it. I understand the feeling of my own mother at that time, that is, what your own child needs, you still want to find yourself and not others when the child is most uncomfortable.

But I was no longer like this at the time. When I felt uncomfortable, I would go to my aunt, and I even felt that my aunt was much better than my mother. At this time, a mother would feel that I did this thing. No, even if my mother was busy at the time, I could feel the feeling of being alienated from my family.

When my mother was seriously ill, I said that sometimes I feel that I have given birth to a son, but I always feel like a stranger to my son, as if no one needs anyone.

As far as she is concerned, that feeling is very bad, and it will make people feel uncomfortable and uncomfortable.

At the beginning, when I felt that there were some things that I could not handle at all, I would feel how about my son, because these two things were actually incompatible, but those who had children at that time said that When you encounter your so-called difficulties, you will think of the person you want to solve the difficulties, and your child is the person you want to solve the difficulties.It's that simple.

It’s just that in my own world, I actually feel that I’m not very comfortable in my heart at this time. When I was very young, I used to think about my classmates before. When they laughed at me, they always said that I was not born by my parents. At that time, if my mother wanted a title, she would look for a child that someone else wanted. I remember thinking that this was true, and I was still looking for my biological parents for a long time, but what I remember most clearly was not finding my own biological parents. It was his own mother who cried.

It was the first time that my mother cried directly in front of me after I said it out and was targeted by others, and that cry can be said to be more heart-piercing than when I was acting before, maybe it was in the acting It is a formalization, and that time, when I really heard my son say such words, I really couldn't stand it in my heart. I think which one is in my heart, and I really feel sorry for my mother. Yes, for a long time I would not say these things.

But I understand that others must look down on me a lot. After all, my identity can be said to be very embarrassing. The first thing all parents say to their children when they see themselves is not to play with this child. And my mother is not accepted by others, even if she is very famous in the entertainment industry, but in the eyes of these people, she is just an abandoned mother and child. When I was young, I remember my mother often said The most important thing is that I am not abandoned.

Said that my parents will still follow me in the future, and my father will give everything to me at that time. At that time, I thought this was just a joke, and I can say that I have no relationship with my father at all. Why should I give myself not to the child who grew up next to me? I only found out about this hidden situation later. At that time, I felt that my mother was really miserable, but if it was about that person, I would have been here with my parents a long time ago. grow up together.

But at that time, my mother didn't say much, she just asked my father to take good care of herself, but that time was the last meeting of the family of three, and after that time, my mother passed away because of a serious illness. , for a long time in this foreign country, my father wanted to go back to China because I felt that there was no time to take care of myself abroad, but I didn’t know what I thought at that time, I just felt that I didn’t want to go back and see that Woman, I think it was the daughter who made me do this.

But my father actually didn't say anything, just according to my mother's words, that person was indeed bad, but those children were not wrong, they just became opposites because of their mother, and my father was also responsible for them , it is impossible because I have given up a lot of responsibilities that I should take on alone, and what my father has always wanted is to give myself a better opportunity for development, so everything over there cannot be lost. If you lose yourself, you will be gone.

It's just that I suddenly feel in my heart that my mother is actually a person who looks like a tiger but is actually a gentle and incompetent person. Even in the face of such a situation, I think of other people's situation. She is a very reliable person, but to others, she seems to be an angel forever, that's why she becomes the person that my father never forgets, and in my heart, I always really like all the characters of my mother of.

But sometimes my mother is real, and sometimes when she is too nice, she will be bullied. In fact, no one has ever proved to her mother what happened back then, and it seems that she has insisted that she was her mother back then. I got involved in this marriage, but at that time, no one said the secrets of all the things, and I didn't want to tell about my mother at this time. After all, everything was the best choice for my mother. That's what he said even when he left at the end.

In my life, I have always felt that what I lack is the education my mother gave me, because my mother was always outside when I was very young, and the education I received was from what others said was my mother, and My own words that are not very pleasant to hear, I used to think that these words sounded very harsh, but later I knew that my mother would often hear these words when she was pregnant with me, and it was even worse than what I heard. Harsh, at that time, my mother's actual agent said that this child could not be given up.

But my mother can't do it. For her, she really likes her father. If she doesn't like it, she also knows that it's impossible for two people. The possibility of this life is not too big, but it has never been. I have encouraged my father to divorce because I knew that woman had a child and the child was still very big. When I was a child, my mother said that I am not a kind person, but I am not a cruel person either. if.May be better off.

But I feel that my mother would never do such a thing. In her eyes, everything is beautiful.

(End of this chapter)