Mrs. Lu is a sensation in the city every day

Chapter 342
In fact, I already felt that this matter was not very good at a very early stage, because I didn’t like the feeling of getting along with it very much, and it made me feel uncomfortable. Sometimes I actually felt that the existence of the matter itself was difficult. It's because I was seldom able to be cruel to my parents, because I wanted to tell them several times in the past that I just don't want to have a good relationship with myself, what kind of relationship is it? Don't you know?
At that time, I still couldn't bear to say this in my heart. Although I didn't like it very much, sometimes I could just endure it. After all, it was my parents, but at this time, after Gu Molian finished speaking, In fact, I feel very relaxed in my heart, that is, I don’t have any uncomfortable feeling. After all, I used to feel very uncomfortable, but now I feel a kind of relaxed feeling. I feel relaxed and happy. .

At the beginning, I actually thought that some things needed a certain degree of difficulty, but the biggest difficulty I had with my parents was that they didn’t feel that I was wrong, and sometimes some things were not my own. What girls can say is that there are too many topics that everyone can't talk about directly, and they don't know how to explain to their parents, which makes them feel a little unsure of what to say.

When I am in front of my eyes, I actually still worry about these problems in my heart. Even when I was in the past, I can make people understand that these problems are so difficult. My parents never think that it is my own. Wrong, because I said it once when I was a child. At that time, I remembered my parents said that it is the matter of feelings that cannot be controlled.

It’s just that I don’t like you. Is it true? I like the feeling of you. It’s not that I do it on purpose. It’s just that sometimes when I see this child, I feel unhappy, because it’s not the same as the feeling I chose at the beginning. What I want is a very good child with the same IQ as myself, but Lili at that time was not, and at that time Lili can be said to make people feel that this child is not suitable for learning, so At that time, even if I didn't like Lili, I really couldn't control it, so it was realistic.

In fact, it feels like my hope is lost in an instant. It makes people feel a little uncomfortable. It makes people feel that this matter itself is strange, and people don’t know how to explain it when they talk about it. In front of my own eyes, I actually don’t know what to say about these things. I feel that I am worried, which makes people feel a little uncomfortable. At that time, my parents said such things to me, how could I not feel uncomfortable.

But even so, I still respected my parents very much at that time. Because of this, I sometimes wondered whether I could treat myself better or let myself feel a little bit in my heart. I am also liked by others, this feeling has lasted for a long time, I hope my parents can talk about it like this, which is good for me, but sometimes even when I am acting, I don’t have it, it always seems like I am not intimate.

I have always felt that this matter is impossible for me to realize in my whole life, because the relationship between me and my parents is not to blame, it is my parents, and I have a reason with myself, because I know the kind of dislike my parents treat me. I like it, so a long time ago, I was not very friendly to my parents, that is, when my parents sometimes went to pick me up, I couldn’t come out of my grandparents’ house, because I just didn’t like it. My parents feel that they don't like me.

What makes me feel the most uncomfortable is that sometimes my mother said that I wanted to take you away back then, but you didn't want to, and people didn't know how to say it. At that time, I actually knew that this parent just didn't want to I like myself and don't like myself all the time, so I feel uncomfortable just looking at my parents. In the past, when my parents came to pick me up, I actually needed something. I just need to show up to come out, otherwise I just don't care. Come.

That is, I understand it, so I don’t have high requirements for my parents, because I know that they just can’t do it at all, but sometimes I see my parents have that kind of attitude, and I am naturally I am very angry, but this kind of anger is only temporary. In fact, if these people treat me better, I may soften my heart, but I have never softened my heart, even if I sometimes say a good word.

That is, in my heart, the biggest discomfort for this matter itself came from my childhood. When I was a child, I actually experienced a lot of things because my parents ignored me, but my parents never thought it was me. My fault is that when I was young, my grandfather couldn't bear it and said a few words to them, but because of these words, the two of them never came back to see the old man.

I remember these things. When I was a child, I heard my grandparents say it the most. In fact, when I was a child, I said it too seriously, how about a smart child, so that my parents like smart children, because the previous one was me. My mother is also a student of this grandfather, so she is an educator of my grandfather. She has always been a good child, and she is not uncomfortable in many cases, but she did not expect to treat her child so badly.

In the past, my grandfather always said that if I said a word at that time, the two children would remember it until now, and then it would affect my own children's problems, and I would not know what to say, but now I Her parents actually disagreed with what Gu Molian said, because they thought it was right for them to help.

Because in my heart, I actually feel that I should help at all, and I have already said that I will not help, and I have my own things to do, why I will help you no matter what you say I feel that this is wrong, but I also understand what my parents mean. It is because I feel that this child has something to do with me, so I often feel that I should do this.

But I don't want to think about how strong my relationship with this child is.

That is, when I was a child, this child has never been in contact with me. After growing up, because of my identity, it is even more impossible for me to just go home from time to time.

(End of this chapter)