Evil's beloved wife

Chapter 414 Turning Point (1)
And Qiao Jianing looked at him, the man who looked at her expectantly in his eyes.This proud and conceited man knelt on one knee in front of him, a handsome and handsome man.The man she once loved and resented, now he says he loves himself, he says he will give her a grand wedding, he is promising himself a lifetime.

She should be happy, right?But there was a sadness in my heart.

If all this had happened three years ago, she thought she would have embraced it, and she would have felt very, very happy.And now...

"Don't cry, Jianing, I won't make you cry again." He kissed her, put the ring on her ring finger, and pushed it forward little by little.

It's just that when the cold platinum touched her fingertips, Qiao Jianing felt like getting an electric shock, and suddenly curled up her fingers to prevent him from wearing it.

"Jianing?" Lou Shaodong looked up at her with surprise in his eyes.

Qiao Jianing clenched her hands tightly, slowly put them on her lap, and lowered her head, not daring to look into his eyes, for fear of sinking herself.

She said: "Lou Shaodong, it's too late." Her voice was low, as if carrying some old indifference.

"What did you say?" Lou Shaodong asked, suspecting that he didn't hear clearly.

Qiao Jianing looked up at him with heavy eyes, she believed that he heard clearly, and she didn't have the courage to say it again.

Lou Shaodong looked into her eyes, at this moment, he seemed to be more indifferent than the day they met just now, he couldn't help but feel his chest tighten.Also confused, the misunderstanding between them has been explained, isn't it?Why is she still refusing to accept herself?

"What's late? Why is it late?" He excitedly grabbed her shoulder and asked, his fingers trying to embed them into her shoulder blades.

Qiao Jianing lowered her head and did not answer.

However, there was a change in Lou Shaodong's eyes, uncontrollably stained with anger, but forced a smile on the corner of his lips.He stared at her and asked, "Why? Don't say you don't love me."

If you say you don't love me now, no ghost will believe it.

Qiao Jianing finally slowly raised her head again, meeting his fiery eyes.His thoughts seemed to drift far away again, away from him, only to hear his own cruel voice, saying: "Shaodong, do you know? We once had a child."

Just because the misunderstanding was resolved, she no longer had any reason to resent, so she felt that she could no longer face him, the lost child.

That child died because of her, and she didn't even keep their child, so how could she face Lou Shaodong who always said he loved her deeply?
"What did you say?" Lou Shaodong asked, with complicated eyes, because she couldn't confirm, why did she mention the child's child as a reason to prevent them from being together, and when did they have a child?
Everything seemed to be in chaos again.

"I said we had a child once, that was the day I came to J City to look for you, and I found out that I had your child." She covered her face with her painful hands.

At this moment, she hated herself, hated why the self in those years went back after seeing those magazines, since she had already arrived in J City, why did she insist on asking him for verification in person?
After all, she was still too cowardly, it was her timidity that killed that child, her and Lou Shaodong's child.

Such themselves, such them, how can they be worthy of happiness?
"Tell me, where is that child?" He grabbed her hand nervously and asked, seeing her painful face, he had a bad feeling in his heart.

Based on what he knew about Qiao Jianing, if that child existed, she should take it with him.If they had had a child before, she should have happily taken him to see, instead of showing such a painful expression.

"The child was lost. That day I got out of the car and saw the photos of you and Mo Luo on the cover of the magazine. I was exhausted and went back to City S. Later I found out that I was pregnant." She explained, somewhat incoherently.

"Tell me which child to have?" Lou Shaodong shook her anxiously, he didn't want to hear those explanations, he only anxiously sought answers.

He was suddenly a little scared, because based on what he knew about Qiao Jianing and how determined she was to him at that time, he didn't even dare to think about what she would do.

"It's gone..." she really replied.

Although the voice was very soft, it seemed as if all the strength of her body had been gathered to spit it out. Only she could feel how cold the rain was and how urgently it hit her, and her body and heart were in extreme pain.

"Aborted?" Lou Shaodong repeated, then remembered something, squinted his eyes and looked at her and asked, "It's you...Qiao Jianing, is it you..." He asked sharply, his voice and even his whole body trembling, he didn't even Have the courage to ask.

The sudden news about the child caught him off guard, and he couldn't tell whether it was hatred or pain at this moment.He felt that Qiao Jianing should have hated him at the beginning, so he deliberately aborted the child. He knew that even so, Qiao Jianing couldn't be completely blamed, the responsibility still lay with him, and he couldn't accept it.

How could she be so cruel?
And Qiao Jianing was also trapped in deep grief and self-blame, and had no intention of defending herself at all.She has always been unable to accept that the child left her in less than two months in her body, or even before it was formed.All these years, she has brooded over the lost child.

He asked if it was her?Although she didn't quite say it, she also understood what he meant.Originally, it was her cowardice, her stubbornness, and his indecision that killed him, so how could they deserve happiness?
Lou Shaodong also suddenly felt powerless, and the ring fell from his loose fingers, making a series of tiny sounds on the floor tiles.He stood up slowly, as if using all his strength, he stepped out of Qiao Jianing's house.

Qiao Jianing was left huddled on the sofa, with big tears dripping on the back of his hands, slowly smudged.This is a memorial service that is three years late, for the lost child...

After that day, Lou Shaodong never came again.Qiao Jianing didn't let Xiao Jia come back this week because of her leg injury, and let him stay in the school for the time being.And I lie at home, eating and sleeping mechanically every day, with little smile on my face, and most of the time I am lost in thought with the TV on.

For the first time in three years, she let herself go like this.If Lou Shaoqing hadn't come to her door, she didn't know how long she would be so decadent.

She was sitting in the living room in a daze when the doorbell rang.Thinking of the way Lou Shaodong left that day, he fiddled with the ring that fell on the ground between his fingers.She put it on the ring finger of her left hand for a long time, but she didn't have the courage to put it on.

She knew that she longed to be Lou Shaodong's wife and wanted to live with him.But when she thought of the lost child, she felt a deep sense of guilt. She felt that she was not worthy, so she was punishing herself as well as him.

It was at this time that Lou Shaoqing came. She heard the doorbell and put the ring into the jewelry box before getting up to open the door.When she saw Lou Shaoqing standing straight outside the door in a formal suit, she was still a little surprised.

(End of this chapter)