I really didn't want to brush the good feelings!

Chapter 104 0104: Looking Back at Youth
"Okay, stop talking, just kidding!"

But the next second, when he didn't know how to answer, Ji Yun suddenly put her arms back and gave him a playful smile.

Then he turned around, swung his arms, and continued to walk forward. Xu Lin also breathed a sigh of relief.

But the bottom of my heart is more grateful, Ji Yun did not force him to make a choice in the end, which actually made him feel more sorry for this girl.

Ji Yun, who was walking in front, turned her back to Xu Lin, her eyes also turned red suddenly, as if she was blinded by the wind and sand, and tears were about to fall.

But she sobbed twice, locked all the tears in her eyes, and then let go of her fist.

I seem to be a little impulsive, what should I do if Xu Lin rejects me?Did you really part ways with him?
If they are already in a different place and don't meet each other, I can still bear with it and let the distance and time dilute.

But at this time she couldn't do it, even if Xu Lin's appearance showed that he still liked other girls in his heart, she couldn't do it.

If Xu Lin chose her, she might not know what to do, and really made Xu Lin give up contact with other girls.

She also has no right to imprison a person's freedom, nor is she his wife.But she doesn't want to compete with others, let alone she feels that Xu Lin likes many girls.

But it's hard to tell who is related to him, after all, you can't wrong people.

So now she is also in a state of entanglement, and in the end she withdrew her energy first, so she dragged the words.

Looking at him like this, he won't talk about friends with any specific person for the time being, so no matter who Xu Lin likes, they are all equal.

She has believed since she was a child that what is hers must be hers, and what is not hers, she can't keep it, so let him go.

If he chooses someone else, it means that he chose the person he likes in his heart, but he confirmed the relationship with him, and he didn't go to the end with himself in the end.

Then he was the one who lost, just like Aunt Yao and his mother.So I won't attack again, and wait for the day when he takes the initiative to choose me.

In this way, the two of them walked a long way without talking, and finally got on a bus and headed for the hospital.

After catching the bus, there were quite a lot of people, so Xu Lin and Ji Meizi could only squeeze together near the exit door, enduring the roujiamo before and after.

Although the country is much better, there are generally no idiots like Neon, but now there are everyone, so we have to be a little bit more careful.

So he hugged the slender Ji Yun in his arms, but Miss Ji Yun kept moving.

"What are you doing?" Xu Lin spoke for the first time after the two were silent for a long time.

"It's too crowded, you hit me..." Ji Yun said softly, lowered her head embarrassedly, and pressed it against his chest.

"Sorry, it's just a phone."

"Xu Lin, tell me the truth, do you like me?"

"Like? Why do you ask? Of course, you're the girl I've liked the longest!"

When Xu Lin said this, he couldn't help but put a smile on the corner of his mouth, and a flood of memories flooded his heart. He was different from Li Bin and Ma Zhiyu back then.

He has been a very shy and timid boy since he was a child. If he hadn't been helped by two good buddies, Li Bin and Ma Zhiyu, he would have been bullied often.

It's the most ordinary kind of honest boy, who goes to class normally, leaves school normally, does homework, and when he has nothing to do, he watches anime for a while and reads novels under the covers.

In the novel, I saw many wonderful stories, and also saw the life of the hero, which was so extraordinary and so dazzling.

But when I wake up every day, I still can only feel that I am an ordinary person, nothing can change, and I can only spend every day like this.

Like everyone else, elementary school, middle school, high school, college, graduation, job, marriage, continuing to work.

He also passed the second grade, and imagined that the world would change drastically, and he would become the protagonist.But as I get older, the world feels more real.

There are so many people whose family conditions are better than him, and there are so many people who are born better than him in learning. He also works hard, but there is a big gap.

There are so many people who are naturally eloquent, have many friends, and teachers and classmates like him very much.

There is also a girl I have a crush on in junior high school, and a boy who is good in study, good in sports, and has 'buddies' outside school has become boyfriend and girlfriend.

To tell the truth, he was envious, jealous, wanted to catch up, wanted to change himself, but eventually fell into the swamp, getting deeper and deeper, and more and more autistic.

In this way, I became more and more lazy, and I no longer paid so much attention to grades, and I no longer paid attention to interpersonal communication, living in my own world.

In this way, he went to high school in a daze, and his life ushered in a turning point for the first time, and it was also the only turning point in his last life.

When he entered Class 3 of No. 7 Middle School, there were 40 students in the class, and there were 60 students in the class. He was a standard middle and lower class.

He is also not foreign, doesn't know how to dress himself up, and is not very good at communicating with people, so he is the most inconspicuous existence to everyone.

But next to his most inconspicuous existence, there appeared the most inconspicuous existence in his last short life, Ji Yun.

She is like a star that illuminates his heart and makes people yearn for it, but she knows that moths fly to the flame.

Half a month after the start of school, she began to be confessed by many boys in turn, but none of them were rejected.

But Xu Lin envied those boys, at least they still had the courage to confess, but he only dared to look at her from a distance.

Then came the first transfer, which he chose based on the results of the first monthly exam, so he could only watch the boys sit around Ji Yun.

For the first time, he felt that if he didn't work hard and change, he would only get farther and farther away from her.

From that day on, he became serious again, not for anything else, just to get closer to her, even a little.

But the waste of two years in junior high school still made it difficult for him to catch up quickly in terms of grades.But after half a semester, he still managed to reach the top 2 in the class.

Half a year has passed, and he still hasn't said a word to the other party. Now that he thinks about it, he was like a fool at that time.

But for him, the biggest redemption was an event in the second semester of his first year of high school, a scene he would never forget for the rest of his life.

As a shadow person in the class, Ma Zhiyu and Li Bin hadn't transferred to the same class at that time, so he really didn't have many friends.

There are many students who can even call his name wrong, even the teacher is like this, but it is a spring physical examination in April that is used for publicity.

When he participated in the men's 1000-meter run, 50 boys were in a group, and other students surrounded the running circle, cheering for the people they knew.

But as he started running, he heard other people's names ringing, and one of the handsome sports students was even a bunch of girls calling his name.

But among the dozens of names, his name was the only one that didn't exist, but just when his heart was bitter to the extreme, Ji Yun's clear voice rang out.

"Come on, Xu Lin!"

Just such a sentence, like an angel's embrace, dragged him out of hell, and made him almost cry on the spot.

In this competition, relying on his weak body, he forcibly won the seventh place.

The students in the class also gathered around and praised him. It was also the first time that he felt his own existence, as Xu Lin's existence.

He looked at the girl from a distance, and the girl turned around, with a slight smile and a look back, which made him remember how many years.

Because of this, he worked harder. From the worst student, he got a book, had his own friends, and had his own life.

So she is her own white moonlight, and she is also the reason why she wanted to confess her love at the first time after she traveled back, even though she was rejected.

But he was surprisingly calm, because he had already accomplished what he wanted to do the most back then, without any regrets.

But now he gave up his own expectations because of his fickleness. Isn't this a betrayal of himself?

"I'm sorry, Ji Yun, I'm sorry."

Xu Lin looked at the girl, as if he saw the smiling face waving his hands back then, and a line of tears accidentally fell down.

"Why do you say I'm sorry?" Ji Yun suddenly felt that Xu Lin was crying sadly, she was also taken aback, and hurriedly took out the tissue.

The little hand gently lifted his cheek, a little itchy and sweet.

"I don't know." Xu Lin pouted, like a child coquettishly.

"Crying without knowing, it's shameful!" Ji Yun also laughed when she heard Xu Lin say that, just like a child, she cried whenever she wanted to!

"Ji Yun, do you know when I fell in love with you?"

"Ok?"

"When you cheer me on."

"Come on... you mean the game half a year ago?"

"Ah."

"How long is that? You said you have liked me for the longest time?" Ji Yun felt that Xu Lin was perfunctory again.

"No, it's been a long time, it's been 7 years, but I want this time to be longer, longer."

　Most of the confessions in this chapter are based on my real situation, which is absolutely true. The only difference is that I don’t have my own Ji Yun, and I haven’t met again.

　　
　
(End of this chapter)