how far is Forever

Chapter 14

For a long time, there was a crisp sound from somewhere, like the sound of water droplets hitting the water surface, and there was a faint echo in the darkness.I looked for it, and in the darkness, I actually saw a drop of blood falling, and the water surface containing it was against the red light, as if there were countless invisible shadows shaking.

I walked by and saw Su Luoyan, Jiang Chuan, Yan Lele, and Ji Nuannuan on the water...

From the age of six, to junior high school, high school, and university, every time period in my life was played in front of my eyes in turn, until they all turned their backs to me and left me one after another...

I wanted to chase after them, but I was like a puppet with loose strings, unable to move. The only thing I could do was to keep my eyes open and watch the shadows of each of them.

until they disappear.

Does that seem to be a world different from mine, or is it just that they are so far away from me?I stood there in a daze, in this world where there was only me, there was only the sound of blood dripping on the water surface that continued to reverberate.

I stared at the surface of the water in fear, my hands kept shaking, trying to breathe hard, but I couldn't breathe air.

"what……"

I almost woke up with a start. When I opened my eyes, the first thing I saw was Song Junmu. He stroked my forehead and said softly, "Ruoruo, did you have a nightmare?"

I hugged him tightly, he was the only one who was still guarding me by my side.

Song Junmu patted me on the back lightly: "Ruoruo, don't be afraid, I will always be by your side."

I nodded silently, now I seem to have only him.

It's still raining outside the window, it's already January, and the final exam is coming soon, and today is the weekend, but I didn't go home.

Since the first day I lived in Song Junmu's house, my mobile phone has been vibrating continuously, and a name has been flashing on the screen - Su Luoyan.

I threw the phone aside and let it vibrate.Song Junmu looked at me without asking further questions.

I lay down in front of the window, watching the rain outside kept pattering down, I gently opened the window, and the thin and dense rain fell in.

In fact, I have never liked rain, because at this time before, even if I brought an umbrella, Su Luoyan would always take off his coat, put it on me, and then open the umbrella to cover the wet side for me. Sky, but when he went back, he was always drenched heavily.

Su Luoyan Su Luoyan Su Luoyan...

I silently chanted his name, until now, I still miss him so much in my heart, I blinked my eyes slightly, looked at the rain outside the window, silently waiting for the pain in my heart to disappear, and when I looked back At the time of God, Song Junmu was already standing by my side.

"Ruo Ruo, Ruo Ruo..."

It took me a long time to come back to my senses and ask, "What?"

Song Junmu sighed slightly, but still smiled: "I'll go to your dormitory and get some of your change of clothes, and I'll live here forever!"

I looked at him and nodded. In fact, this is very good. It's very quiet here, and I don't like other people across the street.

Song Junmu put a kiss on my forehead: "Then I'm going, you have to stay at home obediently."

I nodded again.

Song Junmu opened the door and went out. At that moment, there seemed to be a wind rushing in, and I shivered.The door was closed, and I shrank in the corner, feeling extremely desolate.

Too many unforgettable pains have made me unable to think, tears blurred my vision again, almost uncontrollable, I squatted on the ground, hugging myself tightly like when I was a child.

But this time I was alone, like stepping into a maze of nightmares, the scene in front of me was suddenly far and near.

About Su Luoyan, about Jiang Chuan, about Yan Lele...

A trace of desolation penetrated my heart like a poison, and I still don't understand why at that time, Su Luoyan, who I thought was the least likely to abandon me, questioned me?

Unfortunately, I didn't have the courage to ask him again.

I closed my eyes, until now, I still don't believe it, I can't believe it when I said such decisive words to Su Luoyan, who was once my favorite, he didn't believe me.

That night, I encountered the deepest despair in my life, Su Luoyan asked me: "Su Ruo, is that you?"

This sentence seems to be a curse that has been lingering in my mind and cannot be dispelled.

Maybe it's time to give up. The uneasiness when I knew my heart, the secret joy when I knew he was not my brother, and the joy when he called me "silly girl" all became blurred by the sentence "Is it you?" .Perhaps, only giving up is the best result.

The room is so quiet, Su Luoyan, this name is like a black hole, but now it seems that he is no longer the him in memory, as if something has changed.I shook my head, trying to restrain myself from thinking about it.

I tried to stand up alone, feeling a little dizzy. I remembered that I hadn’t eaten since I got up in the morning. I suddenly felt a little hungry. I opened the refrigerator, but there was nothing in it.I bent the corner of my mouth. Sure enough, Song Junmu always went out to eat. As a guy, he never kept anything at home.

I picked up the umbrella and prepared to go to the supermarket to buy something and come back.

Pushing open the door, the rain outside was rustling, it was like a dream to me.

I sighed slightly, I knew that my chest was hurting, even after a long time, it would still hurt, like a cancer sealed in my heart, I was powerless to eradicate it myself!
I went to the supermarket, and among the crowds of people shopping, I pushed the shopping cart alone, and the child beside me slid the shopping cart to pass quickly. Suddenly, a force grabbed my arm, and I was not caught. Hit.

"Be careful."

I looked back: "Jiang Chuan..."

"Yeah." He let go of his hand, his voice was calm.

I smiled lightly: "Thank you."

"You're welcome."

I was pushing the shopping cart again, and as the crowd moved slowly, Jiang Chuan didn't have anything to buy, but just happened to see me near the supermarket, and followed me unconsciously.

I was queuing in front of the supermarket cashier, and Jiang Chuan was standing beside me. He didn't know what emotion was in his dark eyes. He asked me, "Are you still used to being with Song Junmu?"

I nodded: "He treats me very well."

"That's good." Jiang Chuan said nothing more.

I turned my head to look at him. Originally, I wanted to ask him how he is doing, how is his relationship with Yan Lele?But after all, I still stopped talking, it's none of my business anymore.

My gaze lowered slightly again, and for the first time, I felt unfamiliar with Jiang Chuan and had an unresolved knot in my heart.

Jiang Chuan suddenly whispered, "I can't help you much either."

"nothing."

My voice is also very low.

The crowd in front was moving slowly, we didn't say another word until we walked out of the supermarket, it was almost noon.

Jiang Chuan asked, "Do you want to have lunch?"

"No, I have something else to do."

"Okay, then... goodbye."

"Ah."

He and I turned around almost at the same time, one went to the left and the other to the right.The winter rain, the slightest bit of cold, my best friend and I, the backs of the two of us have become farther and farther away.

I was walking alone on the road, and my mind was full of things from my childhood. Before Su Luoyan appeared, Jiang Chuan regarded himself as "Su Ruo's patron saint". As long as someone dares to bully me, he will definitely bully me even more go back.

Since when have we become like this?

The phone vibrated suddenly, I thought it was Song Junmu looking for me to go back, but after a glance, it turned out to be a text message from Ji Nuannuan.

"Su Ruo, No. 7 coffee shop, there is what you want."

I looked at this text message inexplicably, not knowing whether I should go or not.What did she say I wanted?
After hesitating for a while, I sent a text message telling Song Junmu that I would be back later, and then sat down at No. 7 of Zero Coffee as Ji Nuannuan said and waited for her.

There are two types of layouts in Zero Point, one is ordinary seats, which are no different from other coffee shops, and the other is separate, separated by screens, giving couples who come here for a date a lot of private space.The seat No. 7 that Ji Nuannuan mentioned is on the side with the screen.

While I was waiting for Ji Nuannuan, I also waited for Yan Lele.They were sitting next to me, and Ji Nuannuan's voice was a little loud, as if she wanted me to hear her conversation with Yan Lele on purpose.

"How, are you happy now?" Ji Nuannuan suddenly asked a strange question after meeting Yan Lele.

"I don't understand what you're talking about." Yan Lele's tone was a little stiff, as if she didn't want to see Ji Nuannuan, "Why did you suddenly ask me out? Didn't I say, don't look for me again. "

"Yo, I want to cross the river and tear down the bridge." Ji Nuannuan sneered.

"Our cooperation has ended. It doesn't matter what crossing the river and tearing down the bridge. You have achieved your goal and successfully hurt Su Ruo, making Su Luoyan no longer trust her. What else do you want?"

What does it mean?Ji Nuannuan achieved her goal and made Su Luoyan not trust me?

Could it be the last time at Yan Lele's house?
"Don't make yourself so aggrieved, as if I used you. Have you forgotten that you came up with the method of framing Su Ruo? And it was you who put it into action. When the time comes, it's just for you to confirm your thoughts. I admit that I hate Su Ruo, but what about you, your hatred is no less than mine, isn't it?"

I feel like I can't "digest" their words at first, Yan Lele hates me?Why?
"That's right, I hate her, I hate that she has such a close relationship with Jiang Chuan, I hate her for making Jiang Chuan worry about her, I hate that Jiang Chuan will throw me aside every time something happens to her, I hate that when I was with Jiang Chuan, he I always mention her over and over again. And like a little angel who doesn't know anything, she enjoys Jiang Chuan's kindness to her without feeling guilty at all. Doesn't she know that Jiang Chuan is my boyfriend? He only You can treat me like this, not her! So when you found me, I agreed to you without hesitation and cooperated with you. But this does not mean that I will continue to cooperate with you, Ji Nuannuan, I am the last one today Tell you once, don't look for me again, I don't want to see you again."

After Yan Lele left, Ji Nuannuan stood in front of me and looked at me arrogantly, like a mighty queen, she sneered: "How about it, you heard everything, how do you feel?"

"Ji Nuannuan, I didn't expect that the person who knows me best is you. You can always pinch my dead point just right, and then give a fatal blow." I couldn't help but sigh.

Ji Nuannuan did it on purpose, she let me hear everything on purpose, and let me know that the theft incident that day was arranged by Yan Lele.It turns out that Yan Lele has such hatred for me, is it because she loves Jiang Chuan too much?That's why I hate the intimacy between Jiang Chuan and me.

"Su Ruo, you are always like this, attacking others with a pitiful attitude. Haven't you ever thought that if Yan Lele didn't hate you deeply enough, she would cooperate with me? Would she frame you? It was your existence that threatened her, and your unknowing innocence hurt her. Do you think you and Jiang Chuan are childhood sweethearts, and you think you can get along so intimately by calling each other 'blue face' and 'red face'? You Where do you put Yan Lele as a girlfriend? Put away your ridiculous innocence, that will only make others hate you even more."

Is that so?

The existence of Ji Nuannuan was a thorn in my heart, but I didn't know that my existence was also a thorn in Yan Lele's heart.

I couldn't believe it until I heard Yan Lele say some things in person, how wrong I was.

"Su Ruo, you are such a ridiculous existence, both for Jiang Chuan and Su Luoyan." Throwing down these words, Ji Nuannuan left without looking back.

I wanted to stand up and refute, but found that I couldn't find a reason to refute.

"Ruoruo, where are you? Why haven't you come back? Where are you?" Song Junmu sent a text message, and I numbly replied to him with my location.

When Song Junmu stood in front of me, I was still crying, and I couldn't stop my tears.

"Ruoruo, what happened? Why are you crying?" Song Junmu wiped my tears in a panic, his face was full of uneasiness, "What happened?"

"I am fine."

"I saw Ji Nuannuan when I came here, did she do something to you?"

Song Junmu, you don't know, it's never Ji Nuannuan who can hurt me, but people like Su Luoyan and Yan Lele who I care about.

Song Junmu pushed back the hair on my forehead: "Ruoruo, promise me, don't provoke Ji Nuannuan in the future."

"I have never provoked her, but she has always been aggressive towards me!"

"I know, I know, because... Su Luoyan." Song Junmu paused slightly, and my eyes were also slightly dazed, and he continued, "Ji Nuannuan will do whatever it takes to get her want."

I get it, the contacts these days, I totally get it.

Song Junmu held my hand tightly. I looked up at him and could feel his warmth reaching my heart.

The winter rain gradually faded away, we put away the umbrella, he took my hand, and walked on the path, like an old movie in the past, there was no sound between each other.

"Junmu, hold on tighter, okay?"

He said, "Okay."

"Don't let go."

"it is good!"

Good, good... like the echoes back and forth in the valley. The sun did not appear in the city soon after the rain, and the air was still filled with mist, like a shallow sea. Now that I think about it, the fog at that time was like a dream...

04
Song Junmu's home is just a shell that I can temporarily hide from. After all, I still have to return to life and school.

"Isn't this Su Ruo from the art department?"

"Which Su Ruo?"

"It's the one who stole Yan Lele's necklace. It's going crazy in school, and you don't know?"

"Oh, you mean her."

"Now she dares to show up!"

"It's for the final exam."

"The character is so bad, what's the point of taking the test? It's really embarrassing to our University A. If I were her, I would just dig a hole and bury my face in it!"

"Yes, yes!"

As long as I walk, I can hear such conversations without exception, and now I have become a celebrity in University A.

I walked from the school gate to the dormitory building, and people passing by along the way looked at me, pointed, and whispered.I closed my eyes and endured all this silently until I walked into the dormitory building.The girls passing by were all laughing quietly, I frowned, not knowing what was so funny.

"Is it very popular to live together outside of school recently?" The girl who passed by already laughed.

Another girl also smiled ambiguously: "It's been a long night, living in a world of two, I'm so jealous."

"Ah, I really want to stay out with Song Junmu all night."

The yelling made me a little disgusted, but the girl behind me was still smiling happily.

"How can you compare to others? You have a brother who is a top student in the law department, and a good-looking childhood sweetheart, and now he is next to Song Junmu, tsk tsk tsk, how can we compare this skill."

"It's really amazing."

Several low laughs sounded at the same time, and the girls in groups of three and four walked further and further away, but I tried to keep my calm, there was no need to explain something to unrelated people.

"Hey, what are you thinking about?" Someone patted my right shoulder, and I turned my head subconsciously, but there was no one there.

"Fool." The man laughed at me from the left, "When will you be smarter."

"I've always been smart." I looked up and said to Song Junmu.

"Okay, okay, you've always been smart, where are you going?"

I raised the book in my hand: "Go to the library, I have an exam soon."

Song Junmu smiled at me and said, "Go home, let's review together, it's easy to meet nympho in a place like the library."

"Song Junmu, you are too narcissistic, I just want to go to the library."

"The objection is invalid, go home."

I know that the matter of me stealing things has been exaggerated by people with high intentions, and the matter of Song Junmu and I living together outside the school has also been described as filthy.

Song Junmu wanted to take me away from the cusp, but I refused to leave.Going to the library, to the self-study room, I just want to go to that kind of crowded place, I didn't do anything wrong, why didn't I dare to go?
If I don't go, doesn't it prove that I have a guilty conscience and admit that I have a problem?
I looked at him Song Junmu, his eyes made my heart ache, I tried to raise the corners of my mouth: "Then let's go home!"

I am a person who does not want to compromise, but I am willing to give in for Song Junmu, because I know that this boy does everything for my sake, and I don't want him to feel sad.

"Su Ruo, the sky is very blue today."

"Ah."

"I believe everything will be fine in the future, and the sky will always be so clear."

"Ah."

"Su Ruo, can I be artistic?"

"what?"

"your happiness is the sun in my world."

"Yeah." My heart was already turbulent, I smiled at him and said to him, "I'm fine, it's sunny."

(End of this chapter)