how far is Forever

Chapter 17

01
The exam week is coming soon, and I have been busy recently, and I rarely meet Jiang Chuan. As for Su Luoyan, I have never met him once. Instead, I met Ji Nuannuan.

It was in front of the dormitory building, and she seemed to be waiting for me to go back.

In the quiet night, she stood in front of me, without the publicity she used to have, and a little more lonely.I don't understand, why is she looking for me now?Is there anything else we can say between us?

"What do you want to return Su Luoyan to me?" Not as aggressive as before, she looked at me with melancholy light, such an arrogant Ji Nuannuan would talk to me in such a tone.

Ji Nuannuan looked at me, and suddenly said sarcastically: "You are very proud, aren't you? So many girls like Su Luoyan, but he only likes you."

I was surprised: "What did you say?"

"Do you still want to play dumb? Don't you know that you are the one Su Luoyan likes?" Ji Nuannuan had a mocking smile on his lips.

I pursed my lips and said nothing.I never thought about whether he likes me or not. I think we would be happy if we were brother and sister. I never thought that Su Luoyan and I would have a future.

I sighed slightly: "It was impossible for me and him from the beginning, so what if we know the truth now? He is still my brother after all, and I am still his sister."

Ji Nuannuan frowned, she probably never thought that I would say that.

I looked at her and murmured: "Ji Nuannuan, the opportunity is won by myself, not by others."

I don't know if my words touched her mind, Ji Nuannuan slowly lowered her head, and after a long time, she turned and left.

Looking at her back, I was slightly distracted, but I felt a little baffled, does Su Luoyan really like me?I looked up at the starry sky, and what appeared in my eyes was Song Junmu's appearance.

I think I might really like Song Junmu a little bit!

The phone rang, it was Jiang Chuan.

"Su Ruo, I broke up with Yan Lele."

Hearing this sentence, the phone in my hand almost dropped: "What's going on? Where are you now?"

"I... Su Ruo, I'm sorry for you."

"You wait for me, I'll be there right away." I know where Jiang Chuan is, and I know him as well as he knows me.

When we came to the small restaurant where we used to eat, Jiang Chuan was lying on the table with a pile of empty wine bottles in front of him. He shouted: "Boss, six more bottles."

"Jiang Chuan, are you crazy?"

Jiang Chuan laughed loudly: "It's hard to buy a drunk once."

I tried to snatch the bottle from his hand: "You can't drink any more."

But my strength is no match for him, Jiang Chuan moved his wine bottle to the side: "Why did you grab my things, I didn't grab your Coke chicken wings."

I was a little amused: "Where did the Coke chicken wings come from?"

It was probably my words that reminded Jiang Chuan, and he muttered loudly again: "Boss, let me have a Coca-Cola chicken wing, a Maoxuewang, and a boiled bullfrog."

"Okay."

The boss responded cheerfully, and quickly put the wine on the table first.Jiang Chuan opened another bottle and poured it into his stomach like drinking water. I know Jiang Chuan has a good drinker and often pours down Su Luoyan, but this is the first time he has been so unrestrained like now.

I frowned, snatched the bottle from his hand, and was a little annoyed: "What's wrong with you?"

But Jiang Chuan still smiled foolishly: "Su Ruo, would you like to have a drink with me?"

"I don't drink!" I thought he must be drunk, even forgetting that I hate drinking the most.

Jiang Chuan patted his head and said to himself: "Oh, I almost forgot, if you don't drink, then call Su Luoyan over and let him drink with me."

As he said that, he looked for his mobile phone everywhere.

I sighed helplessly: "Jiang Chuan, what happened to you and Yan Lele?"

Jiang Chuan's body trembled slightly, and he was stunned for a long time, but there was no movement.I couldn't help calling him again: "Jiang Chuan."

"We broke up..." He smiled, with a hint of bitterness in his smile, and he repeated those five words again - "We broke up."

I think his heart must be bleeding.

Jiang Chuan poured the wine bottle into his stomach again, and this time I did not stop him. After a while, he probably put the bottle back on the table when he was tired from drinking. Serve the three dishes he ordered earlier.

"Su Ruo, eat."

Jiang Chuan handed me a pair of chopsticks, and after I took it, he also started to eat with big mouthfuls.I remember that Jiang Chuan never eats spicy food, but this time he ordered all the spiciest, except for my favorite cola chicken wings.

"Jiang Chuan, what happened?"

His chopsticks suddenly stopped moving. After a while, he smiled and said, "Didn't you just say that? I broke up with Yan Lele."

I tentatively asked, "Is it because of her birthday last time?"

Jiang Chuan didn't speak, but continued to eat Maoxuewang, which he had always felt disgusted before.

"Jiang Chuan, although we are best friends, I don't want you to break up with your favorite girl because of these things. I hope you can be happy, do you understand?"

He looked up at me blankly: "I understand, but Ruoruo, I can't accept that anyone hurts you, especially after hurting you, you still say that you are right. I really want to forgive her, but I found that , when I see her, I always think of your eyes that night, that is the first time I have known you for more than ten years, I have seen your fragile eyes, Su Ruo, do you understand, can you understand my mood? "

"I understand, it's just...it's all over, are you really willing to lose Yan Lele like this?"

Now that I think about that incident at the beginning, I don't feel much better. These days, I have been with Song Junmu, and my life is quite comfortable.

"To be honest, I'm reluctant, very reluctant, but I really can't accept her hurting you like this. You are Su Ruo, the best Su Ruo, no one can do this! No one can!" He was excited yelled.

Jiang Chuan continued: "Lele and I met when we went to Jiangnan during our summer vacation that year. I thought it was just a dream, but I didn't expect that I would actually meet her later. Everything was like a surprise to me from heaven. .”

He looks thoughtful, I think the memories of that year in Jiang Chuan's mind must be beautiful.

"But, how did my angel become like this? She actually used that method to hurt you, why?"

"Jiang Chuan, actually, I can understand her." I hugged Jiang Chuan, patted his back and comforted him, "She did all this for you, my existence is a threat to her, I don't know when She will lose you, she has no way to accept the reality of losing you, so she can only destroy my image in your heart. Jiang Chuan, calm down, think about it, if you just let go, you have a way to accept your angel and Are there other boys together?"

He shook his head.

I let him go, looked into his eyes and said, "Everyone makes mistakes, I will, you will, and of course Yan Lele will too. If you lose the girl you love the most in your life just because of such a small mistake, do you think it's worth it?" ? I know you treat me well, you can't accept anyone hurting me, but do you have the heart to hurt Yan Lele?"

Jiang Chuan supported his head with one hand, lowered his head, his body was shaking slightly.It was very late now, there were not many people in the small restaurant, it was quiet, full of deep smells.

I suddenly found that Jiang Chuan was crying for a long time. The first time I saw him cry was because of a girl.I was surprised, but couldn't help being a little moved, I reached out tremblingly, and gently patted his shoulder, but I didn't know what to say to comfort him.

"Su Ruo, tell me, what should I do? What should I do?"

I patted him on the shoulder and said, "Go get her back, get back the girl you love the most."

"But I..."

"Jiang Chuan, I'm doing well now, that incident didn't affect me in any way, and I'm still with Song Junmu, very happy, very happy, and I don't blame Lele, I really don't. "

"But... she has already left, left this city, and completely left me."

I was shocked, I didn't expect Yan Lele to leave, I said to Jiang Chuan: "Jiang Chuan, do you know what 'chivalry' is?"

He looked at me, and I stared at him with a smile, and said: "No matter what kind of environment he is in, he will guard his princess and never leave him. Jiang Chuan, shouldn't you go and get your princess back?"

I made my voice as soft as possible, I hope I can inspire Jiang Chuan, but he just smiled from the beginning to the end, a very sad smile.

I asked him what he was laughing at, but he didn't answer.

After a long time, Jiang Chuan took out a letter from his pocket and gave it to me: "This is what Lele asked me to hand over to you before leaving."

I took the letter, opened it, there was 32 yuan in it, and a piece of letter paper. I suddenly remembered that this was the money I paid for Yan Lele’s pastry in the cake shop last time. I put the money on the table and changed hands. Open the letter paper——

Su Ruo:

sorry!
You should laugh out loud when you see me saying this, you think I'm hypocritical and contrived.

You know, I've always envied you.I envy that you and Jiang Chuan had a childhood as beautiful as a dream. You had him in your past, and you in his past.Maybe it's not appropriate for me to say this, but I often hear you or him talk about the past that I can't participate in, and I'm so jealous and envious.

But Su Ruo, I hate you so much, I hate that Jiang Chuan always mentions you when I am with you, I hate that he always gets close to you when he sees you, I hate that he is more anxious than anyone else when you have something to do, I hate I also hate being so jealous.

Maybe you don’t even know that Jiang Chuan once fought with Song Junmu. For you, when I saw him standing in front of me with a wound on his face, he smiled and said, “I’m fine. Spectrum, Su Ruo made the right choice, let me tell you, in order not to let Su Ruo see Song Junmu's injury and worry, I didn't move that kid's face, but he even hit me and hurt my handsome face Yo."

How could I not be jealous of him who thinks of you so much?
So when Ji Nuannuan found me, I agreed to cooperate with her.But then I regretted it, regretted hurting you.But I don't know, in order to hurt you, Ji Nuannuan deliberately asked me out to tell this matter through my mouth.do you know?Then she called me and said you were sitting next to me and you heard everything I said and I hated myself.

Jiang Chuan knew all this during a phone call.I looked at him who tried his best to defend you, and I was so angry, so when he proposed to break up, I agreed.

How could he do this to me?I explained to him that he didn't listen at all, he just kept asking me why I hurt you.Why should I hurt you? It's all because of him.I went to him a few times later, and his attitude was so firm that my heart was broken.

When my parents said they were going to leave the city because of business matters, I hesitated for a long time, and finally decided to leave with them.

If you give me another chance, I don't know if I will make the same mistake again, but Su Ruo, now I want to say sorry to you.

I never thought that after such a thing happened, you would still be willing to help me.The bag contains the money I owe you. If we can meet again in the future, can you allow me to treat you to a meal?
I don't have any friends, can you be my friend?

I think you will think that I am ridiculous. What qualifications do I have to ask for friends now? This time I lost, and I lost very badly. I lost my favorite Jiang Chuan.

Su Ruo, can you help me take care of him in the future?
I'm sorry, I'm still asking you in the end, I'm sorry, I really have no friends to help me.

Goodbye, Su Ruo.

Yan Lele

There are obvious tear stains on the letter paper, and some handwriting has been blurred.

I put the letter paper and money back in the envelope again.

If, one day, I can see Yan Lele again, I believe we will become friends.

Jiang Chuan continued to drink in silence. Yan Lele said that she had lost Jiang Chuan, his favorite, and Jiang Chuan had lost Yan Lele, his favorite. So who won this time?

Is Ji Nuannuan?

I shook my head, the last time I met Ji Nuannuan and Su Luoyan in the alley, she seemed to have lost him too.

Or, in this incident, everyone lost, and the loss was miserable...

That day, Jiang Chuan drank a lot of wine and finally passed out. I stayed with him until the end.

02
When I was with Jiang Chuan, Song Junmu called me.I was just wondering how to get Jiang Chuan back to school, and Song Junmu helped me a lot.

"I haven't even recited my own girlfriend, but I want to recite a man."

I smiled and said: "After you carry Jiang Chuan back, I will let you carry it."

Unexpectedly, he happily agreed.

After we sent Jiang Chuan back to the dormitory, Song Junmu and I walked back. I told him about Jiang Chuan and Yan Lele, and I couldn't help feeling: "World affairs make people fool."

But Song Junmu asked me suddenly: "Ruoruo, do you like me?"

I opened my eyes wide in surprise and looked at him cautiously.I never thought about this question.But looking at him, my heart softened. I don't know what it feels like.

After a long time, I didn't answer. Song Junmu stared at me for a long time, took a deep breath, and said, "Then...do you like Su Luoyan?"

"Ah?" I didn't expect Song Junmu to ask such a question suddenly, and I didn't know how to answer for a while.

Song Junmu suddenly said, "Ruoruo, do you remember the last time you had a fever?"

I looked at him blankly, not knowing why he would bring that up all of a sudden.Song Junmu told me: "Last time when you had a fever, you dragged me to call Su Luoyan, and kept calling him by his name. At that time, I knew that your love for him was not as simple as brother and sister."

I covered my mouth, and in an instant, there seemed to be a dead silence in my heart. The secret that I had been hiding all this time was actually known to him. I looked at Song Junmu, and his eyes were obviously dark.

I think I must have hurt him.

"Junmu..."

He interrupted me: "Ruoruo, I just want you to give me an answer."

"Answer?" Do I like Song Junmu?Maybe I like it!But I have no way of telling him for sure, because just maybe not sure.Now Su Ruo, the person she doesn't want to hurt the most is Song Junmu. I don't want to give him hope and give him despair again, so I hesitated and said, "Let me think about it, please?"

He nodded and said, "Okay, I'll give you three days to think about it. After three days, I hope you can give me an answer that makes me happy. If not...then I'll..."

He didn't say the next thing, I pointed at him, "Well, three days."

"Then I'll go first."

"it is good."

That was the first time I saw his back, desolate and lonely.At that moment, I felt as if my heart was hit hard by something!
The night wind was getting colder and colder, I lifted my messy hair, trying to get rid of the messy thoughts in my head.I think I like Song Junmu. As for whether it is about love, I'm not sure, because I don't know if I really forgot Su Luoyan, and I don't want to give Song Junmu an incomplete Feelings.

The next day, the news that Su Luoyan and Ji Nuannuan had broken up came out of the school. Both of them belonged to influential figures, which naturally caused quite a stir.

After I heard it, I smiled indifferently, and then I packed my things and prepared to go home to see my parents.

When I got home, my parents were not there. I was surprised to see a drunk Su Luoyan. I wondered if he was drunk because of emotional matters like Jiang Chuan.

"Brother, are you okay?" I put down my backpack and walked to him and asked worriedly. The strong smell of alcohol around me made me uncomfortable.

This is not the Su Luoyan I know, the clean and beautiful Su Luoyan.

I don't know when I became a stranger to him.

"You never drank before."

"Really?" Su Luoyan couldn't help chuckling.

"Brother, did something happen?" I wondered if it was because he broke up with Ji Nuannuan, "I'll bring you some water to sober up."

I turned around and went to the kitchen to pour water, with a lot of thoughts in my mind. In just half a year, I got to know them, I knew the truth about Su Luoyan's life experience, I hurt Song Junmu, and even Jiang Chuan was forced to fight with him princess break up.In the past six months, why does it seem that thousands of mountains and rivers are separated?What else happened to Su Luoyan now?Why did he suddenly break up with Ji Nuannuan?

When I finished pouring the water, I found that Su Luoyan was gone, and I don't know where he went.

"Brother—" I called his name in the room, but no one responded.

I hurried out of the house to look for him everywhere, and finally found Su Luoyan in thin clothes under a big tree.

"elder brother……"

I stood behind him, Su Luoyan looked up at the tree, and he said to me: "Su Ruo, do you still remember when you were young, you climbed up the tree and refused to come down?"

I nodded: "I remember, you found me later and took me home."

I don't know what he's thinking, the look on his face is something I've never seen before, "Yeah, I used to take you home, last time I wanted to take you home too, last time too, It's a pity that you left with Song Junmu without looking back."

I lowered my head: "Brother, I'm sorry..." About now, I can only say these three words to him.

"Su Ruo." Su Luoyan walked up to me, stared at me blankly, his eyes flickered, and there was something I couldn't understand in his eyes.

I looked at his strange look and asked with some suspicion: "Brother, why are you looking at me like that?"

"It's okay." Su Luoyan curled the corners of his mouth, but he didn't smile. Looking at him like this, I really don't know what to say?
What happened between him and Ji Nuannuan?
I found that my mood has changed a little. If it was before, I should be happy that he and Ji Nuannuan separated, and I can't wait to set off firecrackers to celebrate, but now... all I have in my heart are doubts and worries about him.

Can I really let go?Since when?Is it because of Song Junmu?
My mind was so messed up that I couldn't figure it out for myself.

"Brother, let's go home." I tugged on his sleeve and said softly.

He suddenly reached out and grabbed my arm, pulled me hard and came to his side, hitting his chest hard.

"Brother, what are you doing?" I was a little flustered and wanted to break free from him, but found that he was so strong that I couldn't break free at all.

He suddenly pressed me against the tree with his backhand, then held the back of my head, lowered his head, and kissed my lips!
(End of this chapter)