The years I was a birdman

Chapter 106

Burning in anger can indeed make people lose their minds, but it is not enough to kill people.

At that time, Zhang Shifei didn't know what happened. After being scratched on the shoulder by that He Shicheng, his head suddenly buzzed, and then he lost his mind. Suddenly, a strange voice came from his head. , the voice repeatedly chanted: kill him, kill him!

Zhang Shifei turned over and pressed He Shicheng under him, and grabbed the dagger in his hand. These actions were done in one go, and even Zhang Shifei himself didn't realize it. He seemed to have been blinded by anger, and his face was covered with blood. With a ferocious expression, at first glance, it really looks like a rakshasa of evil spirits!
He suddenly stretched out his left hand and firmly pressed He Shicheng's head, then held the dagger in his right hand and yelled: "You want to kill me? I'll kill you!!"

After finishing speaking, he raised the dagger high and aimed at He Shicheng's cervical spine, about to stab it down.

But at this time, Liang Yun'er in the distance didn't see well, and shouted in panic, "Don't!!!!"

Zhang Shifei only felt a shiver all over his body, and came to his senses, what's wrong with me?How could it be so out of control just now?Questions filled his head, but they were instantly replaced by a sense of unspoken sadness.

He looked at Liang Yun'er and found that she was looking at him with a very terrified look, as if in her eyes, he was just a lunatic with a tendency to feel inferior and paranoid. The injuries to my head and shoulders are too serious.

Zhang Shifei only felt very depressed deep in his heart, as if all these things were taking off his pants and farting. He murmured to Liang Yun'er: "You want me to stop...you want me to stop? Did you see him just now If you want to kill me, why don't you let him stop?!"

Indeed, there is nothing greater than heartbreak, and the physical pain is not as good as the blow to the head of his beloved. Zhang Shifei suddenly felt that he was very stupid. A couple was fighting, and he was involved in a ball?In the end, it was a little strange inside and out, and even Liang Yun'er didn't even say thank you!
Looking at Liang Yun'er, he suddenly felt very strange. Is this still my beloved Xu Ying?Is this still the woman who stood guard outside in the wind and snow all night for me?

What on earth am I doing this for! ! !
Thinking of this, he couldn't help howling up to the sky, his howling in the street at night was so desolate.

Those little hooligans who were watching were stunned by this right and wrong. They saw his cruel methods just now, and now they saw that he was out of control. I saw that the three of them didn't care about their brotherhood, they turned around and lifted their buttocks, and started running. The speed was really fast, and the three brothers lying on the ground heard Zhang Shifei's tragic speech After the cry, they all got up and ran away at the same speed without saying a word.

Feelings, they just acted like that.

But these are not what Zhang Zhengfei cares about anymore. He seems to have lost all hope now, feeling unspeakably uncomfortable in his heart. Looking at what is going to happen under the pressure under him, he sighs and thinks in his heart: Forget it.

After all, he stabbed the dagger down!

But the dagger didn't pierce He Shicheng's neck, but slashed against He Shicheng's face, the tip of the knife hit the concrete floor, and with a bang, the blade jumped off.

Although He Shicheng was not hurt, the grandson still made a sound like killing a pig, feeling scared. Zhang Shifei sighed and stood up. He found that He Shicheng's pants were already wet, and the unlucky boy was scared to pee Pants.

But Zhang Shifei was not in the mood to laugh anymore, his heart was so confused, he glanced at Liang Yuner, put his hands in his pockets without saying anything, and walked past her, Liang Yuner looked at Zhang Shifei's back and called out: "Zhang Shifei..."

Zhang Shifei didn't look back, he didn't even pause, he shrugged his shoulders, looking indifferent, but under the street lamp, his thin back looked so lonely.

Liang Yun'er didn't know that when Zhang Shifei turned around, tears were already falling.

His tears were not for others, but for himself. He couldn't figure out why his fate was like this. He didn't want to go back to Langhao to find Li Lanying, but just wanted to be alone, so he just walked along Street, walking aimlessly.

He lit a cigarette, walked alone on the street, the wind was blowing, the quiet street, the night that was about to rain, the dust blown by the cool wind, the scars all over his body, the pain in his heart, desolate and lonely, Mixed feelings.

In the past, Zhang Shifei only knew what love was, but he didn't know what love was, so he was unhappy.

But now he understands both, but is even more sad. What is his uncle doing for this?
He smiled wryly, took a deep breath of cigarettes, and remembered a Buddhist scripture he had read in Fuzetang before. Reading books was also one of the practices that Mr. Cui arranged for them, because Mr. Cui once said that in order to cultivate the Tao, first cultivate the mind If you cultivate the Tao without cultivating your mind, even if you succeed in cultivation, you will be a piece of trash.

There is a saying in the Buddhist scriptures: Living in the world is like being among thorns. If you don’t move your mind, you don’t move rashly. If you don’t move, you won’t get hurt.

Is it your own heartbeat?Zhang Shifei smiled wryly and said, all the pain in the world is what he is now. He suddenly felt that his life was a failure. Thinking about the stories about the silent men and women crying on TV, he and the fat man could laugh out loud, heartbroken. What's the point of thinking about it, isn't it just a woman, as for the one who is crying and looking for death and life, it's really not a man.

But people in the world often say that others will be finished if they can endure themselves. Zhang Shifei finally understands what it feels like now. Thinking of this, he can't help but want to point to the sky and sigh, God, do you want to play to death before I am willing?It was not easy for me to find Xu Ying's reincarnation, but what happened?It makes me not a human being inside and out. Thinking about it, I have done a lot of good deeds after returning to Harbin, but is this the end of doing good deeds?Everyone talks about cause and effect, so what is my cause and effect? ?

Who will tell me?Who can tell me what happened to that peacock that killed me in the first place?Who can tell me why I traveled through time and space when I was in Yingzhou?Who will tell me that I am walking on the road like a stupid B, who will wait for me to go home?
After finishing one cigarette, Zhang Shifei threw it on the ground, stamped it out with his foot, and then lit another one. The blood from the wound on his forehead had already solidified, and the feeling sticking to his face was just like his current mood. , are all so disgusting.

When he was walking about two streets in confusion, he suddenly felt that someone was following him behind him, so he turned his head and saw that it was Liang Yun'er!

The distance between her and Zhang Shifei was about [-] steps, Zhang Shifei felt a little confused, why did she follow him?

So he stopped, and Liang Yun'er stopped when she saw that Zhang Shifei had found her. Her expression was very complicated, and she couldn't tell what it was like. She felt guilty, sad, and confused. The slender figure stood there, He didn't know where to put his hands, and looked at Zhang Shifei without saying a word, hesitant to speak.

Seeing her following, Zhang Shifei sighed. He still couldn't hate Liang Yun'er, and he couldn't let it go. When the wind picked up, and seeing her trembling in the wind, Zhang Shifei couldn't help feeling sorry for her. With a wry smile, he walked over.

Liang Yun'er looked at him without saying a word, Zhang Shifei also understood in his heart that since she seemed to be living with that little boy and so many things had happened just now, it was impossible to settle things so simply.

So Zhang Shifei said to her, "Is there no place to go?"

Liang Yun'er looked at her without saying a word, her red and swollen eyes and tears all over her face answered.

Zhang Shifei sighed again, and then said to him: "Come with me, I will take you home."

After finishing speaking, he took off his T-shirt and put it on Liang Yuner's body. At this moment, Liang Yuner's heart was sore, she didn't cover it up, and tears welled up in her eyes.

This is really a cycle of cause and effect. When Zhang Shifei was still a peacock, he broke his wings in the nameless mountain and was rescued by Xu Ying (Liang Yuner). Noticing that Liang Yun'er escaped secretly and was caught by Orion later, Xu Ying rescued it at the risk of danger, and then said the same thing to him.

Come on, I'll take you home.

This time is just like that time, but time and space intertwine, and things are different. Although the appearance of the woman with the hearty smile has not changed, she is no longer strong, and the injured peacock has recovered. But there are two more emotions in my heart, one is called struggle, and the other is called hesitation.

At this moment, it seems that history is repeating itself, but the hearts of the two are no longer what they were before.

In the hotel, Zhang Shifei came back to his senses. He looked at Liang Yun'er on the bed. She was still sitting there without saying a word. Zhang Shifei knew that she must be feeling uncomfortable.

Forget it, she can't be blamed for it, it's the price of reincarnation, Zhang Shifei finally understood what Chen Tuan said to him at the beginning, after dozens of reincarnations, Xu Ying has already changed her person, her voice and smile It is still there, but she will never remember what happened before. She has new memories and a new life, and she can't force it.

Although he wanted to understand this truth, he was still persistent.

In a person's life, there may be only one true love. After it has passed, it will never be found again. However, fate has played tricks, life and death are boundless, and everything cut off by time and space will be connected again in Zhang Shifei's world after a few years. True love spans After several reincarnations, he returned to his side, how could this make him not attached?

Zhang Shifei suddenly felt that he was no longer the confused young man he used to be, and there was no need to worry about it. Although strictly speaking, she and Xu Ying were two people, as long as they knew that they had the same soul, because Zhang Shifei could definitely find Xu Ying's shadow in Liang Yun'er's body, Xu Ying's smell, this may be caused by the instinct of a beast, he sniffed, and then he was completely relieved.

That's right, those other things are nothing, if you know how hard-earned your relationship is, as long as you know that you still like her, what are the rest?

I want her to fall in love with me, Zhang Shifei thought, whether it's Xu Ying or Liang Yun'er.

So, he walked over, sat on the sofa next to her, looked at Liang Yun'er, wanted to speak, but didn't know what to say.

(There is one more tonight..)
(End of this chapter)