The years I was a birdman

Chapter 228 The Taste of Happiness
Eating the barbecue in the barbecue shop, drinking beer, and listening to Liang Yun'er talking about campus life that is not chewy, nutritious, or practical, it seems that this is the nature of women, although they also know that the things in their mouths are very good. Gossip is quite boring, but he still talked about it with great interest. Zhang Shifei couldn't believe that his heart was so peaceful at this moment.

At this time, the eyes are so dazzling, and there seems to be a trace of laziness in the air. What a peaceful afternoon, but a young man on the side of the road who drank too much and is vomiting is a bit unpleasant. This is what should happen in college. Zhang Shifei leaned his elbows on the table and looked around. The boy who drank too much looked about [-] or [-] years old. It was a good time. His friend saw him vomit. While scolding him, he helped him up, and then the two walked towards the distance step by step.

Looking at this scene, Zhang Shifei suddenly felt that he was extremely old, at least in his heart at this time. Although he was only 21 years old, he had experienced a life that many people could not imagine or choose. Along the way, there is not even room to breathe.

Experience makes a person's character, this sentence is so true, even if the flowers in the greenhouse live for a long time, they can't appreciate the wind and frost, but the wild grass Kurong is only one year old, and he already understands what the bone-chilling cold is. Right and wrong have been exercising for several months. In addition to the physical changes, more changes come from the heart.

He understood that in this world, there are many truths that cannot be easily explained in words, just like the blooming and withering of a flower, the bitter fate of a person, and the remnant of a wild animal. Most of them don't like to study, but he is still a generation steeped in unique ideas. Although he knew before that these ideas and theories are just nonsense, and they are completely useless in the real society, but he still doesn't know I felt dyed in color.

This is an invisible color that pervades the entire deformed society. When Zhang Shifei discovered it, he was naturally very surprised. After being surprised, he would fall into a strange circle of thinking. People, from birth You will be controlled by fate and live in misery, but who stipulated this?Why can't people control their own destiny?

What is fate, is it a gust of illusory wind?Although invisible, but it can give people incomparable cold?

Zhang Shifei smiled wryly, and thought about it again. It seems that I am not far from madness. Even gods can't figure out these things, so how could I figure it out?Thinking of this, Zhang Shifei lit a cigarette and smoked one after another. Liang Yun'er, who was opposite, was still excitedly telling him about the things in the campus, but Zhang Shifei didn't listen to him at all. , his gaze was still looking at the two teenagers who were walking farther and farther outside the window at this time.

Zhang Shifei looked at the two young men, and saw the shadow of himself on them in a daze. Wasn't he the same way before, accompanied by a brother, drunk as if he was drunk, and didn't care about other things at all. , That kind of time has passed, and I can't come back now. Zhang Shifei smiled wryly when he thought of this.

"What's the matter, what are you smirking at?" Liang Yun'er blinked, then tilted her head and looked at Zhang Shifei.

Am I laughing silly?Zhang Shifei turned his head, waved his hands, and said, "No, just now I saw someone who vomited after drinking, and thought it was quite interesting."

Liang Yun'er sighed, then snatched half of the cigarette left in Zhang Shifei's mouth, and threw it into the ashtray. Looking at him, he said helplessly: "You, you, sometimes you are a gentleman, but sometimes why are you so ignorant of style?"

The things he vomited during the meal were indeed a bit disgusting. Zhang Shifei realized it now. He scratched his head in embarrassment, and then said to Liang Yuner, "Sorry...I will definitely change it in the future."

Seeing that Zhang Shifei's face was a little red, Liang Yun'er couldn't help but chuckled, and then said to him, "Okay, why are you apologizing to me?"

After talking about this, Liang Yun'er pouted, and then said to Zhang Shifei: "I have told you before, I like you, no matter what you do, I will adapt, so I don't want you Change something for me, okay?"

I have changed a lot for you, Zhang Shifei hastily raised his draft beer mug, and while drinking to cover up his wry smile, he answered vaguely.

After a while, the two of them finished their meal, and the afternoon just started, around one o'clock, there was still a lot of time waiting for Zhang Shifei to squander. Although this sentence sounds a bit ironic, it is true.

Zhang Shifei proposed to Liang Yun'er to go for a walk, Liang Yun'er naturally accepted it, and the two went out, took a taxi and headed straight to the river.

The water of the Songhua River, in this season, looks blue when viewed from the outside, but it is indeed turbid at a closer look. Even so, it can't block the passing of pedestrians. There are still many tourists from other places wearing Little Red Riding Hood, just like Like the children in the kindergarten, they were led around by the tour guides. Zhang Shifei looked at their expressions, and looked at them as if they were cheated. On the stone steps, Zhang Shifei and Liang Yuner walked side by side. Not holding hands.

In fact, this feeling is quite torturous. Obviously Zhang Shifei has a lot to say, but he can’t find a way to express it. It’s the last afternoon in Harbin. Could it be that he just walked around the riverside like this? what?

Fortunately, Liang Yun'er looked very lively, and the smile never left her face. It seemed that Zhang Shifei beside her was very happy even if she was a piece of wood.

After walking for a while, Liang Yun'er said she was tired, so they sat on the stone steps by the river. As soon as Zhang Shifei sat down, he subconsciously felt the smoke. Even under the shade of the trees, the temperature did not disappear. The two sat like this, looking at the surface of the Songhua River and the Sun Island on the opposite side. After about half an hour, they murmured to Zhang Shifei: "I have something on my mind. ?”

If it is said that women are naturally sensitive animals, this sentence is not false, it may be because of different physiological structures. If it is said that every man is a magician from birth, then every woman is also a magician. He is a famous detective, and Zhang Shifei firmly believes in this, because there is a famous detective Liu Yudi in Fuzetang, who can thwart Mr. Cui's tobacco possession case every time and give him a strong condemnation.

Zhang Shifei smiled wryly, without turning his head, still looking at the rippling river, and said 'En'.

"Is it for work?" Liang Yun'er asked very considerately.

"Probably." Zhang Shifei nodded, and then subconsciously said: "I have encountered some troubles recently, and I am not happy about it."

Just after Zhang Shifei finished speaking, he felt a sudden coolness coming from his shoulders, and at the same time a burst of fragrance wafted into his nostrils. Zhang Shifei was startled. It turned out that Liang Yun'er reached out to wrap his arms around his shoulders, and Zhang Shifei felt unconscious all over his body. I tightened my grip, and at the same time thought to myself, no way, is what I said just now so sexy? Why would she hug me?
This is not a joke. You must know that it is really the riverside now. There is an endless stream of people playing, and many of them are here to date. Not far from Zhang Shifei, there are such run-on couples who are proficient in hugging skills. Here The atmosphere here is indeed very romantic, although it's a bit shameless to say so, but now I'm a lonely man and a widow, it's not guaranteed that Liang Yun'er will say something like we have a clear relationship.

His uncle, what should I do?Zhang Shifei suddenly lost his mind, and just as he was about to break free, he only heard Liang Yuner murmur: "Don't move, that's it, let me rely on you for a while."

One sentence, just one sentence, it was as if the acupoints were tapped on the right and wrong, and Liang Yun'er leaned her head gently on his shoulder, and then said to him: "I'm so tired, are you tired?"

are you tiredHearing these words, Zhang Shifei suddenly felt sour and bitter in his heart, am I tired?Of course I am tired, Zhang Shifei sighed, thinking to himself, these past few months, I have lived an inhuman life, the nights I have passed are longer than the days, how many times I have struggled on the edge of life and death, all I want is lingering, but in the end, what did he get?Cursed in his body, he is neither human nor demon, and his only brother has fallen into the evil way. Suddenly, he feels that the future is so far away. Now that he is not a fairy bone, fighting those outrageously strong egg demons is completely suicidal. Dead end, he also wants to go on.

How far do we have to go on this road?When is the end?Even though the woman I love the most is by my side, but I can't even say I love you, how long will this day last?Can I wait until the end of the day?Zhang Shifei suddenly felt very sad. Yes, he is only a 21-year-old boy, but he has to bear so many burdens. He does not live in cartoons, nor does he have so many lofty ambitions. He just has a small dream. , wants to live a free and happy life, but now, all this is simply impossible for him.

Life is like this, often the goal you set when you were a child, and you keep running towards the goal, but you may find that you have been running for a long time without knowing it, and time has never stayed by your side, but , but that end point is still out of reach, even getting farther and farther away.

Zhang Shifei thought to himself, am I tired? Of course I am, but who would know if I am tired or not?I'm afraid it's just me.

Zhang Shifei is not a strong person. He forced a smile before because he felt that he was not alone. Now Li Lanying's departure has hit him too hard. Although he usually forces himself not to want to, but he doesn't want to, it doesn't mean he doesn't want to Existence, now being asked by Liang Yun'er, his eye sockets were a little moist. He opened his mouth, obviously wanting to say 'not tired', but he still couldn't control his mouth and said: "Well, I'm very tired."

Liang Yun'er's skin was very cold, and the touch of her hair was itchy, but at this moment, there was no extra thought in Zhang Shifei's mind. He only heard Liang Yun'er whisper to him: "Although I am very tired, I still have to persevere." .”

Zhang Shifei didn't speak, then Liang Yun'er continued to say: "You know, when I owed money to the He family, I was also very tired. To be honest, who doesn't want to live a good life? Then This period of time is simply not human, I almost collapsed, but I still hold on, because of a belief, let me tell you, okay?"

Zhang Shifei nodded dully, and saw that Liang Yun'er sat up, then looked at Zhang Shifei affectionately and said: "Because I firmly believe that as long as I don't give up, one day I will get out of the predicament. It will cause infinite regret in the future. Some things are like this. Although the result is far away, but as long as you are running, you will reach it one day. If you stay where you are, you will always fall into this kind of sadness. You What do you say?"

Zhang Shifei was taken aback for a moment. He really didn't expect that Liang Yun'er would say such a thing, but after thinking about it, it was indeed the case. They are all hard-working people. Liang Yun'er is different from those little flowers in the greenhouse. In some respects, Zhang Shifei was still a child in front of Liang Yun'er, after all, he had suffered so much.

"As long as you keep running, will you reach the finish line one day?" Zhang Shifei thought about this sentence carefully, and it seemed to make sense.

And Liang Yun'er smiled sweetly, and then said to Zhang Shifei: "Of course, I have been waiting for many years, and I finally let me wait for you, you are my end... Well, isn't it a bit too nasty to say that? "

It’s not nasty, you have indeed waited for many years, many, many years, but you may never understand these things, Zhang Shifei looked at Liang Yuner obsessively, she smiled so sweetly under the shade , just like the person in the painting, think about the time in the painting, how many sunny days like this, the girl hugged a peacock and showed such a smile, the peacock's heartbeat, but the girl didn't know it at all.

Time is a clever magician. After several reincarnations, the time has changed, the place has changed, but the characters and stories have not changed. Zhang Shifei feels that he is still a peacock who can't speak human words. Liang Yuner still can't understand Forget it, it’s not important, it’s not important anymore, as long as she’s still by my side, Zhang Shifei smiled wryly, she’s right, as long as you run hard, even reincarnation can’t stop the result , as long as you don't stop, if you stop, you will be forgotten in the corner of pain. Why can't I figure out this superficial question?Now the pain is only temporary, not to mention, how many things support me not to stop?His uncle, don't care, I won't die if I don't die!I want to live a good life, my life has just begun! !

If Zhang Shifei is indeed a very contradictory young man, this may be the sequelae of cranky thinking. He always thinks of himself in a dead end. After understanding this truth, Zhang Shifei's heart suddenly brightened. He turned his head away, She quietly wiped her eyes, then said to Liang Yun'er, "You are a good woman."

This sentence is from the heart, and it doesn't count to throw away the flesh and skin, but just now Liang Yun'er has indeed cured Zhang Shifei's long-standing spiritual problems.

Liang Yun'er smiled sweetly, and then said to Zhang Shifei: "Of course, otherwise, would you like me? Because I'm working hard now, but some people just didn't listen to me and were in a daze. I'm also very sad. .”

This is talking about me, Zhang Shifei thought consciously, I didn’t say I like you, it’s not that I didn’t want to say it, but I didn’t dare to say it, so he scratched his head again in embarrassment, and said to Liang Yun’er: “Then What... I just..."

"Okay, I know you men are busy, so I understand you." Liang Yun'er stretched out her finger, and lightly touched Zhang Shifei's lips to prevent him from continuing, then pursed her lips while looking at Zhang Shifei in a daze, Then he said to him: "Now I will give you a chance to listen to it again, would you like to?"

Of course, Zhang Shifei nodded, and at the same time, he thought to himself, even if you tell me the story about food stamps now, I am willing to listen to it, so Liang Yuner told Zhang Shifei about her own affairs again. She worked really hard, because she used to work in a nightclub, so she fell behind in her courses, and she wanted to take a postgraduate entrance examination.

Research monk?Hearing this, Zhang Shifei couldn't help but feel admiration for this girl again. He must know the profession of research monk, but he didn't even dare to think about it. The reason why he called this profession as research monk is that Because, if you want to apply for this kind of profession, you have to face all kinds of textbooks that look like scriptures every day, and a lot of time is so wasted. Thinking of this, Zhang Shifei Then she said to Liang Yun'er: "How tiring, if you want me to tell you, don't do it. In the future... I mean in the future, I will support you in the future, and my family has a business. Isn't it good?"

That Liang Yun'er smiled, and then said to Zhang Shifei: "I don't want it, I don't want to be a vase, maybe it's enough for the past few years... I think a woman's youth is short, and beauty is also beautiful." It's not permanent, it's the same if you rely on your appearance, so I have to work hard, why do I have to rely on you men, and... I don't want you to be too tired."

After all, Liang Yun'er smiled mischievously at Zhang Shifei, but Zhang Shifei didn't laugh this time, he was stunned once again, it was unexpected that this girl was so thoughtful.

That's right, what she said is indeed right, this question is as simple as the previous one, but there are still many girlfriends in this society who can't figure it out, because people are selfish, and people's selfishness leads to In addition to the selfishness of the society, the selfishness of the society has bred a huge number of gold diggers. They regard looking for a man as looking for a wallet, and they take it for granted. I have to say, is it all him? The poison of works like Cinderella is probably less harmful. Many girls have dreamed of Cinderella, but they don't know it at all. The original story is actually quite obscene, but these are not important anymore. If you want to find a prince, it's only natural. If you don't have money, you can marry a hairy wife.

But they don't know that princes usually have three wives and four concubines. Will the money and love exchanged for beauty really last long?There is no eternity in this world, and so is beauty. If one day you grow old, will your prince still care about you?If there were other young women sitting in your BMW Prince car that day, wouldn’t it be sad for you as you grow old?Of course, this is not absolute, because there are infinite possibilities in this world, and this cannot be an excuse for men to play rogues and find beautiful women without money. You must work hard. If you don’t work hard, why do people like you?

People are born to work hard, there is no reason for nothing, although there are shortcuts in many things, but the things obtained through shortcuts are often not stable.

Zhang Shifei's view of Liang Yun'er has changed drastically now. It seems that this little girl is really not simple. I really underestimated her before. She is not as stupid as some college girls. It's not as good as what I have.

For a moment, Zhang Shifei didn't know what to say. Seeing his stupid look, Liang Yun'er smiled again, and said to him, "What's wrong with you?"

"No." Zhang Shifei regained his composure, and then said to Liang Yun'er, "It's nothing, I just suddenly feel that you are amazing. By the way, what do you want to do in the future?"

Hearing what he said, Liang Yun'er's face turned slightly red, and she seemed embarrassed and said to Zhang Shifei, "Me? I want...I want to be a lawyer."

lawyer?Zhang Shifei blinked, obviously not understanding why this girl wanted to do this job, only to see that Liang Yuner looked at the river, and then murmured: "In this world, there are too many people who are miserable like me." Actually, they shouldn't suffer innocent pain, but no one can help them, just like me, so I will become a lawyer in the future to help those in need."

Warmth comes from the heart. Zhang Shifei's heart is very warm at this time. It turns out that even reincarnation cannot change a person's character. She is still so gentle and kind, and she still has that strength. He became so dazzling, and compared to her, he felt a little ashamed, because he didn't have such lofty ambitions in his mind, he just wanted to solve all the troubles as soon as possible, and then be able to be together with Liang Yun'er in a legitimate way.

But that's fine too, Zhang Shifei thought, when the time comes, he won't care about anything else, retreat behind the scenes, and help those in need with Liang Yun'er, after thinking about it, he actually laughed, this time it wasn't a wry smile, It's a smile of hope for the future.

Once the topic started, they couldn't stop. Zhang Shifei and Liang Yuner sat by the river without moving for the whole afternoon. They chatted a lot. The past, present, future, and the future look like a blank sheet of paper. They imagined He picked up the pen in his hand and painted the colorful colors little by little.

Regarding the matter of leaving, Zhang Shifei didn't say a word.

Unknowingly, an afternoon passed quietly like this, until the setting sun reflected the water surface of the Songhua River into warm red, the two people got up, and walked towards the way they came. This afternoon, Zhang Shifei and Liang Yun'er were in love with each other. After learning a lot, the love in Zhang Shifei's heart grows like genetically modified rice watered with chemical fertilizers. Such a woman is worth fighting for her.

The two held hands unconsciously. In the evening, the temperature became very cool. Zhang Shifei sniffled. It seemed that even the wind was mixed with a scent of flowers. The wind naturally had no smell. The source of the scent of flowers was the roadside ahead. It was sent by a small flower stand not far away. Zhang Shifei has seen this kind of small flower stand before. They are often seen next to the school. There are many flowers on a small cart, which are cheaper than those sold in flower shops. Of course, like the fruit stalls, they are the targets of various urban management heroes, so their whereabouts are uncertain, and they can only fight guerrillas at fixed times.

When Zhang Shifei saw the flower seller, he had an idea in his mind. He thought that by accident, he gave Fu Xuehan the bouquet of flowers in the morning, why not buy another bouquet for Liang Yuner now? Thinking about it, he would not have any regrets, so he pointed to the small flower stand, and then smiled at Liang Yuner, Liang Yuner is a smart person, so she naturally understood what he was going to do, so through the gaps in the tall buildings, the setting sun shone on her face On the sky, there is another touch of red glow.

The owner of this flower stall is a middle-aged man. Zhang Shifei looked a little familiar, as if he had seen it somewhere, but he couldn't remember it, but Liang Yuner recognized the peddler, and Liang Yuner said with a smile : "Hey, my brother, why are you here, not at work?"

The peddler obviously knew Liang Yun'er too, so he said to Liang Yun'er, "Ah, ah, you, no, no, no, why don't you go to work?"

Damn, Zhang Shifei finally remembered who this was, it was the stuttering bartender in 'Howling Wolf', I really didn't expect it, how did you start to practice stalls with a good drink?

Liang Yun'er smiled at the man and said, "I have earned enough money, and now I have to go to school, how about you?"

The peddler smiled, then looked at the two of them, and seemed to understand what was going on. He said to the right and wrong, "I'll be old when I go up, and my body won't work, and I won't be able to sleep through the night." , so... ah, that's right, young man, you're good, you're amazing, I'll let you do all of this..."

"I got it, I got it." Zhang Shifei hurriedly replied, to be honest, he was tired of listening to this man talk, so he didn't say much, Zhang Shifei picked up a bouquet of pink roses from the flower stand, and handed it to him. Called Liang Yun'er, but Liang Yun'er didn't pick it up. She pouted and said, "I don't like Qiangwei..."

Sister, I mean this is meaningful, longing for love!Why don't you like it?Zhang Shifei was stunned for a moment, but he thought, it's nothing, it's a bunch of flowers, as long as she likes it, he said to Liang Yun'er, "Then which one do you like, I'll buy it for you."

Liang Yun'er looked at the small flower stand, her eyes lit up suddenly, and she said to Zhang Shifei, "I want that."

Zhang Shifei looked at it pleasingly, oh, so this little girl likes lilies, so he said to the stuttering man, "Brother, how much do I want for that bouquet of lilies?"

The stuttering man said, "That's it, that's it, that's it, Ka, Casablanca."

Kah Casablanca?What is this?Zhang Shifei was stunned for a moment and didn't understand. At this time, Liang Yun'er pursed her lips and smiled, and then said to Zhang Shifei: "He used to do the same thing when he was bartending, this should be a kind of lily, it's so beautiful. "

Uh, that’s it, Zhang Shifei is right when he thinks about it. Is it just a rainbow in summer? Haha, no matter how much it is, pay the money, get the flowers, and leave. If you want to talk about women, they really like flowers. Holding the bouquet of flowers in his hand, he looked at Zhang Shifei with deep affection in his eyes and a smile.

I don't know why, Zhang Shifei felt a little embarrassed again, and he said to Liang Yuner: "What's the matter, why are you smirking?"

That Liang Yun'er smiled and smelled the flowers in her hand, and then said to the right and wrong: "It's the first time you gave me flowers, I will remember it well, this smell of happiness."

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