The years I was a birdman

Chapter 278 Fifteen

It was a spring, spring is the season of recovery and growth of all things, the flowers are red, the grass is green, and the faces of the children are also smiling happily.

This sentence appears in the composition of countless elementary and middle school students. Although they may not understand the meaning of this sentence at all, they still write like this. When Miss Chun is here, everyone laughs. Less, our red scarves seem to be brighter, and then the teachers yawned impatiently, and then wrote the word "excellent" at the end of the paragraph.

However, it was indeed a spring. For spring, Egg Demon Fifteen had a different opinion in his heart, because that spring was the beginning of the whole nightmare for him.

That year, the twelve-egg demon was just born, and Ranxi then exhausted all his demon energy and gave birth to five hundred demon eggs. However, compared to the twelve demon eggs, the average of the five hundred demon eggs The monster energy consumed is much smaller, so they are doomed to be like walking corpses from birth, without thoughts, without monster energy, and only with instinct, they have to parasitize on humans or animals, absorb Irresponsible to say, they are like apples. For an apple, how it grows is not important, what matters is only the harvest.

However, it is a coincidence that creation makes people, a seed that should have nothing, but possesses one of the most important things, that is thought.

Fifteen When it has its own consciousness, it is still a small seed, without eyes, mouth, or anything. It is accompanied by only darkness. To it, it seems that this is the whole world. , It doesn't know, its luck is very bad. After Ranxi gave birth to the demon eggs that day, he used the last trace of demon energy to scatter them all over the place. This seed with independent consciousness was spread to a place not far from Shedong Mountain. next to a small village.

A small seed lies quietly under the tree. When it is conscious, its heart is full of confusion. It doesn't know who it is, but only knows its name or code name.

Its code name is 64, and its mission is to mature as soon as possible and then be used by the mother.

Sunrise, sunset, cycled for an unknown period of time, and the seed began to have an inexplicable feeling in its heart. It was not until a long, long time later that it understood what the code name of this feeling was. This feeling is called loneliness in language.

Loneliness is very simple to say, but only those who really understand the taste of it will find out that the simple word loneliness cannot describe loneliness at all.

Spring passed, summer solstice, no one commanded, but the weeds spread year after year, maybe this is like a custom, a kind of inheritance, the seeds suddenly felt that in fact, they were not much different from the weeds, and the weeds were not much different from the weeds because of the climate. It grows and matures, but the seed is not like this. If it wants to grow and mature, it still needs an important opportunity.

Finally, on a sultry night, a group of wild deer in the forest passed by. Maybe the damn weather made them a little bit unbearable, so they did not hesitate to travel long distances to drink water from a distant river. , no different from ordinary animals, they are all rectums, and they eat all the way. Among the group of deer, a deer suddenly found this seed under the big tree.

In the eyes of the roe deer, this thing is probably similar to a potato. The evil spirit inherent in the seeds makes it extraordinarily attractive, so the roe opened his mouth, wanting to eat this delicacy for himself. A seed was held in the mouth, and the seed seemed to have vitality, and it directly entered its abdominal cavity.

After all, it was an animal, and the deer didn't panic too much. It didn't know that its actions had turned its body into a hotbed for the growth of demon eggs.

The seeds absorbed nutrients in the wild deer's body that had never been thought of before. Its instinct made it very simple, and it needed more strength. From that day on, the deer's food intake increased, but its body became thinner and thinner. Finally, in autumn , the roe was dead, and the seed seemed to feel that the current hiding place was useless. At this time, it had grown hands and feet, and the outline was already clear, so it kicked the roe hard and broke the roe's stomach.

It turns out that the world is not dark. The seed crawled out of the belly of the wild deer. At this time, it is like a newborn baby, but its thoughts have already matured. It is naked, standing on the grass Among them, next to him was a wild deer that looked like a corpse. The seed didn't pay attention to its own host, but just looked at the day, the white clouds, the wind, and the world, which hadn't moved for a long time, like a sculpture, It turned out to be crazy.

It turns out that the world is so big.

Seed realizes that he is so insignificant, in the wilderness, he doesn't know where to go, maybe, people are like this too, who knows the definition of coming to this world when he is a baby?Not only in infancy, I am afraid that many people, even when they grow up, grow up, and grow old, still cannot understand the meaning of their own existence.

Am I a tool?Seeds began to call themselves June Fourth, which was an innate code name. Along with this code name, there was also the so-called mission. Live hard, mature, until you become stronger, and then wait quietly .

Sitting there blankly on June [-]th, in autumn, half of the wild grass has withered, and the cool wind blows, choking out a desolation, am I mature now?I thought about June [-]th, so what I have to do next is just to wait?
Waiting, what the word contains, is also a very heavy reality. No one knows what they are waiting for, and no one knows how long they will wait.

June Si sat there quietly. The day passed and the darkness returned. In the darkness, June Si felt very at ease, as if he was still a seed. To their own position, waiting to make it feel more lonely.

Perhaps only in this darkness can it really feel at ease.

The days passed day by day like this. June Fourth would not feel hungry, but it would feel tired. When it was tired, its instinct would make it look for something that could move, and those animals would become Without its nutrition, it did not leave throughout the autumn.

It began to feel uneasy, even though it did not understand why it thought this way, why, since it was a small seed, there were many cumbersome thoughts in its head, it vaguely remembered, the words of its mother, the mother told it , it is not lonely, because there are many brothers together, but at the time of June Fourth, I was confused, where are my brothers, why am I the only one here?What am I doing?Why should I do it?
Could it be that there is only waiting?Could it be that those brothers who haven't seen it are also as confused as I am?
June Si sat there naked, staring into the distance in a daze. The doubts in his heart increased day by day, until the corpse of the wild deer next to him had weathered, and the last leaf on the tree turned yellow and fell. people.

A woman, this woman is an ordinary country woman, who went to the mountain only for the unique wild fruits in the back mountain of this season. She didn't want to find the end of this forest. baby.

Although it is already a Taiping period, under the influence of the excellent policy of fewer and better births and a happy life, there are still some families who cannot afford to have children, or have too many children, and cannot pay the fine, so they discard the babies. Think about it, this child is probably an abandoned baby.

It's just very strange that this child was not afraid at all after being abandoned in the dense forest of mountains and mountains, and he didn't even show any expression. Maybe, he was scared stupid, the woman thought.

The woman had a very good heart. Seeing that the child was pitiful, with bushy eyebrows and big eyes, white and fat, she liked it unspeakably, so she carried the child back home.

Her home is also in the mountains. She is the wife of the forest guard. The couple are in their 40s today, and they happen to be barren. So the forest guard followed his daughter-in-law's account of the child's origin, and followed suit strangely. Huanxi, they thought that it was God who took pity on them to be lonely and had no descendants, so they gave them a child to inherit the incense.

However, they didn't know that this child was not a gift from heaven, but a gift from the devil.

The people in the mountains are very honest. The forest guard was afraid that the child would be hungry, so he hurriedly warmed up the mare's milk to feed the child. The child was very strange. He didn't cry or smile, but just looked at them dully, drinking the mare's milk. There was no reaction, the woman said, the child must have been frightened, it's all right.

Of course there is nothing wrong with June [-]th, it is okay, it saw this woman walking towards it that day, it has never seen this kind of thing, it is the first time since it was born, but it is very strange, the sound of this thing, it can Understood, so June Fourth thought ignorantly, could this thing be its brother?
It was only later that June Fourth learned the truth from this woman. It turned out that this woman was not its brother, but its mother. This was what the woman told it when she taught it to speak.

Mom is also a mother. It is strange to say that this word is no stranger to it. It seems that when my thoughts are still in a state of chaos, it has already penetrated into my mind. In my heart, there is no difference.

Yes, why should there be a difference? Isn’t my current self pretty good?
No loneliness, no longer being alone, this feeling is really not bad. I learned to laugh on June [-]th, and the people in the mountains have no culture. The woman went to school in her early years and taught this child to read.

The first word she taught on June Fourth was 'laugh'.

The woman's smile is beautiful and sincere. The word "sincerity" was learned after June Fourth.

I remember that day, my mother used a very short pencil to write a word laughing on a waste calendar, and then said to June Fourth, "Eldest son, this is your name, you have to be very good, come on, laugh."

June Fourth grinned, and then it realized that it did not only have a name of June Fourth, it also had a name.

The surname of the forest guard is Yan. They have lived in this deep mountain for nearly 20 years. Except for going down the mountain at the beginning of the month to collect wages and purchase daily necessities, they basically do not go down the mountain. Lao Yan has a very cheerful personality, so he named this child , It didn’t take too much trouble. I remember that his wife just brought the child home, and he liked it very much, but the child didn’t smile at all, so Lao Yan said, the child is called Yan Xiaoxiao Come on, my son smiled.

Laughing, this expression is the first expression of the June [-]th Society. The forest guard, Lao Yan, and his wife are usually cheerful, and it seems that there is nothing that can bother them. Although they are not educated, but the mountain people It is human nature to be able to comprehend something after spending a long time with nature.

Every day of mother is boring, washing clothes, cooking, drying food, and raising chickens. In contrast, the things that father Lao Yan has to do are more interesting. Holding an air gun, he climbed up the opposite mountain and walked in the forest. He said that this is called Shoulin. Although there is really nothing to guard, no matter the wind or rain, the old face never stops. However, just before dawn, he would get up, put on an old rucksack, put two rough bread into it, take down the air gun from the wall, and his beloved little top hat, and then smoke a pipe, Humming some songs that I didn't understand on June [-]th, I went out with a smile. This walk lasted for a day, and I didn't go home until evening.

Usually, every evening, after dinner, Lao Yan always sits at the door, and Liu Si sits beside him. Liu Si likes watching the sky very much, so Lao Yan tells him about the The story I heard from my parents before.

It seems that this kind of story is a kind of inheritance. Lao Yan said to June Fourth, it’s okay, don’t keep a sullen face, you must know that this face is like the sky, and there will be no good things on cloudy days. Smile a lot, as long as you laugh, everything will be fine.

What's the matter?Liu Si looked at Lao Yan and asked.

Lao Yan stretched out her smoke-smelling hand and touched Liu Si's head, then said to it, of course, have I ever lied to you, old man?
No, Lao Yan has never lied to it, except this time.

I believed in the June [-]th Movement, and I was really confused before, but after entering this family, this confusion gradually disappeared, because confusion is often a by-product of loneliness.

It doesn't feel lonely anymore, and the doubts in its mind have gradually been left behind. Its imitation ability is inherent, and it begins to think that as long as it is a person, as long as it is happy to live, it is better than anything else.

Its body is also very cooperative, and it grows up day by day. During the growth, it began to learn to help mother wash clothes, feed chickens, cook, and help father beat legs. He, let him take a sip of the burning knife, the pungentness of the wine made him jump up and down and stick out his tongue, the mother couldn't stand it, so she beat the old Yan, and the old Yan always laughed heartily.

It’s so good to laugh, I thought about it on June [-]th, I laughed like this every day, and sure enough, all the troubles were gone, and it began to accept the future. It thought that such a life is really wonderful, at least, there is no death-like loneliness, and the family is the only The most important thing is, gradually, it also temporarily forgot those voices in its heart.

Of course, growing up also brought some troubles. Liusi grew up very quickly, much faster than ordinary children. Within a year, he was already like a three- or four-year-old child, and his characteristics as a monster also It became obvious that it was born with beautiful features, but its ten fingers had no joints, and its hands could be soft. Simply, the forest guard's father didn't think too much about it. He only thought that the child was born with deformities. Will be abandoned by his biological parents.

How did they know that the June [-]th mother abandoned it, not because of this.

June [-]th was infected by the husband and wife, smiling all day long, maybe for it, this period of time is the most beautiful time, there is nothing but smiles and happiness.

However, God is ruthless. In the face of the law of all things, beautiful things cannot last for too long. This is also the origin of Instant Youth.

That day, two uninvited guests came to the house. At that time, June Fourth was finishing dinner with his parents. Father's wine had just been warmed, and before they could drink it, the broken door of their house was pushed open.

Two men came in on their own. These two guys were dressed in ordinary clothes, but their appearance was a bit strange. One of them had a full face, big arms and round waist, and was very strong. The other was a middle-aged man with a small nose and small eyes. Son, with a sneer on his face.

Since June [-]th, it has never seen anyone other than the couple of forest guards, but for some reason, it smelled a familiar aura from these two people, and this aura seemed to go hand in hand with it. Accompanied by it all the time, suddenly, it felt very nervous, although it didn't know why it was so nervous, perhaps, this was its natural intuition.

Because the forest guards live in the mountains, they don’t see outsiders all the year round. When they saw two people suddenly visiting tonight, Lao Yan’s first reaction was that the two people probably traveled and lost their way in the mountains, so she got up to say hello and smiled. He said to the two of them: "You two, you have lost your way. Come and sit down, daughter-in-law, go and get two more bowls."

Those two people were not polite, and sat down without saying a word. To be honest, June Fourth did not want these two guys to sit down, although he himself did not know why he thought so, it’s The uneasiness in his heart became more and more intense, so it frowned unconsciously.

Lao Yan got up and took two wine glasses. When he turned around, he found that the child was frowning at the two people in front of him, so he wiped Liu Si's face with a smile, and said to him: "This child , What's the matter with you, doesn't seem to be going your way? Come and laugh."

After hearing what his father said on June [-]th, he forced a smile. Lao Yan's daughter-in-law took the bowls and chopsticks, and Lao Yan poured soju into their cups, and then asked the two with a smile: "What is this, you two? Where did you come from, you are hungry, come to eat and talk, there are no good things in the mountains, I made you laugh."

"It's okay." The middle-aged man waved his hands in a half-hearted manner, and then said with a half-hearted smile, "Isn't this pretty good?"

When the middle-aged man was talking, he didn't look at the food on the table, but looked up and down at the old Yan and his wife. He looked at him and showed a very uncomfortable smile.

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