The years I was a birdman

Chapter 336 Love and Human Heart
Both feet were hanging in the air, and both hands were numb, but he had to hold on to the ivy in his hand, for fear of slipping and falling.

Originally, Zhang Shifei didn't have such fear. You know, he has been a birdman for a long time. How high has he never seen the sky?No matter how lofty his feet are, no matter how high the cliff is, no matter how much he falls and dies, he won't look so hopeless, but after he looked down, he was really scared.

The wind blows away the clouds and mist, and the scene under my feet is surprisingly clear. This cliff is probably really tall, but the bottom is not a deep and invisible valley bottom, but an endless sea!

That's right, the sea, the other side of the cliff is a sea, but it's a little strange that the water in this sea is black, this water is bad water, and countless eddies are hidden in it, the wind blows the waves, and the waves beat the mountains It was not scary, but the most bizarre thing was that Zhang Shifei actually saw that the waves rose suddenly, and three giant dragons drilled out of the sea water!
That's right, Dragon.

Tiger beard and hyena tail, body length like a snake, scales like a fish, horns like a deer, claws like an eagle, what is it if it’s not a dragon! !

Although Zhang Shifei has experienced many unimaginable things before, how can he not be surprised when he sees this supposedly legendary animal?

Fuck, dragon, why is the dragon still out!Zhang Shifei's heart couldn't help beating wildly, but seeing the three dragons in the sea, they seemed to be diving into the sea, only revealing a head that was the size of a basketball court and a body about 30 meters long. The scallions in the dry land are the same, but these three scallions are really too big!

The unstoppable horror in Zhang Shifei's heart, this is how people should behave when facing nature, his heart is almost jumping in his throat, although this map of reality is the property of the fairy family, but who knows There are actually three dragons in this painting!Zhang Shifei is quite familiar with creatures like dragons. It seems that there are no Chinese people who are not aware of this stuff. I remember that there was an episode of "Into Science" about the incident of the dragon falling in Yingkou. Zhang Shifei happened to watch it and was caught by it. The eloquence of the host and the background music of the program were rendered so eloquently that the whole program looked very strange, as if the dragon really existed. Said it was the bone of a baleen whale, which is really spoiling the scenery.

Zhang Shifei came back to his senses, his tears were about to come down, this is really Mr. Ye and his dragon, you know how much Zhang Shifei now hopes that there are three whale bones floating in the deep sea under his feet!But if you look at their mouths, they can almost swallow them in the studio of "Into Science" if they open them wider. How can people believe this?

Since ancient times, there has been a saying that dragons travel with clouds and tigers travel with wind. In this picture of reality, Zhang Shifei met all of them. Dragons are creatures that can fly, but fortunately, Zhang Shifei The three beasts below seemed unable to fly, or rather, they didn't want to fly.

Zhang Shifei was surprised to find that the three giant dragons seemed to be the same as the tiger on the cliff. They had grown their mouths in the black sea water, and they seemed to be waiting for Zhang Shifei to jump down to feed them. Do not take the initiative to come up to eat it.

Damn, what is this!Zhang Shifei gritted his teeth, thinking why are the beasts in this picture so annoying?There is a big tiger lying on the edge of the cliff on the top, and there are three evil dragons waiting below, black, green, and red. The word "death" is still on the top and bottom.

At this time, Zhang Shifei really panicked, lost the power of the fairy bones, and couldn't become a peacock. That's not counting, but he still ended up in such a situation, with a tiger above and a dragon below, and he was still suspended in the air. How unlucky it was That's how it happened!
The most helpless thing is that now Zhang Shifei can only fix himself on the ivy with his hands. In the blink of an eye, five or six minutes have passed. Zhang Shifei only feels the pain in his hands, and about 6 minutes later , the pain disappeared, and his hands began to become numb. After half an hour passed, he no longer felt that he still had his hands.

His heart sank, as if he had fallen into an ice cellar, knowing that as long as he let go, he would be doomed. Thinking of this, he couldn't help but feel sad again, but he hadn't completely given up hope, and still held on tightly Zhang Shifei gave a wry smile, and then thought to himself, fortunately, although the vine is wobbly, it seems to be very strong, and it will not be broken for a while.

As the saying goes, if you can’t resist talking about everything, the more you are afraid of it, the more you will do it. Just when Zhang Shifei thought that the ivy was strong, suddenly he only felt the ivy trembling in his hand. Zhang Shifei looked up and looked again. Immediately, even the soul was scared away.

On top of the pine branch, I don't know when, two huge mice crawled up!One is pure black and the other is snow-white. They looked instantly eye-catching. These two mice quickly climbed onto the ivy caught by the rising tide, and even began to gnaw on it!

They mouthed very slowly, gnawing on the ivy bit by bit. In a blink of an eye, the ivy broke, and Zhang Shifei felt as if he was floating in the wind. He no longer knew how to describe his mood at this time. Can you find someone more unlucky than him?
The house leak happened to rain all night, and the rain fell on the sheets like wetting the bed. Zhang Shifei was speechless at once. If you let you continue to gnaw on it, then it’s okay?You must know that being eaten by a tiger or a dragon sounds acceptable, but you said that if he was killed by two rats, if he meets Li Lanying in the underworld in the future, he will laugh at him to death ?
No, you can't just ignore everything. Thinking of this, Zhang Shifei couldn't calm down. In the high sky, he couldn't help but yelled at the two big mice not far away: "Shhhhh!! Go aside!" Go! Get out!! Don't bite!!"

But no matter how he yelled, the two mice, one black and one white, didn't seem to be scared at all, and they were still nibbling on the life-saving vine step by step.

These two mice gnawed very rhythmically, you took one bite to me, and you took another bite after I took a bite, gnawing on the ivy very calmly, ignoring Zhang Shifei who was bluffing below, and Zhang Shifei was in a hurry He couldn't control much, but he raised his neck and kept cursing these two dead mice, but at this moment, his forehead suddenly became wet, as if something liquid dripped on it.

Of course this can't be rat feces, Zhang Shifei thought in his heart, because this drop of liquid actually exudes a wonderful fragrance, which is very evil. Although Zhang Shifei is in danger now, when he smells this smell , His heart couldn't stop shaking, and then his nose seemed to be disobedient, sucking hard, as if he didn't want to let go of this wonderful fragrance.

Where does this scent come from?Zhang Shifei raised his head again and took a closer look, only to see that directly above him, that is, on a pine branch, there was actually a beehive!
That's right, it was a beehive, that is, a honeycomb. He was right above Zhang Shifei's head. It was strange to say that Zhang Shifei only saw this big beehive, but he didn't see a single bee. Full, a little bit of honey water dripped on Zhang Shifei's forehead.

Zhang Shifei was stunned, thinking where did the beehive come from in this broken place, isn't this harmful? Originally, if it was normal, Zhang Shifei would naturally not pay attention to this insignificant matter, he is not Li Lanying , How can you be attracted by honey?But it's really unbelievable to say it, that drop of honey seemed to have some magical power, making Zhang Shifei forget that there are tigers and dragons under him, and there are two big mice taking turns gnawing on the life-saving ivy, and even, He even forgot what he was in the painting now. At that moment, he only had that sweet honey in his heart.

He came up with a strange idea, that is, as long as he can take a bite of this honey, what's the point of death?Thinking of this, Zhang Shifei ignored his exhaustion, instead he grew his neck and mouth, waiting for the honey to fall again.

At this moment, honey fell to the ground, Zhang Shifei's mouth was full of sweetness, and his whole body was indescribably happy, but at the same time, his eyes suddenly went dark, as if everything between the world and the earth disappeared, Zhang Shifei's body In the darkness, he only felt his hands lighten, and it seemed that the green vines in his hands disappeared. He just woke up, and at the same time his heart sank, thinking that this is over, the vines disappear, and he will fall into it if he doesn't fall to his death. The belly of the evil dragon, thinking of this, he couldn't help but let out an exclamation, but the strange thing is, he didn't fall down, although there was nothing under his feet, he seemed to stop in the air.

What the hell is going on here?Why did all the sights disappear?Zhang Shifei looked around where he couldn't see his fingers, and he was very puzzled, but at this moment, a calm and solemn voice suddenly appeared in his mind, and the voice said to it: "Have you realized it now? "

realized?What did I realize? Zhang Shifei was startled, and then he remembered what his purpose for coming to this reality map was, yes, what happened to me, why did I forget it after I met the tiger? Have you lost your purpose?Think about whether you are in a state of confusion, why in the end, only fear and the idea of ​​muddling along are left in your heart?
Thinking about it, Zhang Shifei's heart trembled suddenly. He felt that maybe this was the answer given to him by the Reality Map. Thinking of this, Zhang Shifei's heart was extremely excited, so he sat cross-legged and used the previous The method of condensing the power of the fairy bone, although the power of the fairy bone is gone at this time, but there is no distraction in my heart.

Zhang Shifei began to try to understand everything he experienced just now. From the beginning of entering this picture to the end, everything seemed to exist by chance, and the things he encountered were precisely related to him. deep connection.

Ah, it must be so, Zhang Shifei finally realized all the mysteries in this painting after an indeterminate amount of time in the darkness. In fact, what this map of reality brought to him was his life! !
That's right, everything in this real picture is his life. Since he appeared in this picture, he has played the role of a traveler. Life is like a journey. The endless wilderness represents the endless loneliness. Life, and this autumn when everything is bleak, may represent the loneliness in his heart. Although autumn represents harvest, it also represents desolation. Just like Zhang Shifei, his real status is very affluent, his family is rich, He can get whatever he wants, but although he can get everything, he still can't fill the emptiness and loneliness in his heart, so that he used to sink into the place of love and desire all day long, sensuality, and acting on every occasion, but he still couldn't get what he wanted most. A sense of fulfillment.

The bones on the side of the road may represent his relatives and lovers. Along the way, there will always be death around us. Elderly relatives will die first, and my dear lover may die before you. The fierce tiger just represents peace and death. Zhang Shifei walked on this road of life, seemingly carefree, but the fierce tiger behind him was pressing every step of the way. Fighting with a fierce tiger is fighting with death, and death is always chasing With you, stay for a while, and you will die.

When you see a mountain, you always want to climb over it. This mountain is your ideal. When you try your best to chase it, you find that when you get your ideal, you don’t know how to cherish it. It’s like Xiong Xiazi breaks corn, and when he gets one year old, he will lose one year old. After climbing a mountain, he is always dissatisfied and wants to climb the second, third, endless, never satisfied.

The pine tree on the mountain represents money, property, and your identity and status. Although life does not bring things that death does not take away, you want to cling to them. Ironically, you want to be here If you live in this world, you can only rely on it, and you must rely on it.

Zhang Shifei, who was in the dark, thought of this, and a helpless smile appeared on his face. At this moment, his mind seemed to be full of various thoughts. This feeling was similar to his wild thoughts before, but this time At that time, the thoughts in my mind are much stronger than before. It seems that all kinds of questions before, now I understand why. Life is just a journey. We are all being chased by tigers. It was only when I reached the peak that I discovered the scenery above. If I want to survive, I must hold the big tree of money and material tightly.

After Zhang Shifei smiled wryly, he continued to fall into contemplation. He thought that the previous things seemed to be easy to understand, but what did the ivy represent?Zhang Shifei thought that he was being chased by a tiger, and when he came to the cliff, there was no way out, but he saw the ivy hanging on the pine tree, and he grabbed the ivy. Although it was dangerous, he escaped temporarily... …Yes!That ivy may represent a belief, a belief of 'not yet'!Zhang Shifei thought that although he was dangerous at the time, he couldn't help but breathe a sigh of relief. Fortunately, he would not die. Isn't life like this?
It's like children on summer vacation. Although there are mountains of summer homework, they always think, hey, let's do it tomorrow, anyway, the summer vacation is still long?However, they didn't realize they regretted it until the day before the end of the summer vacation, mother, what did we do long ago, why are there so many homework left unfinished?

It must be like this, Zhang Shifei thought in his heart, life is actually the same, we always think that we still have a lot of time, so we squander it to our heart's content without knowing how to cherish it, but that time passes in the blink of an eye, when youth is gone Only then will we lament why we were so ignorant at the beginning.

Thinking of this, bursts of tingling pain began to appear in Zhang Shifei's heart. All kinds of memories from the past came to his mind, and he realized that if he cherished it before, many things would have a different ending. Zhang Shifei sighed With a sigh of relief, the smile disappeared from his face, and then he continued to think, what do those two mice represent, one black and one white, eating the ivy in turn, do they represent the sun and the moon?

Presumably, between the alternation of the sun and the moon, the ivy (inertia) in the hand becomes looser and looser. In the end, the years are gone, the time is printed and dyed, the twilight is gray, the ivy is broken, and people will fall into the cliff and end their lives.

Time travels to make people old, the saying is that time waits for no one, Zhang Shifei sighed, and he thought in his heart, then, the honey on the branch is linked to money and travels with inertia. Could it represent human emotions and desires? what?

Zhang Shifei suddenly realized that this is the case, and it is indeed the case when he thinks about it. A person's life is short, but he still has to suffer from the separation of life and death. To care about life and death?Zhang Shifei laughed again, and the smile was powerless. Didn't he just say that love is beautiful, just like honey, for the sake of honey, one can not be afraid of life and death.

It turns out that a person's life is nothing more than that. After thinking about it for a while, Zhang Shifei finally figured out what the dragon in the sea represented, but he didn't understand what the sea water represented, but this may not be important anymore. Zhang Shifei had figured out the problem that had been puzzling him all this time, but at this moment, he suddenly understood, so he opened his eyes and laughed loudly!

What he had always wanted to understand, and what had been bothering him, at this moment, he already had the answer in his heart, he was no longer confused, and laughter spread far and wide in this endless darkness.

Zhang Shifei just smiled, and at this moment, a bright light suddenly appeared in front of his eyes, from far to near, there seemed to be a person standing in the light, Zhang Shifei looked at the familiar light thoughtfully, at last, he let out a A sneer.

It's him again, the man with the yellow hat.

The light stopped in front of him, and the man in the light was wearing a yellow hat and his back was facing him. Without waiting for Zhang Zhengfei to speak, he said very calmly: "I haven't seen you for a few days, have you calmed down yet?" ?”

Strangely, when Zhang Shifei saw the yellow hat before, his heart was always filled with fear, awe or anger, but this time he was not. He was very calm, like a pool of still water, without any surprise , he looked at the back of the yellow hat and saw that his scene seemed to be in the waves, so he was not surprised, but said very calmly: "What do you think?"

The yellow hat smiled, then turned his back to Zhang Shifei and said, "Let me ask you, do you know if you have already realized it?"

Zhang Shifei nodded, and then said: "Yes, I am not afraid of you now, because I know what you are, and you are not scary."

"Okay!" The yellow hat said in a complimenting tone for the first time after hearing this: "In this case, then you and I will both have a home."

Having said this, I saw the yellow hat waved his hand, and Zhang Shifei opened his eyes again amidst the flickering waves, only then did he realize that he had appeared on the edge of the cliff again, holding the ivy in his hand, his body Below are the cliffs and the boundless black sea. He finally understood that what he just said was nothing but imagination. After eating the honey, he entered a state of meditation, and he understood all the mysteries of this reality map during meditation. .

At this time, although his hands were numb, he was no longer frightened in his heart. He turned his head to look, and saw that the man with the yellow hat was still facing him, standing in mid-air, and he was looking at the painting. Then he said to Zhang Shifei: "You see, although people's life is in different situations, the meaning is originally a pool. I have seen this kind of scenery for many years. Fortunately, you have also realized this. a little."

Zhang Shifei snorted coldly, and then said to the yellow hat, "I've realized it, what does it have to do with you?"

The yellow hat smiled, and then said to him: "Do you still remember what I told you that day, when you have enough strength, you can wear this hat to replace me."

After all, the man took off his hat, and the hat flew to Zhang Shifei, its golden light was brilliant and very attractive, Zhang Shifei looked at the hat, and then said to the man in black, "Do you want me to become fate?"

The man in black smiled, and then said: "That's right, replace me and become destiny, everything is under your feet and under your control, you are the best candidate, because you have no love, Becoming destiny is just like this, you can have everything, but you can't have love, you can't have people's hearts, come on, I've been waiting for this day for a long time, take him, let me be wiped out!"

Looking at the hat, Zhang Shifei actually smiled. He smiled happily, but he still looked a little sad. The man in black didn't ask him when he saw him smiling. He laughed for a long time, and finally stopped, and said to Looking at the man in black, he said, "Sorry, I refuse."

"What??" Hearing Zhang Shifei's words, the yellow hat was really surprised, and even his calm tone became surprised, but he recovered quickly. Turning his back to Zhang Shifei, he asked, "Give me a reason, a reason why I don't want to be fate."

"Fate, haha, fate!" Zhang Shifei grabbed the ivy and laughed loudly again, only to see him say loudly to the man in black: "Fate is omnipotent, then why can't you guess my reason?"

The man in black pondered for a while, and then said calmly: "The world is not complete. I can know and change everything, but I still can't see through love and people's hearts."

Zhang Shifei laughed and said, "Then, human heart is worth more than fate? If that's the case, then why should I give up my humanity and emotion to do shit like fate?"

The man in black was silent, and Zhang Shifei's laughter seemed to be the only thing left in the world. After a long time, the man in black said to Zhang Shifei: "Have you not let go yet? Don't you really want to be fate?"

"Why don't you want to?" Zhang Shifei smiled at the man in black and said, "I already am! What kind of shit destiny are you? Let me ask you, since you are destiny, who is in control of your own destiny?" ?”

The man in black still didn't speak, but the right and wrong paused for a moment, then took a deep breath, and said loudly to the man in black: "Let me do it! I won't promise you, because I will let you know, you The fate of my life is in my hands!!"

(End of this chapter)