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Chapter 200 I still miss him too

When I think of you, all the forbearance and sadness that have been arranged for a long time are overturned, without warning.

When I think of you, apart from being sad, the rest is regret. How can I trust someone so desperately?I think I must be crazy and forget what the end of moths to a flame is.

When I think of you, all the memories related to you are revived.Deleted logs, text messages, your number, photos, emails you sent me, letters you wrote to you, I thought it would be good if I didn’t see it, I thought it would be good, you are no longer in my world, but Sometimes, thought is pervasive.

When I think of you, tears always fall down. I thought I would never cry because of you again, but I was just deceiving myself.

When I think of you, I can't laugh anymore, with a very indifferent expression, I know clearly that you must not be thinking of me at this moment.

When I think of you, you said that she is very similar to you, and you said that the distance is actually related.Just thinking about it in my ear.Is she sad or I am stupid.I really don't understand.

When I think of you, I put my hands together and pray sincerely, wishing you happiness.Good girls go to heaven.I think I am a good boy, God will have mercy on a good boy, I believe.

When I think of you, I know it's you who lost me and not I who lost you.I will still live well, smiling every day, as if I have never been hurt.

I have always insisted that there is nothing more to be sad than to never die.It's okay to give up on many things.

I don't know exactly what I'm feeling right now.

Occasionally, I will stay like this and cry a lot.Finally, he was able to answer a series of questions from X calmly.His attitude towards Z is so bad that he really looks like himself in junior high school.

Sometimes I feel a little selective amnesia.Probably he chose to escape.Maybe, I thought of it speciously, but I couldn't accept it after all.

However, memory is really a miraculous thing, always at a corner, poking its head out and bumping into you.

unavoidable.

Had a long dream.

Trying to think back, I still can't remember, it was exactly six o'clock when I woke up.Just like that, lying in a daze.Couldn't sleep, found my phone and saw missed calls and text messages.A strange number said that you have been away for a long time, and I am not used to your gray profile picture.But I don't know who it is.

Then, online.Among the twelve messages, one person said a certain sentence that was particularly familiar.After racking my brains, it turned out that that was what I had told people.I don't know if his mood is the same as mine at that time, but I think we have all been used to a certain person's habits without knowing it. throw away.Maybe I can go back to my former self, maybe I can live like this forever.

I want you to be happy just like you want me to be happy.Anyway, I have always been like this, for so many years, there is no need to be unhappy.But, you are different, you have always been so happy, so to continue to live a happy life, it is not bad to be heartless.

You said that the song ends and people disperse, but it is clear that the song is on the rise, why do people disperse?You say that people take the tea to cool down, but the fragrance of the tea is overflowing, so why do people disperse it?
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It turns out that there are really too many things that have no answers.Perhaps the result that is unfolding is the so-called answer.

I don't think I blame you for leaving later, because you were never free.

——Pu Anhao Blog · 2013

(End of this chapter)