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Chapter 572 One Hundred Years of Solitude (Thirteen)
Xia Weiliang's Diary June 2013, 6 Summer Solstice
I can't remember how long I haven't written a diary.Sure enough, keeping a diary every day is not suitable for me... If it is well, it must become a matter of course.

Summer is finally here.I like summer.Having said that, there is no season that I don't like at all.

The latest date on the diary is December 2012, 12.That is to say, I haven't written a word well this year.It really fits my personality.

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Xia Weiliang's diary June 2013, 6 Mood index is zero
Birds sing.I like this imagery.

Fragmented.current state of life.

break.break.break.Can it be made up?

broken.broken.broken.Can you forget?

Keep a distance from each other and don't hurt each other.Things in my work and life have caused me to almost collapse recently.Really unprecedented sadness.In the end, I came here alone until today. Although I smile at everyone every day, even though I talk to them carelessly every day, no one sees the hole in my heart, and even I am alone in the meeting. Sitting at the back, his eyes are swollen and uncomfortable, and he wants to cry.

An Hao used to always say that I am used to being alone.real.And you will get used to it.Maybe today.maybe tomorrow.

At that time, I always patted her on the shoulder and said, don't get used to it, don't force it.If you push too hard, you will get hurt.

At the time, I didn't know that I would have such a day-needing to barely get through day after day.Those things in the growing period, no one can avoid it.You see, I have always looked like a brainless and slender me, but this time I am also in a deep quagmire and cannot extricate myself?

I can finally experience peace of mind.The so-called skin-cut pain can only be called empathy if you have to bear it yourself.Someone told you that she was suffering, and you said you understood, but at that time, you didn’t really understand, but only understood verbally and sensory.If you are also crying bitterly in the middle of the night, and a person is at a loss, I think that is really understanding.

So don't comment on people and things you don't know at any time.They all have hardships and sufferings that you have never imagined.Self-righteousness is scary.

I know I'm still fine.No matter what, it's all right.

But at this moment, I want An to be by my side. I want to hug her and have a painful meal. After crying, the two of us will go to eat Haagen-Dazs and ice cream hot pot.

But it's so far away.

If you tell An Hao, you come to me.Anhao will definitely come over without any hesitation.But I can't do that.We have all passed the age of reckless life, we work, we have to go to work every day, we need to work hard for the future.Stories like this about being desperate for someone anytime and anywhere can only stay in novels and comics.

…Speaking of this, I realized more and more that I had lost to the so-called reality inadvertently.He has truly become an out-and-out secular person.

In fact, I don't want to be like this, really.The life I've always wanted is to be free and unrestrained, and I can leave whenever I want, and I can come back at any time without any problem.However, the absence is still just a dream.Such a distant dream.

No matter who sends it on the computer or mobile phone screen, I feel the same confidence. The only person who can laugh or change his expression is An Hao.But that sentiment is gone today, too.

Something really goes away.Not coming back.I haven't quite figured it out yet.

(End of this chapter)