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Chapter 809: Blue Sea, Blue Sky, Heart Every Night 9
"Su Xiaoxiao, I really don't know what to say about you, do you think this is interesting?" Lu Jinnian raised his forehead.

"Interesting, very interesting!" Su Xiaoxiao was able to smile at any cold words from Lu Jinnian.

I like you, this is the road I choose, even if the road is full of thorns, I will not hesitate.Love is a matter of a person, not only I know, Lu Jinnian, you understand better.Look, you can't let go of Park An until now, okay?
So, how can I possibly do it?

Sometimes, I will compare like this——

If loving someone is calculated by the ratio of giving, then what I did for you should be regarded as true great love.Maybe it's ironic, funny, and a little shameless to say it from someone who can't love it.But, you actually know about Lu Jinnian, right? You can feel it too, right?

I know it all.Because you also frankly refused and explained the reasons.You didn't have the slightest luck, and it wasn't like some people had the dirty idea of ​​keeping a spare tire, you just rejected me very simply.I remember them all.How many times have you rejected me so far.

However, I think my skin is already thicker than the city wall.Hahaha.I really want to laugh three hundred times here.

The more frustrated the more courageous, this is not a kind of advantage.Does it count?Does it count?

If you actually asked me if I was interested, you must have asked me more than once.With many emotions, sometimes sad and angry, sometimes sad.In fact, Lu Jinnian, when you feel unworthy and sorry for me, I feel that I love you a little more than before.

I am like a demon, no matter how you treat me, destroy me, scold me, ignore me, none of this will change my original intention.I've never loved anyone, and I don't love myself.

Therefore, after the love-related box hidden in the heart is opened, it cannot be closed no matter what.I only want you, Lu Jinnian in this life, no matter what the end result is, whether it is within my expectations or some accident happens, I will not change my friendship with you.

If these stupid obsessions bother you, I'm really, really sorry.I can't meet your expectations, so the only thing that can't fulfill you.I can't leave your side, I will always be there, always be there.

Lu Jinnian, sometimes I really want to help you, for example, to connect the two of you, isn't that how it is done in TV dramas?He is willing to do anything for the man he loves deeply, and even willing to help him pursue another woman.

But, Lu Jinnian, I can't do it.When I saw you and Park Anhao being together, my heart was full of holes. I can't do it now.Even if I am willing to do it for you from the bottom of my heart, it must be a disguised strength. It is really a disgusting sacrifice.All the grudging giving is sickeningly hypocritical.

Sometimes I think I'd rather do something to get something than do something I don't want to do against my conscience.Virgin Mary, not my style.Maybe I can never be the Virgin Mary in my life.

I get angry, get jealous, think about things, and throw things. I'm just a vulgar person.

But, I still love you, deeply.

——Su Xiaoxiao's diary
(End of this chapter)