Daughter of the royal palace

Chapter 399 Love (4)
But now she saw it with her own eyes, seeing with her own eyes the desolation and loneliness under his warm smile, it was... so heartbreaking.

"As long as I can remember, I know that my father doesn't love my mother." His white fingers brushed over the beautiful face of the woman in the painting, and the smile became softer and sadder. "Father has another woman in his heart, a... a woman he will never get. That woman is a queen, the most honorable woman in the world. I heard that the current emperor loves that woman very much, and is even willing to leave the sixth palace for her. , pampering her alone."

His fingers slowly brushed the dazzling wedding dress on the woman in the painting, and the smile on his lips remained unchanged.

"This wedding dress... is beautiful." His eyes were stained with confusion, and he muttered to himself softly. "It was designed by Emperor Yuan Qing himself..."

Ling Xihan thought about it, but didn't speak.

"Back then, King Li married Luo Qingyan, the daughter of the prime minister. The wedding was grand and unprecedented. Red silk was sprinkled all over the streets of Kyoto, and the people cheered. King Li went to the prime minister's mansion to welcome the bride in person, and hugged the bride himself. To the bridal sedan chair... The rain of flower petals all over the capital is falling, as beautiful as a fairyland on earth... Legend has it that King Li carefully planned the most luxurious wedding in history, and it was even recorded in the annals of history by the historian."

The smile on the corner of his mouth grew stronger, and the sadness in his eyes grew stronger.

"That day... was also the day my father saw that woman for the first time..." He slightly closed his eyelids, and his voice was a little low. "He fell in love with that woman immediately, but..." He suddenly smiled, "But he married my mother later, because of that person's design, he had to marry my mother."

that person?Ling Xihan's heart moved, but he didn't ask, but just listened quietly.

Ouyang Chen was silent for a while, his eyes fixed on the portrait again.

"I saw this painting for the first time when I was three years old." His eyes sparkled, and the splendor and darkness intersected. "I never thought that there would be such a beautiful woman in the world. She is so beautiful that people are suffocating, and even looking up at her feels like they are blaspheming her." His fingers gently brushed Looking at the woman's hair in the painting, "From this painting, I can see my father's dedication and affection for this woman. At that time, I was thinking that it is possible to describe a person's demeanor so delicately and beautifully, even Even the eyes can be described so vividly as if endowed with a soul, what kind of deep feelings should that be?"

He slowly set his eyes on Ling Xihan's face, and spoke quietly.

"At that moment, I suddenly understood that my mother would never be able to surpass this woman and her position in my father's heart." He breathed out softly, "Later... this painting was reflected in my mind like this, I can never forget it again." He closed his eyes, and his face looked a bit vicissitudes and haggard.

"Until I was five years old, I saw her for the first time, the first time I saw a woman who had only appeared in my dreams. She was so beautiful, so lofty. Looking at her, I suddenly felt so small, She is so small that she can hardly find the value of being in this world. Seeing my retreating eyes, she suddenly smiled at me, smiling so softly and lovingly. I have never seen such a smile on my mother’s face. been."

He went to the window again, opened the window, and the wind outside the window blew in, dissipating a lot of the gloom in his heart.

"From the time I can remember, all I remember is the way my mother complained or hated that woman alone in front of my father's indifferent back. If my sister is like this, my mother will lose her temper with me, and she will blame my father for his indifference to him To me. She is very strict to me, almost harsh. Father...hehe...Father has never ignored me. For him, my mother and I are his shame and responsibility that he cannot get rid of, so Not only does he not like me, he even hates me."

He looked down at the orchid bonsai on the window sill, and the faint fragrance radiated out, just like the warm smile of the woman in his memory.

"At this time, my mother would be more indifferent to me, saying that I was useless and would not please my father. So I studied literature and martial arts since I was a child, and I wanted to be the best in everything. But no matter what I did, my mother Not happy with me."

He looked up at the blue sky, the white clouds were leisurely, and the sun was warm, but his heart was so cold and desolate.

"So when I saw her for the first time, it was the first time I saw her smile so gently at me... I never expected that kind of smile." He looked at the scenery outside the window with wandering eyes, More and more erratic.

"When I helped the court lady take down the kite that accidentally broke from the tree, she looked at me and praised me very gently. 'Chen'er is so amazing'. I was stunned, and I just looked at her in a daze. Her tenderness and love are without any impurity, unlike the gentleness my mother sometimes pretends to me in front of my father..." He closed his eyes and did not speak again.

Ling Xihan somewhat understood why Ouyang Chen had such an unethical love for the queen.In the past, she thought that Ouyang Chen seemed gentle, but actually deep.She could see through the darkness in his heart at a glance, so she subconsciously rejected him, and naturally ignored the loneliness and sadness that was hidden deep in his heart.He is different from Xiao Tingxuan, Xiao Tingxuan is also deep and has a dark side.But the difference between the two of them is that the first time she saw Xiao Tingxuan, she saw the sadness hidden in his heart.

People have emotions and desires, and sadness is one of them.So she could see that Xiao Tingxuan was not an unintentional person at first glance, so even if she saw the darkness behind him, she would not keep her at a respectful distance.

Ouyang Chen was different, the first time she saw this man, she subconsciously rejected and stayed away.Because he hid himself so tightly that no one could see the slightest bit.That's why she was apprehensive, timid, and even disgusted.

But now she saw the fragility in his heart, just like when she first faced the frail Xiao Tingxuan, she felt touched in her heart, but she didn't have the heartache she had for Xiao Tingxuan back then.

She thought that Ouyang Chen's unethical love for the queen should come from his desire for maternal love.When he needed the care and love of his parents the most, all he got was the eyes of his father who hated the shame and his mother who was bored and indifferent.So his heart became cold, but at this moment, he met the queen, such a gentle woman who treated him as her own.So his gradually icy heart suddenly felt like a ray of sunshine shot into it, warming his atrium, and thus he developed a different kind of affection for the queen.

It is a special feeling, a belief and belief in life, a goal, and it is the driving force that inspires him to struggle and move forward.

He longed for that kind of warmth, longed for the approval of the queen, longed for the meticulous care and love of his mother like Xiao Tingxuan.

(End of this chapter)