just to spoil you

Chapter 49 Do you know how much my heart hurts?

Bellara turned around and smiled slightly, "A friend found out that I came to City B and insisted on treating me to dinner. I chatted with her for several hours."

Xia Yutong's expression softened slightly, "You've only come back now, I'm worried about you, as long as you're fine."

She went to Beixiao's room and knocked on the door several times, but no one answered, so she couldn't help guessing that he and Bellara were out to play.

She also sent a WeChat message to Lu Minghao, and he said that he did not know the whereabouts of Beixiao and Lala when he met his buddies.

In fact, Lu Beixiao told him in advance not to reveal his whereabouts, he lied to her.

"Sorry to worry you," Bellara said.

"Rest early, the flight at eleven o'clock tomorrow." Xia Yutong smiled softly, "Lala, I've made you laugh at me these two days."

"It's all so familiar, it's okay."

"My mother is very happy to be able to take pictures of her favorite jadeite. Thank you very much for accompanying us this time and telling us so much about jadeite."

"It should be, we are all friends." Bellara said with a smile.

"The matter between me and Bei Xiao is hard to describe... Are you a little curious?" Xia Yutong brought it up voluntarily, feeling a little helpless.

"It's like this about relationships, it's hard to explain clearly." Bellara suddenly wanted to hear what she had to say, "It can be seen that you like Dr. Lu very much."

"Why don't you tell me in your room."

After Xia Yutong said that, Bellara naturally invited her in and made coffee for each of them.

They sat on the sofa, and Bellara said, "You look bad, did you not sleep well last night?"

Xia Yutong nodded, "My mother has been talking about it all night, and I'm so annoyed."

"Auntie cares about you. Elders are like this. We are juniors, so please be considerate."

"Actually, I have liked Bei Xiao for many years, maybe it started when I first met him when I was ten years old, maybe it started when he told me not to do things you don't want to do against my will, maybe it started from It's been more than ten years since he chased away the boys in my class who followed me for a week." Xia Yutong chuckled at himself, so bitter.

"Have you... told him this?" Bellara was startled.

"No, I had low self-esteem when I was young, so I didn't dare to tell him."

"You have been so successful in dancing since you were a child, why do you feel inferior?"

"That's because you don't know how good Bei Xiao is. Whether it's elementary school, middle school or university, he is one of the top students in the school, and he is the school grass that all the girls are crazy about." Xia Yutong fell into the fond memories of the youthful years , with soft eyes, "He is the top student and school grass held in the palms of the teachers and students in the school. In front of him, I am an ugly duckling. In middle school, he was arrogant and condescending, but the strange thing is that everyone thought he should That’s how it is, unattainable.”

She didn't say that in elementary and middle school, she had an ordinary appearance, how could she be worthy of him?

Bellara was stunned and understood her inferiority complex.

It turns out that the male god has been a top student since he was a child, and a high-quality school grass that everyone admires since he was a child.

And now, he likes her?

Xia Yutong's smile was a bit bitter, "He coldly drove away all the girls who tried to get close to him, but I was the only one who could stay by his side because of the relationship between the two families. I haven’t dated girls in the few years I was studying, and I was wondering if he likes me and is waiting for me to grow up. So, I danced desperately, tried to become better, and had enough capital to stand by his side. "

Bellara sighed inwardly, "Actually, you should tell him this."

"That's just my guess. I'm worried what if it's not? If I tell you that he doesn't like me, he will drive me away indifferently. I don't even have a chance to stay by his side." Xia Yutong said softly "That year, Aunt Rong wanted to match me and Bei Xiao. Do you know how happy I was? I thought I could be with him, become a lover, get married soon, and live happily together. But, he proposed to me Pretending to be a couple..."

"So, you know what he's thinking?"

"If he likes me, why would he propose to pretend to be a couple?" Xia Yutong smiled wryly, "That's when I realized that he never liked me. Lala, do you know how much his request hurt me?"

"I understand..." Bellara felt the same way, the feeling of unrequited love, worrying about gains and losses, and anxiety, she knew it all too well.

"However, this is not the worst. At least I still have the opportunity to stay with him, let him see my excellence and understand me better. Maybe we pretend for a year or two, and he will like me."

Bellara was disappointed and couldn't figure out why Lu Beixiao didn't like such a perfect woman like her.

Xia Yutong blinked and smiled sadly, "I hold this only hope, stay by his side, do everything perfectly, make myself even more perfect, and become the woman he wants."

Bellara said: "Maybe, what he wants is not a perfect woman. You should communicate with him."

Xia Yutong took it for granted: "He is so perfect, he has very high requirements for a lifelong partner, how can he not demand perfection? He is busy with work, I try not to disturb him and concentrate on my dance career. He doesn't like me giving him Sending messages and making phone calls, I restrained my thoughts about him, and only called him three or four days ago. He wanted to stay at home on weekends to write a research report, well, I gave up the idea of ​​dating him..."

Bellara was puzzled, is this really the Lu Beixiao she knew personally?Really sullen and enthusiastic doctor god?

Why is there such a big difference?
"The day I was worried about finally came. He proposed not to pretend to be a couple anymore, and I was completely dumbfounded..." Xia Yutong grabbed her hair with both hands, and seemed to be a little broken, "I can't believe it, I thought I did it well enough I didn't expect him to be dissatisfied... Lala, do you understand my feelings? I have tried my best to become the perfect woman he wanted, but he is still dissatisfied."

"Maybe, you thought wrong from the beginning, maybe he didn't demand perfection, you misunderstood."

"Really?" Xia Yutong's heart ached violently, he covered his heart, and said hoarsely, "I procrastinated and procrastinated, but he was cold-hearted and repeatedly proposed to stop pretending to be a couple. I'm going to lose him eventually, lah La, do you know how much my heart hurts? Do you know what it means to me?"

"Yutong, don't be like this, calm down."

Bellara didn't know what to say, it was the first time that her comforting words were so weak.

Seeing her so sad, Bellara felt bad too.

Two lines of tears rolled down Xia Yutong's delicate face, she mourned: "My ten years of hard work have been in vain, my ten years of obsession will leave me, and my ten years of belief will collapse, I am still me?"

She sat beside Bellara, held Bellara's wrist, and sobbed hoarsely: "If it were you, would you be able to survive?"

Bellara turned pale with shock, "Yutong, you still have your parents and relatives, don't let your imagination run wild. Besides love, there is family affection, and friendship...you can have everything..."

"You don't understand. If I lose Bei Xiao, I will lose everything... It's gone, it's gone..." Xia Yutong broke down in tears, "What's the point of me living? Maybe, after I die, Bei Xiao will still be alive in his heart." Feel a little guilty for me."

"Don't think like this, you have to think about your parents, they love you and don't want you to give up on yourself." Bellara tried her best to forgive her, "When you die, Dr. Lu will forget you, and he will continue to work and do his job. Surgery, just do his thing, those guilts will disappear after two or three years, are you worth it?"

"Lala, teach me what I should do..." Xia Yutong fell into her arms in grief.

Bellara hugged her, repeated comforting words, feeling melancholy.

Xia Yutong's tearful eyes opened slightly, and a gloomy coldness flew down.

That night, Bellara tossed and turned again.

Xia Yutong has such a deep affection for Lu Beixiao, if she robbed him blatantly, Xia Yutong really couldn't think about it, and committed suicide, wouldn't she indirectly kill Xia Yutong?
She has to think about it.

Xia Yutong paid much more than her.

However, feelings cannot be forced, even if she leaves, can Lu Beixiao accept Xia Yutong?
Bellara sighed again and again, tangled to death, what should I do?
After dawn, she washed up and went to eat breakfast. She only applied water and lotion on her face, and her face looked haggard.

Xia Yutong put on makeup, looked glamorous, and looked completely different from her.

Lu Minghao was taken aback, "Lala, what's wrong with you? Why are you so haggard?"

Lu Beixiao had seen it a long time ago, and felt pity in his heart.

"I didn't sleep well last night." Bellara said lightly.

"Eat quickly, we have to rush to the airport." He quickly sent a WeChat message: Why didn't you sleep well?Because you miss me too much?
She didn't bother to reply, so she glanced at it and locked the screen directly.

Xia Yutong said: "You can sleep on the plane, why don't you go back later and put on some makeup."

Bellara said no, maybe this plain makeup will scare off the male god?

In fact, she knows that love cannot be given up, and men cannot be given up, but she always feels that she has robbed someone else's boyfriend.

Back in the room to pack her luggage, she sent Lu Beixiao a WeChat message: I'm so ugly, did you spit out the food you ate last night?
The male god replied: I have seen the appearance of chicken nest head, eye feces and alcohol smell, can you be uglier?

Bellara rolled her eyes and made several angry expressions.

They called a commercial vehicle and headed to the airport. The road was quiet and no one spoke.

She closed her eyes and slept, she was really depressed, but she put on some makeup, so it wouldn't be so scary.

Arrived at the airport, checked their luggage, went through security, and waited in the waiting area to board the plane.

It's okay for Mrs. Xia not to speak, but when she speaks, she is always sarcastic, sarcastic, or domineering.

Fortunately, the two big men were broad-minded, and ignored her as if they didn't hear her.

It was almost time to board the plane, so Bellara went to the bathroom and answered a phone call inside.

It was my aunt calling.

"Report that you are safe when you land. Also, after you come back, you can find time to visit Mingxuan. He is in the hospital."

"Is Mingxuan sick? Is it serious? Isn't that aunt so distressed?" Bellara asked worriedly.

"First I had a cold and a fever, but it was not cured, and it turned into pneumonia, and I haven't been discharged from the hospital yet." Bei Yingyu said, "Your aunt stayed in the hospital to take care of Mingxuan these days, and she must have been quite haggard."

"I'll go to the hospital to see Mingxuan after I go back."

Then, Bellara asked about her aunt's physical condition.

She went out, but Xia Yutong was still inside.

Xia Yutong followed Bellara into the bathroom, and heard what Bellara said.

(End of this chapter)