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Chapter 15 You suffer, you deserve a better life (2)
Get married early, have a child, and leave it to your parents to raise them. When they are young, they let go and go to the coast to work.Most of the families at that time were like that. Without studying, they started to create the next generation for the motherland early.

And the puppy love who thought that "the mountain has no edge, and the heaven and the earth are united, dare to be with the king", after separation, she went to a different school in high school, and she went to a junior college and studied veterinary medicine. We have never seen each other since.

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Youth is in a hurry, time is really like a butcher's knife, it cuts and chops for me.When I was a child, my weak inferiority complex made me feel ashamed to wear old clothes.I began to feel that money can make many things better.

I stole money from my family and was beaten so badly that I will remember it forever.

Later, my partners Li and Chen, who played well, also went to work far away.Nothing more than struggling for money.Later I heard that Chen got rich and opened many restaurants in his family.The senior she admired got married, had a baby, and went to work.I don't know where the girl Xiu I like has gone.

Everyone is struggling for money, for life.How much I like money.From the beginning when my parents gave me 5 cents for steaming rice, then they gave me 50 yuan for school meals, and then they gave me hundreds of dollars a month for living expenses in high school. The pocket money also increased from a few yuan to 100 yuan.The current 10 yuan is about the same as the 5 yuan back then. Perhaps the pleasure or pain it brings is not as unforgettable as the [-] yuan I stole back then.

Money, probably the original dream.In the composition, I write about what I want to be a policeman or a scientist when I grow up, but I feel in my heart that I should just be a rich man.I don't want to be able to do anything because I don't have money. (In fact, you still have no money now, and it seems that you can’t do anything, but after you have a dream, you will find that you can’t do it, so you can live happily if you have something to pursue.) At that time, the desire for money began to become Something called a dream, and the dream also becomes a force against life.

I am thin and weak, so I can't do farming at home.My father is a country doctor, and his medical skills are very good, but I don't think I have the ability to control half of my father, and my father also wants me to study and live in the city, and he doesn't want me to take over his job.I'm not interested in picking it up, either. My sister went to medical school to practice medicine, and she doesn't lack her own.

what would i do then

I have always been a little introverted, and I discovered the charm of words by accident.Introverted people seem to love reading books, and every little poor man has imagined his future beautiful life in the beautiful fantasy of literature.

It is a long process to transform the dream from money to writing.

Later, I found that reading and writing is a very happy business.What's more, this is also a business without capital, you can't do heavy work without muscles; if you don't have a healthy body, how can you be a policeman, you have to run when you meet bad guys, don't lose face; Not likely anymore.

Since you love reading so much, let's write!

Quietly, countless times of unwillingness and premature understanding of money gave me a more specific pursuit.Maybe, I can become a writer myself.

I was in high school at the time. Writers born in the 80s have emerged.Writing is such a face-saving job. If you have vanity, like the post-80s writers, you can earn both vanity and money. How wonderful!Simply the best of both worlds.

Later, for the transformation of money into writing dreams.I spent more than ten years.

I tossed a lot of things related to writing, and I also studied Chinese as a major.

I have dreams related to words of one kind or another.But the persistence at this moment is no longer the pursuit and transformation of money at the beginning, but after you have done an ordinary thing for ten or eight years, you will naturally find that this is a dream!

Maybe, in the future, I won't be able to become a great writer and won't be able to make much money from writing.But dreams saved me from childhood self-pity and hardship.It is a kind of power that guides you to live a better life, like a bright light that takes us farther.

Sometimes when I think about it, I feel that I am quite great, and I can persist in the awakening in middle school for more than ten years.When everyone is pursuing money and material things, when everyone thinks that dreams are nonsense, I am still fighting for the goal that makes me happy in my heart.Even if words are no longer so valuable, even if I am not walking so smoothly on this road, even if life deceives me from time to time, I still feel that it is good to have you in my dream.

As long as you still believe, the future will be better

The greatest glory in life is not in never falling, but in always rising again after falling.

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The weather in Chongqing is gloomy, and it seems that something unhappy has happened, but in a casual afternoon, it will still throw you some unexpected sunshine in the cold winter.

The magazine office is located in a remote area, which is an office building area, and there are many companies nearby.I have to walk a certain distance from the company every day, take the bus, and then change to the subway to go home. I also follow this road to work upstream to the company.When I got off work that day, as usual, I took out a book and read it while walking in style, and I met three girls on the way.

I didn't notice them at first.But one girl's speech made me pay special attention to them.The three girls are quite young, they should be college students who have just graduated, the girl who spoke is a little cute, not tall, and has a decent figure, her hair is tied up, and she is wearing a hat.

She said, let me go, the current salary is too low, not even 3000, and then I have to pay a large amount of rent every month, and there are also a lot of living expenses, such as telephone bills, Internet bills, property management fees, water and electricity bills, After the deduction is over, there is only 900 yuan left.

It was such a coincidence that we all had to take the same bus and then transfer to the subway.Just close the book and listen to the girls chatting.

Girls graduated from three colleges, and many companies require more than two degrees for recruitment.She submitted her resume for a long time and looked for a lot of jobs before she finally found the current job as an office clerk.The income is extremely low, but she doesn't seem to have anything to criticize.So she came to work in the office building area in the wilderness, and had to take the subway and bus for a long time to work every day, and the monthly bus fare had to consume a considerable part of her salary.

She dare not ask for leave if she has something to do, because if she asks for leave, her wages will be deducted, and if she is not careful in a month, she may not be able to make ends meet.In order not to be deducted from wages, and even for a little overtime pay, she sometimes works day and night.

The other two girls on the same road as her may also belong to the same company, and they probably both just graduated from college, so they have the feeling of sympathy for each other. Live well to meet tomorrow's work.

I can feel their unhappiness, just like when I just graduated, I was working as an editor on a website with a salary of 2200 a month. It's all bad.There are also a lot of expenses every month, and I always want to find someone to complain about, but as a newcomer, facing the panic of employment pressure, I dare not act rashly. Should I ride a donkey to find a horse and change jobs again.

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The office building area where I work is remote, so the flow direction of office workers is relatively fixed.I will often meet those familiar strangers on the same road, their appearance, their clothes, some of their characteristics, even a mole on their face, will be imprinted in my mind.

That day, I complained about the girl who was treated too poorly in the company. I met her a few times later. She was always alone, carrying a schoolbag and a bag with food in her hand, walking in a hurry.I think she should rush home early to cook, and she can bring it to the company as a working meal the next day.

She called that day and told a friend about another incident.

She said that she lived too hard and her income was so low.But one day I saw information about a mountain village primary school published on the Internet, which was a group of pictures taken by a photographer.It is very poor there. There is only one classroom in the village, where children of different ages study, and there is only one professional teacher.

After listening to her talking about the impoverished primary school on the phone, I later searched the Internet.The professional teacher at that school was the only young man in his village who had graduated from a junior college. He couldn't find a job in the city, so he returned to the countryside.The village thought he was highly educated, so they invited him to be a teacher at the school.Not only does he have to teach classes for all grades, but he also cooks lunch for the children.Most of the parents of those children have gone to the coast to work, and only the elderly grandparents are left at home. The elderly still have to do farm work, and no one cooks for them.The teacher posted the information on the Internet. Occasionally, some college students would go to support teaching, and they would bring some items with them during the summer or winter vacation.The photographer also ran there after seeing the information, took a set of pictures, and put them on the Internet.At the same time, the address of the school and the contact information of the teacher were announced.

The girl said on the phone that she was particularly touched after seeing the group pictures.Because I also studied in such a school when I was a child, I transferred to the elementary school in the town to continue my studies after finishing the third grade.So she especially wanted to help those kids.She called the teacher, and occasionally sent some children's books or stationery she bought to the school.I also contacted the teacher and asked the teacher to provide her with information about a particularly outstanding child, and she sent that child one or two hundred yuan every other month.

When she was a child, she thought that after studying in a big city, she could have a better life, but she saw a lot of better life, but it was very far away from her, but it was not impossible to achieve.So she worked very hard.Seeing those children living the same life as they were when they were young, compassion overflowed with love.

She has been helping that outstanding child for more than half a year, and she said that in the process of helping that child, she felt a sense of accomplishment.Maybe my life in the city is not so smooth, not as I expected when I was a child, but when I help that child, I feel that I can still do something.

She finally sighed and said that she had gone to the post office many times because of that child, and she had never known how to send a money order before, nor had she sent a letter to anyone.She said she would very much like to receive a letter from that child.Whether it's expressing gratitude or talking about the hope in my heart, she will be very happy.It is a link between the self who is struggling to work and live now, and the self who desperately escaped from the poor rural areas in childhood.

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Because of the stories the girl told, I paid special attention to her appearance.She especially loves hats, shoulder-length hair, and likes to tie a ponytail, a bit playful like a middle school student.One time I was particularly impressed that she was still on that road, taking a selfie with the hibiscus flowers planted by the roadside pouting.

Later, every time I met her, I secretly hoped to hear her talk about her life.

It has been a long time since I heard her tell a story again.

That day I still met her and one of the two girls before.

Still on that road.Both she and the girl were carrying bags and carrying some things.Let's call that girl A girl. Girl A said that she thought the company's management system was too weird and she couldn't stand it.That's why she found a new job.It turned out that girl A left her job, and the girl helped girl A get the office supplies she packed away. Girl A said to her, quickly find a job and get out of here!
The girl also nodded in agreement.I agree that the management system of this company is too weird.A few days ago, the proprietress wanted to organize a customer phone list and contact some customers to invite them to participate in an event of the company.She asked the boss to sort out the list for the arranger.The boss arranged for a vice president.The vice president was also very busy, so he pushed this matter to the girl.

The girl was very busy with the work at hand, and she couldn't do anything, and all the work was given a deadline, as if she was required to finish it immediately.To sort out the telephone directory requires each customer to make a complete form according to name, company, contact number and position.

After the vice president arranged a job for her, the information was fed back to the boss, and finally it was fed back to the proprietress in charge of the event, who was the event director.The girl received this task just after finishing a job in her hand.When she was about to do it, her immediate leader came to her and told her that the proprietress needed the list very urgently, and asked her to print out the list in a random form, and the direct leader would deliver it to the proprietress.

The girl thought it was inappropriate, so she said that the vice president did not arrange it like this, and that there should be a fixed format.The immediate leader scolded her: Why are you so brainless!The vice president, or the proprietress?I don't even know how to prioritize!

The girl was scolded for no reason, so she pulled out the list and gave it to the immediate leader.The proprietress was very angry after reading it. How can I contact customers with such a messy list!All information is reported to the boss, who talks to the girl.In the boss's office, the atmosphere is very depressing, and the girl is almost scared to death.The boss scolded her for half an hour.When I went to the company the next day, the boss was still angry. I wondered if the lady boss had blown the pillow, so she continued to ask her to go to the office for a training session.

The girl felt very sad, and ran to the toilet and cried bitterly.I cried very sadly.Everyone is a leader, everyone has requirements, and the requirements are different, which makes it impossible for her to do things at all.It is still impossible to tell the boss that the direct leader asked to do so.

After crying in the toilet, she took a picture of herself in the mirror.In the photo, she held her head up and smiled, looking very proud, with tears on her face and red eyes.When she returned to the office, she willfully turned that photo into a computer desktop, and even PS all the words that the boss scolded her under the photo, making it a computer desktop.She said that she does not believe in this evil, and she should take this as a warning, so that she will never be scolded by these stupid leaders again.

Holding girl A's things, she talked about her depression and pride, and said that if she hadn't been educated enough, she would have stopped staying in this damn place long ago.She said that she won't stay in this lousy company after she has worked through this year and accumulated work experience!

She just wants to use this job as a springboard. With a not-so-reputable education and some work experience, from a newcomer in the workplace to an unyielding and arrogant little girl, she has hope for life.Seeing her complaining about her pride, I smiled secretly from the sidelines.I silently praised her in my heart.

I believe this girl will get better and better.Because even if life is unsatisfactory, life is always putting on little shoes for her and setting up various roadblocks for her.But she works overtime when her salary is low; she complains to her friends when she feels hard work to digest negative emotions; she feels helpless and finds her own motivation to move forward in the process of helping others.Even if you are wronged, cry and hurt, you still have to smile and use those grievances as a computer desktop to remind yourself all the time.Maybe she's not having a good time, but she hasn't lost hope.

When she and girl A were complaining about the company, she was still complaining that girl A had too many things that were too heavy for her to hold.While talking and laughing, I think this girl has never lost hope. She has expectations for the future and goals she wants to achieve.In this springboard stage, the more setbacks she has, the more strength she has to rebound and have a better life.

Mandela once said: "The greatest glory in life is not in never falling, but in always rising again after falling." Maybe it is not particularly appropriate to use it here, but I think the pride in suffering , is the best proof that she is moving towards a better life.Because she believes that the future will be better.

Don't let the road of life get narrower and narrower
We feel that life is getting more and more boring, and the road is getting narrower and narrower, as if it is those people who turn over and over again.In fact, it is not life that is narrow, but ourselves.Because we are unwilling to take the initiative to accept a different world.

(End of this chapter)