The bewitching queen of crossing the goddess

Chapter 118
Hearing my voice, Shangguan Lin stopped slowly and said in a low voice, "Is there something wrong?"

"Don't worry, I know you don't want to, and I won't force you. From now on, you live your life and I live mine without interfering with each other." Maybe this is the best way.

Shangguan purlin turned his head to look at me in amazement when he heard the words, his probing eyes seemed to see through me, it took him a long time to retract his gaze, "Thank you." After speaking, he left the bedroom without looking back under the leadership of the servant.

Mercy Building:
Situ Ren turned his head to look at the person who was standing by the window thinking, he pursed his lips and walked forward, "Girl, you've been standing here for a long time, look at you, do you have something on your mind?"

"No...it's nothing..." Situ Ren's words interrupted my contemplation. Even I don't know how long I've been standing here. I have never been out of the palace, and since that time, I have not seen him again, but what worries me the most is Ying. It has been a while since he returned to the Assassination Pavilion, but I still don’t know. What is he hiding from me? Maybe he won't have a chance to explain it in the future. However, since he betrayed me, I should hate him to the bone, but I can't hate him. So what, want to kill him? ?For him, I gave him a chance Now, since this is his choice, what can I do.

"The girl came back to Lianyuan Building to look for Ren'er because she has something to say to me. Since you are here, why don't you want to say anything?" Situ Ren turned around with a smile and walked to the table, rolling up his sleeves , filled a glass of wine and handed it to me, "I said before, if you have any concerns in the future, the girl can come to Ren'er. Although I may not be able to help you, at least I have some doubts. Maybe I can help you solve them." .”

I stretched out my hand to take the wine that Situ Ren handed over, laughed helplessly, and drank it down, "Actually, it's all right, it's just... Ren'er, do you still remember the man you saved that day?"

Situ Ren nodded when he heard the words, "Why don't you remember? If it wasn't for the fact that the girl met him here, maybe he wouldn't have entered the palace with you."

"Maybe, has he come to look for you again?" I put the thing in my hand on the table, opened the skirt and sat down, even though the tone was surprisingly calm, but there was hope in my heart.

"No, what's the matter?" Situ Ren frowned suspiciously when he heard the words, apparently he didn't understand why I suddenly asked, "Girl, is it because of that young master that you are like this."

I smiled wryly, what on earth was I thinking, Ying was only rescued by Ren'er once, how could he come to look for him again?Maybe, I really think too much, I will never forgive the betrayer lightly, but, as for the blood shadow, I'm afraid I really won't make that move to kill him, after all, I only really, yes He gave his affection, and once wanted to protect him with his life, but if he really helped Narikasa Lane and hurt the person I wanted to protect, then I wouldn't let him go easily. It has already been given to him. Now that the choice has been made, it is natural to bear the series of consequences.

Seeing me lowering my head in thought, Situ Ren's brows were once again stained with a touch of sadness, and a soreness welled up in my heart again. He didn't say a word, quietly looked at the wine in his hand, laughed at himself, and drank the wine away. Bitterness spread in his mouth, but it couldn't hide the pain in his heart.

Situ Ren gave a wry smile and hesitated for a while before saying, "Young lady said that she would treat Ren'er as a friend. Is it true?"

"Why do you ask that? Can't I treat you as a friend?" Situ Ren's words made me chuckle, but the faint look of expectation in his eyes also told me that he was not joking.

Situ Ren lowered his eyes slightly when he heard the words, and his blue clothes looked even thinner when he was lifted up by the wind, "No, it's just... the girl must be a person of status by her attire, and Ren'er is just a lowly girl in the Junyuan." It's just a little eunuch."

"If I really cared about my status so much, I wouldn't come back to look for you." Even though I usually greet people with a smile, who knows the pain in my heart? "Ren'er, do you want to leave here?"

Situ Ren looked at me in surprise, and blinked in confusion, obviously not understanding what I just said.His bewildered expression made me helplessly raise the corners of my mouth and meet his puzzled eyes and whisper, "If you really don't want to live this kind of life again, I can help you redeem yourself."

"Girl..." Situ Ren finally affirmed the meaning of my words. He whispered with too much emotion, but lowered his eyes mockingly, "No, I've been here for so many years. I'm used to it, not to mention that even if I sell my art and not my body, I'm still the oiran of Lianyuan Building, Hua Daddy will definitely take the opportunity to make a fortune, and the girl should not spend money for Ren'er. Even if I really go out, so what, I... ...I can no longer live like other people, who would want to marry a young eunuch from the Emperor's Court."

Looking at the self-deprecating smile on the corner of his mouth, there was too much helplessness and bitterness, "No matter what, if you need me to help you, just tell me, no matter what, I will do my best." Maybe, That's the only thing I can do right now.

Hearing this, Situ Ren suddenly raised his head and looked at me with surprise in his eyes, "Really? The girl is really willing to help me with anything?"

"Well, what's the matter?" I said I would help him, and naturally I did it purely from the standpoint of a friend. Is there anything incredible about it? Why, put on a face, as if I would never help him at all. His expression.

"Then... what if I say, I hope the girl will marry me?" Situ Ren bit his lips and said in a low voice, the anticipation in his eyes spread again from the corners of his eyes.

"Er... what did you say?" Situ Ren's words made me, I haven't recovered for a long time, I blinked my eyes and looked at him inexplicably.

"Young lady, don't you want to?" Situ Ren met my suspicious gaze, shook his head slightly, got up and walked to the window, with his back to me, staring blankly at the street outside the window. The lively scene seemed to be his own. He said to himself, "That's right, if the girl treats Ren'er as a friend, Ren'er should be very happy, and shouldn't be so greedy."

Looking at the lonely figure in front of the window and the words full of sentimental self-deprecation, I wanted to say something, but I didn't know how to say it so as not to hurt him.I don't know how long it took, Situ Ren turned around slowly. The difference from before was that the smile returned to his face again, as if the sadness just now had never happened before, but who could understand him? What about the sadness and pain in my heart? "Girl, girl must have been frightened by Ren'er today, right? You won't be avoiding Ren'er from now on, right?"

Hearing this, I also pulled out a smile, "How could that be?"

In the afternoon, when the scorching sun shone on the ground, a young servant rushed into the imperial study room, hurriedly plopped...and knelt down at the bottom of the steps with a loud "Slave sees the empress."

"Get up, what's the matter?" I looked up at him and continued to lower my head to review the memorial.

(End of this chapter)