The maid is the queen

Chapter 195
"No, concubine mother is not." Xu's small hand touched my face: "Concubine mother is very tired, stop the baby from pestering concubine mother, let concubine mother sleep well."

It's really heartwarming, kissing his little face can give me a lot of strength to support me, so I asked him with some hope: "Xu, has brother Xi come back?"

Xu shook his head: "The lady-in-waiting said that brother Xi is where the emperor is, and if Xu wants to eat well and write obediently, then Xu can go to see brother Xu."

I nodded and smiled, a little disappointed in my heart, I shouldn't expect anything.

I dragged my feet and asked the maid to clean up for me, then threw myself on the bed and went to sleep, allowing myself to fall into a deep sleep, and sleep for a dark and dark day.

It was the second day after waking up. Xu and the baby were lying beside my bed and looking at them. They were talking in a low voice. I opened my eyes and smiled: "Xu, have you had breakfast yet?"

"Eat, concubine mother."

"Good boy, Xu and the baby don't have to worry about Concubine Mother, Concubine Mother will be fine after she sleeps." Sitting up and regaining some strength, she was a little surprised to see the plum blossoms in the vase.

Xu smiled happily: "Mother Concubine, it was Xu who folded it."

"Concubine Mu is much better now. Concubine Mu is very satisfied with Xu and her baby." The pain in my heart can be hidden very deeply.

I missed Xi, so I sent the maids to Zhenghua Palace to have a look, and when they came back, they told me that the father-in-law there did not allow them to enter.

I laughed and sighed a little: "Okay, I see."

Will he return Xi to me? My Xi, my heart and soul, was still so young when he was in my arms that day. He looked at me and cuddled me. As long as I coax him, he will stop crying .

But now he won't let me see it, and won't give it back to me. I fell down on the bed, tears flowed from the corners of my eyes, wet my temples and my pillow.

If you don't love me anymore, just say, you have your emperor's temperament, I'll beg you twice, what else do you want from me.

Hee, I was born in October of my pregnancy, do I really not care?Do you think Xia Juntang is more important than him in my heart?If it wasn't for the child, if it wasn't for your lies, I wouldn't have obeyed you back then, but what's the use of reckoning old scores now?After all, I am in love with you, hurt, hurt hard, I don't know how much hurt my heart can bear.

I was not feeling well, so the imperial doctor came to show me, and prescribed a lot of medicine for me to take good care of myself.He hasn't come to see me for so long, and I didn't send anyone over to try again. At night, thinking of Xi, I drank a large bowl of medicine to make myself sleep more deeply.

The first person who came to see me was Concubine Mu. They looked at each other without any hostility or calculations. She said softly: "I went to see him yesterday and he is much better. Ask me to tell you. Don't worry about him."

I let out a sigh of relief and smiled: "That's great."

"Zhiqiu, I..." She covered her mouth and sobbed, "You said it would be great if many things could be restarted from the beginning."

I shook my head: "That's impossible. Everyone has a past, but you can't dwell on the past. You always have to drag your steps forward. Concubine Mu, tell Princess Yutang not to worry, and take care of her." The body is the most important."

"Sister Yutang knows." She wiped her tears.

Suddenly she looked at me very seriously, lowered her voice and said, "Zhiqiu, let me ask you one thing. If you were given a chance to choose now, would you choose Xia Juntang?"

I was stunned, thought for a long time and said, "Don't say these words again in the future."

It's not possible at all, not even a joke.

She said cautiously, "What if it's possible?"

"There is no if, and if I can, I will not force it. I have a prince, and I don't want to leave him." It would be such a misfortune to not have a mother and concubine in the palace. How could I survive without being raised by a kind person? It doesn't matter anymore, my life seems to be half over, I just need to wait for Xi to grow up.

For love, for the emperor's favor, I don't think too much about it, there will be gains and losses.

Junen is the weather of the four seasons. It can’t be spring forever, and summer will never be. If you think about it, you will get used to it.

She said softly: "Zhiqiu, in fact, I feel sorry for you now, but now everything is like this, I don't want to ask you to forgive me, I can't even think of a reason. Me, everything is almost the same, but my mind is not as calm and peaceful as you are now. Take care of your body, I will go back first. "

"Ying'er, see off the guests."

Yong'er came in to send Concubine Mu Gui away, I clutched the quilt and thought quietly.

If I had another choice, if there was no Xi'er, would I still do it?When I was happy with him at the beginning, it was not a fake love. When he was ruthless, should I be as ruthless as him?

After all, he is the emperor. If he discards me, I can embrace another one, but I can only have him. There is nothing public to say. Being the emperor means everything.

My health was better, so I went to visit Xia Juntang. When I went in, I saw his gentle smile, and I finally breathed a sigh of relief. After gouging out the flesh, it was really like being reborn. Although he still couldn’t move, he could speak Her face and complexion are much better than before, and even changing the dressing doesn't always cause her to pass out from the pain.

He didn't ask me why I was so haggard now, but told me to take care when I was leaving, and said not to come out too much when it was cold.

I knew he was afraid that the emperor would be jealous and blame me, so when he returned to the palace, he suddenly wanted to pick some plum blossoms to make Xu and the baby happy. Right now, the red plums should be blooming as brightly as a phoenix weeping blood.

This year's winter came early, and this year's plum blossoms were cold and opened earlier. Before reaching the plum grove, I could smell the rich fragrance. I took a deep breath to make the altar clear, and asked my father-in-law to wait outside. The maid went to step on the snow to pick plum blossoms.

Surprisingly, I saw lavender plums. The slight purple was just so different in the snow-white plum grove. I looked in the direction, got out of the pavilion with the maid, and went to look for the purple plums. I heard It is said that there are also black plums and green plums, but they are so big that they still have no chance to see them.

The plums are sparse and shadowy, the ice buds contain the snow pistils and exhale the cold fragrance. I lower my body and pass through the low plum branches. There is a creaking sound when I step on the snow-white ground. If you listen carefully, it must also be like music. Similarly, Nai He didn't calm down in his mind.

The first thing I saw was the green plum, the light green petals were covered with ice and snow, it was extraordinarily beautiful, as if carved from that tender jade, I caressed that branch and was reluctant to break it off, and then walked inside, probably It was Zimei, and she walked forward with some excitement.

Pull a plum branch over, let go of the plum branch and flick it, snow and rain fall one after another, with a woman's soft voice in the snow and rain, it seems that the plum is alive.

"Your majesty, my concubine likes purple plums, but I know that your majesty likes red plums the most. Prince Xi, let's go and see plums together." .

"Concubine Yun Gui." Eunuch Chen saw me first, and then saluted.

In fact, the sound of footsteps had already betrayed my arrival, and I didn't want to take this opportunity to see him.

It was really a coincidence that we met, my Xi was in the arms of a woman in pink, and when she saw me, she hurriedly gave the child to Qingluo, and then bent over to salute: "My concubine Yunsha has seen the imperial concubine."

I smiled lightly: "There is no need to be too polite."

Still couldn't help looking at him, he looked at Zimei proudly, looking very seriously, his queen was pulling out the petals, and even blew, blowing the broken snow away.

Withdrawing his hand and clapping lightly, he said, "Is there something wrong?"

"It's nothing." To see what he's doing, what's interesting, why not just look at my Xi.

Qingluo is a very smart person, she straightened her body without taking a step and let me see her face, my Xi is so pretty, she has grown up a bit, her round eyes are staring at people, pink and moist His small mouth parted into a smile.The body moved up and down, as if wanting to be hugged by me.

No matter how you look at it, it's not enough. I want to hug him nearby, but my father-in-law will definitely stop me.

Xi, I am concubine mother, will you still remember me?

His faint voice came from next to his ear: "Sha'er, accompany me to see Hongmei. Concubine Yun Gui will go back earlier if there is nothing to do, don't tell the imperial doctor if there is nothing to do."

"Yes." Yunsha responded sweetly, and then saluted: "Imperial Concubine, Yunsha will take my leave first."

I didn't salute him and didn't look at him, I just looked at Xi and let Qingluo carry him away like that, Qingluo asked Xi to lean on her shoulders and let me look at Xi's face, but unbelievable tears overflowed and blurred I closed my eyes, and a few drops of tears slid into the snow and condensed into ice and snow.

"Your Majesty." The palace maid called softly: "Your Majesty, I might as well go back first, it's too cold here. The maid saw that Your Majesty likes green plums, so I dared to break some green plums and bring them back to the palace."

She came to help me walk, I don't know how I got out of the plum grove, looking back at the plum grove, the silvery white and red clouds intersect, and the sea of ​​flowers is blooming like a tide.

My heart is lost in this plum grove, and it falls on my child.

Thinking about Xi crazily, I couldn't help waking up in the middle of the night, and then vaguely wanted to go out. The maid who kept watch at night asked me where I was going, and I said I was going to see Xi, and he cried.

The maids always don't want to break my heart, and always tell me that Prince Xi is sleeping soundly now, and it's better to go tomorrow morning.

My child is being coaxed in other people's arms, and others have taught him to call him concubine mother. This feels like a thorn in my heart. It is the most ruthless emperor's family. What am I praying for?

It's just that the end of the year is approaching, and I want to use some etiquette to pass by and see if it will really be different during this period of time. Doesn't he like the things I made with my own hands?Then I'll make him a wristband. He often has to write and review memorials, and his right wrist will be cold if the sleeve doesn't cover it.

I found snow-white snow brocade and cotton cloth, which was stitched with silk inside. The cotton cloth is soft and warm on the wrist. The snow brocade looks good on the outside, but it is too plain. The pearls are surrounded by plum blossoms, which is much more beautiful.

It took me from the afternoon until midnight to finish it. I was so tired that my back ached, so I called Yonger in and asked her to send me to Zhenghua Palace the next day. I've been begging you for so long, I'm not excited at all, I just want to be more mellow and let me see Xi is.

(End of this chapter)