me and a divorced housewife

Chapter 67 Preoccupied
"Why are you here?" Yang Yang's eyes widened, as if he couldn't believe what he saw.

"I... Teacher Liu asked me to give her something, so I rushed over here." I replied in a flash of inspiration.

"Oh, let me just say, you are too amazing, just after I sent you a message, you appeared in front of my eyes." Yang Yang said, "Then...is Teacher Liu in there?"

"No." I said hastily, "She lives in 319 with your President Wu, you can go find her over there."

"No need." Yang Yang said, "I just couldn't sleep and wanted to chat with someone. I originally sent you a WeChat message, but you didn't reply, so I wanted to come and talk to Teacher Liu, but I didn't expect that it was you who opened the door. .”

I don't know what to do, she said that, she must want to talk to me, but at this moment, I put her in the room, if Liu Ruyue sees it, maybe she will think of me again.

"Do you have time? Chat with me?" she said.

I had to let her in.

After I came in, I realized that she was only wearing a pajamas, if Liu Ruyue saw this, wouldn't it be even more confusing.

So I made up my mind to send this aunt away as soon as possible.

She sat on the chair, set up the wine bottle that Liu Ruyue and I drank yesterday, looked at it and said, "Are you still drinking?"

"Oh, drink a little sometimes." I coped.

"I like to drink it too." Yang Yang said, "But I seldom drink this kind of baijiu. I always drink red wine. I also like to drink the kind of rice wine from my hometown."

I don't want to discuss drinking with her, if this aunt gets drunk and wants to drink like Liu Ruyue yesterday, I can't accompany her.

"Why can't you sleep? Didn't you guys dance all day? Logically speaking, aren't you very tired? At this moment, other girls should be snoring, right?" I laughed, and I decided to go straight to the point, since she is Because I can't sleep, I will solve her worries for her so that she can go back to sleep quickly.

She smiled bitterly and said, "I often do this. In fact, I want to be like them, falling asleep when I touch the pillow, but I just can't fall asleep when I have something on my mind. How about you, why didn't you sleep?"

"Oh, I... just finished my work, I'm going to sleep now with a lot of work," I said.

"Then will I disturb you?" Yang Yang said.

I can only politely say no.

"What's on your mind?" I asked, "You are still so young, what's on your mind that bothers you and makes you often lose sleep?"

"Not necessarily. There are many things. Maybe I just like to think about it. Every stage is different." She said.

"What about today? What's the reason?" I could only go straight to Huang Long, so as to quickly resolve her concerns.

"Actually... it's nothing." Yang Yang said hesitantly, "It's just a little thing."

"Tell me," I encouraged her, "tell me, and I'll analyze it for you, maybe you'll figure it out."

"Really?" Yang Yang still seemed hesitant, "But it's a bit difficult to talk about."

"It's okay, just say it, some things are easy to get sick if you hold them in your stomach, it's better to say it, sometimes it will be much better immediately." I continued to encourage her.

I guess, girls, especially girls of her age, who belong to the age of a young girl Huaichun, are both curious and sensitive to everything. Maybe they just lament that things are right and wrong, or that they are emotional things. Just talk about the truth. .

When she heard what I said, a happy smile appeared on her face, and she said, "I always feel that I am destined to be with you. First of all, you see things more thoroughly and your views are mature."

I feel very funny, yesterday Liu Ruyue just said that I look at problems and act like a child, but today I am completely changed in the eyes of this girl, I have become mature and thorough, I really don't know where to sigh.

"Secondly, it seems that you understand me very well. For example, today, I really wanted to talk to you about the matter I was thinking. If it was in Binhai, I might go to you directly. , Unfortunately, it was in Weihai, but I didn't expect that you would miraculously appear in front of me, how should I put it, I think maybe you should play an important role in my life, this is probably God's arrangement." Yang Yang Said happily.

This miraculous appearance should have been said by Liu Ruyue, but she didn't seem to be too surprised, instead, she made this girl a success.

"So, I think I can tell you this matter, maybe you will really help me see through it." Yang Yang said.

"Let's talk then," I said.

Although she said a lot of theories just now and came to the conclusion that she could tell me what was on her mind, but when it came time to talk, she seemed to become hesitant again.After several times of mustering up courage, they all died down in the end.

I laughed, thinking that this girl is really interesting, "It's okay, you can rest assured, I promise, I will help you keep a secret."

Then she said, "As you know, I dance in this dance troupe and perform in various places every day. Although it's a little hard work, the income is good. The other girls in the troupe think it's pretty good, but I'm different from them."

"Do you feel bad?" I asked.

"I don't think it's bad. What I said is different. It's because they just use dancing as a tool to make money, but I'm different. I really love it. Let's put it this way, even if they don't pay me, I would also like to dance, as long as I have enough to eat." Yang Yang said.

I don't know how to answer, if four years ago, when I was still in college, I would definitely agree with her point of view. I stayed up all night writing and revising manuscripts all night long. At that time, I felt that my ideal was the only one, and I didn’t have to think about any problems. But now, I have completely denied myself at the beginning. Survival is more important than anything else. When you can't eat and you can't see any future, those illusory things can't give you a sense of security.

Of course, if she can persist in such an idea, then she is undoubtedly worthy of my admiration. I think in the end, when she really enters the society, she will probably compromise like me, so now I don’t want to talk to her about it. Will understand eventually, so I just want to solve this matter concisely.

"I know, your ultimate ideal is probably to dance all the time, to the highest stage, such as the Spring Festival Gala, or the Great Hall of the People, like Yang Liping, right?" I said.

She nodded and said, "That's right, I don't dare to watch the Spring Festival Gala now, because I will dream of dancing on that stage almost every once in a while, but when I open my eyes, the reality is so cruel, I can only run These useless commercials."

"Is there any test required to get on that stage? Or, I mean, is there any test required?"

"I want to take the exam for the Zongzheng Song and Dance Troupe, or other song and dance troupes. I take the exam every year, but..." She lowered her head and pouted, "I fail every time."

"It doesn't matter. Failure is success. Your failure is at most success. You can do it." I comforted her.

She chuckled, but it seemed that my joke didn't play a fundamental role. She looked back and said, "Last year, the teacher who assessed you said that you didn't understand what art is, which hit me hard. .”

It is really hard for me to understand the artistry of dance. I always feel that it is similar to gymnastics. It is a kind of competition, which requires perfect body and standard movements.

Of course I didn't say that, I said, "Some teachers are talking nonsense, you don't have to take it seriously, I think you can dance well."

But she shook her head and said, "No, I think he is right. I also found that I did not understand the essence of art. I have been looking for the reason. There is no big problem with basic skills and understanding. I have been searching for a long time but I can't find it. The reason, I didn’t seem to understand what was going on until I heard a sentence a few days ago.”

"What?" I asked curiously.

She hesitated before saying, "That said, if you don't have sex, you can't understand the nature of art."

I was taken aback for a moment, and then I realized why she was so hard to tell just now, the crux of the matter was here.

"This must be nonsense." I said, "I guess this must be some dirty assessment teacher who has bad intentions for you, so he made up such nonsense to trick you into taking the bait? Don't believe it. Helping the grandson is like a beast!"

"No, it's said in a book." Yang Yang said seriously.

"Most writers are dirty, and you can't believe everything in the book."

"Then... have you ever had sex?" She asked seriously with wide eyes.

I couldn't help being taken aback, this really stopped me from asking, to be honest?At this age, if I tell her that I am still a virgin, it would be somewhat embarrassing, right?

"Yes." I said.

"That's right." She said, "Look at you, although you are a layman, I always feel that your understanding of art is much deeper and more thorough than mine, and that's the problem."

I was taken aback, but I didn't expect that she was waiting for me here. She had already determined that my views on art were relatively mature and thorough, and the lies I made up made her even more convinced that sex life was the key to art.

I couldn't argue for a while, this lonely man and widow, talking about this kind of thing in the middle of the night, I was also a little embarrassed, I didn't know how to answer, she didn't speak, the atmosphere became awkward and silent.

"Will you help me?" she whispered suddenly.

Although it was a low voice, I heard it in my ears, it was like a thunderbolt, my heart was pounding, and I hardly dared to look up into her eyes.

I wanted to make sure if what she meant was what I thought, but I just looked up at her and found that she was also looking at me. She seemed to understand what I wanted to ask, and nodded affirmatively.

(End of this chapter)