Red apricots make spring

Chapter 165 Tossing and Turning
Rourou ignored Mama Wen's difficult-to-explain question, calmed down, stood up and opened the door, then looked out to make sure no one was outside, then closed the door again, walked back and sat down, He said cautiously: "What I'm going to say next, you must keep it a secret. If you make it public, it will be a major event that will kill you!"

"Ah!" Mother Wen was the first to be stunned, "Is it so serious?"

"Is the crime of deceiving the emperor serious enough?" When Rou Rou said this, she hesitated for a long time. After all, in Mother Wen's heart, Wen Gang is always the most important thing. If she knows something, it may implicate Wen Gang. , she might have to force herself to be patient and continue to be Lu Ce's concubine!But if this matter is not communicated to them in advance and made clear, it will be easy to leak the news, and it will be really dead if it spreads.

As soon as she spoke, she saw that the faces of the other three people changed completely.Bully!Bully!Ordinary people can't even see the king, so how can they be deceived?They can't be expected to be calm when they hear about this matter, they are drinking tea silently, hoping to wait for them to calm down before continuing.

Mother Wen couldn't help it at first, and said in fear, "what on earth are you going to do?"

Rourou slowly spoke out the plan of feigning illness and feigning death that had been discussed with Lu Ce. Hearing the shock, Xiaohuan squeezed the veil tightly in her hand, and the worry on Wen Gang's face became more serious. Mom wanted to speak several times, but she was blocked by gentle and firm eyes. When she finished speaking, the three of them were still a little bit stunned, and no one spoke for a long time.

"Do you have to do this?" Mother Wen drank two cups of tea, suppressed the fear in her heart, and then hesitated: "If you let Lu Ce just divorce, you will have it..."

"How can he divorce the concubine bestowed by the Holy One?" Gentle and helpless, if it could be settled with a divorce letter, she would not want to go through such trouble at all.

"Then—" Mother Wen really wanted to say that Rourou could be more patient and continue to be a concubine, but Wenrou was her own after all, she really couldn't say that, and she knew that even if she said it, Wen Gang would object, He had no choice but to say anxiously: "Rou'er, are you sure this can be done? What if someone..."

"There's nothing wrong with it!" Rourou said firmly, "As long as you don't say a word, when I'm 'dead' later, you can cry a few more times. You don't have to worry about the rest." She said Looking at Xiaohuan again, he said, "You've worked hard these past few days, take care of the things in the shop, and you'll settle the bill later, and leave it to Lu Ce."

"Sister, won't you close the shop or sell it to someone else?" Xiaohuan couldn't help being a little suspicious while agreeing.

Gentlely shook her head and said: "No, it's not obvious to tell others, am I pretending to be sick? Or why do I close the shop for no reason."

Xiaohuan nodded silently, and Wen Gang had no objection, so Mother Wen had no choice but to promise that she would keep her mouth shut, try not to reveal any flaws, and just follow what Gentle said.After all, this is a big event that will lose her head, she dare not be careless.

Wenrou thought for a while, then looked at Xiaohuan and said: "Don't tell your mother about this beforehand, so that she won't be worried. Just take her with you when it's time to leave. As for Meixiang—" she paused, and said with a wry smile : "No way, she still has a family to take care of, so just leave her in the shop, and Lu Ce won't treat her badly in the future." That being said, she felt a little bit disappointed. It is a pity to discard it.

Xiaohuan understood her intentions, sighed with her, and forced her spirits to comfort her: "Sister, think about it, there is always a banquet in the world."

Wenrou nodded silently, why didn't she understand this truth?It's just one thing to know, another to do it.

"Sister, where are we going after we leave Beijing?" Wen Gang asked.

Hearing this question, Ruan couldn't help but think of the conversation with Lu Ce in the garden, and... She felt her face was a little hot, she quickly lowered her head and said, "I haven't figured it out yet, let's talk about it later." I am really hesitant, should I go to Yunzhou?Let's think about it!

The four of them gossiped for a few more words, and Wen Rou repeatedly asked them not to reveal a word about this matter before letting them go back to sleep.After washing herself listlessly, she loosened her hair in front of the mirror, sat for a long time in a daze, and then turned on the lamp and went to bed, but tossed and turned, unable to fall asleep.

That night, Lu Ce didn't go back to his room, he slept in the study, and also tossed and turned all night.Ever since he was a child, he has been used to hearing the admiration of his relatives, family friends and servants for the unwavering love of his grandparents, and he has always envied this kind of consistent love in his heart, but he knows that it is something that can be met but not sought after. He never imagined that one day he would meet such a person who fascinated him for a long time.

But since Gentleness appeared, I don't know when, she slowly melted into his life like a stream of clear spring, and slowly caused ripples in his sinking heart, bringing him To a touch of joy and peace.Because of this indifference, he took it for granted that this kind of feeling was attributed to liking, and he thought that he had not yet reached the level of love, and it was impossible for him to make a lifelong promise, so he knew that she wanted to leave, but he still let her go. , thinking that at most he would miss her for a while, and then his life would return to the way it was before he met her.

Was he wrong?If it's true, why is it that when you are clearly prepared, when you really hear her say that you want to leave, and see her deliberately keeping a distance from you, trying to completely forget him, why can't you stop feeling sad one after another?That kind of sadness is not painful, it just makes him feel that his heart is sinking continuously, sinking into the dark and dark pool, as if he can no longer see hope in his life, or even have any joy to yearn for. The feeling of being out of breath, at that moment, he just wanted to hug her fiercely into his arms and hold her tightly!keep her!Don't let her go!
It turns out that when you really fall in love with someone, the heartbeat process can be so indifferent. Only when you really face the parting, will you be touched and know how deep you have fallen in this relationship. For a moment, he was really sure that tenderness was what he wanted, the person who would accompany him through his life.Searching and searching, tossing and turning, I finally found the person I met.

When hugging her tightly by the pool, Lu Ce had no idea how much effort he had to restrain his emotions, and did not do anything impulsive.Yes, he knew that he fell in love with Wen Rou, but he let her go after all!Even if he wanted to keep her in his heart, he still knew that he was not qualified to promise right now.

Indeed, Ruan never said what kind of life she wanted to live, but after getting along with her these days, he has long understood that she only wants to find someone she likes, counting money for nothing, cooking some delicious food, and living a peaceful and peaceful life together There are not so many complicated jealousy and intrigue in life.It's just that simple, but he can't be satisfied, so why force her to stay by his side and see her sad and depressed every day?

When you love someone, you should let her do what she likes and live the life she wants, right?Just like his grandmother loves his grandfather, knowing that he likes that kind of hearty military career, she is obviously very afraid and worried, but still hides this feeling deeply in her heart, watching him lead the army to fight every time with a smile, and endure it Tears deal with the trauma he brought back with him.It's also like his grandfather loves his grandmother. Whenever he comes back from a battle, the first thing he does is to run home. Even if he is often ridiculed by others saying that he is afraid of his wife, he still insists on saying goodbye to the beautiful concubine given to him by the Holy Majesty and other colleagues time and time again. .

That being the case, let her go!

This doesn't mean that he wants to give up, he just wants to wait a little longer, and when he is sure that he can give her the life she wants, he will find her back again.Although he didn't know how long he would have to wait, maybe, during the waiting process, he would miss this feeling, but it was much better to see her live a happy life than having her and seeing her sad, and finally torturing each other .

Lu Ce opened his eyes, watching the window paper being brightened little by little by the sunlight, repeating his resolution again and again.He now understands the feeling that when his grandmother passed away, his grandfather didn't want to live alone anymore. It turned out that it was really difficult to watch the person he loved disappear before his eyes, for a long time, or even forever!
I can't lie down anymore!He has never been so indecisive, and if he thinks about it again, he will be suffocated to death by his repeated hesitation!Lu Ce turned over and sat up from the collapsed cloak, calling out to others: "Xizhu——"

"Master, are you awake?" Xizhu opened the door and came in, saw Lu Ce walk to the table, dipped a pen in ink, and wrote vigorously on the paper.After a long while, he finished writing, threw the pen on the table, reviewed it again while the ink was still wet, then folded the paper and handed it to Xi Zhu, saying: "Take it and hand it to Madam." , and told her to burn it after reading it, so that no one else could see it."

"Yes." Xizhu took the paper and wanted to leave, but was stopped by Lu Ce: "When you come back, prepare the horse for me, I want to go out."

go out?Isn't today the day when Yun Dan wants to bring back the account books to do the accounting?I didn't hear my grandfather say I was going out last night!Xizhu hesitated for a moment, knowing that Lu Ce had his own plans, so he didn't ask any further questions, and only responded, before turning around and leaving.
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(End of this chapter)