I won't be her substitute

Chapter 23

The words so sad came to my heart, and I couldn't bear to give up. "Divorce" was doomed from the beginning of marriage, but I never thought it would be such a heartbroken one.Looking at his strong signature on the agreement, my heart was broken.But so what?Isn't this exactly the result I want?Yes, relieved.I want to laugh, laugh out loud.Why is it full of tears?I want to cry……

——An Mengqing's diary

An Mengqing and Ai Jing sat side by side on chairs in the park, and the atmosphere was solemn.Coincidentally, Ai Jing was walking down the street in a daze. Somehow, she actually came to the gate of Yu's Group. Looking at the building in front of her, she thought of that villain Yu Zhe. She was about to turn around and leave, but saw An Mengqing, who hadn't seen her for a long time, stood behind a big tree not far away, crying very sadly.Overjoyed, Ai Jing stepped forward and patted An Mengqing on the shoulder.

"Where have you been these days? I'm about to turn Taiwan upside down. I'm so anxious to be missing these days." I didn't know where the meeting words I had planned, and I blurted out such ordinary words .

"I'm sorry, Ai Jing, to make you worry. I'm fine now." An Mengqing forced a smile, expressing her sincere thanks for Ai Jing's concern.In fact, they have only known each other for a few days, and no one thought that the relationship between them would be so good.

"Is it really good?" Ai Jing looked at An Mengqing in disbelief. "Who are you lying to? Hiding behind a tree and crying like that is what you said you are doing well? Is the red like rabbit's eyes a proof that you are living well?"

"I...how did I cry? It's just that the sand was blown into my eyes." Knowing that it was not convincing, An Mengqing still said it, but her voice was much lower.

"Make it up, keep making it up. Don't you think your acting skills are bad?"

"Ai Jing, I..." An Mengqing hesitated to speak.She was not born a liar, and she couldn't tell even a white lie. "I saw Yu Zhe."

"Why don't you go in and find him?"

"It's no longer necessary." An Mengqing looked up at the sky and said to Ai Jing.She didn't want to cry in front of Ai Jing, she raised her head, the tears would not flow down.

Looking at An Mengqing, Ai Jing hesitated, should she tell An Mengqing what she saw?Judging from the current situation, there should be no need for it. She seems to have matured a lot during the days of her disappearance, and she has also become rational.

"Why is it unnecessary? Don't you love him very much? You don't miss him these days when you can't see him? For the sake of him looking for you day and night, don't you ever think about getting back together?" Ai Jing wanted more proof, she wanted to know what An Mengqing was thinking.Eagerly looking for the answer is just to avoid hurting your friend again.

"It's a lie to say that you don't want to. To love someone doesn't have to be with him. If I really love him, I shouldn't enter his life. My intervention was a mistake after all. In the end, I hurt more than myself. I don't want to Lie to Yuzhe, and I don’t want to lie to myself. Long-term pain is worse than short-term pain. Since he doesn’t love me, why should I pretend that I don’t know anything and still be with him? If Yuzhe and that girl are destined, I believe God will let them meet again. If they lose their fate in this life, I also believe that I am not his other half." An Mengqing turned her head to look at Ai Jing. "Ai Jing, I want to quit the game of these three people, I want to be myself, I want to find the love that only belongs to me."

An Mengqing's eyes were pure and firm, without any concealment, Ai Jing read the truth from her eyes.I'm really touched, I didn't expect that An Mengqing, who looks so weak, can afford and let go of love.

"No matter what you decide, I will support you."

Everything goes without saying.All that needs to be said has been said, Ai Jing can only support any of her decisions.Although she also thinks it is wise for An Mengqing to leave Yuzhe, why is she so disturbed when she sees that An Mengqing wants to leave Yuzhe now?As the saying goes: It is better to demolish a temple than destroy a marriage.Ai Jing vaguely felt that the matter between An Mengqing and Yu Zhe was caused by her.Strange, how could there be such an idea?Ai Jing was taken aback by this inexplicable thought.

"Ai Jing, what's wrong? I'm restless." An Mengqing noticed her strangeness.

"Ah? Nothing. Nothing. Mengqing, where have you been these days?"

"Going to grandma's."

"Does grandma know about you?"

An Mengqing shook her head, maybe the person she feels most sorry for now is grandma. "I dare not tell her. Grandma is so old, I don't want her to worry about us."

"Paper can't hold fire, and one day she will know."

"How long can you hide it? Let's not talk about me, are you doing well in the company? Did that Shao Luo bully you?"

"I resigned." An Mengqing's words were so plain that it was inconceivable.

"Resign? Well done, why did you resign?" An Mengqing felt sorry for her.

"Just quit if you don't want to do it." Ai Jing disagreed.

"That's it?" I still don't think it's that simple.

"It's that simple to resign." Ai Jing shrugged, her firm tone was beyond doubt. "Stop talking about these boring things. I haven't seen you for a long time. We have to celebrate our reunion. Let's go, my treat."

The two people who have a tacit understanding both chose "seeking rain in summer".Indescribably, this restaurant seems to have an atmosphere that other restaurants do not have.Fresh, natural, romantic, and touching are not bad at all to describe "Summer Seeking Rain".Both familiar and unfamiliar, here, Ai Jing and An Mengqing can talk about various topics with confidence.Now they are relaxed, happy, and it feels good to have no worries.

In the next few days, An Mengqing accompanied Ai Jing to look for jobs everywhere.I searched for companies, large and small, but none of them were suitable.Sit down and think quietly, Yu's Group is still suitable for you.An Mengqing also persuaded her to go back to work in Yu's Group, but Ai Jing just couldn't swallow it, and didn't want to see Yu Zhe and Ye Zhimin again.Ai Jing just didn't believe it. Could it be that she has nowhere to go except Yu's Group?Forget it, let's continue to look for her with her.

"Mengqing, it's really decided?" An Jia was having a family meeting.

"Yeah. I figured it out. Divorce."

"Daughter, it's great that you can figure it out." Seeing that her daughter was not overwhelmed by love, An's father and An's mother were extremely relieved.To make such a decision, An Mengqing has also struggled, and so far she doesn't know where the courage came from.Occasionally lying on the bed, looking back on the past, she would laugh at herself, at her ignorance, at her stupidity.

On this day, the weather was clear, but the wind was strong, and the strong wind blocked An Mengqing's every step.Could it be that God also stopped her from going to Yuzhe with the divorce agreement?Facing the wind, An Mengqing walked forward anxiously.The direction she was walking was Yu Zhe's villa.

Strange to say, Yu Zhe came home in a trance that day, and his mother, who hadn't seen Yu Zhe for a long time, looked surprised. Is this still Yu Zhe?His haggard face, haggard voice, haggard body, even his inherent handsomeness has become so haggard.

"Mom Xiu, I'm tired. Go upstairs and have a rest. Don't let anyone disturb me."

"Okay." Seeing Yu Zhe's back, Xiu Ma replied.

In the room, nothing has changed, the wedding photos hanging on the wall are still so romantic.Yu Zhe reached out to touch the photo and An Mengqing's face, everything was illusory.

"Mengqing, where are you? I'm so lonely and scared..." Yu Zhe moved his hand away from the photo as if he was electrocuted. "You are not Mengqing, you are Xiaoyu. No, you are not Xiaoyu, you are Mengqing. Mengqing, Xiaoyu..." These two different names keep appearing in my mind, but they have the same appearance, confused Unable to see the facts clearly, Yu Zhe stepped forward and grabbed the photo. "Tell me, who are you? Who are you?" With a roar, the photo fell from Yu Zhe's hands, fell to the ground, and shattered.Yu Zhe, who lost his mind, opened the cubicle. Since An Mengqing lived in this small cubicle, Yu Zhe has never entered it again.The previously deserted cubicle became warm against the background of the pink wallpaper, and Yu Zhe, who was flustered, gradually became calm.Lying on the small bed filled with An Mengqing's breath, Yu Zhe fell asleep drowsily.

Awakened by the nightmare, Yuzhe sat up sweating profusely.He dreamed that An Mengqing filed for divorce.Sitting on the bed blankly.A piece of tissue paper appeared in front of Yu Zhe.Who is so bold? Before Yu Zhe went upstairs, he clearly told Xiu Ma not to let anyone disturb him.An angry Yuzhe grabbed the hand holding the tissue paper, stood up, and looked at it fiercely. Just as he was swearing, the person in front of him made him swallow all his words.

His haggard face finally saw his smile, a smile from the heart, sweet, gentle, and excited.Woo-cheol hugged her.

"Mengqing. Is it really you? Great, you are finally back." The strength of the arm is very strong, I wish I could melt her into my body, never leave, and have been inseparable ever since.

Maybe it was because she hadn't hugged Yu Zhe for too long, An Mengqing let him hold her, enjoying the last warmth Yu Zhe brought her.return
I remember that at that time, An Mengqing thought to herself in Yu's arms: As long as you hug me occasionally, that's enough.

An Mengqing was crying, thinking sweetly in her heart: Yuzhe, really, enough is enough.Before leaving, it is enough to be hugged by you again and feel the warmth you gave me at the end.

She wiped away her tears and pushed him away.Yu Zhe was very surprised.

"What's wrong? Mengqing."

"Let's talk." An Mengqing looked very serious. Her unusual seriousness made Yu Zhe feel suffocated like never before. "Have you ever really loved me?" An Mengqing was frightened by the casual question.How to ask such a question?Could it be that as long as Yuzhe answered "loved", would she change her mind?

He moved his lips, then closed them again, and Woo-cheol hesitated.Now even he himself can't correctly view the relationship between him and An Mengqing.He can no longer say with confidence as before: I love you.It used to be such a simple three words, but now it seems so difficult.

An Mengqing pursed her lips and smiled, was that a self-deprecating smile? "Sign it here." An Mengqing took out the divorce agreement.The black and white words hurt Yu Zhe's eyes, he couldn't believe it, and he couldn't imagine what happened in the past few days when An Mengqing disappeared.

"Why?" After silence, Yu Zhe's reaction was not as scary as imagined, he was too calm.Such a calm performance should not appear on Yu Zhe who once loved her deeply.

"There is no reason." At this time, An Mengqing's words did not go through her brain, as if she blurted out, but also seemed to come from the depths of her heart, somewhere in her heart, a place she didn't even know.

"Okay, there is no reason for a good sentence. Then let me ask you, have you ever loved me?"

"Loved. Loved deeply." An Mengqing said what was buried in her heart without hesitation. "I never told you that I love you, because I dare not, for fear of being rejected by you. At the beginning, you only regarded me as your pawn, to anger your mother, or to satisfy the loneliness in your heart. Admit I still love you, but now I won’t tell you I love you, because it’s unnecessary.”

"Why? Why do you say breakup every time? Is this a woman's privilege?"

"I'm not her." An Mengqing heard "every time" in Yuzhe's mouth, and it's not hard to know that Yuzhe was dumped by that girl before.

"what?"

"I'm not her." She repeated verbatim.

"Do you think I have someone else in my heart?" Yu Zhe was very angry. He didn't expect that his forbearance was exchanged for her suspicion.

"I'm An Mengqing, not the one in your heart. Although I don't know who she is, I can imagine that she must be a very remarkable girl."

"Yes, she is amazing, she is very powerful. She is so powerful that she can play with other people's feelings, and then walk away generously. She can completely ignore my love for her. It was like this four years ago, and it will be the same four years later. I don't understand, since I don't love you, why did you come back after four years? Is it just to torture me again?" Yuzhe went crazy, and his growling voice echoed in the villa.

"I do not know."

"You..." Yu Zhe was so angry that he didn't know what words to refute.Does this woman really not know that the person he said is herself?Yu Zhe has a fiery temper and is easily carried away by anger.She took the divorce agreement that An Mengqing had prepared, and signed her name on the male side.

Seeing his chic handwriting, An Mengqing cried, in her heart.

Holding the agreement signed by Yu Zhe, she felt very heavy.He took out a piece of paper from his bag and handed it to Yuzhe. "This is the money my father owes you. You take this IOU and I will pay it back in one year."

Yu Zhe turned his back to her, and he ignored her.An Mengqing looked at his back, and a tear fell on the "IOU".Putting down the "IOU", An Mengqing left.Left with a love she hadn't forgotten.

Stopping her tears, An Mengqing said goodbye to her godmother with a smile.Looking back at this home again, An Mengqing was very sad.

Running all the way, An Mengqing, who was tired from running, stopped.

"An Mengqing, what's wrong with you? You should be happy, why are you crying?" Only then did she realize that she hadn't stopped crying when she ran out of Yu Zhe's house.Pedestrians on the road cast surprised eyes and looked curiously at An Mengqing, whose face was full of tears.

Looking at the IOU written by An Mengqing, Yu Zhe didn't know what else to do except smile wryly.Bending down to pick up the IOU, slowly tear the paper in half, smaller and smaller, until it crumbles and floats to every corner of the compartment.

Walking out of An Mengqing's room, she saw the broken photo frame on the ground, and the photos inside were more clearly visible.As soon as he saw An Mengqing in the photo, Yu Zhe thought of the scene just now.He strode forward, took out the photo in the photo frame, and tore it in half forcefully, the two sweet people were separated.

Thinking about it, he smiled.Laughed and laughed and cried again.A man never flicks his tears, not to mention he is the proud president of the Yu family. Tears have never appeared in his dictionary, but this time he cried for An Mengqing.

(End of this chapter)