Golden branches and jade leaves

Chapter 138

Night Rain and Cold ([-])

I admit that I have had ambitions and desires, as long as a man will have ambitions and desires, but I can't bear the need to complete such ambitions at the cost of hurting him.

Not only him, but also her...
I still remember that after I heard the screams from the Shenwu Gate, I rushed up the city wall, and what caught my eyes was the scene of her weak figure slowly falling along the city wall.At that moment, there were no lights and fireworks in my eyes, no emperor who fell beside her, only a piercing pain spread to my heart, and I still remember it until this moment.

That night, I ignored the etiquette of my courtiers, picked her up, and then hurried down the tower, calling for the imperial physician in panic.

I remember that she was in my arms, she was frail and frightening, as if a gust of wind could take her away.

I carried her back to the dormitory, halfway, but was stopped by another person who rushed over, it was the Chief Lie who followed her, and he took her from my arms.

Finally, her pale face came into my eyes, and then disappeared into the vast and far-reaching palace.

The short hug that night was the closest contact between me and her.The feeling of frailty and loneliness still stays in my arms, but she has disappeared in a place that I can't see or touch.

In fact, on that cold rainy night, at the moment when that emerald green figure came into my eyes, my path was already doomed.

And there must only be one.

I calmed down and asked, "Concubine Lian... how is she doing now?"

"The empress is in good health, but she is still in a coma for the time being due to the severe blow." Mr. Ge nodded and said, "The imperial doctor has already made a careful diagnosis and treatment, and I believe there is nothing serious. And...the empress is pregnant again..."

My body trembled uncontrollably. After a moment of silence, I looked up at him and asked, "What do you think Qinghan should do next?"

……

In the court hall on the second day, Ting Xuan and I stood side by side without any contact beforehand, and we jointly supported the three-year-old prince's succession to the throne. Naturally, various forces will not raise objections.

This surprised everyone, and it was hard to believe that there hadn't been any private negotiations between the two of us.In fact, after that sword strike, there was no more private meeting between him and me.

In a weak regime with only orphans and widowed mothers, neither of the two generals who held heavy troops had the slightest intention of being a powerful minister. This is probably rare in the history of all dynasties.

Under such a strange unity, the courtiers no longer have to worry about which faction they need to join. They are fully prepared to organize the ceremony, bid farewell to the old things, and welcome the new court.

After that, the funeral of Emperor Cheng and the enthronement ceremony of the new emperor went smoothly and step by step.

On the day of enthronement, at the moment when everything new began, he gave a farewell memorial.She agreed almost immediately, which quickly made the suspicious courtiers wonder what kind of conspiracy was involved.

Then he left the capital, with such determination and loss, I never thought that he, who has always been calm and peaceful, would have such a decisive side.

On the day he left the capital, I didn't see him off. I just stood on the tower, watching his leaving team from a distance, and stood there for a long, long time... Maybe I am concerned about the secret love and sadness deep in his heart. Knows better and understands better than anyone.

After that, for a full 15 years, except for the official document of the border crossing, I never had any contact with him, nor did I meet him again.

Until today, until now...

Why?After a long gap of 15 years, these pasts that were deeply buried in my heart were brought up again, and they were still brought up by the person in front of me.

My puzzled look was reflected in Mr. Ge's eyes.

Suddenly a bitter smile appeared on his face, and after a while, he said softly: "The Empress Dowager..." His expression was like a tired old man talking about his child.

What he said next made me unbelievable. My weather-beaten sanity almost collapsed, and my thoughts completely froze at the same time.

When I finally understood the meaning of his words, I no longer knew how I agreed.

……

Seeing off Mr. Ge, Zi Mo ran in bouncingly, seeing my face, she opened her shining eyes wide, and asked: "Daddy, your face is a little bad, Mr. Ge just said What's up?"

I didn't answer her question, but just stared blankly at Samuume outside the window, the crimson color reflected in my eyes seemed to be as hot as burning.After a while, I asked: "During the days when you served in the palace, when you saw...the queen mother... how is she doing recently?"

In the fall of this year, Zi Mo was summoned into the palace together with several noble women, serving the court as female officials.This time, because of the approaching Chinese New Year, the Empress Dowager issued a decree to let these female officials go home to visit their relatives.

"The Empress Dowager..." Zi Mo said, "The Empress Dowager is fine, she has always been in good health, but..." She hesitated for a moment, tilted her head, and recalled for a moment, as if she was thinking about her words.

I felt my heart was lifted suddenly, and then I heard her continue: "However... the queen mother seems to be in a bad mood, sometimes she seems to have that kind of lonely and lonely look, but she always Very kind... Ah, I can't explain clearly, father is deeply trusted by the queen mother, and he discusses state affairs almost every day, isn't it clearer?..."

lonely?Are you lonely?
I lowered my head, how can I be clear about this mood?How can I have a chance to know?
She is within the far-reaching palace walls, but I am outside the heavy palace gates.The distance between me and her is already insurmountable forever.

Perhaps, Mr. Ge's proposal is right.

Just when I was in a daze, I felt that my arm was being held tightly by someone.Looking down, it was Zi Mo who had slightly reproachful eyes, "How many days will Daddy stay at home this time? The Chinese New Year is coming soon, don't you want to be free? Zi Mo will go back to the palace after the Chinese New Year , how many days will it take to see Daddy?"

I laughed, maybe, I have ignored their mother and daughter for too long.

"You don't need to go out this trip, I will definitely spend more time with you mother and daughter." I stroked her head and said kindly.

After hearing what I said, she laughed, her eyes sparkled with joy, and she kept shaking my arm.

But my sight missed her, and I bet on the pen, ink, paper and inkstone on the desk.

I remember that I used to compete with him, although I always won more, but I knew that my martial arts were not as good as his, and he was just letting me in, especially when there were more guard brothers around .That's why I resorted to that despicable means in that contest that decided our fate.

It's all over now.

It's just that I didn't expect it to be the same this time. On the surface, I was the one who won, but in fact, the one who won... was him.

I used to think that I was the man who stood closest to her in this world and the man who accompanied her longest in this world, but now it seems...

I smiled slightly, feeling a little sad in my heart, but also had a ray of relief.

Night Rain and Cold (End)

Tomorrow is the last episode of the main drama.

After being number one for almost a month, the monthly ticket list finally dropped at the last moment, (~￣▽￣)~
With a vitality not inferior to Xiaoqiang's, he continued to struggle unwillingly to die...

It is estimated that everyone is also annoyed by my nagging.

But there is no chance to shout again in the future.

Everyone just bear with my nagging for the last time.

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