Lao Tzu is a toad

Chapter 266 Alive, "Qing Ping Diao"

Zhao Jiadi went back to the community and changed his car. He took Zhonghuan Road, Wuzhou Avenue, the Ring Expressway, turned to the Shanghai-Shaanxi Expressway, passed Changxing Island, and drove all the way, and finally arrived at Nansijia Town, Chongming Island. GPS navigation, directions, and telephone inquiries , at the riverside, finally found a petite figure, lonely, Zhao Jiadi stopped the car, walked to her side, and watched the river with her.On the body of this mother river, there is the Baidi City to watch Kuimen, the ghost town of Fengdu, where good and evil will be rewarded, and Yanziji, which can be viewed from the foot of the earth-shattering flood. Witnessed too many wars and gunpowder, prosperity like brocade, the rise and fall of honor and disgrace, the ups and downs of clouds and smoke, the girl in front of Zhao Jiadi sat on the concrete steps, only forty or fifty steps away from the muddy river, resting her cheeks in a daze , a simple and elegant silver earring hung on the left ear. Winter is coming, and the riverside is windy, but she is wearing very thin, jeans, a woolen sweater, and a hand-woven scarf.Zhao Jiadi's lighter was too cheap and had no windproof effect, so he couldn't light a cigarette anyway, so he had to give up, sit behind her, and asked softly to relax?She didn't say a word, and she wore a pair of canvas shoes, one black and one white, very strange, they were actually two pairs of shoes, but because she liked both, she didn't know which pair to buy, she bought both, and didn't know which pair to wear, I just put on one foot and one foot, and I am satisfied.Fortunately, she didn't still wear small sandals this season.Zhao Jiadi sat there quietly, and wanted to take off his coat and put it on for her, but nine times out of ten he would be rejected, so he didn't bother others.The tongue is as bright as a lotus, and a few words can make a woman's cloudy and sunny, which has always been the realm he has dreamed of, but the hope in this life is slim and unattainable.

"Can you sing "About Winter"?" She finally broke the silence.

"I have heard it and learned it, but I can't sing it."

"I heard someone's voice, like the weeping river in the dream... a clever child, holding a fragile lantern..." She hummed a little song, still without turning her head, "I know what song it is ?"

"I know, "Your Look." Zhao Jiadi smiled.How could he not know this song? Back then, she often hummed it and could whistle. After learning that Zhao Jiadi could blow leaves, she kept pestering her endlessly.

"You sing really badly." She said bluntly, but left room for it. "But the erhu was good at the music festival. Afterwards, I listened to the recording for my grandpa. He said it was hard work and he appreciated it."

Zhao Jia was the first to laugh it off.His pop music has always been the favorite of his friends to attack and sarcasm, Zhao Jiadi didn't feel wronged, it was really out of character, but it was Peking opera, maybe it was a bit of a twist, and it was a little better.It's Zhao Shanhu's fault. He taught difficult Peking Opera and Henan Zhuizi Opera since he was a child, and the jump was too big. Normal music became a threshold that Zhao Jiadi couldn't get past.There is a large auditorium in the high school. After graduating from the third year of high school, Zhao Jiadi and his group ran around the school in addition to tearing up books, smashing wine bottles and wearing only underpants. Finally, they were called to the auditorium by Yang Pingping in the middle of the night. In the auditorium, Huang Hua and Wu Dengke were the pistols threatening to make Zhao Jiadi make a heroic sacrifice and ooxx the wicked sister Pingping. Anyway, it was the eight-two classmates who suffered from the disadvantages and sister Pingping took advantage of it. Facing someone in disheveled clothes lying on the ground and crying, he smiled presumptuously and said, Xiao Baliang, don't worry, my sister will be responsible for you in the future.A group of animals walked into the dark auditorium with a joking mentality, and suddenly the lights were all turned on. Yang Pingping stood under the stage, holding a loudspeaker in one hand and a big tape recorder in the other, and said with a loud smile. Listen, tonight, Someone is going to give a closing performance to the end of the high school career of Comrade Eight Liang.

Curved up.

A woman in full costume came out. She was such a beautiful girl. In the most youthful years, she wore the most gorgeous costumes, fireworks pink and black. .

She sang "Since I have been fighting with the king, suffering from wind, frost and toil, year after year. I only hate that the Wudao Qin ruined the lives of the people, and only made the people miserable." She shocked everyone.

Secretly practiced Jingqiang for more than a year.

Her song "Farewell My Concubine" was soul-stirring.

On the stage, she stood alone.

Concubine Yu died, but it was for her Overlord Chu.

how about you?
Zhao Jiadi looked at the surging river, and then at the back of the girl in front of him.Little caterpillar, Li Qinghu.

"Hey, do you think life is interesting?" she asked.

"Interesting." Zhao Jiadi said softly.

"Of course you are interesting. You can make a good face for a high-ranking woman like Cai Yanzhi. It's not shameful to say it, and you have a sense of accomplishment. And the pair of sisters in Hangzhou, who are a perfect match. How many people will envy you if you hook up. There are For money, you can buy two Audi A6 cars with just one license plate, and you can have a lot of beauties in your arms for a drive. The head is also good, the person looks good, it’s okay, no wonder it can make Tong Xia die, in fact, Shen Qiuluo and the others have a good impression of you, and one of the girls even took your picture of hugging Hong Yicui As the desktop background, you may be able to hook up with me with a few sweet words, such a fulfilling life, if you feel that life is boring, how many people will have to jump to the Huangpu River and Yangtze River, my question is too idiotic, isn't it?" Li Qinghu laughed at himself.

"I have seen those who feel that life is boring." Zhao Jiadi said softly, falling into memories, "I went to Shanxi in 05, and my father was the Emperor of Earth there. It is a coal mine with incomplete procedures. It has been bleached and consolidated since 90, and it has not quit Shanxi. How much money he earned and how much money he gave away, I am afraid that even he himself can’t remember. In fact, I feel tired and crooked. Isn’t your coal mine collapsing every day? It is small, has good crushing strength and high abrasion resistance. It belongs to premium coke and is the best coal for coking. There are several white holes in my family’s big daily progress over there, but there are fewer black holes, so I will steal them. Slipping over, the job is to pull the rope, the coal passage under the pit is uneven, there is always a slope up and down, you have to use the hoist to use the wire rope hanging on the axle of the coal truck to help the puller 'up', and occasionally make a cameo Tire repair. The safety factor is much higher than that of diggers and pullers. Later, I met an "old man" named Sun. I called him an old man, not because he was old, but because he was old and experienced, and he was a coal mine. This kind of "old man" must have prestige, be familiar with the connection of all operating links under the pit, and be good at commanding and coordinating various units. Old man Sun didn't call for coal digging, but told me to say "please charcoal". He is an old Shanxi native. , has dealt with coal all his life. He has three sons and one daughter. In the early 90s, he led his family to dig a kiln, because only by digging out charcoal, he could earn money for his son and daughter to marry a wife and dowry. He dug the first hole, Sold it to my father for 40 yuan. When digging the second one, the youngest son died. It was a yin marriage. The daughter who died opposite had a high school diploma, so the asking price was several times that of a normal yin marriage. Old man Sun gritted his teeth and agreed. I said that I can’t wrong my son. After that, old man Sun has been working in my father’s mine for 20 years. He has worked all year round and suffered countless accidents. Old man Sun has excellent arm strength and hearing, and he is very familiar with everything he does. , I used to smoke a bag of dry cigarettes every time I went down the well, and then I went down the well with the small hatchet that I never left. The black hole is not as good as the white hole. The mechanical hydraulic lift supports the top. How can the former be so extravagant? If it can’t be supported, it will never be supported. If it can’t be done, it will use manpower to get a few pieces of pit wood. Old man Sun is very good. There is no need to get a wooden bracket, so everyone likes to see old man Sun, except that the old man can 'save his life', and he has a string of local slang and jingle jokes when he opens his mouth. I am also happy to chat with the old man, he can even be accurate To identify who owns the dung heaps lined up one or two feet high in the grass outside the pit, every time old man Sun accepts the cigarettes from me, he will pull me to squat next to the coking oven to watch the smoke, and talk about many things, He said that in the past five or six years, in order to meet the hard target of 20 yuan for every dead coal boss, the workers in the mine next door would team up with a group of people to trick homeless people from other places into killing them, and then create an accident scene. , Then get a woman from relatives to pretend to be the daughter-in-law of the deceased, cry, make trouble, hang herself, and get the money, share it according to the agreement in advance.The old man laughed and said that there was a Wenzhou coal boss who was too stingy, and the miners couldn’t stand it, so they joined forces and sent someone who could act in one night to tell him that the big thing was not good, the mine collapsed More than 100 died.The boss was so scared that he peed his pants and ran away that night. I heard that he almost didn't go crazy.Old man Sun also said how many old brothers died and which coal mine died in which year, month and day. In the end, the old man would always feel that there are lives under every opening.But when old man Sun said this, he might feel a little sad, but he never showed any great grief or pain. Old man Sun limped a leg, which was chopped off with a small ax when the landslide occurred. The eldest son was right next to him Head behind, failed to climb up, went with the youngest son, fortunately gave birth to a pair of grandchildren for old man Sun, the incense continued.Old man Sun left a good cypress coffin, which I painted and painted for him. He walked around it all day long, day after day, smoking a bag of dry cigarettes on the stone at the door, muttering to himself. Damn, I once asked, old man, what are you thinking.He said, why not die, the brothers in the underground are all waiting to drink together. "

"What happened next?" Li Qinghu finally turned his head and asked softly.

"Later he died, a partial landslide, and he died alone. The rest of the young people were driven out of that area intentionally or unintentionally. After the old man Sun was dug out, he was carried directly into the coffin. What happened last year, I was in a place in Sichuan. , I heard from others that Old Man Sun’s death was not painful.” Zhao Jiadi said slowly, and took out the smoke again, but it still couldn’t be lit because of the strong wind.

"If you are 10 minutes late, I will jump off." Little Qingchong pointed to the Yangtze River.

"Then you are not as good as old man Sun. Drowning will be very painful, and even if you catch it, your death will not look good." Zhao Jiadi said calmly.

"If I jumped now, would you save me?" she asked, staring at Zhao Jiadi.

"I'm afraid of death and pain. I'm afraid many people will be sad." Zhao Jiadi didn't answer the question.But the answer is that he will jump along, although he can only be dog-planed, but he dare not say the answer, for fear that she will really jump, "I don't care what others think, I just think that a lifetime is a long time, and loving someone is It’s a long story. I didn’t get to where I am today because my family is rich, but it’s not because I’ve experienced something that I want to dictate someone’s life. Li Qinghu, if you fall in love with someone, you will be hurt , I feel that life is meaningless, then well, I also came here like this, I will tell you as a person who has been here, it’s nothing, a really good person will always wait for you somewhere, you have to hold on for a while Otherwise, let’s not say I’m sorry to my parents or relatives, at least I’m too sorry for myself. I’ve seen lawless dudes, they think that living is a blessing, and I’ve seen people like old man Sun, who feel that if they are reincarnated to live, life is Suffering and suffering, I am like you. I have grown up so much that I can finally support myself. I must be sorry for anyone. I have regrets, guilt, and remorse. No matter how heartless the calf is, it may be that its hands and feet are cold because of a minor illness of its parents. The immature child may feel that he failed the midterm exam and think that the sky is about to fall. And mature adults People, for love, for career, for marriage, which one doesn't have unspeakable emotions?"

"I don't want to hear it, and I can't listen to it!" Li Qinghu's eyes were red, his eyes were moist, and he buried his head in his knees, choked up and said: "My uncle who loves me the most is dead, he was burned to death, such a big factory, he died My uncle is alone. My grandfather is from the Ministry of Public Security, but it has not been found out who set the fire. My father and mother have been arguing since before I was born. One day a small quarrel, three days a big quarrel, quarrel After 20 years, I haven’t had enough quarrels. What annoys me the most is that they pretend to love each other in front of me. My dad even has an illegitimate child outside, and he keeps saying that he loves me the most. My mom checked my dad’s accounts. I found out that there are tens of thousands of people there, and I finally couldn't help it anymore. Today I had a showdown with me, poured out my mouth, and said that she was going out to make a fool of myself. She forced me to ask me if I divorced, should I follow her or follow me Dad, if I refuse to say it, she will call me heartless."

"Little Qingchong, you have to know that adults also have childish moments. And when they are childish, they will be very unreasonable." Zhao Jiadi said softly, "My mother immigrated to Canada for so many years, because she hated that man, and incidentally treated him I ignored it. When I was a child, I had a cold and a high fever. The first thing I thought of was not my mother, but my sister. You said how failed she is as a mother? But doesn’t my mother love me? Obviously not Yes. Love very little, no. As parents, they have loved us for more than ten or twenty years, so are we not allowed to understand them once or twice?"

Li Qinghu remained silent.

"I composed, composed, composed and composed a song "Qing Ping Diao", which was written for a girl. Unfortunately, she can't hear it. Do you want to hear it? If you don't listen to it, you won't sing it to anyone. It doesn't matter if I sing badly." Zhao Jiadi said suddenly.

"I don't want to hear it." She pouted, "but I want to force her to listen to it for her."

Zhao Jiadi suddenly sat up straight.

Li Qinghu turned around and looked up at him.

Beijing accent.

Regardless of common people, do not ask ghosts and gods, and do not touch cause and effect.

Close your eyes, cover your ears, dry your heart.

Yellow scrolls and green lanterns, heavy snow and majestic, 800 years, only for longevity.

Take Qingluan.

[Hoarse narration]: Life is only a hundred years long, can you accompany me to get drunk for [-] games?In exchange for the next life, you and I will make greengage around the bed and hold our hearts and livers.

The organs are exhausted, the intrigues are intriguing, and the power is overwhelming.

Prosperity and wealth, iron-blooded soldiers and horses, reached the pinnacle, and built the Tongque Terrace.

But the history books are tens of hundreds of words.

I am willing.

[Voice of narration is sad]: Wahaha, I, Cao Mengde, is a traitor of Qingping, a hero of troubled times, this life is enough.Suppose there is no one alone in the world, and I don’t know how many people will be called emperors and how many people will be called kings!Alas, Big and Little Joe, I would like to exchange Jiang Shan for it.

The natal Tai Sui is a demon.

Pipa and zither, little ghosts from all over the world, respect my Eight Great Kings!
The rivers and lakes are chaotic.

[Narration tone Xiao Suo]: In this life, I only wish that when I attain Bodhi in the next life, my heart will be like glass.There is no need to be unmoved by the eight winds, and there is no need to have a heart like a rock. Keep a part or two of the Buddha's mind and become the White Elephant Bodhisattva after thousands of years. I beg you to be warm.

The fragrance will last forever, and the stench will last forever.

The country is beautiful, but it is no match for cinnabar.

Poetry can be made in seven steps, and it takes eight fights.

Shoot all over the railing.

Flying camp bulls fighting ants, talking about emptiness is not as good as talking about ghosts.

Don't regret it.

[Voice aside]: Xiaosheng Cao Zijian, dare to ask the girl's name, can a song "Luo Shen Fu" give you a touch of red makeup?
Tilt the crown upside down and hold "Huang Ting".

Walking through the wilderness with a book and a sword, walking in the peach blossom garden with songs.

The old man in Beihai held a bamboo pole and waited half his life to catch big whales.

in the end,
On Huangquan Road, on the Naluo Bridge, call the lady by her name.

In the next life, I will peel oranges for you.

[The narration is sad and desolate]: Who and who can live happily ever after?
One song finished.

Zhao Jiadi said softly: "It doesn't sound good, does it?"

Li Qinghu's eyes were red again.

"Still don't want to live?" Zhao Jiadi asked.

She shook her head and whispered, "Only a little bit."

Zhao Jia first took Li Qinghu's hand, walked up the steps, and stuffed her into the passenger seat. Then he got in the car and started the sports car. The car moved backwards suddenly, and the tires rubbed against the ground violently.

The front of the car pointed directly at the Yangtze River.

Li Qinghu's face flushed sickly, and he bit his lip.

Zhao Jiadi said flatly: "It's not easy to want to die. Fucking is only living."

Li Qinghu's body trembled, and he said with a crying voice: "Do you dare to rush down like this?"

Zhao Jiadi, who usually wears his seat belt honestly when driving, did not this time, the car was ready to go, Zhao Jiadi smiled, did not speak, and rushed out of the car with excellent performance.

Out of the river.

Instantly vacated.

The river is rushing.

At that moment, the pictures in Li Qinghu's mind were fleeting.

Zhao Jiadi picked her up and jumped out of the car.

The two fell heavily on the last step, only one foot away from the river. Zhao Jiadi's feet were already in the river, and he fell back to the ground without saying a word. Li Qinghu sat on him.

Li Qinghu turned his head to look at the river, where there was no trace of the car, and then turned his head to look at the man with a resolute expression. He was also crying, but smiling.

Li Qinghu, who had been paranoid to the point of being unreasonable and unreasonable, finally burst into tears.

Zhao Jiadi hugged her and said softly, "Don't cry."

She hugged Zhao Jiadi's neck tightly, crying her heart out, sobbing and asking, "Why? Why are you foolish enough to stay with me?"

Zhao Jiadi hugged this stubborn girl tightly, and said in a slightly hoarse but warm voice: "Because I know that you are self-willed and maybe a little ignorant, but you are actually very kind, very good children. "

(End of this chapter)