Qimen Dunjia

Chapter 20 Tears

Sang Ya received the admission notice: Beijing University of Traditional Chinese Medicine.

Zhu Xi called, and there was a cry in his voice.

Zhu Xi said: "I'm done..."
Sangya asked: "Failed?"
Zhu Xi said: "I know I can't pass the exam. But my family will give me money to send me to college. I told them that I'm going to Beijing, and they have already worked it out. I'm not talking about this, I'm saying...she doesn't Take care of me."
Sangya asked, "Pari?"
Zhu Xi said, "Yes."
Sang Ya said: "It's really worthless, you can't even handle a Pari! How is her college entrance examination this time?"
Zhu Xi said, "It seems to be Beijing Normal University."
Sang Ya said: "You have to remember that girls come by conquest, not by begging. You should neglect her for a while first, and don't be too proactive. Let's talk about it after school starts, and I will help you."
Zhu Xi said: "I listen to you."
When my mother came home, her face was no longer serious for the first time, she smiled extremely brightly, and the wrinkles on her face seemed to disappear all at once.

She said: "Sangya, tonight my mother has chosen a big hotel and will take you there to celebrate!"
Sang Ya said: "Mom, how much will it cost? Our family is not rich. Let's eat at home, and I will cook."
My mother said: "No! No matter how difficult it is, I have to be extravagant today. In the past 12 years, my mother did not worry in vain!"
Sang Ya said: "Ten years. You forgot, I skipped two grades in elementary school."
Mom carefully took out a stack of things from her pocket, wrapped in newspaper on the outside, and a kraft paper envelope inside, and inside the envelope were hundred-dollar bills, which were thick.This surprised Sangya. In her memory, her mother was always frugal, and there was always change in her pocket.The money in the envelope is almost her annual salary!

Mom said: "Sangya, you can eat whatever you want today, don't worry about money!"
Sang Ya had a sore nose and said, "Mom, let's eat at the Chengdu restaurant downstairs."
Mom said: "How can I do it? Mom is rich."
Sangya said: "Mom, if you want to make me happy, you can listen to me."
Sure enough, the mother and daughter, who depended on each other for life, completed their celebration in a simple small restaurant.Mom drank too much, she kept saying: "Mom is happy today..." The mother and daughter spent a total of 62 yuan.

On the same night, at a nightclub called "Mansion No. 6", Zhu Xi's father invited some business friends to celebrate his son's upcoming independent journey to study in Beijing.There is another content - to celebrate Zhu Xi's adulthood.Zhu Xi just celebrated her birthday.

On this day, Zhu Xi's father personally chose two girls to accompany his son, saying: "This is to let you get in touch with society." He knew that his son had lost his love, and his son has been sluggish these days.

Everyone drank and sang until late at night.Zhu Xi's father spent a total of 4000 yuan.

The day before going to Beijing for school, Sangya was both excited and nervous.Because she was going to see Lou Xiaolou.

Like writing a novel, she repeatedly imagined the scene when she and Lou Xiaolou met for the first time, each time her imagination was different.

Originally, my mother had already asked for leave, and she must send Sangya to Beijing.Sangya refused to let her go.She said, "Mom, you trust me, it's fine."
My mother said: "From tomorrow onwards, you will face everything alone. You must always be cautious and careful everywhere. If you don't pay attention, it may lead to mistakes that will make you regret for life. Don't trust strangers. When it gets dark, you will Go back to school. Never take drugs. Control your desires and don’t give yourself to any man easily. You must have a strong heart and the belief that you will never give in. After you have gone a long way, remember to look back. Don't underestimate a penny. When you are short of money, call your mother..."
As we spoke, my mother's eyes became wet.

Sang Ya said, "Mom, it's like parting from life and death when you're doing this!"
Mom wanted to buy a sleeper ticket for Sangya, but Sangya didn't agree, so she went to the train station to buy a hard seat ticket by herself.My mother packed her luggage at home and packed two big bags of things, including books, clothes, kimchi—cowpea, tender ginger, sea pepper, garlic, and dried pickles—dried radish, festival vegetables, wheat sauce ,fermented bean curd.

In the afternoon, her mother took her to the prison to visit her father.

Dad, still in his gray prison uniform, seemed suddenly much older.

When he learned that Sang Ya had passed the test in Beijing, his eyes suddenly shot surprise, and then he seemed a little at a loss: "I knew it, I knew it, my daughter can do it!" Then he turned his eyes to his wife, Said: "Thank you, thank you..." Then turned to Sangya: "Thank you..."
Sang Ya said: "Dad, I will visit you less often in the future, take care of yourself."
Dad said: "Dad will be released from prison in more than a year, soon. After he is released from prison, I will go to Beijing to see you!"
When Sang Ya left, she felt eyes on her spine again.She turned her head and saw her father looking at her sadly, with tears streaming down her scorched cheeks.

This is the first time Sangya saw her father cry.

When Dad saw her turn her head, he gave her a flustered smile, then turned around hastily.

After walking out of the prison, Sangya and her mother went to the end of the small street to take the bus.On both sides are endless fields.

Sangya said: "Mom, wait for me, I'll go pick some flowers."
Mom said: "It's too late, let's go."
Sangya said, "I'll be back soon."
After she walked into the field, she sat on the grass, facing the wind, tears streaming down her face.She had a bad premonition, as if she left her father this time, she and her father would never see each other again.

The field is full of clusters of bright wild red roses.The flowers swayed slightly towards her.

Inexplicably, she thought of a line - look up and see the red rose, and you will not shed tears for the rest of your life.

Back in the city, Sangya and her mother went directly to the market to buy vegetables.

When she got home, Sangya saw Tiaotiao crouching in the corner, staring at the air, her eyes rolling around, not knowing what it was looking at, it was so serious.

After dinner, it was dark.After Sang Ya lay down, her mother came in and lay down next to Sang Ya.The mother and daughter chatted in the dark until midnight.

Sangya grew up by her mother's side until she was 16 years old. This is the first time she is about to leave her mother for a long journey.In the past, in her heart, her mother was a monotonous and authoritarian person, and it was difficult for her to get close to her emotionally.Now, she suddenly felt the love of her mother.

Finally, my mother said: "Tomorrow you have to take the car, go to sleep for a while, mother is gone."
Sang Ya said: "Mom, you are tired too, go to bed early."
Mom tucked up the blanket for Sangya and walked out gently.

Sang Ya is the only one left in her bedroom.

It was impossible for her to fall asleep, and she continued to imagine the scene of her meeting Lou Xiaolou——

Dusk, sunset, a spacious meadow full of red roses.She was wearing a white dress and walked towards him slowly.He was already sitting on the grass waiting for her.

Sangya smiled and said, "Am I late?"
Lou Xiaolou hurriedly shook his head and said, "I'm here early."
So she sat beside him.He smelled like Lysol...

In the evening, a very quiet bar.Several waiters are more elegant than one.This time she was waiting for him.The color of the bar is dark red, so she wears a black T-shirt; the color of the bar is dark green, so she wears an off-white T-shirt.he came.

She smiled and said, "Have I arrived early?"
He shook his head hastily and said, "I'm late."
Then, he sat beside her.He smelled like Lysol...

She sat up slowly.

Lysol flavor.

She smelled that Lysol again!
Realizing this, she sat up instantly and turned on the light.

She looked carefully at every corner of the bedroom, not knowing where he existed.However, she had a premonition—today was her last night in her hometown, and he was about to appear!
Finally, her eyes fell on the dressing table—a piece of paper appeared on it.It should have been torn from one of her notebooks, she recognized the pattern.But she never tore up that book.

Facing the piece of paper, she suddenly said: "I know you are in my room, what do you want to say, go ahead."
In the middle of the night, she actually said such words, and she was terrified by her murmurs.

After a while, writing appeared on that piece of paper!

There is no pen, but the sound of the pen tip scratching the paper can be heard.

Her heart tightened suddenly, and she paid attention to the words on it, which read: Do not go to Beijing.

"Why?" she asked nervously.
The invisible pen wrote another line: Never go to Beijing.

Sang Ya pressed her chest, suppressed her heartbeat, and said, "I don't know if you are a human or a ghost, but let me tell you, this is impossible."
Another line appeared on the paper: Listen to me, don't go to Beijing.

Sang Ya said: "I will not change. Even if there are mountains of swords and seas of fire ahead, I will go. Please leave now."
There is no more writing on the paper.

After a long time, two drops of water fell on the paper, blurring the writing in the pen.

Sang Ya thought about it, and suddenly realized that it was tears.

(End of this chapter)