just passing by you

Chapter 16

The love between her and Chen was discussed by almost everyone.Her friends all said she was stupid, for such a man who didn't have much savings, didn't have much improvement in his job, and had an ordinary appearance, was it worth it to abandon her husband and daughter?She explained to people many times, saying that he is actually such an excellent man, and that they really love each other, he is willing to divorce for her, and of course she is willing to lose all the stability and prosperity of the world for him.In this way, amidst the noise of her parents and the accusations of outsiders, she and Chen left the small town and flew to the distant Hainan to find a peaceful harbor for this love.

It was only when she went that she realized she was wrong.She didn't know what was wrong, but she just felt that when this love burned to maturity, it didn't seem to be as peaceful and beautiful as imagined.At least, when the strong love receded like a sea tide, what was left on the beach were just scattered seaweed and shrimps, not the shiny shells she wanted.

They began to run around in this strange city in order to make a living.Both of them were busy with work, so it was difficult to have the leisure and elegance of the past, drinking a cup of fragrant green tea at the table.In the evening, the footwashing water was soaked separately and poured out separately.When I went out in the morning to catch the bus, not only did I not hug, but even a goodbye, sometimes omitted; and the clumsy man in the past had to tell her every day, "Be careful on the road" before leaving. .She repeatedly warned herself not to take it seriously. Compared with the previous marriage, no matter what, they married desperately because they were burned by love.So whether they are in the fire of love, whether they are refined into gold or a pile of scrap iron, she should not regret it.

But life still scattered the broken and dark debris around her in a dusty way after it shone brightly.He didn't have any skills, and he couldn't find a formal job, so he had to do casual work, waiting for the boss's order to dismiss him at any time.The salaries of the two people, after renting out the house, have a small amount left, and they have to allocate two shares to send to their children.The old man, on the other hand, couldn't care less.Many times, when she saw old people walking with their children on the street, she always felt guilty, and then thought, if she hadn’t divorced, she would be at home, cooking a pot of white fungus porridge for her husband and daughter, Or eat dumplings with your parents?When this thought popped up for the first time, she was taken aback; but when it popped up frequently, she finally understood a fact that she had always refused to admit in the past: she really regretted it.

But what's the use of regretting?The man who tolerated her so much, the man who used to cook and wash for her every day, the man who was so clumsy that he could only express his love with actions, the man who used to stay up late writing in exchange for royalties in order to buy her a piece of clothing, was once In front of her parents, the man who burst into tears now has a wife who really understands him.She can't go back at all.

She finally understands that what blooms brilliantly in mid-air is love; what flows thinly underground is also love; but she has forgotten that only the long-lasting love can warm the long and lonely journey.

give up.

She and Xiaoci have been playmates since childhood.Even if you are working, you have to see each other every three or two days, otherwise, the two hearts will always feel lonely and difficult.If there is any good thing, it will be shared with the other party without hesitation.Even if you have a boyfriend, you must let the other have a look and say a word of yes or no, so that you can feel at ease with each other.

But alone, when Xiaoci brought Wenkang and asked her to appraise and make a decision, she stared blankly at the opposite Wenkang who almost saw her in her heart at the first glance, and was so stupid that she forgot that as usual, in the In the warm palm stretched out from the small word under the table, write the word "yes" or "no".When he came back to his senses, Xiao Ci's hand had already retracted, and he tightly held Wen Kang's hand on the table.

At that meal, the three of them ate a little embarrassingly.She never expected that the miracle of love at first sight would appear in her life.But she never thought that it not only came, but also used such a unique way, casually, to torture her.Knowing clearly that this is the lover who has been missed and can no longer be found, but is blocked by another pair of eyes, and dare not go to recognize each other.Or even just say hello and say "hello" lightly.

She was not sure how much Xiaoci could perceive her thoughts.But it is clear that Xiaoci is serious about Wenkang, and there is a kind of exaggeration, or enthusiasm and madness to prove something to someone.Once, Xiaoci even put his arms around Wenkang's neck in front of her and said: Akang, I don't want anything for you.Wenkang silently glanced at her meaningfully through Xiaoci, and said half-jokingly: Then what about the good sister behind you?Do you also have the heart to lose it?Xiaoci was not like before, she turned around delicately, hugged her tightly as if she was afraid that she would fly away, and said some sweet words that melted her heart.She didn't seem to hear such a sentence, she leaned in Wenkang's arms, closed her eyes happily, and didn't speak for a long time.Let her be behind, my heart will slowly cool down.

But Xiaoci did not neglect her friend because of this.Still looking for her to play every day, of course with Wenkang.Many times, Xiaoci volunteered to go long distances to buy the sugar-fried chestnuts that both she and Wenkang loved to eat, leaving her alone with him, sipping the green tea in the transparent cup one after another.His face was reflected on the terrazzo coffee table, and his eyes were looking towards her.The voice is many times softer than when Xiaoci was there.But they didn't say anything that made each other's ears warm.It's like, the little words are still caught in the middle, separating her and his hearts extremely far.

But one time, when Xiaoci was not around, he asked her in a panic, why she refused to fall in love?She looked at his nervous eyes reflected on the table, and answered in a low voice but very clearly, in fact, there is someone she likes, but she doesn't dare to hope that such a love will belong to her... Before she finished speaking, he said Hastily took over: why?As long as you are willing to ask him for it, he will give you this love with all his heart.She finally raised her head and looked at him for the first time for such a long time.His eyes were filled with the longing, encouragement and affection she yearned for.But when he was about to reach out with a hand, she quickly stood up and went to the water dispenser to get water.After pressing the faucet for a long time, I heard him say that there was no water, so I suddenly came back to my senses, looked at the empty water dispenser, turned my back to him, and burst into tears.

Shortly after this time, Xiaoci and Wenkang set a date for their marriage.The bridesmaid, of course she is irresistible.According to the local customs, the bridesmaids will do everything possible to "difficult" the groom on the night when the groom comes to pick up the bride, in order to let him understand that the bride is not so easy, so let him marry and go home.That night, she blocked the door abruptly, raised her eyebrows to Wen Kang, who had the festive word "groom" on his chest, and asked, "Do you know what the bride's favorite meal is, what clothes she wears, and what she says?" talk.He looked down at her with a provocative and gunpowder-like face, and said slowly in front of many people: The bride, like you, loves fried rice with eggs; like you, she loves to wear cotton skirts; like you, she likes to say the opposite if.It’s just that the bride’s food tastes heavy, but yours is bland; the bride’s cotton skirt likes to match crystal-colored sandals, but you wear white sneakers;

Her heart hurts badly.There are so many weird questions prepared, but amid the laughter of the people around me, I can no longer say them.She squeezed out a smile and said to him: I will give you the little words, you must love her well; this sentence is the truth.He also smiled slightly and said: I know.

In a flash, she watched him step into the door and marry her and him amidst the clamor of "can't let him go so easily", and refused to hurt the little words.

Reluctant to part with each other, in the 27 years she and Xiaoci have walked together, there have been countless times.However, there is no such thing again, which made her suffer so thoroughly, and it is also so unforgettable.But in such pain, she will still gently put the little words of love and happiness back in her heart to its original position, allowing her to live in her heart forever and with peace of mind.

(End of this chapter)