Xiangmen Concubine: The Emperor's Abandoned Concubine

Chapter 758 A person's life forever (6)

In the past, I liked waiting very much, because while waiting, my new life will be very quiet, peaceful, and I can close my eyes, connect all things one by one, and guess one by one...

But since I got married to Shang Mian, the thing I dislike the most is also waiting.Especially after she became Princess Jiuyou, even though I forced myself to calm down every day, I told myself that if I can't bear it, it will lead to chaos.

But after all, people are still going to Jiuyou Palace to inquire about the news day by day.Want to know everything about her, want to know every bit of her.

But looking at the news brought back by the dark guards, the anger rising in my heart almost gushed out.

Hehe, how could I forget that she is now Princess Jiuyou.Feng Jiuyou made out with her, and it was only natural for Feng Jiuyou to want her.Before, I was very indifferent to the affairs of men and women, and I didn't care much about anyone.Master said back then that it was because he had never encountered it before.

Only when you meet it can you experience that feeling, and you will know that there is a kind of pain in this world, which is borne in your heart, and you can't resolve it, and you can't let it go. You can only torture yourself.

And I clearly know that it is a kind of torture, but I am still unwilling to let go.

Thinking about myself now, and thinking about what Master said back then, I couldn't help laughing.

It is true that I never met it back then. It turns out that liking someone, falling in love with someone, and getting too much happiness will be a hundred times a thousand times more painful after losing it.

That kind of pain lingers in my heart, even if I deliberately don't touch it, it will always come back in my dreams at midnight, making people sleepless and depressed...

Just like me, knowing that Mianmian is now Feng Jiuyou's wife, knowing that Feng Jiuyou will make out with her, and knowing that avoiding her is the best, but I still can't help it, I want to get closer to her, I want to know her past good or not?

She doesn't love Feng Jiuyou, and even hates Feng Jiuyou.

One is Feng Jiuyou's identity, the other is Feng Jiuyou's character
In order to keep what the emperor promised Concubine Mei back then, Feng Jiuyou would never give up.And Mianmian seems indifferent, but in fact he is extremely active in his heart, hoping to travel freely among the three mountains and five mountains.

It is a sea that sticks to the sky, and it is a direct distance for a bird that wants to fly out of the sky and explore the world beyond the sky. Perhaps thousands of mountains and rivers cannot cross it.

What's more, Feng Jiuyou's harm to Mian Mian was so deep.

I knew Mianmian was unwilling, but Feng Jiuyou forced me again and again, and my blood was boiling.I put myself in the study, and at the same time let the original painting seal my inner strength.

I am afraid that I will be impulsive and do things that destroy my plan.But he was not reconciled, and didn't want to miss any news about Mianmian.Looking at the messages about her being bullied by Feng Jiuyou, my throat felt hot and I spat out a mouthful of blood.

Yuan Hua was shocked and hurried to ask for a doctor.

During that period of illness, I was always groggy and confused.Occasionally, what flashes across my mind is the scene of me and Mianmian in the small courtyard.On such a leisurely and elegant day, the woman who accompanied me with a gentle smile was so close, so close...

New Year's Eve finally came, and I finally saw Mianmian again.She stood beside Feng Jiuyou, wearing a veil, covering her astonished face.After taking a look, I looked away.

I'm the No.1 who saw her true face, and I'm also the No.1 who she really thought of, but between us... Thinking of this, I feel blocked.Don't look at the two people who came hand in hand.

The queen mother wanted to give her a marriage, and the woman was Gu Qingyun's youngest daughter, Gu Qing'er.Nothing to look at, nothing to think about.With the current court situation alone, I know why the Queen Mother wants me to marry Gu Qing'er.

Gu Qingyun now holds a heavy army in his hands, and with him in power, his wolfish ambitions are gradually revealed.And as the prince's son of Nanjun, if Gu Qingyun had a different heart, he would naturally want to win us over from Nanjun.

The empress dowager bestowed the marriage just to test it out.Gu Qingyun nodded happily, and I noticed a gleam of light in the Queen Mother's eyes.

Do you think that if Gu Ruoying is favored, the Gu family can cover the sky with one hand?Looking at Gu Qingyun's vigorous smile, I sneered in my heart.With love in my heart, how could I tolerate other women?
What's more, my mind is not in this court at all?What Gu Qingyun wants, he can fight for by himself.In this country, in this court, the winner has always been the king and the loser has always been the bandit.

But as long as the father is there, as long as Nanjun is there, as long as the Feng family is the royal family, his Gu family is doomed to be delusional...

Who Gu Qing'er is, I don't know.But at today's dinner party, the person I want to marry, if not her, will not be anyone else.When I saw Mian Mian, I saw the cold look in her eyes.

At that moment, my heart was half cold.

I know that she may have begun to hate me.

At this time, she must know that I approached her, and later said that I wanted to marry her, only because of a secret door.I don't deny that it was true at the beginning, but later, I worked hard, and the only one I wanted to keep was her.

I will not destroy the secret door, and I know that the emperor will not destroy the secret door.The emperor issued an order to require all members of Gina's secret door, but privately said that he hoped to be able to recruit.

The existence of the secret door, if it is an individual organization, is a threat to the imperial court.If it is a secret force of the imperial court, it will be like a tiger with wings added to the imperial court.

Many things, as the emperor, above the court, can't be done at all.But if there is a secret door that retreats behind the scenes, or the secret door that corrupt officials fear, many things will be done with half the effort.

For me, the secret door is the mission.For Mianmian, the secret door is her life's painstaking effort and the responsibility her master gave her.

From the beginning to the end, there was this secret door between me and her.

He thought about telling her everything after Li Daitao was replaced, but Feng Jiuyou took the lead.And now, no matter what I say, she probably won't believe it anymore.

Sitting at the banquet, I picked up the wine glass, drank the wine in the glass, stood up respectfully, and rejected the marriage offer from the emperor and queen mother.I followed my own mind and ignored any responsibilities, such as Nanjun.

In this life, I just want to marry the woman I love in my heart.

Mianmian, I promise you, I hope to win the heart of one person, and the white head will never be separated.

Standing in the hall, I said twice before and after that I would like to win the heart of one person, and the white head will not be separated.When I said this sentence last time, I followed my own mind.I looked at you with a smile, helped you up from the ground, saw your shock and couldn't believe it, and then saw the gratitude and tenderness in your eyes...

This time, I dare not look into your eyes.

I have seen the indifference and coldness in your eyes once, and I don't dare to look at it again.

I never knew that there would be a day when I was so afraid. What I was afraid of was a woman's rejection, indifference and alienation...

At the New Year's Eve dinner, I watched the cups and cups criss-cross in the hall, and I drank in front of the shadow.I deliberately ignored everything around me, and ignored any news about you.

But I didn't know at that time that the pain at that time was not my end.

At that time, I didn't know that it was better to never get it than to lose it after getting it.Because you never get it, you don't care about losing it.

But the kind of pain that was once obtained, but lost...

I don't know when I went back to Shizi's mansion with my father, but I just remember that the original painting kept saying in my ear, Shizi, Shizi, it's here...

I thought, where is it, is it the small courtyard where we used to be together?
I woke up from the dream with a smile and sadness, and the small courtyard turned into a sea of ​​flames. Where is the small courtyard we used to have?

(End of this chapter)