Violent school girl is cute

Chapter 101 What has changed in five years?
Memories are like a black and white silent movie, which starts quietly and ends quietly.There is no music, no protagonists, and no dialogue.Nothing at all.

Yun Xizhao didn't speak any more.She doesn't know how many secrets are hidden in her slightly cold heart.Since the three terrible voice messages five years ago, she has experienced a nightmare that has been repeated in her mind and can't go away.Li Qiangwei's death seemed to take everything away, and she could never return to her side.There is no joy, no peace.

There is only blackness, only the roars, frenzy, screams over and over again, and the despair that resounds in my mind.

They couldn't escape their involvement in Li Qiangwei's death.

This is a shocking nightmare that will never wake up, and it is constantly being staged in front of her eyes.Some memories are burned, and some memories are buried in the bottom of my heart. Which ones should be preserved and which ones should be deleted?After so many years, she, a fool, still can't make up her mind.Therefore, you can only choose to escape.

Yun Xizhao smiled wryly.

After all, she is not a strong person, she will be tired and escape.Maybe sometimes I'm just a coward, unwilling to face the bloody truth, so I hide in my own world and don't want to wake up.

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The night fell without warning, and the dots of light in the sky shone slightly above the head.The cool night wind blows away the clouds floating in the night sky.

Yun Xizhao walked slowly on the way home, with her head lowered, thinking quietly.

The conversation with Cai Xiaoxiao this afternoon has made her a little tired.Now, she really wants to go home early, lie on the bed that really belongs to her, and have a good sleep.The breeze blew gently, and her long hair flew into the air together with the long skirt.

In the darkness of night, there is a thin figure hidden in the shadow of swaying leaves, looming.Under the dim streetlight not far away, a slender figure was leaning quietly against the lamppost, motionless.The silence is like a stubborn stone, stationed there, as if it has not moved for centuries.

It wasn't until the sound of rustling footsteps was heard that the figure trembled slightly.

When Yun Xizhao raised her head inadvertently, she happened to meet that person's gaze.

The night is as cool as water, and the surroundings are quiet.

The skin around Yun Xizhao's lips moved slightly, as if she was about to blurt out something, but she swallowed it forcefully.

Ouyang Liang, who was ten meters away, turned around and looked straight at her, regardless of her avoiding eyes.

long time no see.

Ah Liang.

She looked at him quietly, her eyes were watery.

Cai Xiaoxiao still told him the news of her return to China.

I haven't seen him for five years. He seems to have grown a lot taller. He looks taller and handsome than before. Even his expression has lost the noble and cheerful atmosphere before, and has become calmer and more manly.The meeting that she originally wanted to delay as long as possible was suddenly placed in front of her, and she suddenly felt a little panic.What should I say?

"Okay night?Or, "How are you?"
Yun Xi's shining eyes were fixed on his tall figure, her lips were trembling, but she couldn't say anything.

"Sunset."

The atmosphere of silence between the two was broken by his low call, and that call, in her ears, actually gave her a sense of comfort after being tired and relaxed.

Yun Xizhao took a deep breath, trying to keep her voice steady and not trembling: "...Long time no see, do you want to sit up?"

"it is good."

He followed her into the yard of Yun's house and walked all the way to the dark gate.

A house that has not been lived in for many years, even the street lights in the corridor are broken and no one repairs it.At the door of the dark room, Ouyang Liang heard the sound of her pulling the key out of her bag, and then the sound of fumbling to open the door.

"Xizhao, give me the key, and I will open it for you."

"No need, I'm right on the keyhole." Yun Xizhao softly refused, without stopping her movements.

He paused, a trace of sadness flashed across his heart.

Between them, there is only politeness left.

With the sound of "Kala", the door lock was unlocked, and Yun Xizhao pushed the door open with both hands, not forgetting to greet him: "Come in."

However, immediately, the surroundings became silent.Because, after Ouyang Liang followed her in, he habitually reached out to touch the light switch on the wall, but unexpectedly, her slender palm also stayed on the switch.His big hand covered the back of her hand, and the scorching temperature of his palm was transmitted to her with the contact of skin.She didn't withdraw her hand, and neither did he.

The light breath of the two echoed in the empty room.

With such a close contact, Ouyang Liang stood behind Yun Xizhao, and even smelled the faint fragrance from her beautiful hair.There was a trace of suffocation in his throat, and he clenched the corners of his mouth.It's been a long, long time since I really touched her existence.Even in a dream before, he has never felt it as accurately as today... If this is really a dream, he would rather not wake up for the rest of his life.

But happiness is often so short-lived. After a few seconds, the tiny fingers under the palm move, and the room is suddenly brightened.

Yun Xizhao withdrew her hand, with an imperceptible flush on her face, and said softly, "...you sit down first, what do you want to drink? I have only returned to China not long ago, and there is no food prepared at home."

Ouyang Liang didn't answer, his eyes looked around the furnishings in the room.

This is the home she has lived in for 17 years. The TV on the small counter, the cushions under the rectangular dining table, the Western paintings on the wall, and even the small decorations on the coffee table seem to have retained her past. The beautiful image is preserved here intact.He couldn't help reaching out to caress a thin scratch on the wooden shoe cabinet, the choking in his heart was like a fishbone, making him unable to breathe.

Yun Xizhao glanced at him, then quickly turned away.

The sadness and nostalgia unconsciously revealed in Ouyang Liang's eyes hurt her deeply.She pretended not to see his movements, dodged her eyes, and put the slippers at the door, "Senior Ouyang, let me bring you some juice."

Senior Ouyang?

She still called him Senior Ouyang!
Ouyang Liang's body stiffened instantly when he heard this distant address, and the emotion that was shining on his face disappeared instantly. He stared at her blankly: "Xizhao, can you call me 'A Liang'?"

Yun Xizhao turned her back to him, her eyes seemed to have wet liquid swirling around, she calmed herself down, and said to him, "...how about drinking juice? I'll bring you the fresh oranges I bought this morning. , I’ve made the sherbet and put it in the fridge.”

Suddenly, Ouyang Liang stretched out his hand to grab her arm: "I have so many things I want to tell you, Xi Zhao."

Yun Xizhao sighed deeply: "If it's not convenient for you to stay for a cup of tea, so be it. It's very late today, senior Ouyang should go home early. It's not convenient for us to be alone in the same room ,"

Ouyang Liang's body trembled slightly, and there was a hint of frustration in his tone: "...well, I'll sit down for a while after drinking the juice, and I want a big glass."

Yun Xizhao didn't look back, and walked inside with her eyes downcast, but her arms were still tightly held.She struggled a bit, and the throbbing in her heart came up involuntarily, and she said coldly: "Senior Ouyang, please let me go!"

"Why are you doing this to me?" Ouyang Liang asked in a low voice.

Her thin figure swayed, and then stood up straight: "... I don't want to mention the past. I have nothing to do with you, and it is easy to misunderstand if I say such a thing."

"Why? You tell me the reason! Xizhao, you never contacted me after you went to the United States, why? You are stingy with giving me even the slightest nostalgia?" His voice began to tremble, and the painful depression finally broke out.

"I said I don't want to mention it again, didn't you hear?" Yun Xizhao turned around, with deep stubbornness in her eyes.

"..."

From the beginning to the end, the road we walked side by side gradually began to blur.I used to think that what I gave you was the best, but gradually I realized that everything was just wishful thinking.

Ouyang Liang clenched his fists, and the veins on the back of his hands bulged, "...Since this is the case, then I'll go first, and you have a good rest." After saying these words, he turned and opened the door of the living room, paused, and opened his hands. Holding on to the door frame.Quietly, half a minute passed, and his still body finally moved out.

...No, there is no sound at all.

Damn it, he really wanted to hear her voice, thinking heartbreakingly.Don't you even give some polite words of retention, or even a "goodbye"?
There is no turning back.

Ouyang Liang's proud self-esteem started to play tricks again, he obviously wanted to stay that way, he obviously had a lot to say and ask, but he couldn't do anything.

The door slowly closed behind him, making an old "squeak" sound.

He stood in the dark corridor, his mind blank.

How ridiculous, Xizhao!Why did it take so long to meet you, and it turned out to be such a result?If Cai Xiaoxiao hadn't cried and called him in private, she might, really, never want to see him again.The pain in his heart spread all over his body in an instant, he leaned against the wall and squatted down, holding his heavy head with his hands.

Five years, Xizhao, five years, do you know how I survived?
Every night there are continuous nightmares, and every time, I see Qiangwei's unwilling eyes floating in the air, but the curse of "we will never meet again" lingers in her ears.

The deep-seated longing that permeates wantonly seems to have been stationed in the bottom of my heart, and I can't forget it or shake it off.

This is my sorrow, the price of such pain in exchange for the lies at the beginning.Haven't you been able to forgive until now?Or, never forgive?
On the other side of the door, the indoor lights were bright, Yun Xizhao stood quietly by the door, her thin arms wrapped around her waist.There was a blur in front of my eyes, and Ouyang Liang's sad voice seemed to echo in my ears: "Can you call me 'A Liang'?"

Tears filled the eyes again, and then dripped down the fair face.

No sobbing, no sobbing, over the years, I have long been used to crying alone.

But why does my heart still hurt so much?
……

Ah Liang, really, we really can't go back.

That was the case five years ago, and it is still the case now.

What has changed in five years?
It's you, it's me, it's everything.

(End of this chapter)