Gu Xijue's "Warm Love" Collection

Chapter 54 I'm always by your side (21)
we can't go back
On the second day after Yuanyuan became a "married woman", Wang Yue saw her, looked her up and down, and read a sentence: "When you come back from victory, you will be full of joy and smile, and you will be full of spirits. Full of spring breeze."

Yuan Yuan replied, "Young lady has good eyesight."

After get off work, Yuanyuan took the bus to Cheng's house and delivered the clothes she bought for Uncle Shenghua last time she went shopping.By the time she got off the bus, it was already dark.The neighborhood where Cheng's family lives is in a good environment, and it's very quiet at night. The only thing Yuanyuan is dissatisfied with is that in such an upscale neighborhood, the street lights are very dim and far apart. Fortunately, the moonlight is good tonight.Yuanyuan raised her head, glanced at the crescent moon exposed among the branches and leaves, and couldn't help saying "the head of the willow on the moon".When she was almost at the door of Cheng's house, she suddenly stopped because there was a man and a woman standing under the tree in front of her.That man is not Cheng Bai.

It's really "after the evening of the appointment", Yuanyuan thought in his heart, and thought that if it passed by this time, it would definitely disturb them, so he hid sideways behind a tree.Yuanyuan felt that she was really reasonable, "Cheng Bai, you should be content with a sister like me."

There was a faint female voice, it turned out that the girl was expressing her love for Cheng Bai.What did the two say after that, Yuanyuan couldn't hear clearly.

The night suddenly became much darker. Yuan Yuan looked at the sky, and it turned out that the moon was hidden by the clouds.After a while, Yuanyuan couldn't hear any sound, she poked her head out, and saw that the girl had left, and Cheng Bai had disappeared.

"what?"

In the next second, she heard a familiar voice as cold as the moonlight coming from not far from her right: "How long are you going to hide?"

Yuan Yuan was startled, turned her head and saw Cheng Bai looking at her upright.So Yuanyuan bent down and picked a small wild flower.

"I didn't hide, I picked flowers."

Yuanyuan was the first to walk towards the gate of Cheng's house.Cheng Bai watched her walk into the courtyard, street lamps and moonlight shrouded her dimly, he suddenly wanted to freeze time.

Cheng Shenghua was not there, and Aunt Zhu was nowhere to be seen, presumably she had asked for leave or left beforehand.Yuanyuan put down his things and didn't leave much behind.When she was about to go out, she saw Cheng Bai coming in, and she got out of the way first, but the other party didn't speak, so she still whispered: "I'm going back."

As soon as Yuanyuan stepped out of Cheng's house, she heard the person behind her ask her, "Do you... still like me?"

She turned her head in a daze, looked at the person one meter away, and couldn't say a word for a while.

Cheng Bai frowned, as if he didn't know how to express, "Do you want to stay with me?" He asked again.

Yuanyuan's face was full of surprise, "You..."

"I know exactly what I'm talking about." He said this with a hint of self-deprecation-it's really no one's fault today.

Yuanyuan looked at him for a while, and finally sighed: "It doesn't matter if you're kidding me or you're serious—I'm sorry." After Yuanyuan finished speaking, she turned her head and walked away quickly.

What, what's the matter?

Yuanyuan returned to her residence, cooked a bowl of noodles for herself, and sent a text message to Fu Beichen who had been in a meeting all day while eating: Have you finished the meeting?
Fu Beichen came back quickly: Soon.

Yuan Yuan wondered if he should tell him that someone confessed to her today, and that person was Cheng Bai.But I didn't say it after thinking about it, because maybe Cheng Bai was just teasing her. Looking back on the past, his words really have no credibility.Although she wanted to confess anything to Fu Beichen, let's not talk about this matter...

After a while, Fu Beichen sent another message: Gao Ling asked me to say hello to you on his behalf.

Yuan Yuan laughed, bit his chopsticks and replied: Then you can also ask Mr. Gao for me.

Fu Beichen, who was treated as a microphone, took a sip of tea from the white porcelain earcup: I still have something to do after the meeting, and I don't know when I can leave, so I won't go to you.Tomorrow weekend, have lunch together?

Yuanyuan: Good!

The next morning, Yuanyuan arrived at Xizhao Lake half an hour earlier. On the way to Wangchun Pavilion, Yuanyuan thought of the people he would meet later, and felt very kind to the grandparents, uncles and aunts who were doing morning exercises.

Suddenly a slap-like yellow leaf fell and hit Yuanyuan's head, then slipped and landed on Yuanyuan's shoulder again.She reached out to take it off, put it in front of her eyes, and remembered that he helped her brush off the fallen leaves on her shoulders at the door of her house that day...

When approaching the Wangchun Pavilion, Yuanyuan saw Fu Beichen's back from a distance.He actually arrived before her.

In the morning light, Fu Beichen stood tall and straight, blending in perfectly with the morning glow and lake light here.She walked outside the pavilion and stood still. After thinking for a while, she blocked the sycamore leaf she was pinching in her hand just now, and quietly walked behind him.Unexpectedly, before she could make a move, he turned around as if he had sensed something.

The two were very close, and there was only a fallen sycamore leaf in front of them.

"Yuanyuan." Fu Beichen opened his mouth, his breath bypassing the fallen leaves and brushing her ears.

"No, you shouldn't be able to see me." Yuanyuan stretched out his hands and rubbed his ears, smiled, then took a step back, reached out and handed the fallen leaves in front of Fu Beichen, "Here, this magic weapon is for you."

Fu Beichen took the fallen leaves, "Cicada leaf? Since you gave it to me, I will accept it." He put the fallen leaves in his pocket.

"Why did you arrive so early?"

"I came to see the sunrise. In fact, the sunrise at Xizhao Lake is more beautiful than the sunset." He paused, "And the sunrise symbolizes hope."

"Ah."

"Let's go."

"Oh." Yuanyuan wanted to hold Fu Beichen's hand, but gave up after thinking about it.But in the next second, someone grabbed her hand.She looked at him.

Fu Beichen walked without looking sideways, "I don't play underground love."

Yuanyuan smiled, and looked down at the hand he was holding.It felt like looking at the first piece of cake her father bought for her in memory, wanting to take a bite, but not willing to eat it.Now, the cake was stuffed into her mouth, she ate it, and found it was very sweet, so sweet that she was embarrassed.

"Why are you so early?" Fu Beichen asked her narrowly.

"I..." I can't say I can't sleep, Yuanyuan had an idea, "I also want to watch the sunrise, but... I slept too soundly and woke up late. I will definitely be earlier than you next time."

Fu Beichen raised his other hand and rubbed her hair, "It doesn't matter how late you sleep, I will always wait for you."

"En." Yuanyuan looked at the person in front of her, and besides being happy, she also felt that everything seemed to be going too smoothly, which inexplicably made her a little uneasy.

Walking, sitting, and strolling around Xizhao Lake for nearly two hours.Earlier, Fu Beichen asked her if she was thirsty, but Yuanyuan didn't feel it. When she saw the KFC across the road, she suddenly felt that her throat was a little dry, so she said to Fu Beichen, "I'll buy you a drink, you wait here for me Let's go!" She said as she was about to run across the road.

Unexpectedly, a battery car came out of a side alley quickly, and it was about to hit Yuanyuan. Fu Beichen stepped up quickly, grabbed her and turned back, the battery car passed him embarrassingly and speeding and go.

"How are you?!" Yuanyuan looked at Fu Beichen nervously.

Fu Beichen smiled, "I'm fine." Without waiting for her reaction, he switched sides, grabbed her tightly with his left hand, and said softly, "Let's go together."

Yuanyuan was a little worried, and tried to look to his right hand, but he gave her a rare glance, and said seriously, "Walk well."

"Oh."

After crossing the road, as soon as he reached the gate of KFC, Yuanyuan immediately broke away to see his wound.This time he didn't stop him.Because the sleeves of the khaki windbreaker he was wearing were rolled up, Yuanyuan saw several irregular cuts on his bare right arm at a glance. Those cuts were long and short, and they were all bloodshot.Not serious, but shocking to watch.

"Go to the hospital and get bandaged." If he hadn't been reckless just now, he wouldn't have been hurt. At this moment, Yuanyuan's intestines are almost green with regret.

"It's okay, a little scratch, it'll be fine soon. Okay, don't you want to buy me a drink? Go in." Fu Beichen pushed Yuanyuan into the KFC with four or two pushes.After entering, Fu Beichen went to the bathroom to wash his bruised arm, and it was considered coping.

But even though there were only some red marks visible on his arms, the tall and elegant Fu Beichen was standing in front of the counter waiting for his meal, but two waitresses asked about his arms with concern, and he politely said it was fine.And someone next to him felt even more guilty when he heard it.

Fu Beichen turned his head to look at her. In the public, the expert Fu said that he often listened to the lyrics of a song played by his colleagues during this period, but slightly modified it, "This life is only for you, and I would rather do it for you." Painting the ground is a prison, not to mention avoiding disasters."

Everyone who heard this sentence, including Yuanyuan: "..."

Fu Beichen smiled, handed her one of the two drinks he had received, and then gently squeezed her face, "Why is your face so red?"

Yuanyuan now feels that Fu Beichen is not as "serious" as everyone knows.

After dinner that day, Fu Beichen took Yuanyuan to his apartment - because he watched her yawn frequently while eating.Fu Beichen's apartment is just behind the botanical garden on the edge of Xizhao Lake.

As soon as Yuanyuan entered the door, he said with emotion: "It's so clean, much cleaner than my place."

"There is a cleaning lady to clean."

Yuanyuan suddenly asked Fu Beichen seriously: "Is your salary very high? Do you have a lot of assets?"

Because there were some materials and laptops on the sofa, Fu Beichen took her to the wicker chair on the balcony where the sun was shining, and then answered Yuanyuan's question: "No more, no less, I can support you." .”

Every word and every sentence is considerate, without any deliberation, it is natural.

Yuanyuan stabilized her disobedient heart, Fu Beichen stopped teasing her, took off the windbreaker, casually put it on the back of the wicker chair, and asked, "What do you want to drink?"

"Do you have a lot of tea here? Then drink tea."

Fu Beichen smiled and said, "Okay."

Fu Beichen brought two celadon cups, and Yuanyuan took one, "What a beautiful cup." The color is soft, with a hint of pink in the green.

"This is a celadon wishful cup."

"Oh."

Fu Beichen watched her take a sip and said, "Since you have eaten our tea, why don't you become our wife?"

This sentence is familiar to Yuanyuan, she is a fan of Red Mansions, and she knew it was what Wang Xifeng said about Daiyu in "A Dream of Red Mansions".But looking back, it was Fu Beichen who was talking to her now.

young married woman?young married woman!
Proposal?

So Yuanyuan's paw trembled, and the beautiful celadon wishful cup fell to the ground.

"Ah!" Yuan Yuan was about to squat down to pick it up.

"Don't pick it up, be careful of hurting your hand." Fu Beichen bent down and reached out to grab her arm, but Yuanyuan got up violently, and was pulled by him halfway, his body staggered and fell into his arms.At this moment, Yuanyuan felt something warm brushed against the corner of her mouth, and when she realized what it was, she was dumbfounded—it seemed to have rubbed his face.

Fu Beichen helped her sit down, her expression a little complicated.Yuanyuan glanced at the broken porcelain pieces on the ground from the corner of his eye, and said, "I'm sorry. I'll pay for..." Before he could say the words "your cup", Fu Beichen gently wrapped his right hand around the back of his neck , brought it to him.His eyes were dark and heavy, with no expression on his face, he said softly, "Cheng Yuanyuan, how do you want to pay?"

"……use money?"

Afterwards, Fu Beichen kissed her.

He doesn't envy the golden cup, the white jade cup, entering the province in the morning, or entering the stage in the evening, he only wishes to have her by his side in this life.

On Monday, Yuanyuan suddenly didn't know what to do after get off work.Because Fu Beichen went to Jingdezhen temporarily on Sunday, that is, yesterday, and he will not come back until the day after tomorrow.Whenever he thinks of Fu Beichen, the softness in Yuanyuan's heart will always be gently touched.

Because it was boring to go home, Yuan Yuan, a good employee of China who worked overtime for half an hour, saw a figure waiting for someone under the big osmanthus tree at the door when she walked out of the gate of the periodical center, and she was stunned.

That person was obviously Cheng Bai.Cheng Bai also saw her and walked over, "Why are you leaving get off work so late?"

Sound as usual, but behavior...

Yuanyuan looked at him, and suddenly recalled what he said that night, "Do you want to be with me?" Could this person be real...Have you lost your mind?
She tried her best to adjust to a normal tone, "You're looking for me, what's the matter?"

"I'm passing by after get off work, I'll wait for you to go with me." Cheng Baiyun said calmly, but Yuanyuan was stunned by the words. These words seemed familiar.Once, she was in junior high school, he was in high school, and her school was not far from his school. Every time after school, she would run to his school and wait for him to finish class.Then tell him: "I'm passing by anyway, I'll wait for you to go together."

Yuanyuan saw Cheng Bai's car parked by the side of the road, she really regarded him as a family member, so she couldn't bear to refuse, but subconsciously shook her head.Although this was the peaceful coexistence with Cheng Bai she had longed for, but now, she was suddenly a little scared.

"I'll take the bus myself, thank you." Yuanyuan turned and ran away without waiting for Cheng Bai to say anything more.

When I got off work the next day, a heavy rain suddenly fell from the sky, and the sun was still shining brightly at noon.Yuanyuan didn't bring an umbrella. She stood at the door of the building and looked at it for a while, thinking that the rain would not stop for a while.Just as she was about to turn around and go back to the office, she wanted to ask Wang Yue, who was going to work overtime today, to take her to the bus station, but she saw someone walking towards this side in the rain——Cheng Bai was holding an umbrella, and in the other hand Take a handful.

Yuanyuan looked at the people in the rain, thought about yesterday, and thought about today, and finally understood his intention.He was... repeating what she had done to him before?

Yuanyuan didn't know whether to cry or laugh.

It's just that some things have passed, and it's really hard to get over the water.Even if you do it again, what's the point?Or, she should cooperate with him to act out the whole story, rush over to knock down the umbrella in his hand, and then say, let's go.Of course, she won't do that.

Because of the heavy rain, Cheng Bai's trousers were soaked.When Cheng Bai stood in front of Yuanyuan again, Master Wan, the security guard in the hall on the first floor, suddenly came over and said to Yuanyuan, "Xiao Cheng, is your boyfriend? It's nice to pick you up on a rainy day." The security guard Turn on bragging mode.

Yuanyuan quickly explained: "No, no, he is not my boyfriend. Master Wan, you misunderstood."

Master Wan doesn't care, he trusts his pair of eyes that can read countless people the most, and he is sure that he can't be wrong. "Okay, okay, no, no." Master Wan chuckled, and then said to Cheng Bai who had already approached, "It seems that I haven't fully caught up yet. Come on, young man, keep working hard."

Hearing this, Cheng Bai didn't refute, instead he replied, "I will."

Master Wan did not continue to be a light bulb, and walked away cheerfully.Before Yuan Yuan could speak, Cheng Bai handed her the umbrella and said, "I'll see you off."

Yuanyuan looked at him for a while, and finally nodded.

Each with an umbrella, the two walked into the heavy rain side by side.When getting into the car, Yuanyuan put away the umbrella first, and Cheng Bai used his own umbrella to support her until she got into the car completely.And this scene happened to fall into the eyes of Fu Beichen who just got out of the car.

Fu Beichen returned to Jinghai one day earlier and did not go home. He wanted to come and see her first. With the heavy rain, it was not convenient for her to take a car, so he happened to pick her up.Unexpectedly, someone took the first step.He sat back in the car, thinking, as long as she got home safely.

Fu Beichen didn't drive away immediately, but took out a pack of cigarettes from the storage compartment. He rarely touches cigarettes, except sometimes when the research work needs to stay up late to finish, he would smoke one to refresh himself, or when he was in a bad mood.

At this moment, he lit a cigarette, but he didn't smoke it either. He just watched the sparks from the cigarette butt, flickering and dimming, watching the curling smoke gather and disperse.

Halfway through the smoke, the phone rang.It was He Pu calling.

"Have you come back from another place? Are you free? Let's have dinner together."

"next time."

He Puyin had known Fu Beichen for too long, so in just one sentence, he could feel the slight boredom in his tone.

"What? Are you upset?"

"A little bit." Fu Beichen pressed his temple with his hand holding a cigarette.

"You say it's a little bit." He Pu was surprised. "With your psychological quality that is as solid as a rock and impregnable, what else can affect you? Let me guess, it's that Yuanyuan girl?"

"I'm driving." The implication is to hang up the phone.

He Pu hurriedly said: "Wait, my old man wants you to come over for dinner." He smiled, "It's been a long time since I played chess with you, and I miss you so much. In the eyes of my old man, you are the He kisses his grandson. I rarely go home, so I only got a few words of scolding."

Fu Beichen paused, "Okay, I'll go there."

He went to find out about her past with Cheng Bai before.

He thought, he should have found her sooner—

Then he can treat her well earlier, he will eat with her, watch her study, risk his life for her, and leave a scar on her neck...

He thought that his psychological quality was not good enough after all, that's why he regretted his late arrival so much.Whether initially or now.

He wasn't worried, just full of regret.

Cheng Bai sent Yuanyuan to Hongfeng New Village.After the car stopped, Yuan Yuan didn't get out of the car immediately, but turned to Cheng Bai.She felt that she had to make it clear with Cheng Bai.She must not have any ambiguity with him.

"Cheng Bai, you... really don't have to do this."

"This is what I owe you." His hair was wet from the rain when he held an umbrella for her to let her get in the car. At the moment, it was still a little damp and drooping, which made him feel less fierce than usual.

"I don't want you to pay it back."

"My pleasure."

At this moment, Yuanyuan finally believed that what he said was serious.But, they can't go back.

We can't go back. This is the sentence that Yuan Yuan left the deepest impression on when he watched "Eighteen Springs" for the first time.This is what Manzhen told Shijun.What they can't go back is the youth they miss.

Just like the drive she had for liking him when she was a teenager, it only belonged to those years.

"Cheng Bai, isn't it good for us to forget each other like this? I remember that He Baorong often said this to Li Yaohui in "Happy Together", but they still didn't get together in the end. But the English name of the movie is "Happy Together" "."

The rain outside was crackling on the roof of the car, which made the car even more serene.

Until Yuanyuan thought that Cheng Bai would remain silent forever, she heard him speak in a hoarse voice: "Okay, if this is what you want."

Yuanyuan stood in the rain holding an umbrella, watching the car driving away until he disappeared.

He will not come again, Yuanyuan knows.She knew him as she knew herself, she knew everything he liked and hated.

Yuanyuan couldn't tell exactly what it was like in her heart, she was a little hurt, but also relieved.

When love sprouts, it is immature and fragile, like a small flower bud that has just stretched out its branches and leaves in the mountains.It doesn't know if it can bloom, and it doesn't know which sudden wind and rain will make it disappear.It just uses its tiny life to hold on until it is exhausted.If it does not bloom, it can only turn into spring mud to nourish the next flower that is destined to take root in this small piece of land.That is another love after sublimation.

When Yuanyuan was walking home, he wanted to talk to Fu Beichen, but he thought he must be busy, so he didn't call, but chose to send a text message.

"Are you busy? I'm so tired today, I plan to make a bowl of fried noodles later, and then I'll rest after writing some manuscripts."

As soon as Fu Beichen entered the gate of He's house, he received a text message from Yuanyuan.

"Beichen, here we come. Come, let's have a cup of tea with Grandpa first."

Fu Beichen paused for a moment, and replied: OK.Put away the phone and walk towards the old man in the living room.

"Busy recently?" Mr. He asked.

"The job is still going. I'm making some investments." Fu Beichen took a sip of tea, he thought, the feeling of thinking about someone all the time is really tormenting.

Next to him, He Pu interjected, "Investment? I want to play some stocks recently."

Fu Beichen shook his head, "I don't play with such high risks."

He Pu asked: "Then what do you plan to invest in?"

Fu Beichen just smiled and didn't say anything.Later, when Fu Beichen left after dinner, He Pu sent him out, and suddenly remembered the investment, and asked again: "What kind of investment are you doing? Futures? Funds?"

This time Fu Beichen said: "Feelings."

He needs [-]% long-term holding and long-term returns.The return can be less, but it must be there.

The next day, after the rain, the sky cleared up, and the entire Jinghai City seemed to have been thoroughly washed, making it bright and beautiful.Fu Beichen came to the unit stepping on the spot, and his mood was hard to tell whether it was good or bad.Lu Xiaoning followed his boss into his office. After discussing business matters, Lu Xiaoning was about to leave when he was stopped.

"Xiao Lu, are there any good movies coming out recently?"

Lu Xiaoning was stunned for a moment, and then she talked about a love movie she just went to see with her friends the day before yesterday, "The box office and word of mouth are both good, I watched it and it was okay."

"Okay, thank you." Fu Beichen lowered his head and opened the file.

"I heard that there is a girl who says she is chasing you."

Fu Beichen paused the hand that had just picked up the pen, looked up and smiled, "She is already my girlfriend. Before that, I was the one chasing her." After chasing her for a long, long time...

In the office where there was only one person left, Fu Beichen picked up his cell phone and dialed the number he knew by heart.

"Will you go to the movies with me tonight?"

From the other end of the phone came Yuanyuan's very happy answer: "Okay, okay."

"You don't even ask what movie it is?"

Yuan Yuan said honestly, "As long as we are together, the movie doesn't matter."

At that moment, Fu Beichen smiled.

(End of this chapter)