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Chapter 24

Xie Moji went back very early that day.She has a ghost in her heart, and her brain always crashes when facing Doctor Shan.So much so that when everyone talks to her, she goes in one ear and out the other.She was afraid that Dr. Shan would notice something, so she asked for leave before everyone proposed to go for a walk by the river, and hurried back.

After she left, the delicate balance between men and women was broken, and everyone's interest in walking also faded.It turned out that the three of them went to Dr. Shan's house to watch DVDs and drink together.

Along the way, Li Lushuang and Qin Qi chattered about a new movie, while Shan Wangchen drove the car silently, his mind still stuck in the swimming pool just now.He intuited that Xie Moji tonight was a little strange, so absent-minded, even looking at people with dazed eyes, as if he was preoccupied.

Could it be that his attitude when he taught her was too fierce, and he hurt her unintentionally?

Thinking of this, he suddenly became worried.

Not long after arriving home, Zuo Xiaojian also rushed over and joined their camp.When he saw that Shan Wangchen was alone, his first reaction was: "Where is your follower?"

Everyone remembered Xie Moji's abnormal behavior just now, and then they came to their senses, and began to question whether Xie Moji's departure had anything to do with him.

Shan Wangchen shook his head silently, but his heart was a little uneasy.He didn't know why he was so angry when he saw her doggy swimming.It seemed that his sanity always disappeared when encountering her affairs.It has been more than a year, but every time he sees that she can't do something well, he will still worry for her, and then he will feel like hating iron for being weak.

Just like before.

Every time Xie Moji didn't take his medicine on time, he would get very angry.How can there be a girl who doesn't cherish herself so much?They are already terminally ill and still so sloppy?And her habit of throwing things away also gave him a headache, but she didn't make any progress.After a long time, he found that he was restricted by her.I can't help but remind her to take medicine, and remind her to pay attention to this and that.

"It's been a while since she and Lu Yu broke up. Should Dr. Shan consider her?" Li Lushuang sold his friend in due course.

As soon as the words fell, Zuo Xiaojian laughed.He had just asked this question not long ago, but he couldn't pry anything out of Lao Dan's mouth at all.Now seeing my friend being placed on the cutting board again, I have a bad idea of ​​watching a good show.

Shan Wangchen frowned, maintaining his usual silence.

"Old Dan, you are so stubborn, it makes me wonder if you have done something to offend her?" Qin Qi at the side couldn't hold back, knowing that there would be no answer, he still threw out the question in his heart.

After he finished asking, Shan Wangchen frowned even tighter.Seeing his secretive expression, Dr. Zuo could only lead the topic to other places wisely.

The next day, Shan Wangchen woke up early in the morning due to the headache caused by the hangover.He washed his face, got dressed and planned to go outside for some fresh air.The moment he opened the door, he was stunned.Standing outside the door was the culprit who made him emotionally disturbed.Her long hair was disheveled on her shoulders, and she looked a little tired.

"Doctor Shan..." Seeing him, Xie Moji was stunned. She had only arrived a few minutes ago, and was hesitating whether to knock on the door, but the door opened as if sensed.

"What's wrong with me?" he asked.He showed up at his door early in the morning, not looking for trouble.

"I..." Xie Moji said with a confused expression.

The door behind him was gently closed by Doctor Shan.He put the drawn key into his trouser pocket, glanced at her and said, "I haven't had breakfast yet, do you want to come together?"

"Okay." Xie Moji naturally followed behind him, still struggling in his heart, should he ask him about the dream.She has dreamed of doing bed exercises with a man with a birthmark for many days.This incident was not surprising, but if there happened to be a man with the same mark in reality, and that man happened to be his favorite, then he couldn't be fooled by "coincidence".

There were already many old people doing morning exercises on the street, Xie Moji and Doctor Shan were walking one after the other.There was a puppy barking fiercely at the intersection, and Xie Moji really sweated for himself when he passed by it.Her attitude towards dogs has always been "you can only watch from a distance and not play with them", so she walks very quietly, like a thief, afraid that the puppy will suddenly attack.

She was terrified when Dr. Shan turned around.Seeing her mechanical walking posture, he smiled, and suddenly reached out and held her wrist.

So one took it in front and the other followed.The people in front looked calm, but the people behind were extremely disturbed.

"Doctor Shan..." She thought about it and decided to ask, no matter what, there is nothing wrong with asking clearly. "I've been dreaming about someone for several months. Do you think this is normal?"

The hand holding her trembled, then slipped away suddenly. "Who did you dream about?" Doctor Shan turned his head, his dark eyes fixed on her face.

"You!" Xie Moji boldly met his gaze.The two of them had already reached the crosswalk. When they were about to cross the road, Xie Moji held Dr. Shan's hand without hesitation, and said with a smile, "I'm afraid of crossing the road, so I don't mind if you pull me."

Doctor Shan's face was dark and unpredictable.But he still moved his hand towards Xie Moji, and silently agreed to her seemingly unreasonable request.

After arriving at the breakfast room, Dr. Shan left Xie Moji on the seat and went to order food by himself.It wasn't until he took the number plate and sat down that he slowly said, "What am I doing in the dream?"

Do...... Can she say do/love?Of course not.I can't even lend her fifty leopard guts.So she could only evade, saying that the two of them were whispering and chatting together.

After she finished speaking, Dr. Shan didn't speak again, and pushed the soy milk that the waiter had just brought to Xie Moji, and then put the fried dough sticks and siu mai that came up one after another in front of her.What he ordered for her happened to be what she liked.Just like the yogurt and medicine he gave her before.This inevitably made Xie Moji suspicious, or maybe it wasn't as simple as her chasing Dr. Shan back then, did Dr. Shan also like her?

"Doctor Shan, why do I always dream of you? Can you give me some advice?" Dr. Shan's silence aroused restlessness in her bones.She found that the more he kept silent, the more she had the urge to lure him to speak.

"Maybe it's because the memory of being sick and being hospitalized is too deep. You will get better gradually." Dr. Shan said indifferently while drinking soy milk.His eyes are out the window, and his fingers keep wrapping around the straw wrapper.

"I think you brought me too deep a memory, otherwise why would I never dream of anyone else, but only you?" Xie Moji looked at him provocatively.The thoughts in my heart became clearer and clearer.To deal with this person in front of him, he still needs to use the tricks he used during the interview, and he will never stop until he achieves his goal.

"Yes or no is meaningless, you have already started a new life. Forget the past if you can." Doctor Shan withdrew his wandering eyes, lowered his head and ate steamed dumplings slowly.The more peaceful his demeanor, the more strange Xie Moji felt.If she was only suspicious just now, now she is almost sure that Doctor Shan is hiding something from her.What could it be?After thinking for a while, she blurted out: "Doctor Shan, you like me, don't you?"

She was a little shy after she finished speaking, after all, she and him were not familiar enough to joke.But don't scare him so much, he may never tell the truth to himself.

Doctor Shan was really frightened, he raised his head abruptly, his unbelievable gaze scanned and stayed on Xie Moji's face.The tone just now...it was too much like her before she lost her memory...could he have heard it wrong?Or is he not awake at all, still drunk?

"It doesn't matter if you don't admit it." Xie Moji pretended to eat the shumai in the bowl nonchalantly, and said vaguely: "Dr. Shan, you need to be responsible to me."

"Xie Moji, what are you talking about?" Dr. Shan put down his chopsticks and stared at her with displeasure.

Xie Moji quickly covered his mouth.The development of the matter caught her off guard.She didn't know what she was talking about just now.It seemed that there was a force in the dark that drove her to say those words.Responsible?How dare she let Dr. Shan be responsible.He is already the most responsible doctor she has ever seen.

"What do you want me to be responsible for?" Seeing her flustered expression, his tone softened a bit, he took out a napkin from the paper box, handed it to Xie Moji, and motioned her to wipe her mouth.

Xie Moji took the napkin, feeling the urge to break through the wall and get out.Why did she talk about being responsible? It's all right now, let's walk around if I can't eat.

"Responsible for my health and well-being, responsible for my swimming career, and...responsible for making my interview a success." She racked her brains to make up a reason, fearing that Dr. Shan would suddenly throw chopsticks and leave.

"I'm just a doctor, you overestimate me." Doctor Shan shook his head with a wry smile, she was almost calling him a god, and she was really defeated by her unreasonable trouble.

"Wait," Xie Moji pulled his hand and said, "I just lost one, and I have to share my happiness."

After she finished speaking, the corner of Dr. Shan's mouth twitched, and he gently pressed her head.

The day's work went very smoothly, and there was no more distraction.

Although Xie Moji couldn't get anything out of Dr. Shan's mouth, after telling the client about her dream, she let go of the invisible burden in her heart.At the same time, she also began to face up to her unusual feelings for Dr. Shan.Once she admitted it, she found that her psychological pressure decreased instead.

When everyone started to get off work in the evening, Zhao Rongsheng called her into the office.When Xie Moji pushed the door and went in, he saw several heads poking out from the cubicle, looking at him meaningfully.Xindao: The headlines and gossip in tomorrow's newspaper are probably none other than me.

"First of all, congratulations on your successful renewal!" Zhao Rongsheng said with a smile: "This time, nearly twenty people left the newspaper office, which is quite a high percentage. You should feel lucky."

Xie Moji nodded, not only rejoicing, but flattered.She always wanted to know why Zhao Rongsheng let her stay, but she didn't have a chance to ask before, so she took the opportunity to ask now.

"Didn't Doctor Shan tell you?" Zhao Rongsheng was obviously surprised by Xie Moji's blankness.Did she not know who helped her?

A few days ago, at the commendation meeting "celebrating the successful development of vaccines", he met Dr. Shan.The other party was very polite, as soon as he saw him, he asked Xie Moji straight to the point.Of course Zhao Rongsheng said good things, this is also his consistent principle of dealing with people and not easily offending others.But after Dr. Shan heard this, he frowned and said, "Editor Zhao, we are not polite anymore. I heard that Xie Moji's work performance is not good recently, so I can only forgive you. I guarantee that she will work hard in the future, absolutely Not to trouble you."

Dr. Shan has been working with the newspaper, he said so, of course Zhao Rongsheng politely agreed.That's why in the subsequent internal meeting, he stated that he wanted Xie Moji to stay.

It wasn't until this moment that Xie Moji suddenly realized that it was Dr. Shan who was interceding behind his back.She didn't think about why he wanted to help her, but felt sweet in her heart, moved, shocked, and joyful.She knew that Doctor Shan was not as indifferent as he appeared on the surface.

"I called you here because I hope you will cooperate with Gao Yaqin and write a character newsletter for Dr. Shan. He has made a big splash at this commendation meeting. Of course we can't let this go." Zhao Rongsheng knocked on the table, Take out a few newsletters from old newspapers: "You should study other people's articles first, and then you must write a better one."

Xie Moji happily accepted the order.She could take the opportunity to get close to Dr. Shan again, of course she wished for it.

"I heard that in order to save a patient, Dr. Shan did not hesitate to test himself for poison, and was dispatched to a remote area because of this. Although this matter was suppressed by the hospital, few people knew about it. But if you can find this point , that would be even better." Zhao Rongsheng said again.

"Distributed?"

"Yes, if it wasn't for the outbreak of the epidemic, he would probably still be his little doctor in a remote town without complaint or regret."

Zhao Rongsheng just said it casually, but in Xie Moji's heart, these words became a mighty river, breaking through many barriers, and flowing into her heart drop by drop.

If it wasn't for the outbreak of the epidemic, he would probably still be his little doctor in a remote town without complaint...

After she came out of the office, Zhao Rongsheng's words were still playing back in her ears.As long as he thinks hard, Dr. Shan's calm and calm face can be imaged in front of his eyes.From a hospital in a big city to a health center in a small town, she didn't know how Dr. Shan survived this long year, and how did he overcome this huge psychological gap?What made her sad and regretful was that he never mentioned this past in front of her.You know, the culprit who made him go through this series of ups and downs is her!
After that, Xie Moji didn't know how he got out of the work unit and how he got on the bus.When she came back to her senses, she found that she was already standing at the door of the Central Hospital.The flow of people coming and going squeezed her to the side. She stared stupidly in the direction of the infectious disease department, her thoughts wandering, her eyes blurred with tears.

(End of this chapter)