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Chapter 34

In the middle of the night, the sound of Dr. Shan going to the bathroom awakened Xie Moji who was lying on the sofa.When she went to look around the toilet door, she happened to see Shan Wangchen walking out.

"Shall we sleep together?" Seeing her, Shan Wangchen thought that she couldn't sleep because the sofa was uncomfortable, so he repeated the request he made during the day.

"No need." Xie Moji shook his head, unable to express his suffering.In fact, she wasn't afraid to sleep with him, okay? She was afraid that all her bad habits would be exposed.

"Sleeping together is convenient for you to take care of me, really." Shan Wangchen glanced at her and said seriously.Having said all this, Xie Moji couldn't shirk anymore, so he could only hug the pillow and quilt, and walked into the bedroom with Dr. Shan.

It was not the first time for the two of them to sleep together, but Xie Moji was still nervous and nervous.She curled up obediently in a corner of the bed, not daring to move.

"Mo Ji? You're about to fall off the bed. Am I that scary?" In the darkness, Shan Wangchen held her shoulder, gently pulled her over, and faced him face to face.

"I'm afraid of crushing you." Xie Moji whispered, and took the initiative to get closer.But my heart is still uneasy.When she grinds her teeth for a while, what will Dr. Shan think of her?Also, she often likes to clamp something between her legs. If it is Dr. Shan's leg that is clamped in her sleep, what should she do?God... help her.

"Hehe, it doesn't matter who suppresses who." Shan Wangchen chuckled, hugged Xie Moji lightly, and fell asleep peacefully after a while.

Sadly, Mo Ji almost spent the rest of the night staring at the ceiling for these words.In the early morning, I couldn't bear it anymore, so I took a nap.

When she woke up, Shan Wangchen was no longer on the bed.Going out, I saw him sitting at the table eating breakfast.

"You made it?" She looked at a table of breakfast, a little dumbfounded.

"It was delivered from downstairs." Shan Wangchen chewed and swallowed slowly, dragged away the chair beside him, and signaled her to sit down with his eyes.

Halfway through the meal, Shan Wangchen's cell phone rang, and he hurriedly picked it up after a pause for a few seconds.Xie Moji glanced over, just in time to see the two words "Man Jing" on the screen.My heart skipped a beat, and I thought, what should come is still here.

They seemed to have been chatting on the phone for a long time, Xie Moji first made an excuse to go to the toilet, and deliberately avoided it.She stayed in the toilet for 10 minutes, and when she couldn't stay any longer and came out, she found that Dr. Shan was still on the phone.

If you still have feelings, why not be together?

Hearing Dr. Shan talking to the phone in a gentle tone, Xie Moji suddenly thought of this sentence.Is it because of her existence that it hinders the two from getting close again?She thought wildly, and suddenly lost her appetite.After a hasty breakfast, he walked into the bedroom.

After a while, the voices outside disappeared.Then came Shan Wangchen's voice calling her.After a moment of hesitation, Xie Moji put down the half-arranged quilt and hurried out.

Shan Wangchen was already sitting on the sofa, still holding the mobile phone in his hand, and casually said to Mo Ji: "Xu Manjing will come to our house later. She and I have been friends since childhood, don't think too much about it."

"How could it be?" Xie Moji said with a smile, it was the first time he said something against his will in front of Doctor Shan.Seeing that she didn't have any special reaction, Shan Wangchen stopped explaining, half leaned on the sofa and closed his eyes to rest.

Not long after Xie Moji packed the dishes and the room, the doorbell rang.When she went to answer the door, she realized that she was still wearing home clothes, which seemed inappropriate.Going to look at Shan Wangchen again, he has already stood up and followed behind her.Seeing his expression of concern, Xie Moji felt even more uncomfortable.Suppressing the soreness in his heart, he opened the door.

There were two people standing at the door, one was Xu Manjing, and the other was a middle-aged woman in her forties.

"Come?" Shan Wangchen greeted faintly behind Xie Moji.

Xu Manjing nodded, greeted Xie Moji politely, then smiled at Dan Wangchen and entered the room.Several people sat down on the sofa and talked about something carefully.Xie Moji poured water for them, and was about to sit down with them, when Shan Wangchen suddenly said: "Moji, go buy some fruit for me."

She nodded and said yes, already knowing in her heart that he was going to deliberately dismiss her.This made her feel even heavier.Is there any secret that cannot be heard by her?Has she really become an eyesore to others?Walking down the street, she was still thinking about this matter.

Xie Moji quickly finished shopping for the fruit, fearing that it would be too early to go back, so he sat on a chair in the community park for a while, and called Li Lushuang.In front of her friends, she finally didn't have to hide anything, and poured out all her inner worries and sorrows.

Li Lushuang naturally stood by his friend's side unconditionally.In addition to expressing sympathy for what happened to Dr. Shan, he also felt that he had gone a little too far.No matter how attractive the old love is, you have to see who is by your side day and night. "If Qin Qi and his ex-girlfriend are so ambiguous, I will kill him." She added at the end.

Hearing what she said, Xie Moji's heart was even more chaotic.What the hell is Dr. Shan thinking?Does he like himself?In fact, she was not sure at all.If Dr. Shan had taken the initiative to chase her back then, then she still had reasons to convince herself.But it's only because she provoked everything on her own initiative, so she became even more anxious at this moment.

When she returned to Dr. Shan's home, Xu Manjing had already left.The middle-aged woman is still there, busy in the kitchen.Xie Moji was a little surprised when he saw her, but he quickly guessed the general idea.

Shan Wangchen was watching TV in the bedroom when he heard a voice calling her name softly. "I haven't come back for so long, I'm starting to worry." When she entered the room, he put his arms around her waist and pulled her in front of him.The straight bridge of the nose rubbed against her forehead.The eyes are gentle and quiet.

"Wangchen, who is she?" Xie Moji's mind was still on the woman in the kitchen.The life of the two of them was pretty good before, but now there is a third pair of eyes, which makes her feel embarrassed.

"The aunt I found is convenient to take care of our life." Shan Wangchen explained patiently.He stroked her slightly wrinkled forehead with his hand, rubbing it lightly.

"Are you afraid that I won't be able to take care of you?" Xie Moji still cared a little after all, and said it after thinking about it.

"You will have to work soon, I can't let you take care of me all the time." Shan Wangchen said.

It was fine if he didn't explain, this explanation was like a knife stabbing into Xie Moji's chest.It turned out that he was already mentally prepared to be without her.It turned out that he didn't really need him... Xie Moji felt that his heart became more and more fragile after going through so many things.Up to now, I don't even have the courage to take a step forward.

That night, the two fell asleep together.Since the car accident, Shan Wangchen has spoken less and less.There is also a lack of the warmth that directly touches people's hearts in the past.After Xie Moji exchanged a few words with him, he fell asleep beside Xie Moji.In Xie Moji's view, this is a signal that the relationship between the two is stranded.

By the moonlight, she quietly watched the appearance of the man beside her.His hair has grown back and his beard seems to have grown too.Only the outline, the eyebrows and eyes are still familiar to her, and they still attract her.Since the three words Xu Manjing suddenly appeared in their lives, she has been waiting for him to explain to her, even if it is only a sentence or two.But he didn't say a word of explanation.Did he really trust her, or did he have a ghost in his heart?Thinking of this, Xie Moji's eyes turned red.For the first time, I had the idea of ​​wanting to leave him.

The days that followed were as calm as water.

Auntie is indeed a good nanny who is one in a million. She is serious and responsible in her work, and even the dishes she cooks are amazing.She seems to have done it at Xu Manjing's place.She knows exactly what Xu Manjing likes to eat.Whenever there is a dish that Xu Manjing likes on the dinner table, she will call and ask her to come and eat it together.Shan Wangchen knew who she was calling and didn't stop her, acquiescing to her invitation again and again.

Whenever this time, Xie Moji was extremely embarrassed.She didn't even dare to look at Xu Manjing and Shan Wangchen more.I'm afraid that if I see something I shouldn't see, it will only increase my troubles.

On this day, Xu Manjing was invited to their home again.Xie Moji knew that his aunt had called a long time ago, so he went out on the pretext of going to buy some daily necessities.She is not angry with her aunt, but she has some complaints about Shan Wangchen's indifferent attitude.If you can't change him, then change yourself.She wandered the streets with her handbag to relax her mood.

When she received Zhao Rongsheng's call, she was debating whether to buy a pair of calf pants.She just pressed the switch, and Zhao Rongsheng's loud voice rang in her ears.

"Xie Moji! Do you still have a job in your eyes? Even if your boyfriend gets into a car accident, one month's leave should be enough!" Zhao Rongsheng yelled into the phone.

It's been a long time since I heard someone scolding me like that, Xie Moji felt that I missed him very much when he listened.Not only do I miss the life in Dongqu, but I also miss my unrestrained and free mood at that time. "Editor Zhao, I will return to the team whenever you let me." She was choked up as she spoke.

"Why are you crying? Silly girl." Zhao Rongsheng said with a smile, "I know that Dr. Shan's condition is a bit serious. But there is really not enough manpower here, and I need you to come on top."

"Okay. I will buy the ticket tomorrow and report on time the day after tomorrow." She said in a low voice, and finally made a difficult decision.After hanging up the phone, she felt inexplicably relieved.The guilt that had been entrenched in her heart disappeared.The feeling of bewilderment is gone.

Back home, Xu Manjing was still there.She and Shan Wangchen were sitting on the sofa watching TV together, their arms almost touching each other.Xie Moji glanced at it, but didn't speak.He went into the bedroom and turned on his laptop to check the train schedule online.Not long after she came in, Shan Wangchen also came in.When she saw her checking the train ticket, she froze for a moment, then asked, "Are you going back?"

"Yes. Editor-in-Chief Zhao said that I need to deal with something over there." She spoke carefully, for fear that Shan Wangchen would notice something.But then she laughed at herself for being too nervous, Zhao Rongsheng really had something to look for her, she didn't lie.

Shan Wangchen didn't ask any more questions, but echoed: "Work is very important, we can't delay it. When my eyesight gets better, I'll go back to Dongqu to accompany you."

He spoke very lightly, but his expression was too unusual.He obviously couldn't see things clearly, but his pupils were as bright as a ball of flames.The corners of the mouth are slightly raised, but the feeling it conveys is sour.When Xie Moji looked up at him, he couldn't help being a little dazed.

This autumn afternoon, the man she loved was standing proudly in front of the window looking at her, with shadowy trees and blue sky behind him.His deep eyes, thick eyebrows, and tall and beautiful nose blended with the background, like a golden autumn oil painting, shining, blurry and clear.

For a moment, Xie Moji's nostrils were clogged, and tears were already gathering in his eyes.Such an outstanding man is still hers at this moment, but in the future...

Xu Manjing's voice came from outside, as if saying that she was leaving.Xie Moji thought that Dr. Shan would definitely go out to see her off, but he just hummed and his eyes still stayed on her.

The door opened and shut with a thud.

Shan Wangchen, who had been silent all this time, suddenly took a step forward and hugged her. His warm breath hit her face, and his hands gently stroked her back, repeatedly.That rhythm is like the heartbeat of two people, and also like the hourglass of time.

This night, Shan Wangchen did not fall asleep quickly.He kept hugging Xie Moji, and told her about some things in the group. His voice was low and soft, just like when he was reciting a romance novel to her, every sentence and every word was full of emotion.

"Mo Ji, when the rent of your house is due, you can move to live with me. The house is empty anyway." Shan Wangchen hugged her tightly and said gently.

Looking at the pair of stars in front of him, Xie Moji suddenly understood why the sweeping nurse in the hospital said that Dr. Shan's personality had changed drastically.It turned out that when he was gentle, he was so affectionate and pampered infinitely.Several times, her tears were about to dazzle, but in the end she forcefully suppressed them back.

Forget it, Doctor Shan is so wonderful, there should be better people to match him.She, Xie Moji, has a bad background, poor family background, hard work, and average appearance, so she really doesn't deserve such an outstanding him.No matter how much she likes Dr. Shan, she can only let him go and let him live more freely.

(End of this chapter)