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Chapter 37

That was really a long time ago.The cold river wind messed up Shan Wangchen's short bangs, he recalled slowly and narrated softly.

Since when did subtle changes take place in his relationship with Lu Yu and Man Jing?

He only remembers the university he spent a month studying outside.When I came back from the National Day holiday, I realized that the relationship between the three of them seemed to be different from before.Man Jing was much more enthusiastic than before, but Lu Yu avoided her intentionally or unintentionally.

He didn't know until later that it was Lu Yu who confessed to Man Jing, but Man Jing used herself as an excuse to refuse.But at that time, he didn't know about this, he only knew that he had always had a good impression of Man Jing, so he always tried every means to be nice to Man Jing.Thinking back now, he chased Manjing so obviously, it must have been a provocation in Lu Yu's eyes.That's when their relationship began to sour.

Almost all the four years in college were spent chasing after Man Jing.He hadn't had much contact with other girls, so he firmly believed that Man Jing was the most suitable girl for him.And Man Jing is so smart that she never responds to his feelings positively.When he was about to be discouraged, he contacted him actively to let him see hope.

In the second semester of his senior year, the matter of his postgraduate insurance has been settled, and he has the opportunity to go home often.That weekend he decided to go home on the spur of the moment. When he entered the door, he heard loud voices coming from the study, which seemed to be Lu Yu and Man Jing.

He was about to say hello to them, when he heard Lu Yu say loudly: "Man Jing, I have always liked you, and I feel that you obviously like me too. Why are you still unclear with Shan Wangchen?"

He was shocked after hearing this, and only then did he realize that he had unknowingly become Lu Yu's imaginary enemy.Then, before his mind had turned the corner completely, he heard Xu Manjing reply: "Lu Yu, I seem to like two men at the same time. What should I do?"

He didn't need to listen anymore, he could already guess what she would say next.He knew Man Jing well, and with her character of not offending both sides, he would never take the initiative to choose, nor would he take the initiative to refuse.Not tepid, not impatient, this is her.

At that moment, he really wanted to quit, which not only fulfilled Lu Yu's wish, but also cut off his own thoughts.But feelings are not things that can be let go just by letting them go.For this reason, he struggled and hesitated for a long time, but every time he was about to make up his mind, he was defeated by another self in his heart.

After going on like this for a while, he finally calmed down and decided to withdraw decisively.But at this time, Xu Manjing showed love to him.

Neither is he refusing, nor is he accepting.

The two of them got along awkwardly and ambiguously for a while.

Because he was not studying in the same place, he spent most of his time on the train to her city and back every weekend.He knew that he really wanted to be with Xu Manjing, so he could only deliberately ignore Lu Yu's feelings.But slowly, he felt more and more that Lu Yu's shadow was everywhere in his and Man Jing's lives.

Once, he went to see Xu Manjing one day in advance, and when he arrived downstairs in her dormitory, he happened to see Lu Yu and Manjing coming out together.There was nothing excessive about the behavior of the two of them, but in his eyes, it was so dazzling.Similar things often happened, whenever he and Man Jing had a small quarrel, Lu Yu would always appear by Man Jing's side at the right time.

After a long time, he was also tired.It happened that Lu Yu was in low spirits during that time. When Lu's mother came to ask him if something happened, he gritted his teeth and lied, but felt guilty in his heart.

After returning to school, he officially broke up with Xu Manjing.He thought Xu Manjing would object and cry, but to his surprise, she agreed without hesitation, and said to him with a smile: "That's exactly what I mean, we'll get together and part ways, and we'll be friends in the future."

He had been saddened by her reaction for a long time, and always felt that he was never valued by her.After being with Xie Moji, she suddenly became very nervous.Only then did he realize that she must have been too proud to say that.

But, this time and that time.Things that were obviously of great concern at that time can become calm now.When he was young and frivolous, he thought he would remember Xu Manjing and love her forever.It was only later that I discovered that the feelings at that time were hazy and immature.So that once they broke up, he felt relaxed and at ease.

Not long after he and Man Jing separated, Lu Yu made a comeback and began to pursue Man Jing crazily again.At that time, his feeling was already very weak.In getting closer and further away again and again, he gradually understood that he and Xu Manjing were people from two worlds, unable to talk or get close.

For the next few years, he remained single.And Lu Yu played the role he once played.Their relationship did not improve because of his separation from Man Jing, but developed in a worse direction.Just because Xu Manjing always treated Lu Yu in a nonchalant manner, so Lu Yu always suspected that he was behind the scenes, and no matter how much he explained, it was useless.

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When talking about these things, Shan Wangchen's face was calm and natural, while Xie Moji sat on the sofa and listened.Her hair was half down, and she was nestled in a pile of pillows.Shan Wangchen couldn't see her expression clearly, but he was sure that she was listening carefully.

After he finished speaking for a long time, Xie Moji didn't speak, and a long silence enveloped the two of them.After a while, Shan Wangchen asked softly, "Are you listening?"

"En." Xie Moji raised his head, a look of loneliness appeared on his pale face.She took a deep breath, smiled and said: "I finally understand why Lu Yu is so indifferent to me. It turns out that I am just a substitute. From the beginning to the end, I am someone else's substitute."

After she finished speaking, Shan Wangchen glanced at her and closed the window. "Should I have some lunch?" He said suddenly, his tone was still cold and dry, as if he had been taken away from all the warmth.

"I'll go home and eat." Xie Moji stood up from the sofa, took a sip of water, and walked towards the entrance.Her tears had welled up to her eyes, and if she held back any more, the embankment would burst.What Yin Xiangwei said is true, she has indeed been living in the shadow of Xu Manjing.It was like this when I was with Lu Yu before, and I am afraid it is also like this now.

Shan Wangchen didn't keep her, but watched her put on her shoes, tie her shoelaces, and stumble away.As soon as she left, his face became even more ugly, his eyes were slightly closed, and his right hand kept rubbing between his brows.It took a while to come back to his senses, and he sat on the sofa and called Zuo Xiaojian.

"Xiao Jian, I'm Wangchen."

"Old Dan, aren't you with Xie Moji?"

"She just left. I still have to ask you to take care of her during this time."

"Old Dan, you are going too far. She has been looking forward to the stars and the moon for a long time, and you want to snub her again?"

"Xiao Jian, I have to go for a review in a month before I can confirm the final situation. I don't want to despair her after giving her too much hope."

"Hey, it's up to you!"

After Xie Moji walked out of Dr. Shan's house, all the cold symptoms broke out together.She used to have a runny nose, but now she has become top-heavy, coupled with the pain in her heart, they combined together like a torrent, rushing towards her in a mighty way, instantly submerging her without a trace.

She felt that she was getting more and more uncomfortable, touching her face, it was terribly hot.No longer daring to be careless, I immediately decided to go to the pharmacy to buy medicine.

There was a pharmacy near the subway station. When she changed trains, she turned in and went in.As soon as I opened my mouth to talk to the clerk, I realized that the figure next to me was so familiar.Look carefully, it really is Li Lushuang.She was stooping and whispering something to another clerk, who handed her a box of medicine, which she hurriedly stuffed into her pocket.

"Lu Shuang!" she called to her.This shout startled Li Lushuang, and the medicine that was supposed to be in his pocket fell to the ground with a thud.Xie Moji wanted to help her pick it up, but Li Lushuang squatted down to pick it up before her, his movements were very vigilant.

Xie Moji was a little curious by her actions, so he couldn't help but glanced at her hand, and saw three words: pregnancy test paper.She was startled, a little unbelievable.But thinking about it, the relationship between Li Lushuang and Qin Qi was already very good, and it was only normal to develop to this point, so he gritted his teeth and pretended not to see it.

After Li Lushuang stuffed the medicine in his pocket, he became much calmer. After Xie Moji bought the cold medicine, he walked out of the pharmacy with her. "Mo Ji, this place is not far from your house, can I go to your house to use the toilet?" she said.

Xie Moji understood immediately when he heard it, and couldn't help but care: "Lu Shuang, girls must protect themselves."

"I know, I know." Li Lushuang said with a smile, blushing.

Once at Xie Moji's house, Li Lushuang went straight to the toilet.Seeing her like this, Xie Moji felt a little nervous for her, but his body was really not right, so he could only pour water and take medicine immediately.Halfway through eating, I heard a scream coming from the toilet, and then Li Lushuang's slightly flustered voice: "Oops!"

Xie Moji hurried to the door of the toilet, knocked on the door and asked her what was wrong.Li Lushuang stammered and hawed inside for a long time before hesitatingly said: "Mo Ji, I'm pregnant, what should I do?"

"Let's talk when we come out." Xie Moji said.

When Li Lushuang came out, there were tears on his face.Seeing her pitiful appearance, Xie Moji suppressed the piercing headache, took her hand and comforted her and said, "Tell Qin Qi first. Let him help you find a solution."

"En." Li Lushuang nodded, took out his mobile phone and called Qin Qi.While they were chatting on the phone, Xie Moji finished the remaining medicine, then half-lyed on the sofa to pant.With Li Lushuang like this, she also worried.Being a woman is hard work, and you always have to pay for the happiness of a man.

Li Lushuang quickly hung up the phone, and said to Xie Moji: "Qin Qi said he would pick me up right away. He said that if there is nothing wrong with the inspection, then go to get a marriage certificate." As he spoke, he broke into tears and laughed.

"Great, Lu Shuang, congratulations." Xie Moji hugged Li Lushuang happily after hearing this.When encountering this kind of thing, the most fearful thing is that the boyfriend will turn his face and deny anyone.Fortunately, Qin Qi is not such a person.

After answering the phone, Li Lushuang's mood improved a lot, and he took Xie Moji's hand and said how nice Qin Qi was.Her emotions also infected Xie Moji, she temporarily put aside Dr. Shan's alienation, and thought foolishly: If something like this happened to her, would Dr. Shan be responsible...

After Li Lushuang left, the house returned to silence.That terrible and depressive emotion came back again, tightly gripping Xie Moji's mind.She suppressed the pain in her heart, took a shower, and then went back to the bedroom to sleep.

When I woke up, it was already night.Xie Moji touched his forehead, it was still terribly hot.She sat up from the bed and looked for her phone.When I saw Dr. Zuo's missed call, my heart fluttered.

She didn't dare to neglect, and quickly called back, her mind was buzzing, and her eyes were still a little blurry.As long as the consciousness is clear, Dr. Zuo's call must be related to Dr. Shan! ! !
(End of this chapter)